Took me nearly four years to get my head above water, and there have been a lot of changes in my life along the way. Thank you so very much to all the people who helped me in my time of need. Rest assured- I've learned a few things since then and will never get myself into such a situation again where I need to beg for support. I will do my damndest to ensure I never have to ask from you kind folks again. <3


Wish I hadn't spent so long away though... not only have I missed everyone, I've gotten super rusty on coloring. Gonna have to fix that soon!

Hi there! If you're taking the time to read this, you already have my thanks.

I'd like to truly begin this journal by saying that all things taken into account, I feel that I am a fortunate person. When I think of the welcoming attitudes, the support, and the kindness I have received from those around me I can only be grateful. So thank you all for everything- it's been a marvelous experience being here, truly. And that makes this journal super hard to write... Worry not, this isn't one of those journals about complaints, and I have no intentions of leaving the fandom after all this time. This is instead a call for help.

To be frank, my current position has not been the best for some time now. Events in my life have been building towards a less than desirable outcome. I have had to relocate and support myself and my family on meager income for several months and well... The unexpected has occurred yet again. My income allowed me to live within limited means, but I have had no real issue with that. I've quit smoking, began cooking more regularly, stopped going to cons, and discovered many ways to stretch a dollar. Unfortunately it has not been enough to keep up with life's little events. I am now unemployed, facing unexpected veterinary bills and expenses, and unless things change in very short order I will be forced to disappear for some time. I cannot fully express the frustration that comes from trying so hard to keep things going and yet feeling as if I am failing at every turn. Even if I were to find a job tomorrow it would be too late to cover the upcoming rent for next month and I will be evicted with no money to find new accommodations. It sucks.

Why have I waited so long to ask for assistance? Simply because to do so shames me. Despite the fact that I have reimbursed every penny I've borrowed in the past I still feel like a leech to have to ask others to make up for my shortcomings. However at this point I simply do not have any other choice but to put my pride aside and ask before panic takes over and freezes me into inaction. So please... Help me in my time of need. Help me save my home. Help me feed my family. Help me give my dog the medical care he needs. If you cannot donate, then feel free to loan and I shall pay you back. Any amount helps. Even if you can only send a dollar, it would be one I did not have before.

Let me be clear, this is not your usual "gimme monies" journal. I would like to at least offer something in exchange, because to get something for nothing makes me feel all sorts of moral ambiguity even in such conditions. It has been suggested that I offer a raffle with tickets at five dollars and the winner(s) get a coloring job from me. I am more than willing to provide my services should anyone be interested! Other options have been weekly art slave auctions where I color a certain number of images for a single person so that I may focus my time and energy.

I am eager to listen to advice any others might have regarding methods of income in exchange for work and services as I intend to earn my way though as much as I can. So please if you have any suggestions, ideas on how such a thing may be possible, feel free to share with me. Though I cannot do this on my own, I hope that with the help of others I can find my way out of this position and back into a place where I can support myself once again.

Thank you for taking the time to read this even if you are not in a position to assist financially; just knowing that other people care has been a major source of support and has kept most of the fear and worry at bay even with my future so uncertain. If you feel spreading the word would help, then you have my gratitude. And if you do find yourself in a position to assist, please... Send what you can via paypal to Tymbre[at]gmail.com and note me so that I may keep track and discuss whatever conditions you wish to place on the donation. I'm gonna end this before I get all misty-eyed from such an emotional outpouring, and I'll be seeing you all soon. Be well, and stay awesome. <3

I have finally gotten my ducks in a row and as such I think I've gotten my current commission order all settled. So here they are in the planned order of completion;

 Teiran
 Alden
 Meade
 Jay1743
 Yiffyhusky
 furryjibe
 Teiran
 Meade

In order to get to everyone as swiftly as possible I have broken up multiple slots. If you're not on the list and think you should be, feel free to drop me a line and we can get it all sorted. Thanks to everyone for all of the interest, and I look forward to sharing these completed works soon. =)

Good news everyone!

Remember that drive that stopped booting and took months worth of progress with it? A good friend of mine has been kind enough to restore a majority of my lost data! Despite all the losses and wait, I am still attempting to make good on older commissions that never got off the ground. While I am pleased that I didn't take any money beforehand, I am not pleased with letting things slide without doing all I can to make good on my word. I have been working on my backlog and have actually managed to finish a number of partially completed images. There have been a few people who have been less than cooperative, and I've had people (yes, more than one person) downright refuse to pay for completed work due to such a long delay. While that's unfortunate for me, I do not wish to name names or to let that prevent me from holding up my end of the bargain. If I owe it, I plan to finish it if I am able.

