I got a citation for parking in the street when a snow emergency was declared in Royal Oak. I was written the ticket at 13:42. According to the official city of Royal Oak web site, the information was posted at 8:22 am stating that the snow emergency was declared at 5:40 AM. When I looked online to see if it would be okay to park in the street this morning at 7:45 AM (when my room mate woke me up to drive him to work), the information was not posted. I did a Google search and I followed a chain of links to get to the page:

http://royaloak.patch.com/articles/.....d-in-royal-oak

http://www.ci.royal-oak.mi.us/porta.....cy-information


Upon clicking on the home page link, I found that the information was not posted. Later, it was posted here:
http://www.ci.royal-oak.mi.us/porta.....gency-declared


Now, the citation states that it is a Code: I Snow Emergency, which I can only assume means they are referring to Priority One Status: http://www.ci.royal-oak.mi.us/porta.....cy-information


• Priority One Status

This covers snow of up to 4 inches. All major arterial streets such as 12 Mile Road are salted by special routes 24 hours a day as
required.

This is NOT an arterial street and the snow was NOT more than 3 inches. The news said we were to get between 6-8 inches and we got nowhere near that.

Furry pick up lines are the absolute best. Feel free to let me know which ones you know of.

You're like a garbage can. I want to put my litter inside you.
I know we just met, but I think I know where I want to bury my bone.
You're beautiful without makeup, but I have some lipstick that's perfect for you.
Yeah I chase my tail, but I'd rather chase yours.
I heard you like dogs. Want a little Shiba-in-u?
Being with you always makes me feel a little knotty.
You must be my backyard, cause I really dig you.

What else you got?

Where we use our hand as a map, where Tim Allen, Alice Cooper, Madonna, The Black Dahlia Murder, Motown, Insane Clown Posse, The White Stripes, Stevie Wonder, Kid Rock, Eminem, Robin Williams, and John 5 are from.

Our vacations are to Grand Rapids, Up North, or a drive across the bridge. We are the only large inland peninsula on Earth and you can see us from space. We love Faygo, Superman ice cream, Better Made chips, Vernors, and Mackinac Island fudge.

We know that the "UP" is not a direction but a place. We play Euchre, swim in lakes and rivers, fish, and camp. We bake with "soda" and drink "pop." We measure distance in hours (It's about 2 hours away). We can drive 65 miles per hour in a foot of snow or a blizzard and not even flinch, and still have school.

Plus we're in driving distance of Hell. Not many people can say that!

I got a new job working at Spy Shops USA. This is an email that a customer sent me (he lives in CA) at the store. I wish I was making this up. Unfortunately, this is the type of customer that I have to deal with on a daily basis. Some days are better than others, but on average, I get at least one of these a week. By the way, this is a copy/paste of the email. The only thing left out was the guys name (and FaceBook URL, yeah, he included his FB account too) at the end.

And if anyone wants a preview of what our site is going to look like, type in "dev" after the slash. It's going to be going live soon, but I am still finding small errors with the site and sending them in to be corrected every day that I work.

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Ive had "people" following me around in vehicles, monitering me through "wall cameras", watching me through the television set aswell as allowing me to hear the monitering tone that plays when your present, ive heard conversations played over and over through soundwaves in between radio music, Ive had them unplugging my internet everytime id research topics relating to what I was going through, Ive been tackled twice by police and injected with some sort of hallucinagen and robbed frequently, they pulled me over and seized my vehicle without explanation and gave no info on how to recover it then suspended my license for lack of recovery, they started playing those “mind movies” (not sure what the exact name is called but they use them on indivduals deemed to look insane when they target you, watching your mind think on nearby television) they even aimed lasers at me from the sky( often used to dissapate chemicals in your body like drugs or to curdle fecal matter out of the intestines) .I need answers as to why this was made possible in mylife and yet ive heard nothing from any government officials as to what i am to you. Was this just another run in with some sort of antichrist scare tactic or is the country truelly not sure as to how to explain the stuation to me? Sounds like a bunch of people playing with cia/mafia/spy equipment in hopes to get someone to commit suicide or something similar?terrorist threat possibly lol? I have not read that book "behold a pale horse" nor have i done any research on the lapinal membrane and its functionality. I find this all too disturbing to be reality. Id prefer to be executed rather than run around in circles begging for a single bit of information that validates my experience. Can you help?

I found myself lurking in the background a few times. I'm usually better at hiding myself from his videos than that.

In video 1

53:55 walking past in the back
57:29 far right, holding my camera and yellow registration bag
57:47 bottom right, talking to Talic Viken

In video 2
18:14 when is splits, I'm in the top portion standing next to the garbage can, fidgeting with my camera (that is sitting on the bin, recording)
32:08 I turn around at a fursuiter acting weird and I was curious what was going on.

