ok I hate to do this but I have come to realize that my icon is so old and out dated that I need a new 1. I cant afford anything and im not picky on what I want it to be but I do want a new 1 so any offers im glad to hear. I did see a cute tail chase icon but havent been able to figure out who does them.

So much has happened since my last journal and even still I dont know who out there still reads what I post but recently I had a conversation that sparked an unusual idea and since I have no creative drawing ability, I give this idea out to anyone looking for a drawing/creative challenge! I have a new mate who calls me "mama bear" even though I am a wolf fursona, and I call him "papa bear"! Well a little over a week ago he commented on how cold I like my room being and he said I was his "little polar bear"! A few days later I was talking with friends about it and we joked about me being some "new hybrid" and tried to imagine a polar bear/wolf hybrid but no matter how we tried to think we always had to much of 1 and not enough of the other! So I turn to you all and if anyone is up to it I am curious as to what others can come up with! I would prefer my wolf character mixed with some polar bear traits! If you would like to add his character in it he doesnt really have a form yet but takes strongly after a grizzly bear! Any comments or questions feel free to leave a message! this is a totally open idea!

Yes I know its a bit dramatic but right now I am at a lost for words for a better title! I know I dont have many watchers and those who do watch might not even read this and honestly I dont blame them. I know im not a "full time fur" but I am a "full time supporter" In the 3-4years I have been here I went from a watcher to someones mate that thousands of FAers know to being a no one to a supporter and now I honestly dont know! I still and always will support but other then that I just dont know. Most people who know me know I take alot of crap! Right now I just dont know what to do and sadly I dont really have friends close to me who can understand or relate. My good friend  snowmoonstone and I have talked about some things recently but not everything as we both dont get to visit that much these days due to our busy lives! I am dateing someone but they aint very active in my life these days and im not fully sure why. I dont get along with family and my best friend and I aint on the best of terms right now so I am truly at a lost. I dont really want to get into to many details on here as its not really FA related but I needed a place to see if I could reach out to anyone willing to talk that might be able to help me sort through things! Thank you everyone who does still watch me and my contact info should show on my profile but if not and willing to talk leave a comment and let me know

Ok so i realize how much I fail here lol! I honestly dont know if anyone is really watching me anymore and dont blame them for not as I never post/submit anything! I do check once in a while but not that often! I have a very busy life and when I have some down time that all it really is... down times! I dont want to do things but relax and never seem to be able to! well until this weekend! It was just an over all great weekend! Closed a deal on a new job, got to spend some quality time with my mate (not a fur), got to travel a bit with some sight seeing, hang with good friends and make a new, and work on a tan! In a few months this wolfie will be moving to the state of NH and cant wait! I will miss my friends here but its not like I cant call, txt, email, etc them when i miss them to much lol! Grant you my family is mostly here i,m sorry but this wolfie needs room to run and things to chase! These days here I only have my tail to chase and I end up whineing when I catch it! So if anyone would like to chat feel free to message me here or if you really want me to see it faster ill be posting my FB address in a moment! Take care everyone who do still watch me and to those who dont well wont know anything as they most likely wont read this lol!

So I was noticeing that my journal was like 8 months old and totally out of date so I wanted to change it but sadly these days my brain half the time dont know what to say. I am alive and check in once or twice a week but nothing much more then that! So for now take care and when I got something to say/share I will!

So unlike befor there will be no ranting in this journal! See I am as happy as can be! I got word mid last week that I have an APARTMENT! I get to move in thursday and I can't wait! Over the weekend I had 4 days off and I decided to take myself a little vacation! I got up real early on friday (4 am to be exact) and drove 6 hours to a little safe haven and spent the weekend there with someone very special to me, he showed me around and took me out places! I HAD A BLAST! I have been nothing but happy for days now and its been great! I haven't been this happy in a very long time! My apartment is a little 1 bedroom but its perfect for 1 person and I get to keep my 2 girls (cats)! The rent is fair and I might even be able to get cable & net but we will have to see! Well thats about all there is to say!

So as most of you might already know Sedrin and I are no longer together! I have decided to move on with my life as well as him! My first step has been to get my own place for me and my 2 girls (cats) but so far thats been nothing but trouble! I thought I found the perfect place but as it turns out my credit isnt good enough! They said its cause of an old cell phone bill and an old medical bill! ok the cell phone i give them it was over 1000 (not my fault) but you know i dont see how it should determine wether i get an apt or not and as for the medical bill, well im sorry but thats bull shit! the bill is only 250 but they say its a problem! I have been in an uproar because of it! Im not planing on leaving FA because im no longer with Sedrin! There are a few artist I would still like to watch their work! But, I probably wont be on that often because as it turns out, I have 2 weeks to get a solid deal on an apt or I have to find somewhere else to stay! (dont you think if i had somewhere else to stay I would be there?) But, if I can get a solid deal on apt I can stay until the apt is ready for me to move in! So not only am I full force/spending all my time trying to find an apt, if I dont find one I got to find somewhere else to stay! Well thats about all I got to tell right now if anything changes ill let you all know ASAP!

so i was checking my mail and in the news section i found a headline clip that just grabbed my attention and now i feel obligated to share





http://buzz.yahoo.com/buzzlog/93582?fp=1




watch the first video especially and then the second if you would like

Hey everyone! Most of you might have noticed that I have recently posted 3 kitten pictures! My problem is I need a Name for that little girl and for once I cant think of one! So browse those pics in my scraps and if any of you have any suggestions feel free to throw them out there!