As such, I am asking for anyone who is or has been expecting a commission or collaboration from me to ping me and let me know if they are still interested! I have a list of my own and will be working through them, but until I can truly work through my backlog I cannot in good faith open up slots to new people knowing that I have folks still waiting for their product and I would be highly upset to let people slip through the cracks.

In addition to my use of online storage, I plan on keeping a visible list of expected projects to maintain order in the future to see to it that this sort of thing doesn't continue to occur. I really should have started this sort of thing sooner, and I appreciate the continued support and patience everyone has displayed. Once I get all my ducks in a row I'm sure this will no longer be an issue and I will be able to open up for regular projects once again instead of my collab slots. Won't that be nice? =D

But only 2!

I really don't mean to flood so I'm still holding back on finished things just to space them out. On a side note I am looking at the last 12 remaining items left to post, and I noticed that the "cleanest" image has a hefty pair of 32DD breasts that appear to defy gravity and at least two images contain characters with two dicks each. Oh, and dogtaurs!

I feel sorry for people who have boring and predictable hobbies.

...I forgot to keep posting stuff. Lemme get back to that. >.>

(Double posted 'cause this is something I actually want to talk about)

I hardly know how to begin this dialectic debate, and for weeks I've asked myself if making it were even a good idea after having seen what passes for "discussion" on other entries regarding this topic. I am not keen on the idea of using the attention I have here as a platform for my own personal crusades of any sort- I respect everyone here too much for that. I'm putting this out there only because I feel like I would be doing a disservice to the community if I did not. I am not looking for arguments, but I am willing to attempt joining the public debate in hopes that most will understand the distinction.

So with that horribly constructed preamble out of the way, I gotta say I'm super frustrated with this hard-line stance so many people have taken and are promoting! This For/Against argument appears far too simple for such a complicated service. I do not have the means to recount the number of times I have seen an argument derailed by the oversimplification into Good or Bad, but at least this time I have the chance to say something about it. Let me be clear here, my issue is primarily with the prevelance of the Good/Bad mindset ESPECIALLY those that choose to progigate it. I feel that this discussion itself is logically flawed and possibly detrimental to the fandom. It's as if we are so accustomed to taking sides, that it is assumed that even this should have one and I posit that this need not be the case.

I have seen a number of otherwise reasonable and logical people make the decision to unwatch or subscribe to a person's content the moment that a Patreon or paysite option becomes involved. When approached, the most common response seems to be "I do not like it when artists do <X>." Wherein which <X> is most commonly something rather nasty and mean. Now let me tell you, I myself have many problems with <X>. I too have felt its sting and it has left me resentful at times, downright bitter at others, and wary lest I run into it again. Nonetheless, I have been a victim of <X> more times than I care to admit. People I felt close to have done <X>; some have even suspected me of it personally! I am NOT going to defend <X> to you. I just ask that you not let the fear of <X> cloud your judgment.

As an alternative I invite you to consider the usefulness of <W>. It's not <X> at all! In fact, most people forget they're even close by. However a number of people who seem to have a problem with <X> find <W> downright delightful. (Obviously it'd be even better if it weren't so close to <X> amirite?) However there are those who argue that we cannot have <W> simply because someone might take the next step over. To be frank, the idea that an entire service should be denied due to what can commonly be boiled down to a personal moral objection is simply unreasonable. If your reason for opposition is a moral one then logically the proper stance would be to support the uses that you do NOT find objectionable (<W>), rather than to destroy them inadvertantly by focusing on the ones you do (<X>).

Now there are some people who are going to be unwilling to go back on a hard negative stance once they've taken it AND will encourage others to do the same. Shame on them. Shame on you if you are one of them! You are free to justify your own decisions to yourself, but let others make thier own like responsible adults. No joke- I dislike discussing ethics and realize this can clearly come across as presumptuous on my part. However I feel that it is even more presumptuous and patronizing to disagree. If you feel upset by that statement, I encourage you to read it again and possibly diagram it to really make sure that it applies to you. If it does, then you probably deserve it. If you're hungry for attention, feel free to comment about this being the case and should you wish it I will gladly discuss your logical fallacies with you directly.

So hey, that's a lot of words I've just put out there, and not all of them are kind ones and I'm truly sorry about that. I simply do not know of any other way to express my alarm at the futility of these self-created crises and the damage it does to make this entire argument so cut and dry. I get that it may seem like a convenient way to handle a complicated situation, but it is highly irresponsible and kinda lazy in all honesty. So there, that's it. I've gotten it off my chest now... And though I know that things will progress regardless of my input, I just could not see this pointless argument continue and stay silent while so many other people refuse to do the same.