After about 40:00 in, there's a gap that I haven't watched, because I need sleep.

1:43:24 I'm on the left hand side, laughing
1:44:18 I'm on the left again, listening to Twitch talking about beer
1:45:47 Yeah, I'm still there.

I'm posting this early because I want everyone to be able to see it before heading off to be with their family this Christmas.

Have a Murry Yiffmas and Sex with Blue Deer.

I am coining that phrase, I've said it for the past few years, I will continue to say it for years to cum.

Ehh, it was amusing to see all those people working together to make this super short video.

Just got done writing all my Christmas cards. I'll mail them out tomorrow. Let me know when you guys get them. We wanted to print them larger and on cardstock, but we had to cut costs and try to save money since I'm in between jobs and we just moved in to a new place.

This is the first year that I'm actually willing to acknowledge my birthday beforehand and not wait until after. Nor am I shunning it either.

Please try to keep all birthday wishes contained inside this journal instead of splattered all over my shout page. Although some of you are going to do that anyway, just to spite me. I will deal with you later. Think chains, whips, and involuntary sex (it's involuntary, not rape).

Thank you to everyone that wishes me a happy birthday. It's on the 29th, not today, but thank you anyway. People have already started blowing up my FaceBook, might as well attempt to keep it contained here.

Oh, yeah, I forgot. I don't really have anything planned this year, I'm just goin to make things up with my friends as I go along.

I had pretty much decided that I wasn't going to attend, but my room mate convinced me to attend and found me some other furs that I could drive in with. So, after that was decided, I left on Friday and made it in. MFF was a blast.

I spent a lot of time hanging out with people and less time taking pictures. Of course, the fact that I brought a broken camera with me probably played a large role on my decision making too.

Saturday, I was able to meet up with  firestormsix and get measurements taken for my fursuit. It was actually quite a challenge to get the free time. Friday, I found  dershep as he was heading off somewhere. He informed me that Firestorm had a party going on in his room and it wouldn't be the best time to get the measurements. So I caught up with Firestorm on Saturday as he was heading to the fursuit parade gathering. He said to meet up with him in his room after the parade. When I got up there, I only found Der and  lavshep, neither of which knew where he ran off to. After checking a journal online, they found where he was. I ran outside to meet up with him and almost lost him as he had somewhere else to be, right as I managed to catch up to him. So we went back to his room, we exchanged cell phone numbers, and made plans to have my measurements taken later that day. When all was calmed down a bit, I met back up with him and finally got the measurements taken. We also discussed plans on what is going to be done too. There were a few other furs in the room, Der had already left. Lav was about to suit up and head out, I got to watch him dance while suiting up and checking himself in the mirror (picture will be uploaded later).  artie was there and I think two other furs, but I can't remember who they were.

Later on, I met up with  dogbomb and  teh and two other furs (sorry guys, don't remember who you were). The five of us hung out in Dogbomb/Teh's room and we talked. I can not remember what we talked about, but it was amusing, to say the least. Teh got a wild hair up his nose (or somewhere else, it's still to be decided) and wanted to play a game. "Let's all remove a piece of clothing!" I had no idea what he had planned, so I played along. Everyone removed an article of clothing, then it started all over again. Remove another article of clothing until someone is naked. Well... That was enough for me, I opted out. Teh eventually was in just his boxers. "Uh oh, if I remove them I'll lose." The conversation came down to a final decision. Should Teh embarrass Wolfe!? We took a vote.

Dogbomb - *Laughing* No.
Furry #2 - I want to embarass Wolfe, so yes.
Wolfe - No. Hell no. Absolutely not. NO!
Furry #4 - I want to embarrass Wolfe too, so yes.

Teh was confused, it's a tie. "What should we do?" A coin toss seemed the logical answer in this particular situation. So I set the rules. "Heads I win, tails you lose. Go ahead and flip." Furry #2 looked at me, "what?" I repeated myself. Teh was excited and I repeated the rules for a third time. Someone flipped the coin, it was tails. Teh shouted in excitement and got ready to remove his boxers. When I corrected him. "It's tails, you lose." I found myself looking at a VERY confused Teh. After I explained myself, I felt bad for Teh. "Ohh... you tricked me...!?" Indeed sir, I did.

I was able to meet up with  -ash and  bigtig too, but unlike FWA spent very little time with them. Also ran into  ctcwired and  fayroe a couple of times. I met Nekari's brother (I'll link him later when I can remember his name) too.

