It's been a while since the last journal. So wanted to put up a journal simply to give a brief poke here or there. Essentially a simple checkup and perhaps a way to push out some simple thoughts and what has been going on lately.

At home medical stuff had calmed down. So not as worried over the matter at this time. However, think I may be a burnt out overall.

Been struggling to focus and create as many pieces of art as I'd like. Although have plenty of WIPs, and concept sketches in the background. Have plenty of characters to make refs for, or re-develeop concepts on. Really been in the mood for thinking on magic casters so that might be exciting at a later time.
Recent adoptables to be added to the development list.

Hoping to kick the art drive back into gear, and maybe add a few more details for Flamels' WIP or simply consider it complete.

Physical journal habit has kept up pretty well!
So going to use that to take down to remind of future of goals and take down some game-plans too.

Think that's all for now~!
See ya.

December 1st, woo~!

A journal update for July!
The past few months have been rather hectic in particular. I have been using a physical journal frequently, or at least every couple weeks in the least. I aim to switch to monthly online journals to update just to practice and self-reflect somewhat. Which can be helpful to process ideas and emotions, but mostly to take notes for later of course.

There has been a bunch of crisis mostly in terms of family’s health so been lacking a lot of motivation here and there. Along with financial anxieties coming into the mix, which per prior journal had already been a bit of a concern. Thankfully, family is starting to recover again and I’m able to help where I can.

Outside of that mood toward financial anxieties have decreased somewhat. Realizing most goals are going to be pushed further away and thus giving more time. That and that most of the goals are for saving instead of emergency things at this moment. Continuing to grow increasingly lax on the matter. I hope to try and enjoy what I have a bit more for myself when I can.

My own health has been improving slightly. In particular I have been eating out less than I had in the past, an increasing amount of cooked meals and vegetables. I have also tried cutting back on overeating and have lost roughly around twenty pounds or so. I do hope to lose more, and perhaps increasing energy levels if possible!

I have been writing down an increased amount of goals in physical journals or in a habit tracker but I do need to keep up with it. In example I have been on & off with my biweekly uploads of art pieces, whether WIP or scraps. I do have a bunch of drawings in the backlog, and some works that yet to be uploaded for scraps.

One goal is to work on developing a system / rules for future collabs and trades. As I wish to expand and practice more in the future. At this time neither of these will be officially open, until I get a better internal balance.

Seeing as the passed few months have been hectic. I mostly want to stick to my aim of bi-weekly uploads as the second goal for August. When things are less hectic and I have a better internal balance of matters. Then I will develop further future goals out there!

Looking forward to next month!

Goodness me!
It has been a while since I have written my last journal. Seems I have been caught up in some manner or another or completely distracted. Probably more of the stress of switching work positions along with dealing with former family drama here and there. I will keep up with things a bit better in the future.

Also brief, woohoo! My birthday passed on December 1st.

At the moment, I have been having anxieties over finances. Something, I need to relax on. Prior, I would give myself a very small allowance and leave everything else to savings without much goal or care. I didn’t have any big financial goals I was working toward, but was practically saving every penny I could for the future without an end goal. Now that I have some goals I’m saving up toward, I may have become a bit obsessed, especially for financial goals that include my family.
I also wanted to find someway to improve the lives of those around me too, which has lead to further worry.

I need to stop this immediately. Unless there is a major financial decision to worry about.
For my own mental health, I will only review financial status at the end of the month and let the guidelines for savings be checked only at the end of each month & set reviews accordingly.

Secondly, I may have had a bit of a health scare back in November. So I will need to focus on eating healthier & perhaps a bit more exercise. Which are vague goals, but goals none the less.

My prior goals were to increasing my productivity and work on projects. That goal is a little too vague and keeps things ambiguous. None the less, it is something I do need to work on an intend to do. I will use Habitica & Rescue-time apps, to try and cut down on procrastination but also on over-extending myself. I need to set solid goals, and ways to achieve them. I’ll talk about this further in.

