Buh. Just as things started to look okay.

Dad’s going to cut us off from our car insurance and phone bills next month, leaving us to have to pay for them ourselves. Meanwhile, mom’s lost her job and has to find a new one.

Essentially, dad’s just dumped an extra thousand dollars worth of bills on top of us while we’re all in the process of trying to find full-time work.

So that’s great.

*long sigh*

When mom filed the lease for this house last year, she only put two names on it: her and my grandmother. The idea was that if the landlord didn’t know about my brothers and I, we’d be more likely to get the house, and likely have a lower monthly rent. Only issue is, it’s kinda hard to hid that you have a whole bunch of 20-somethings living in the house, especially since they have to go through a security gate to get in and out of the community.

So today, just as I finally have a new license with my current address, we got a letter from the community warning us that I’m not on the lease. In three days, we either have to: A) fill out an application for an Extended Guest pass and pay for a $100 background check, or B) evict me.

I certainly don’t have money for a new place. And they can always say I failed the background check for any stupid reason, screwing me out of $100 and leaving me with no place to stay. And if I pay and do get through, I’m still out of $100, and I won’t have enough money to cover my share of the rent this month. As I mentioned in a previous post, with my share of the rent vs. the pay I make, I’ve been steadily losing money since we moved here.

…

I’m not comfortable with begging for money. I won’t ask or demand anything from anyone. You’ve all been great just by trying to keep me motivated to not give up on myself. But at this point, I don’t have any options.

My PayPal is wolfnanaki[at]live.com

I’ve been helping pay the rent since we moved here in June. Rent on this place is $1850 a month. Since mom and I make the most money of the group, we’ve been splitting the rent, $925 from each of us.

Thing is, at my job, I usually only make $800 a month.

So I checked my bank yesterday and saw I’m down to around a thousand bucks. Which is, you know, not especially great. Meanwhile all of my attempts at finding full-time work have lead me to fucking nowhere. So that’s also not all that great. I have some time, but come May, I’ll be down to a few hundred, and what about June?

Sigh.

I really don’t know what to do anymore.

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I stumbled upon these old images while cleaning out my hard drive. Character's a cute red catgirl named Hellcat, and she was designed by an artist called Angelicdeath back in 2004. I found the artist's DA page was deactivated, and no trace of these images I've posted could be found anywhere else online.

Is there a way to lay claim on abandoned intellectual property if the original creator/owner can't be found or contacted? Because I feel like adopting this stray cat. :v

I'm 25 today! \o/

(...wait does that mean I'm officially an old person now? Is this the part where I start getting back pain and forget names?)

Heya,

First off, I hope everyone has an amazing holiday season. We’re near the end of the year and about to start another all new. I’ll be 25 next month too.

Not long ago, I was thinking about what I had managed to accomplish this year. We moved out of the old house, my job shifted to two different stores, I finished my classes so I can get my Bachelor’s Degree, and I got a 3DS.

But I still haven’t finished my damn book.

I surround myself with images and notices and reminders that I need to work on it, and I keep stumbling into procrastination. I dick around on Tumblr and whatever other sites I have, I play video games until I lose track of time, all that and some change. It’s not doing me any good, and I need to get it under control.

So I’ve issued myself a challenge: get the book done by the end of this year.

To accomplish this, I’m taking a leave of absence on every site I frequent: here, FA, dA, Twitter, everywhere. I won’t be on Skype or Steam too often either. I’ve been failing myself and I’m fucking tired of it. I’m still struggling to get my independence, and if I can just start here, maybe I can get out of here.

That’s my hope and dream anyway. I guess it sounds sorta far-fetched, but hey, if garbage like 50 Shade of Gray can get widespread success and a movie, what’s stopping my marginally better writing from getting some kind of success?

Anyway. It’s been a great ride, and I appreciate all of the kind words and gestures from everyone. It means a whole lot to me. If you drop me a message in my inbox, I’ll reply as soon as I get the opportunity, but for now I really need to strap in and focus.

I’ll see you all in 2016 when I’m looking for a publisher.

- Nanaki

Clickle the linkle.

https://beta.furrynetwork.com/wolf_nanaki/

I'm sure you guys have all seen the beautiful art Kame's done for me. Well now they're taking commissions!

Check out their prices below, it'd mean the world to me. <3

Safe: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/18470692/
NSFW: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/18470706/

I'm not gonna go into spoilers. However, I will say holy fucking shit.

Like...the last two big finales (Canterlot Wedding, Tree of Harmony/Tirek) all sorta followed this formula and you could figure out where it was gonna go. This broke all the rules. And it was really dark. I knew it'd be intense, but not like the way it was.

I'll probably do a write-up on my feelings about the season as a whole soon. It might be one of the best of the series.

I need to get a good number of responses before tomorrow at noon, and I guess I'm wishing against fate, but any response would help me out immensely. Thank you, and spread the word! c:

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When I get my computer back, I’d like to try some new stuff. I mean, there are people who sit around playing video games in YouTube all day and making a living. I have a YT channel, and I was thinking of maybe doing reviews and maybe some analysis, for pony, vidya and other stuff.

What do you guys think? Would that be interesting?

So I kinda disappeared without saying what happened, but since I have computer access for the moment, I’ll explain.