I also got to spend about 4 hours helping my friend try to recover his stolen fursuit. I would say who, but I'm not sure he cares to let others know about what happened. That was Sunday night, after he got his suit back, someone set off the fire alarm. I spoke with the police and they told me it was a small contained fire. Someone took the fire extinguisher out to spray the fire and it apparently auto triggered the fire alarm for the Executive Wing. It wasn't a prank, but it was an over reaction. After everyone came back in, I was standing in the lobby talking to BBF (does he have an FA?) and mentioned that the convention was now to be called "MidWest Fire Fest" and that was the new hashtag. There were other furs around that overheard and the hashtag spread like a wildfire of its own.  twitchdawoof walked up and apparently had "Anthrocon Beer" for BBF. Giza was there as well and we all talked about different things. When the group got large enough, I tended to stay quiet and listen to all the random stories that were brought up. The topic of conversation also changed so many times, it was difficult to keep pace.

Oh yeah, back when everyone was outside, BBF tried to get a statement from me about the fire. I'm looking forward to his late-breaking footage and story coverage. *Hint, hint, make it 'news' like* After all, wasn't that the theme of this convention? It came from TV?

Anyway, I think that just about sums it all up.

In closing though, the convention seemed rather disorganized. I most likely will not attend again (unless with some local furs and close friends). There were a lot of things that were horribly done and one of them was booking a room incorrectly (not for the reservations, but for the poker tournament). There were more creepers here than at AC. One guy actually stood between me and the elevators with his arms outstretched, awaiting a hug. I had no idea who he was and he turned toward me as I pushed past him, expecting me to hug him. I know I had a look of disgust on my face and he just kept staring at me. I told him I don't like to be touched and then kept walking. I'm getting a lot better about being touched, but I still have zero interest in being hugged by strangers.

Another incident that came up, some random guy had  nekari89's unipod for his camera and while BBF was torturing the totter on the ground, this guy kept poking the totter with the unipod (it had a nice metal spike at the end of it too) and Nekari even told him to stop poking him with it. At one point, the guy tried using it to push Nekari and bent the pole almost to the point of breaking. Numerous people all yelled at the guy to stop. At this point, I walked over and took the pole from him. Nekari was not pleased at all. The guy also tried fondling  spark-wolf, whom I had never met before, but after reading a post he made on his FaceBook, I wish I had confronted the guy. Sparky was not fond of the guy either.

That's just two of the creepers I can remember. The ones that I disliked the most. There were a couple that harassed my friend  frostbite-wolf and irritated me. I wasn't the one being harassed and I disapproved.

Overall, I had fun and loved going. But in the future, I will probably pass on MFF again.

In case anyone was wondering where I've been, I moved in to my new place already. We spoke to the landlord and he said that he doesn't mind us moving in early. So I e been living here for a little over a week already.

Cool thing, the landlord isn't charging us rent for October. How sweet is that?

I had Wide Open West (WOW) come out to install our internet for us. So we have everything switched over and we're still moving our stuff and unpacking.

Also, I gave my 2 week notice to Happy's Pizza on Wednesday. Apparently the boss didn't like that so he let me go on Saturday. Which is fine by me, that just means I can start working at Discount Tire all the sooner. I asked them if they can schedule me for the middle of the week (tue, wed, thu) so I can get another part time job. On e I finish with training, I can get another job too. Since DT runs 10 hour shifts, this is perfectly ideal for me. And it will make attending conventions a thousand times easier too.

Needless to say, I'm quite excited that things are working out. If I can get this part time job with DT, I may be able to afford my fursuit much quicker than originally anticipated!

I still have a lot of things to get from my mothers house too. So, I still haven't gotten around to reconnecting my computer. It's on my to do list, but it's at a low priority. I can still be reached by my standard means of cell phone use and messengers.

I think that's about it for now. Hit me up if you care to talk.

I have a few things that I have to say and I am going to try to say them as quickly as possible because I have other things that I have to try to get done still.

First off, yesterday:

Apparently after I left work, the female cook was bitching and complaining all day (about 4 hours, as I am told) and she kept complaining about my friend Sean (who was her boyfriend?) not taking her to the Tigers game. But instead, he went with his brother. The driver that was working (Ermin) told her, "you got played, so just drop it." I don't know what else happened, how she interpreted what he said or whatever. She kicked him in the shin, he told her "don't ever do that again," and then apparently she ran to grab a knife and came at him. He grabbed a pizza cutter to defend himself.

So now, I am covering two of her shifts (tomorrow night and Friday night), until the boss can find someone to replace her. Which is all kinds of fun right now because the boss just had knee surgery done and isn't able to work. Which is where I get to throw more stress at him.

I got a new job working at Discount Tire. I already had the interview, I filled out the paperwork, got the drug test and background check. Now I have to go in tomorrow and fill out some more paperwork.

On that note, I am also moving out of my current place and moving in to a nice townhouse with  rashoni &  felineelement on Nov. 1st. I am in the process of getting everything put into my name (will be split amongst everyone after we move in).

So, in case anyone has been wondering where I've been lately, that just about sums up the big events. There were a lot of other minor things going on too, but in comparison, not worth mentioning.

