wooo 2014...

meh just another year.

Happy New Year.

Christmas Cookies...
Christmas Gifts...
Christmas Food...

and then there's the worst thing about Christmas... THE MOTHER FUCKING SONGS! Constantly played on the radio, in the stores, all during the time after Thanksgiving until the end of Christmas. Fuck... I've heard every Christmas Song ever wrote at least ten times by ten different people. FUCK... You wanna do Christmas songs... do it during the week of Christmas! GAWD!

Christmas just isn't the same as it used to be. -sighs- just not the same anymore...

Whateves...

Curse all the temptation to hell!
-flops-

Anyway, I'm alive. Doing things.

Halloween is creeping around the corner making me want to do creepy things. XD

So yeah not much to say really.

Hot, but not as hot as last year.
ALSO FIREWORKS!

Not a whole lot going on. I'm still alive though. So yay.

Playlist of Christmas Songs

Enjoy.

A rare fire tornado in Australia.

Interesting stuff.

Seriously all John Travolta.

Polar Bear

Yep, dancing bear. Sorta

LOOK! omg
Lioncat

Dun dun dunnnnn!

I'm alive.

That is all.

Seriously...






why are you still reading?




Yer still here.





Fine...
have a Husky Video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qXo3NFqkaRM

and move on. :P

With the end of my sister’s summer school in sight (July 19th) and the condo damn near empty I figured I better post something really quick about the next couple of weeks.

If all goes as planned I will be moving from the condo to my grandpa's house this coming weekend (July 20th-22nd) so if I am not responding to your notes or e-mails it may be because I don’t have any internet or computer access. (hoping to get a library card out there and maybe someway to get there on occasion)

I don’t know how long it will be before I have an internet connection at the house, it has some serious electrical issues and I don’t want my box to blow up if it surges all of a sudden. (Yes, I have a surge suppressor, but I’m paranoid about shit like that)

I may be without nets for a while and not to get mad if I don’t respond to approval sketches or the like.

My computer will be the last thing to move so hopefully I won’t be without it for too long.

I'll be on a little every now and then this week, but I'll be packing and cleaning mostly this week. So don't expect too much contact from me.

Hoping to see you all within a month or two. Wish me and my family luck!

Been kinda ignoring some people lately, I feel bad about that.
Been kinda ignoring a lot of things lately, feel worse about that.

My life kinda sucks, that's not news.

Wishing I could draw better... anything.

Listening to all this music I found. Japanese but calming anyway.

Dealing with stress, life, more stress, trying not to cry on a daily basis.

Trying to cope with life.

Wishing there was a way to make things not change so fast and so drastically.

I know ya'll don't care to hear this, I just need to get it off my chest.

Maybe I'll play a game of L4D later or something.

If you ever wanna play and I'm in the mood and have time hit me up on my Steam ID: whitetails_panther

This is my hell year, and that is all there is to it.

On a happier note, I like you all. I just want you to know that. Because every now and then it's nice to know someone out there likes ya, especially when you are feeling bad.

Just remember, whenever it seems like someone is trying to piss you off... it takes 42 muscles to frown and about 4 to extend your middle finger and tell them to "fuck off."

The cat has spoken! Have a great day ya'll!

April First, My Birthday.
I turned 23 this year. I feel a year older, that is all.

I suppose Birthdays aren't special, but that's okay. A cake and a few Happy Birthday's is all I need.

Much love to you all.

February 7 and 14... the 7th would have been my Grandma's 68th Birthday... and the 14th is Valentine's Day.

I Hate this month...

In other news...
check the footer of my journal...

And well... that's it for now...

Not too long ago I received the call from my mother. I knew it was going to happen, but you can't really prepare for something like this.

My Grandmother, a great and benevolent woman. Always happy and cheerful, strict but fair, and loving. Has died this night, she would have been 68 in February.

My mom's mom, the woman who spoiled me rotten when I was little because I was the only granddaughter.


Grandma, I love you.
Good bye, and hopefully you aren't suffering anymore.

A new year and new ideas.

I have been wondering...
If I was to set up one of those tumblr ask things for Huntercat would anyone give a hoot? Or would you all like to see someone else?

And... >.> I may need a little help if I do decide to do this.

ALSO
I may not set it up right away cause I may be moving.

Life is all GRRR at the moment.

I dunno I just wanted to get that journal off the front.

So I got my wish, my Grandma made it to Christmas.

As for my own presents, not many, but that's okay. Labyrinth, and <.< >.> a hundred dollars that I will probably save to go somewhere or something.

So yeah, hugs for all and have a Happy New Year if I'm not here to say it myself.

I dunno if it's really gonna be a big deal with all the stuff going on in my life. But I'll still smile, or try to, and wish everyone a Merry Christmas.

And just for the hell of it, My Christmas Song Playlist on Youtube:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=axTMyLojNZ8&list=PLB8AEF778F4FFD7ED&feature=plpp_play_all

I dunno I'm just bored and feeling meh.

Ask me anything you want, or any of my characters anything.

Not that anyone really cares. *flops to the side*

Is my Grandma to still be here. Honestly I don't care for anything else right now. It sounds selfish but that is all I want.

Today I went to visit her and she seemed upset at the thought that she may only live until Thanksgiving. We watched some movies, talked and I gave her a copy of the story I posted on here. My Grandma says I have some kind of talent. This is the same wonderful woman that spoiled me rotten when I was little, gave me chocolate every time I went to visit her and LOVED Christmas. My Grandmother has always had a giving spirit. She loved Christmas so much that she bought gifts for the next year at the after Christmas Sales.

