i wish i knew why i feel this way...one this day of so much love

it makes me feel like a bug... to all their emotions...

all my friends who have their lovers... and i still get love from them...

but...i dont know why.... *sighs, tears fall from my face*



....i wish i know why i feel so alone!!!!

and... so cold...*crys, whimpers*

hey guys ^^, im semi-back now, im tryin to expand my fur friends list cuz i like to meet new people >w<, so if any of u guys know someone who likes to meet new friends plz tell me >w<

sorry i havent bin back here in awhile, btw thanks 4 all the watches, comments guys >w<

anyways ill still be gone for awhile, but i will return some day *hugs u all*

anyway, if u guys wana know whats up now, u can add me on msn, ill be there alot for now

peace guys *hugs u all tightly*

P.S im always lookin for new faces, friends, so pleeeeease if your bord, or just friendly ^^ plz leave me a note, cuz it gets a lil loanly when i cant be here T.....T

well jus so every one knows why im gona be less active here now, is because ive bin kinda banned from the computer at my house.... not gona say why rn eather, ill be on msn though, so if u wana know why, or jus wana talk plz add me ^^

any ways....um... also.. im going through some changes now...

that may piss off a few of my lovers.... but.... *sighs* i handel that later..

its too soon ta say anything... but if yer wonderin what im even talking about...

go to msn ^^ and ill let u know

bye fer now, ill be here when ever i can

~god loves u~ and so do i *hugs u all*

HEY guys i have a question and a challange to all thouse who have watched me, are my friends ^w^

1st does anybody know if there are any comics similar to this one
http://unknownyaoisite.wetpaint.com.....up+to+Roomates and also do you like it like i do ^////^

2nd i challange you guys to find/ tell me about one like this, with the same artist ^^


oh and if you have goten this far in reading and dont do the challlenge then *sticks tough out at u* mmmmehhhhhhhh ^w^ you just lost an easy dare

^w^ hey guys im feeling a ton better i gess i just was goin through a mood O...O er a depression

any ways im starting to upload newish art now and ill show u guys how much better ive goten ^^

my world is changeing..... i dont know whats instore 4 me....but... *sighs* it just has me a lil unnerved X...X it all seems fast.... but slow at the same time..... *sigh* oh well.... as time passes so will this weird gut wrenching feeling... and i hope... God makes it all.... an easy change 4 me... and thats all i can do *stares into nothing*

im back and bader then ever

new arts, designs, look on life

im gona try and get better at my art, give yall sum of my new art from school

(updates)

im in love with this girl in my class, she loves me back, mite be my 1st g-friend some day ^^

ive got sum new fav songs *im ridin solo* , *im not afraid* *billionair* ^^ so not like me but i love um

(to all my friends/pets/bfs)

ja miss me? *hugs u all* i got sum cechin up ta do nowz ^^

*much love, respect* Jordan

im grounded off fa untill laybor day, if anybody wants to talk to me, i'll be on my msn account, bye guys U_U

ill be online off and on for a bit now, to all who gave me support, consurn... thank u,... to thoughs who gave me crap,.... what ever

to kinn: u wont sufer in hell kinn, neather will i, as long as u belive, truns in the lord, like i know u kinda do, BUT dont belive in thous who say that u can be gay, er bi and still be a christan and go ta heaven, (its in the bible dude) i know that if u fallow tha rules it has in there... ill see u in heaven, i realy hope i do, i pray that god sends u another lover to show u tha way.

to all my friends who i love and care for: im no longer bi (thats my chose) and i know that most of u guys r eather gay, or bi, im ok with that, i still love all u guys... just not that way anymore ^^ and i sinserly hope that all of u guys will still be my friends

in short............... ive bin hurt, ive bin broken....... shit has hit home, has goten way to real for me.....

to all my best friends here..... im sorry..... to all my friends that love me... *sobs* i can never, or will never do the things that we have done it the past..... *crys*

im going to take a long diserved break, it mite last a few days, maybe a week, maybe even a month....

i am a Christan boy, ive fallen, stumbelled, has vowed to get back on the right path, i will be deffenatly more.... pure when i return....




*walks away*

this waz taken from ma good friend  glowfox

This is a Meme to discover the simple pleasures in life.

You can choose to make it as dirty or innocent as you please.