I am also pretty sure that I will be attending MFF. I need to talk to Discount Tire tomorrow to see if I can request certain days to work so that I can get another part time job at Holiday Market.

I've been filling out a lot of applications lately and (to my surprise) I've had to turn down a LOT of employers. Either because the pay wasn't sufficient or the hours weren't. Or the job was too far away to be fuel efficient for me. Just to name a few of the places that I turned down:

Party City
Holiday Market (no guarantee on hours, but with DT too, I can make it work)
Noodle
GameStop (they were about 18 miles away)
Victoria Secret (warehouse stocker)
Radio Shack (commission)
ABC Warehouse (commission instead of warehouse)

There were a couple more, but I can't remember them off the top of my head right now.

So, all in all, my life seems to be taking a decent turn around from what it was. (Knock on wood)

I meant to post this on the first, but I am currently rather stressed out over a few things. I got a new job at Discount Tire (just waiting on the drug test and background check) and I am moving out into a new townhouse at the end of the month with  rashoni &  felineelement.

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Yes, it is that time of year again that I ask everyone to stuff  dragoneer into his well known Candy Corn costume.

For those of you unfamiliar with why I do this:
Dragoneer wrote:Candy Corn - Two words that also translate into "the anti Christ of flavor". The single worst candy ever created. Giving out candy corn to children is like taking a flamethrower to the tree on Christmas morning. If you give this out to kids you are a BAD PERSON.

I do not care if you like Candy Corn or not. It is a staple of Halloween and you respect the traditions! Just like this one.

Here are the pictures thus far that have been gathered.
 WolfeMasters drew this.
 Mike-Son drew this.
 YiffMasters drew this.
 NeoLeo drew this.
 Rukario drew this.
 StormdragonBlue drew this.
 LostLove drew this.
 LittleW0lf drew this.
 demonicchronic drew this.

So, come on people, make your mark in history. More specifically, make your mark on Dragoneer. Stand up for Candy Corn and all it's deliciousness! And even if you do not like Candy Corn, you can at least stick it to Dragoneer (interpret as you will).

And even if you can't draw, but still want to have fun and help out, please feel free to post a journal of your own linking back here!

And as a side note to Dragoneer, when he finally can get around to reading this journal:

"I told you once before, you shall never escape that fateful comment. 6 years later, I continue this tradition and one day hope that this will become a rite of passage into all furrrydom. Candy Corn is good and a well known symbol of Halloween, just as sticking you into a Candy Corn costume will become over time."

I wasn't going to post this journal, but since there was a lot that happened while FA was down (only 4 days and so much shit happened...), I figure I might as well.

The day that FA went down, I was bored and decided to see if I could get in contact with an old friend of mine. The girl I had a crush on in high school, Sheena. I refused to pay some sit for her public information, so I bounced from one site to another until I was able to obtain enough information that I felt confident enough that I could call the 4 numbers I came up with and probably get her. Sadly, the first number got me no where. Fortunately, the second number was her mom. Unfortunately, the information that followed was heart breaking.

Sheena got married. That was a little upsetting, but I was glad that she was happy. Then I found out just how "happy" she was. Sheena was in a coma, her husband beat her and put her there. At this point, I zoned out a little bit. Her mother shouted into the phone and brought me back. I apologized and tried to get more information. Which got me zip. Her mother didn't recognize my name and refused to give me any more information. I tried to reassure her that I knew her daughter and I went to school with her. The mom was reluctant to say anything else and in a last ditch effort I told her that I heard she moved to Texas because her father beat them both. I knew that saying that was risky, but I wanted to find anything that would reassure her. Sheena told me that they didn't tell anyone why they moved down to Texas. I felt that was private enough that maybe I could get a little more information. As it turned out, Sheena told that to a couple of people and the father almost found out about it.

The mother sympathized with me and said that she was looking at it from both angles. If I really did care about her, this is horrible news to hear. But if we were good friends, why wasn't I better kept in the loop? If I was a friend of the father, the information could have been relayed with him standing right there and she would never know. I agreed to her logic and gave her my cell number (although with caller ID I'm sure it didn't even matter) just in case Sheena ever wakes up.

I didn't want to share this information with anyone, since it turned out to be a nice epic fail for me. But my psychologist friend said that I need to. They didn't have much time to talk to me (but I'm always grateful for even the few seconds I can get), but still provided me with more than enough help.

I also said something to a friend recently that I'm beginning to regret. I didn't want to say it because I was afraid of what it might do to our friendship. When I said it, they were happy that I said it. I'm starting to think that it was a bad idea though. It was never my place to say such a thing and I'm afraid that it might ultimately break their heart (and mine).