So for those of you wishing for inanimate objects, you may get them. Me, I'll keep wishing for my Grandma, the one woman who is my angel, (besides my mom) that I may not get.


Love you all

No not from me silly >.>

Go here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:22948224

Rant of the Day: Group Roleplays
I'm a big RolePlayer, I like being a part of writing a cool story with other people. It's fun. But it seems every time I'm part of a Roleplay that has three or more people in it, the whole thing falls through! Seriously, WTF?

What's worse is, these people who are part of the RP that stop, don't even let you know what's up. I mean come on, you could have enough common decency to say something before you up and leave. A simple, "I'm not interested anymore, thank you for the RP though." would be fucking nice.

Nope I don't even get that, just a dead RP that goes nowhere and takes up space. FUCK YOU GROUP RP'S! From now on my RP's are gonna be one on one or with people who will actually post with me and be cool.

OKAY, now that that's out of the way... onto the next topic.

Shonen Jump:
I have like three or four years of Shonen Jump Manga. They are old issues but still in good condition because I boxed them up. I don't remember what years I have and I'm too fucking lazy to go and check right now. If you WANT or NEED back issues of Shonen Jump, comment here and I'll tell you IF I have the one( s ) you may be looking for.

As you know I am MOVING and I don;t have room for all my Shonen Jump issues. *sadface* and I want them to go to a good home( s ).

Don't know what Shonen Jump is?
Allow me to tell you. Shonen Jump is a collection of several different manga put into a monthly collection that is sent out to those (like myself) that subscribe to it. I used to have a subscription, I don't anymore. Basically it is a bunch of action manga like Naruto, Shaman King, One Piece and various others.



That is all...

New Icon... to better show how I feel about my stupid life right now.

Sad, upset... hate the world... hate my life... and all I wanna do is get away.

Yell at me for things I don't do, don't say "good job" for the things that I do actually do.

Yell at me for things I don't do... can't do them when we are always running around.



Tell me a story, say hi how are you?

I cry myself to sleep most nights because of life.

Life sucks... I wanna get away.... but I can't....


Cry some more... fall asleep, find myself awake again at 6 AM.

No one cares... no one loves... let me die... go to hell rot in the eternal fires to be reborn again into another sucky life, never ending cycle...


Listen to a song, try to cheer up, fail and go lay down...


(I'll probably hide this with another journal or delete later)

Snatched from  beefee102

A - Available? ---
Yes... but who cares. >.>

B - Birthday? ---
April First, no that's not a joke.

C - Crushing on? ---
None

D - Drink you last had? ---
Sweet Tea I made

E - Easiest person to talk to? ---
IDK...

F - Favorite song? ---
Don't make me choose a song you crazy people!

G - Gummy bears or gummy worms? ---
BOTH

H - Hometown? ---
I live in Missouri, that is all I shall say.

I - Inspiration? ---
Life, the Universe and Everything

J - Joke? As in, know a good one?
A guy walks into a bar with 3 ducks and sets them on the counter. The guy goes to the bathroom leaving the ducks at the bar. The bartender walks up to the first duck and says, "What's your name and how has your day been?" The duck says, "I'm Tom and I've been in and out of puddles all day." Bartender walks up to the second duck and asks the same thing. The second duck says, "I'm Dick and I've been in and out of puddles all day and if I had a chance I'd do it again." So the bartender walks up to the third duck and says, "Well you must be Larry." The duck says, "No I'm Puddles and don't even ask how my day has been."

K - Killed someone? ---
No i have never killed anyone IRL.

L - Longest car ride? ---
From Grandmas to Sam A Baker State Park. 4 hours there and 4 hours back. >.<

M - Milkshake flavor? ---
Chocolate, duh.

N - Number of siblings ---
1

O - One wish? ---
That my Grandma didn't have cancer.

P - Person you texted last? --
N/A

Q - Question you are always asked? ---
Why do you call yourself ugly?

R - Reason to smile? --
I smile to hide my true inner turmoil most of the time.

S - Song you last listened to? ---
I'm listening to a playlist right now... so... yeah...

T - Time you woke up? ---
6:20AM I am not a morning person but I don't have a choice.

U - Underwear color? ---
Purple. >.>

V - Violent moment you had?
Middle school, fought with a girl in the hall, got court ordered anger managment classes. >.>

W - Worst habit? ---
Chewing on pen caps and maybe talking too much.

X - X-rays you had? ---
Bone Contusion on my right knee (basically a bruise on the bone), and teeth pulled.

Y - Yoyos are? ---
Fun to do tricks with.

Z - Zodiac sign? ---
Aries and Snake

With creating different breeds of Hummingdragons.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6846239/

As you can see I already have a few and of course the species is © to me. However... I feel I need more color variations. SO here is what I propose. I would like some color ideas. Draw one if you want, but the species is mine, and Lily is the only one of her colors, meaning she is unique and really the only one that is so unique.

IF you have and idea or want to draw one, COMMENT HERE and be sure to read up on the species, and read up on each breed and look at the pics that are linked so you don't create something that already exists.

This is really just for fun, I have no cash but some people adored the species and wanted one of their very own, this is a good way to do that. Make up your own breed! *giggles*

Make it colorful or dull, make it monochrome if you want. Just have fun with it. XD

And no you may not make adoptables of my species unless I say so! Basically it's like  divashi 's Drels. Well sort of... in the fact that only a few people will be allowed to help me.


EDIT: ALSO I would be happy as a clam if someone could do a lineart for these little guys. *big kitty eyes* please.