Whatever is your pleasure.

1. When alone?
Furry Art,adult stuff X3 and video gameing, just chillin

2. With friends?
video games, sleep overs (rairly) watchin tv, hangin out, chillin out

3. With a good friend?
i don hav any GOOD friends near me..... buttttt if i did X////3 we'd have sume funnn XD (18+ fun that is)

4. With a lover?
Cuddling, kissing, tons of dates, love makein (alote of that).... (if only i had 1)

5. Food?
mmmmmm im american but i LOVE italian foods of all kinds, some german food too

6. Outdoors?
football, sports, playin/goffin around

7. Indoors?
computers, games, tv/movies, boaring stuff

8. Random?
mmmmmmmmmmm.......... *spots glow bendin ova* dat assssss XDDDDD

AND...

9. Secret Guilty Pleasure?
shhhhuuuuush this is on tha low low, if u tell i KILL u.............*sigh* aaaaaah the hell with it
i is bi...... but i lean mor twords straight though ^^


OH and if u read this far down *shoots u wit dart gun* youve bin TAGED XD

i dont know... why i feel this way... i mean i jus got done with a vacation... but now i jus feel..... alone... and sadend *sits down in dark corner*

Well the hardest part of ma football season is now ova (spring practice) now i hav weight lifting in tha summer, but thats EASY AS HELLLLLLLLL XD, i get ta miss a lil bit of it because of ma vacation (goin ta iowa 2 visit family) wwwwwwwwwooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooooo!!!!!

is it that when ever i try to upload a story/poetry from a word document this site never lets me do it, saying i had it in the wrong file type!!! >:( if anyone could give me some help with this annoying problem id greatly appreciate it :3

well friends of mine.... my football season/practice has officaly started.... right after i had jus goten done wit track season too+ i didnt get any sort of break in between!!! >:[ ...... oh well jus though id vent that out ta u guys. *falls on face tired as hell and sore as hell and sleeps*

i was doin a wolf pic search and found this http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.mentorswaitingroom.com/images/hangings/large/purevision/wolf_350x336.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.mentorswaitingroom.com/hangings/purevision&usg=__nUU8eAfJrB5lRIZGhUNSmhmc9YU=&h=336&w=350&sz=96&hl=en&start=19&um=1&itbs=1&tbnid=BJhE2EuHwp3IWM:&tbnh=115&tbnw=120&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dwolf%2Bsymbol%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den%26safe%3Doff%26sa%3DN%26ndsp%3D20%26tbs%3Disch:1

and i was jus wonderin wat is yer symbol (out of the 1s listed) , mines the wolf or martin as its called on the page.

ive learned a few things over these past few days( god knows how many that is)

1 that this guy http://www.youtube.com/user/hotandfluffycomedy?blend=1&ob=4 is FUNNY as HELL!!! ( maybe not that clip but some of his other specials )

2 i can now draw chibi style furs better sooooo yul be seein mor of that soon

3 ive bin listenin to these two songs alot http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2lTB1pIg1y0 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SvIKQ30q5xU and if u know wat i said in dis journal (in the titel in pertickular ) http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1281924/ and ive bin drawing/ thinkin up a strom of geto/ hard art work ta be posted soon.

does anybody listen to there fav music while there drawing/writeing if so heres wat ive bin uzin recently ta get da gears goin:MEADAL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mLJlF_W9H8k , http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_LiA-ljxp5s , http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4-SCnf9tkTk , http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sZOcYh1JoFU , http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAKhDd6Lxbk ,http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TreP-K8XiNw :RAP/HIP-HOP: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YEYxOPtQqWw ,http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7Lyka8Znes , http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJYzABHRsNQ , http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xvNDBbaZMOE , http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ZU8Mw7WOe4. coments on ma tasts r welcome :)

has anybody met any of there frinds/mates in RL if so who, if not..... well looks like we r alone out here, or at least i am any way ( school fulla fur haters ) *sigh*

has or is anybody do any sports in school? jus wonderin how athletic i stack up ta ma friends here on FA. plz leave coments :3

does anybody know where i mite find some free software like SAI or ADOBE Ps??? im kinda on a stand still as far as digital art goes so ive had ta resort to traditional forms of art.

Any and all help would be and is greatly appreciated.