In order to not overwhelm myself. I will stop here for now, and list a handful of goals for starting this month to focus on and prune. I want to put more, but I will get overwhelmed. Instead I must focus on a couple at a time, and improve with Habitica and better journaling.

Here are my goals for this month:

On the first week of January I will delete journals of the previous years in order to restart on things. The intention is to set goals for a monthly basis, and to achieve them to the best of my ability within that month & possibly increase them onward into habit.


I will upload on a regularly basis of bi-weekly (within every 2 weeks) by uploading a completed artwork if its available or by uploading a WIP. Meaning every week I must dedicate to at minimum preparing a sketch for presentation. That way I will ensure to draw and complete images on a regular basis or descriptions of already completed works.

I will eat healthier by accompanying each meal with either a fruit or vegetable, including take-out foods. In addition I shall not personally purchase take-out junk food more than once a week. The only exception would be for salads or special occasions.

My name is Lucus Examni. I am an anthro deer of sorts, with very odd coloration like a few in the old country. If you are wondering dear reader the old country is or was named Key to Shambhala by the 3 kings and 1 Queen of the four different provinces. This story of course will not be about them at all. Instead this story will be based upon a few adventures and probably will not even be printed out as the whole book. Instead actual separated journal entries as I have written among them. I myself probably do not make a big difference in this alone country now that I think about it, anyone could have taken my job but there is truly only one me to handle it.
As I had early my name is Lucus Examni. I plan to summarize my life in this paragraph more or less. I am currently Sixteen my next birthday comes up in March. When I was little I had ran away from an orphanage and began my own small delivery job for myself. I found a small cave as my home in the woods. Later as I grew up and turned about fifteen I find my two employers. One of my employers, I had found very quite charming but I’ll get more to that later.
Back on topic the two had hired me to be one of the courier’s for one of their uprising companies the Sapphire Blades. I tour around the country help delivering weapons, information and also sponsoring about the company as we tour. It was originally just me but I had found a few people along the way and taking these long trips alone can of course be quite lonesome.
Where to start writing about or when in time to begin is always quite an issue to choose isn’t it? I’ll decide to go with my very first day on the job.
I was wandering around the town of Flumine that day. It was a very quiet and chilly day as it had turned winter; I would say the temperature was around 40 degrees Fahrenheit. I stuck with my usual attire though a pair of shorts, with the small exception of a scarf. My fur though not dense can usually handle enough cold. I was starting to get tired of not having a permanent job around at the time, but delivery and simple jobs were the basic things I did; I didn’t know what else I could do.
Flumine is usually a very quiet town and it’s mostly filled with doctors and a few lumber jacks. I have neither the medical knowledge to be a doctor (though I know a way around a few herbs and plants) nor the strength to be a lumberjack. I quickly scanned the town’s message board for any possible jobs, which of course there were almost none. On the board was only a simple job application. For a minute I completely ignored it but hell I was getting desperate.
I picked off the job application from the board and gave it a good read.
Courier & Vendor Jobs
We have plenty of open positions to apply for. We welcome you to our uprising company the Sapphire Blades! We are currently a company for making, delivering and selling weapons to both military personal and the public populace. Our main building is in Embark, Randia. If you wish to speak to find out more details on the job, find Romano Chikuyrei in your nearby town. I- I mean he should be staying at the local inn in room 209. Romano will only able to stay for an entire week in the town so if you wish to apply you best to hurry!


This was a bit of an odd occurrence in the country at the time; not many had tried to own companies and many had failed. Most businesses are strictly local and if not only range for a few nearby towns at the most. This is definitely something that had worried me about it. The job seemed absolutely perfect and happy for me but it had a very high chance of failing or crashing down and being bankrupt. Leaving me yet again jobless without a source of income meaning no food, which of course lead to starvation not to mention any emergency that popped up. On the other hand if this job worked out perfectly, I would be practically set for life!