Yesterday while I was at work, a customer came in and while I was in back making pizzas, our eyes met. I knew her... She cocked her head and asked me "are you Wolfe?" I said with a sarcastic tone (that apparently didn't carry as well as I had hoped) "noo...? Who is this Wolfe you speak of?" Obviously she didn't get it because she continued, "you look like this guy I used to work with at Wal*Mart." I walked our front and held out my arms to give her a hug. "It is you!"

It was nice seeing her again. Especially since I had a crush on her when I worked at Wal*Mart with her. She had always wanted to cosplay at a convention together. She was going to dress as Edward Elric (she has the appropriate height requirement) and I was going to dress as Col. Mustang. Then we would make out when people wanted pictures because Yaoi was her favorite. Anyway, last I heard she was engaged and I mentioned that so that I could get caught up. She was married for 9 months before she divorced him because she caught him cheating on her, at home, in her bed. I asked if she "Lorraina'd" him. She wanted to, but her friend recommended a frying pan instead. Well, it sucks that her marriage didn't work out, but I was eager to see if I still had a chance. She must have gotten that a lot because without ever looking at me or missing a beat, she continued to explain that she is now with a woman. She looked at me for an expression and got nothing. "Oh yeah, I went down that path, and I liked it."

She gauged my face for a reaction, all I gave her was a squeeze and a smile. "I'm glad you like her." Lies, I had to spit them out because I couldn't stomach them down. It left an awful taste in my mouth to say that too. I gave Shannon my cell phone number and told her to text me if she ever wanted to hang out. I know she won't, she never did back when she had my original number either.

I went to a party last night because I was still pretty depressed about Sheena. While I was at the party, everyone was totally shit face drunk by the time I got there. I had a shot of some pretty strong stuff (no idea what it was but everyone else was drinking it). I was going to get hammered, but logic kicked in. This is the worst time to get drunk. I faked a few drinks by concealing my water with a Smirnoff bottle. I wanted to get drunk so that I could forget everything that had happened, at least for a little while.

There was a very nice lady at the party and she had just barely reached her limit. She hadn't started wobbling yet, but give her one more drink and her equilibrium would be on the floor, along with the rest of her. She sat down next to me and started talking to me. Something didn't seem right though. We talked about all sorts of stupid stuff, mostly everything that I was interested in. She held on to way too much though. I knew something was off, but I couldn't place it. I kept talking, she kept listening. I kept "drinking." As we continued to talk, she tried playing with my hair. I must have shown that I was displeased with it because she stopped almost immediately. She tried to comfort me but her words were empty. She leaned over and gave me a kiss on the cheek, I had no emotion or expression to return. I could feel my face go emotionless. I didn't want to stay here anymore, the party wasn't doing anything to help me. I forgot to wear my belt today because I had on my comfy black shorts (the only pair I can wear without worrying about them falling with no belt on). When I stood up, this lady got the wrong idea and immediately pulled my pants down.

I was shocked. Flat out, shocked. She grabbed me and started fondling me. I looked around to see who saw what was going on and no one was paying any attention. I felt stupid. I had no idea what to do, so I just stood there. She played with me, and forced me back down onto the couch. My head was spinning. She was very talented. But right before her head could make contact, I had to shove her back. I finally realized what was off.

"You're not drunk." She looked irritated that I stopped her. "Does it matter?" she asked. I didn't care anymore, I was pissed. I pulled my pants back up and left. When I got back to the apartment, I went straight for the shower. I felt dirty. I finally understand what people mean when they say that.

When I woke up this morning around 8 o'clock, I saw a text message from my buddy. He must have sent it to me last night while I was in the shower.

dde i wsa just tryin 2 get u laid

Nice message. I was invited over to get drunk and raped. I'm not going to be talking to this asshat for quite some time. So, when I woke up today, my stomach is uneasy, my head hurts (doesn't feel like a headache), and I'm tense all over. I don't want to be touched by anyone. The thought of a hug is actually making me sick. And that thought, by itself, makes me feel like shit. I feel like all the progress I made was just wiped away. I hate people right now and it's enough to make me cry.

I wanted to talk to my psychology friend, but they are in some kind of meeting/class/thing. I won't be able to contact them all day, as I was informed by the mass text message sent out to everyone shortly after my call was voice-mailed. A lot of what I have been doing lately is some kind of social therapy, letting friends help me feel better by sharing everything.

If you managed to read this whole thing, congrats. I hated typing it, but I needed to. If you want to talk to me, please just leave a comment on this journal. I don't really want to talk privately to anyone about this, let alone at all. I'd rather just pretend none of it happened, but that doesn't seem to work well for me in the past.

I'm going to head out for a bit, I have to meet up with some friends and I'm really hoping that will help me feel better.

I've never really cared to blacklist people. There's one person I've blacklisted and it was because his stupidity knew no bounds. So I blocked him and his alt account. 

