Finally. *INSERT GORDON RAMSEY MEME* a good fucking banner.

Please stop with the banner stuff. Idc. Shouldn't need to be reminded of the dead more than I already am.

Oh Dragoneer was here? :/ Hmmmmmkay. He never improved what he made. This site is a relic. Keep it up FA, become an furry obituary site.

I have to wonder if I tried to speak kindly of other dead furs' that were shunned, if people would only bitch and be smug about their deaths. Very possible.

Too fucking sick and stressed; the banner annoys me. How long has Dragoneer been gone? Just fucking stop already.

It's just awful. Who the fuck thought it looked good? And worse yet who the fuck said "yeah that looks good" xD

*cocks verbal shotgun*

Y'all wanna know why I poofed so many times and go silent a lot?! =D It's information that I usually don't share cus it had the potential to stir the drama Crock-Pot. Why shotgun spread it now? Cus I need a vent before I start sending out spiteful messages. Since it pertains to furries, I see no issue with talking about it here now. =3 plus the people I'm talking about would never really care anyway lol.

Let's seeeeee. OH! Yeah, Shiuk used to be one of the artists I looked up to since I was 15. Saw him cus of that old soft paw furry magazine. I used to interact some with him and he'd reply usually just fine to whatever weirdness I said and send smiles back. And then one day he publicly scolds me over a comment that was honestly fairly mundane. He also only ever gave me a shitty inked pic even after me sending him his Axolotl level payments on his patreon. Everyone else? Full pics. Me? Lol not even a full pic it's just this inked thing and I say thank you like an idiot even though it was super underwhelming and disappointing.

Hmmm Oh and Raudri. Says to use his characters of you want. I make a traditional private surprise gift piece for him, and I get scolded. Even if "nicely". No; thank yous, or questions. Just pointless apologies for not giving a shit about it lol.

Or oo! Grom! (He goes by plenty of different names now~ wonder whai) That asshole got free sketches I was trying to work on for his idea and what's he do? Wants a refund about 24 hours later. Completely fucked my irl finances up. What'd he want? Lol popularity and clout XD wrong fox to approach for that I think?

There's even some crazy ass people I used to know, some of them parented to be friends only to get as many free pics from me as possible.

Or just the typical souless (beer bellied) gingers calling people they meet for the first time, hobos and pretends it's a joke. Or actually just telling me they'd be there for me only to obviously get a kick out of intentionally shrugging me off cus they're a narcissist.

But you know what I hate more than anything? That all these people only benefit from me being mild mannered and polite. So fuck them and fuck manners cus they obviously didn't actually care about feelings then and they'd only care now if people knew. :/

My stress levels are obviously high right now and I'm ready to see zootopia BURN xD

And no I'm not looking for conversation with anyone mentioned >..> gossip for you, a vent for me. Now if you'll excuse me I'll be on IB lately. *Grumbles like Gandalf in Moria*

An update and yammer journal.

I've been having a busy time ever since last years holiday season. Hasn’t slowed much but i also just got over a week and a half of both a viral cold and bacterial flu at the same time~ I won’t blame the sweet little brat that gave it to me x3 they didn’t mean to, it was their FATHURRRRR.. No context to give other than that but, trust me he’s stupid. >_>

I've been drawing when I can still, much of which I probably won’t share here either because compression issues or content? BUTBUT ...I have looked extensively for places without heavy restrictions and a furry community. A place that doesn’t have too terribly many political cultists. Maybe a place for interaction? X? No. Bluesky? No. Pixiv? No. Weasyl? Im there and its dead af. Some fedi-verse place like mastodon? No. E261? No, mostly only insane comments are posted. Devianta-loljk jk. No.

So for now.. This place and Ib will have to do. And no I'm not using discord or telegram for art exclusively. Its a nightmare or bore. I wanted to but it worked too well and left me always getting notifications and drove me nuts. Or didn’t work at all and no one noticed or cared about multiple posts~

And you wanna what sucks? The main reasons i slowed my posts here is because of how many people actually didn’t want what i drew xD mostly as gifts. It was worse than saying my work sucked i think. Not to be dramatic but it was like once i was back for a bit was when i started having my spirits crushed. I can handle it some, but at specifically bad times, and specially worse from whom helped reject? Happening multiple times? 8D I wanted to go play in the road!
I'm fine fine. It was healthy to step away from the internet. I've still been drawing, some traditional and some digital. Ive been working on other interesting ((to me)) projects I’ll share later.

Other than wanting to for the sake of some socializing and posting in general, I’ll have some refs and commission sheets up soon, may even work towards better gear as many things i have had for years is breaking down. Plus i think traveling soon some would be great for muh brain. Maybe even a decent con if there is still any. We’ll see. Now about making an avi that doesn’t compress...

IZZIT SAFE?.. ARE PEOPLE DONE BEING RETARDED?...

When you have people you look up to, let it go. They'll just disappoint you. For the love of the nine devine's don't tell me I'm the person you look up to?

You guys wanna know what made me so excited to draw and get online years ago? The possibility of talking to other artists and sharing. Or just chatting sometimes. That's some bullshit.

But what can I say popufurs can't help it, they're just living in their own bubble.

You know what? Less of a reason to care about what content I make. There was never really a good reason to throttle myself I guess xD