TL;DR: Mom thinks I’m completely dependent and addicted to using my computer, and has confiscated it for the time being. Again.

It’s no secret to anyone who’s known me for a while that mom hates absolutely everything I like, and pretty much everything I enjoy is accessed via the internet. So she’s always used that as leverage against me, threatening to take it away if I fuck up. She says it’s like I’m a rubber band, stretched thin the moment I step out of my room, and the moment a chance arises, I snap back into my room onto my computer.

Saturday night, I had a long and miserable day at work. I got home, had some dinner, and went upstairs without cleaning the kitchen afterward. Mom lost her shit and had my brother take my computer and hide it somewhere, and I won’t get it back unless I get a perfect GPA and straight As this semester.

...yeah.

And before you ask: no, I don’t have enough money to move out, nor do I have another place to stay. I lost a whole lot of money paying for shit during the move, helping out with the bills, gas, groceries, as well as repairing my old car and getting my new one.

I guess for now, I just gotta grin and bear it, and try getting my comp back anyway. Unless somebody clicks that Donate button on my Tumblr page and throws me a million dollars or something, this is something I gotta work out myself.

So, yeah, I’m not gonna be around for a while. :c

We had it towed to one place that examined it and told us everything that was worn out and damaged, and gave us a total of $873. My mom, smelling bullshit a mile away, called up another guy from another shop across town, and said he'd do the exact same repairs and replacements for half of that. It was towed there today.

I'm still without a car for now. I'll be able to get a ride to school tomorrow, and hopefully my car should be done by the end of the day. $400 is a lot though. :c

My car's been making lots of creaking and groaning sounds lately. I've asked several different mechanics to inspect the problem, and I've gotten wildly different explanations from each of them, as well as super fucking absurd prices for fixing the issue. So I decided to hold off on really investigating it until I was a little more financially stable.

Then this happened today:
http://wolfnanaki.tumblr.com/post/128937601677

The car's parked behind an auto shop now, and I'll have to go in Monday to find out the extent of the damage and repair costs.

Siiigh. :c

We managed to get a place. We move in on June 1st.

We’re still tight on money and only really renting it out for as long as we can manage (5 or 6 months probably), but hey, we’re finally getting out of here.

So I’m gonna write up quickly what’s been going on in my life that has lead to this moment, what it means for me now, and what I plan to do. TL,DR version: my family’s finances have been suffering for a long time now, and it’s officially come to a head. I need to work on getting lots of money in as soon as possible in order to endure this, which will involve lots of job hunting and possibly selling my personal belongings. As of writing, I have 134 days before we lose the home.

Full post here:

http://wolfnanaki.tumblr.com/post/112083655542

It's official.

More info later.

Crazed man in bunny suit has violent and absurd adventures with mask-wearing purple wolf in early 2000s 3D animation.

Thanks, Japan.

Recent events have made me stop and think about stuff.

We lost two wonderfully talented people in such a short amount of time. First, we lost Kitty0706 back in January, and now we lost Monty Oum. Both of these guys were still fairly young, and they had fanbases all their own.

We’re reaching that point in time where Death comes by and reminds us that it’s still around. No matter how young or old you are, how many fans you have, what you’ve done or are currently doing in life…Death doesn’t stop for you to wrap up your affairs. It just comes and gets you.

And to that end, I stop and quietly ask myself…if Death came to me today, what would I be leaving behind? Kitty and Monty leave behind hours of entertainment on YouTube, the kind of videos that make people laugh, I have an unfinished book, a room filled with comics and LEGO sets, and a FurAffinity gallery full of porn.

I suppose my issue is that I’ve always wanted to leave something meaningful behind when I go - something that ensures my name, or at least Wolf Nanaki, are still being spoken hundreds of years after I’ve gone, so what I’ve done in my life will impact people long after I’ve left.

There was a story I heard a while back - I can’t recall where I heard it from - where a group of witches decide it’s time to unleash a new evil unto the world. They gathered together and showed all sorts of horrible, grotesque things that would surely freak people out and make life a living nightmare.

But there was one witch who didn’t bring anything, but instead, she told a story. It was such a terrifying, gruesome story that when she was finished, all of the other witches were visibly shaken. They told her yes, her story was the most evil thing presented that day, but asked her kindly to put it away.

But it was too late. She had already told the story. And once a story’s told, it doesn’t go away.

Our stories are being written and shared every moment we live. Every decision we make is part of that story, and it can never be taken back. So it must be imperative to all of us to give our stories happy endings. Show the people you care about the love and respect they need and deserve. Make somebody smile. Make somebody think.

Take your chance now, while you still have it. Take your dreams and make them into realities, instead of thinking about them every now and then and saying “maybe one day”. This is your story to tell.

Or something like that.

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I demand answers immediately.

Just wanted to say thanks to everyone who sent me “Happy Birthday” wishes yesterday. Things are still tough but the kindness is very much appreciated. c:

Also, some good news! I was offered a new job. Bad news: it’s at the Office Depot near home. I’ve had awful experiences there before. Jeez.

It is here. The day is upon us.

24 years is a lot of years.

Please go check out  kenomimiu's journal for info:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6398328/

So on top of losing my job in two months, we're losing our home in June.

We've been in foreclosure since forever, and my parents hate each other and have only stayed together for me and my brothers' sake.

So uh.

Shit's fucked.