Recently, I had to end 2 five year long friendships. We all came to a mutual understanding and I thought it was over. But one of them made a new account. Whenever someone watches me, I look into their account. I like to see what kind of people are watching me.

This was a brand new account. Which already made me a little cautious. The only IM service he had listed was Yahoo, a favorite of said person. He also had a lot of people he was watching. Especially for a brand new account. When I looked at the watches, they were alphabetical. When I looked at my ex-friends account, the names were all the same. 

The only picture uploaded was one drawn by "Person X" (the ex-friend). Which he (the new account) claimed was a "lucky" chance that Person X drew it for him. 

I believe in coincidences. But the new person contacted me about FFXI and he just so happened to find my ex-friends and be playing on the same server as them. 

There were a few other things that gave me reason to question, but I think I've stated enough. 

Well, I had my suspicions, but wanted to give Person X the benefit of the doubt and assume he wasn't trolling me. I contacted an admin and asked them to check the accounts.

Sure enough, I was being trolled. So, in a brilliant flash of anger, I decided to counter-troll and start insulting my ex-friends to the new guy. I should've just blocked him. That would've been the smart thing to do. 

Long story short (too late), he finally acknowledged on his account that he made a new account. I attempted to message him one last time but he already blocked me. 

Here's what gets me. Why would he do that? Pretend to be someone else. Why? Was it just trolling? Or was he hoping to start a new friendship? If that's the case, what happens when I find out who he is? What was his end game here?

I've she'd enough tears over our friendships being destroyed. I took all the blame for it too. I wanted them to forget about me and move on with their lives. I wish I could forget about them, because all they remind me of is hurt. 

What should I do?  Block all of his names? Report him? Ignore the whole thing?

Questions were taken from another journal, but I forgot who it was and already deleted the journal. Oops, sorry.

1. Had sex?
Nope, I'm a virgin.
2. Bought Condoms?
No, but I have had some given to me before.
3. Gotten somebody Pregnant?
See question 1.
4. Failed A Class?
In 7th grade, I graduated with 3 E's, 2 D's and 1 C.
5. Kissed A Boy?
Nope.
6. Kissed A Girl?
Nope.
7. Used A Little Paper Bag for Lunch?
Back in elementary school and some of junior high.
8. Had A Job?
More than 50 in my lifetime.
9. Slipped On Ice?
Repeatedly.
10. Missed The School Bus?
I never took the bus to school.

If you want me to answer more questions, let me know and comment here. I will answer questions in groups of 10 ONLY. I will not answer any new questions until I have made it all the way through the current list of questions. Newest questions will be added to the bottom of the list.

11. Fucked a girl?
See question 1.
12. Bullied Someone On The Internet?
So far, no.
13. Sexted?
Sadly, no.
14. Had Sex In Public?
This follows question 1, again.
15. Played On A Sports Team?
I tried out for basketball in junior high, I never made it.
16. Smoked Weed?
Never have, never will.
17. Smoked Cigarettes?
I played with some once, never cared enough to start, fortunately. I'm allergic to smoke.
18. Smoked A Cigar?
This follows the previous question.
19. Drank Alcohol?
Socially, seldom do I drink alone.
20. Watched porn?
I'm a guy, so... Hell yeah!

21. Skipped class?
22. Gotten Arrested?
23. Done meth?
24. Been To A Wedding?
25. Fell in love with a best friend?
26. Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight?
27. Watched TV For 5 Hours Straight?
28. Been Late For Work?
29. Been Late For School?
30. Kissed In The Rain?

31. Showered With Someone Else?
32. Failed My Drivers Test?
33. Cheated on a ex?
34. Been Outside My Home Country?
35. Been On A Road Trip Longer Than 5 Hours?
36. Had Lice?
37. Gotten My Heart Broken?
38. Had A Credit Card?
39. Been To A Professional Sports Game?
40. Broken A Bone?

41. Am I BI/Gay/Lesbian?
42. Won A Trophy?
43. Cut Myself?
44. Had An STD.?
45. Got Engaged?
46. Done ecstasy?
47. Tried Out To Be On A TV Show?
48. Rode In A Taxi?
49. Been To Prom?
50. Played A Drinking Game?

51. Stayed Up For 24 Hours Or More?
52. Been To A Concert?
53. Had A Three-Some?
54. Had A Crush On Someone Of The Same Sex?
55. Been In A Car Accident?
56. Had Braces?
57. Learned Another Language?
58. Killed An Animal?
59. Been At A Yard Sale?
60. Been To A Japanese Steakhouse?

61. Wore Make Up?
62. Talked To Someone Via Webcam?
63. Lost My Virginity Before I Was 16?
64. Had My Wisdom Teeth Taken Out?
65. Kissed Someone A Different Race Than Myself?
66. Snuck Out Of The House?
67. Bought Porn?
68. Had A Virus On My Computer?
69. Had Oral Sex?
70. Dyed My Hair?

71. Gone Skinny Dipping?
72. Graduated From College?
73. Wore Someone Else’s Clothes?
74. Voted In A Presidential Election?
75. Rode In An Ambulance?
76. Rode In A Helicopter?
77. Caught The Stove On Fire?
78. Got In A Verbal Fight?
79. Met Someone Famous?
80. Been On Vacation?

81. Been On A Boat?
82. Been On An Airplane?
83. Broken Something Expensive?
84. Had Surgery?
85. Been In Love?
86. Beat A Video Game?
87. Found Something Valuable On The Ground?
88. Made A Survey?
89. Stalked Someone On A Social Network?
90. Prank Called Someone?

91. Been To A Library Outside Of School?
92. Spent Over $100 Shopping In One Day?
93. Cut My Hair And Hated It?
94. Peed Outside?
95. Went Fishing?
96. Helped With Charity?
97. Taken A Pregnancy Test?
98. Been Rejected By A Crush?
99. Been Suspended From School?
100. Broken a mirror?

101. Thrown up on someone?
102. Lied to your parents?

I was going through old e-mails that I had saved on my AOL account (trying to clean it out so I can close it and migrate to a new account elsewhere) and I stumbled across one that said it was from FS6. I looked at it and I had apparently contacted him January 1, 2007 asking for a full view of a picture to help settle a bet.

The only part of the image that was released online was an edited/cropped picture. My friend told me that it was a sexual picture and I said it was suggestive. After contacting FS6, I saw the full image and realized that I lost the bet.

Nothing of any real importance here, but I just thought it was interesting and worth mentioning. The guy I want to make my fursuit, helped me lose a bet.

I am quite amused by this, much more than I should be.

My buddy and I were talking on the phone and I asked him about his colostomy bag. He told me that they closed his ass hole, so he can't fart anymore. This led to other amusing conversations, but a question popped into my head and didn't feel he would know the answer to it. Since he's straight and married.

If a gay guy has the same operation, does that mean he can never have anal sex or is there a way around that?

It's just one of those random things that I think about from time to time and feel the fandom is the best place to ask.

It's no surprise that I have been wanting a fursuit for quite some time now. I spoke with  firestormsix at FCN12. I decided shortly after FCN that I wanted him to design my fursuit. So I spoke with him again at AC12. He wasn't able to take any measurements at AC, but I suppose that is for the best since I am hoping to have some weight lost before commissioning him.

I ran into a snag though. I knew that I was going to have to have a concrete reference sheet made up that had finally determined all markings and fur patterns. That's not the snag. Firestorm informed me that they don't really make a lighter gray fur.

Since my character is a gray wolf with two (or sometimes three) shades of gray, this poses a problem.

I'm not sure where to go with a reference sheet. I don't want to have just a solid gray wolf, because that's not very creative and would look rather boring. But I don't want to change/substitute colors either. I like being a gray wolf and if I change the colors, that would render all my previous pictures of my character as wrong.

What do I do?

Okay, I don't mean to spam journals but this is a quick update and deserves its own.

Good news is, I'm done with physical therapy. It's not helping anymore so they're done sending me to it.

Bad news. They want to give me a cortisone shot. I am thoroughly freaking out right now. The only thing that scares me worse than being touched is shots. I have a very serious fear of needles.

If you want to cut me open, go right ahead. If you need to give me a shot, gas me and knock my ass out first.

But this isn't surgery. It's minor. So I'm going to be awake for the whole damn thing.

I know needles are nothing to be afraid of, but they scare the bloody shit out of me. Now I just get to wait for them to give me a call and tell me when and where.

Today sucks.

I know physical therapy doesn't require me to do much, but it's exhausting. I'm making no progress. Everything they're having me do is stuff I can do at home without having to waste a trip up here. The electro therapy and ultrasound are the only things I can't do at home and even those don't seem to be doing much anymore.

I just got back from AC yesterday and on the ride home, my buddy calls me and tells me that the other roommate has lost his mind. He went apeshit over the electric bill being higher than it was in the winter. The apartment gives free water and heat, so it's understandable that it's cheap during the winter. He also agreed to pay electric while my buddy Sean agreed to pay the cable/Internet bill. Cable has been consistent and always over $200 every month. Electric was over $200 last month and James went crazy. Stating that it's all my fault and I need to pay the electric bill. Which is amazing since I was pretty much never at home last month.

Sean was concerned that James was going to put all of my stuff outside on the curb while I was out of town. So that was a fun thing to wake up to on the ride home.

Put these issues on top of all the other issues I've been dealing with lately and …

I'm getting tired of having to deal with this crap. I running myself dry. The vacation to AC was great and it helped out a lot. But getting hit with this crap again as soon as I returned, no, not even that late. Before I was even back…

I feel like the vacation was a waste. I want to give up.

When I moved to Georgia, I didn't feel like I was running away from anything, even though there are people that said I was. Today, I feel like I should run away. The only reason why I don't is because I know it won't solve anything. My back pain will still be with me. I'll still have bills. I just won't have friends.

I can finally see why so many people play the lottery so consistently and with such hope. They need something to grasp onto. They need that little bit of hope. The only thing I have to grasp onto anymore is here. It sounds so stupid, I'm trying desperately to think of a better way to word it.

The fandom is really helping out a lot. I didn't realize how much it helps until after I spoke with my psychiatrist friend.

I want a fursuit. That's my goal and the little thing that I'm grasping on to. I want to be able to put it on and escape for the little while I'm wearing it. Everyone needs an escape. For me, it really seems the fandom is mine. I knew that I loved being a furry, but I didn't seem to realize how much I needed it.

I've got a few friends that seem to understand, and a few that don't. The ones that don't just think it's a hobby of some sort. The friends that do understand seemed to figure it out a long time before I did. They encouraged me to be more active and to hell with what anyone else says. My cousin is one of them. He's been pretty much shunned by the family because he's made some poor decisions. But he's backed me on everything I've ever done. Is that a reflection that I'm making a bad decision?

I know my friends on here will have some encouraging words for me and I always look forward to hearing them. But I'm just getting so tired of… everything. The emotional stress is killing me. I've been dealing with it pretty well up until now, but it's getting worse.

I don't know why I'm posting this journal. Maybe I'm secretly looking for attention (and failing miserably)?

I love helping people out with their problems. I can offer a fresh perspective and unbiased (somewhat but not really) opinion. But I think what I like the most is that I don't have to deal with my own problems.

I also had a weird dream last night. It involved Lavshep and Derpshep. I'm not going to get into specifics but I blame that damn totter Nekari and cotton husky Talic. I'm sure they contributed to it in some way. So go give them some shit for me if you think about it.

If you made it all the way through this, I'm impressed. My thoughts are no where near as organized as I would like them to be. This whole journal is one random blurp after another. And being done on my iPhone doesn't help me organize my thoughts any easier.

Oh well, I'm waiting to see the doctor right now. Maybe I can find some good news eventually.

I have passed out all the cookies I made, if you got one from me, please feel free to tell me what you thought!

I would love to talk more about the convention (in summary), but right now I am about to head out of my room and meet up with a bunch of other furs to eat Chinese.

I'm staying at the Courtyard and not the Westin. It's essentially just as close to the convention center as the Westin, but there are NEVER elevator lines! And it's a thousand times quieter.

I've also got about 200 cookies to pass out. Come find me!

Well, not right now. I'm going to bed now. But in the morning, tweet wolfemasters and find me, use FourSquare to call or text me, or send me an email. Use any method you want. I'll let you know where I'm at!

I was just speaking with a friend and he mentioned a good point.

I have no problem with people coming up and asking me for a free cookie. I do ask that you are polite about it. Those that scream "COOKIE!" or ask in a retarded manner (i.e. "Eye kin haz kewkie?") will be met with disappointment. I will refuse to give you a cookie.

I am doing this for free, out of my pocket, these cookies are not cheap and I am making a LOT of them so that hopefully everyone will be able to get one. The only thing I expect from you guys is to meet new people. Hence why I want you to look for me, instead of me looking for you.

So, let me make it easy for you:

Rules for Free Cookies!
1. Be polite
2. Ask nicely
3. Be polite
4. Tell me who you are
5. Be polite
6. Mention the FA journal
7. You think I might like it if you were polite?

I can not stress enough how badly I want you people to be polite. It would be nice to make a good first impression so I don't have to dodge you for the rest of the convention. I may be fat, but I am very good at hiding.

Please mention the journal so I know you didn't just see someone else getting a free cookie and want to mooch one. I will tell you no if I think you are just stalking for a cookie. I also have a few people that I will be looking for. Most of them are not included in the previous journals list because I do not want them to know they are getting one. It's a surprise.

It's always sad when a friendship has run it's course and has to end.

I've just concluded the end of two long friendships. It's a shame, but in the long run, it should be for the best interest of everyone involved. I refuse to name anyone because I don't want to drag it on any longer. If either of them read this journal, I truly wish the best for you and I hope that posting it here can make it known. I hold no hard feelings and I'm just sad to see our friendship end the way that it did.

1 friend died, I'm dead to 2 others, I hope I'm not counting myself out.

I don't want to drag this on, but I felt it necessary to post a journal. I'll delete this in the morning if I can remember it before work. This is just one of those times that I appreciate the supportive comments from the fandom. Even if I won't get to reply to them before I delete the journal.