P.S.
Obviously if I'm entirely off base here and Patreon is really the worst thing ever and worth villifying, anyone should feel free to correct me. I would welcome a well-reasoned discussion for the concept of a blanket ban as a rational response, especially as I haven't seen one yet. Just be prepared for me to ask questions and get curious!

...When on earth did that happen? Seriously, you guys are too awesome for taking that much interest in my work and encouraging me to push past my own doubts and fears about my disability to improve. I don't even have the words to express my gratitude and just wanna hug everyone. ;_;

Seriously, thanks so much!

...I really wish I'd kept up on learning to draw so that I could make something to commemorate the occasion. X3

Seriously... 500 faves in 10 hours? Gosh, I really don't know what to say other than thanks to all my watchers!
I may not reply to every comment, or shout out for watches and the like, but I really do appreciate the continued support. =D

Still alive and arting! I tend to post my completed projects in waves. Would anyone prefer if I just put them up as I finished?

There's this picture I've been working on for a year now... Not every day, but bit by bit, using elements of it as practice to hone my technique in shading and rendering. In some areas I feel it needed some work, but for the most part it was turning into a picture I was actually proud of. So much so, that I purchased a drive for external storage just so I could be sure to maintain my future projects!

So two days ago when I found out I had only 3 gigs of space on my main drive I ran my backup, deleted my local files, and discovered that not only did I not tell it to get my backlog folder, the backup skipped that file since it was the FIRST file I backed up a year ago. All I have now is the initial sketch and I've run out of expletives to use to express my frustration.

So rather than get super huffy and emotional, what I've done is give up. I can't handle that project and my backlog so... as of now I officially have no backlog. Since I haven't taken any money for pictures that aren't completed, I've decided to just wipe it. I apologize for the inconvenience, really I do. But I've gotten in over my head, and so I'm bowing out rather than keep people waiting on projects I don't even have any longer.

It bothers me to create such a visible lack of professionalism in my work since I take my responsibilities seriously. I've created a name here and the last thing I want is to damage my reputation and the trust that people place in me. Trust me, I don't want to be one of "THOSE" artists and can only hope that people will continue to work with me despite my horrible turnover. I'm going to be honest, it's not going to get much faster, but I will do what I can to at least finish what I start from this point on.


...That said, my queue is empty as of an hour ago and since I have no shame and love money, who wants to take a chance with me and send lines my way? I'll be taking up to three pics at my own discretion, so note and link me whatever it is you like and I'll pick three pics on a whim. Just do me a favor and let's keep the violence and mutilation out of this request run. I may work on a lot of stuff, but let's not keep pushing the envelope. I gotta sleep at night. >.0

Howdy! Thanks for taking the time to read this journal, I certainly do appreciate it! Since I've posted a bit recently I've gotten a number of questions from people asking about my availability or for me to draw something for them. As much as I would like to help I do not know how to draw, nor am I free for new projects. However I know of several people who are quite awesome at both!

 BadCoyote has been nothing but quick and pleasant with me in all my commissions in the past and I really dig his strong lines. Not only that, but he's quite the colorist to boot! If you're looking for something new or something upgraded, you'll certainly be in good hands.

 kimbyfox is not a fox, but he's a darn good colorist who's a bit new but definitely showing promise. Not only is he quicker than me, he's also got a broader range of illustrative options and tricks, so feel free to check him out. =D

Thanks again for taking the time to read this journal! I'll be back when I can and wish you all the best until then!

Too bad. I'm just gonna flood this place instead.


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Okay, flood is over even though I missed a few pics. But that's only because I have actually misplaced the files 'cause I am super unsorted. Sorry for the inconvenience!

Thanks to everyone who stopped by my streams over the last few days just to stop by. I know I announced that each would just be coloring work while I catch up on commissions, but I totally lied. Each one was just an excuse to give stuff to people for stopping by even though they wouldn't get anything out of it. I got through over a dozen pictures just for folks who wanted to say hi and keep me company which is the best present I could have asked for. =D

Hardware issues aside, I should be getting a replacement monitor for my artwork computer today or tomorrow. Expect more unposted works to follow!

Oh, while I'm here and getting through my queue I've noticed that several people still wish to commission me for coloring! In order to save time and not leave people waiting, I'd like to take the time to request that if you ARE indeed interested please link the image(s) you'd like for me to consider here or note me a link if the work is private. Since I can only work under certain conditions I'd like to prequalify images so no one has to wait only to find out I can't work on it! X3

Thanks for all your time and patience!

Since I started this coloring thing it was my goal to be able to appeal to a wide variety of clients and themes, and so far I certainly seem to have had a lot thrown at me! However I do not wish to only be known for only one particular type of work and over time certain themes have come in waves that might imply a preference that I do not have.

I would like once again to remind people that I am open for a wide variety of subjects and content and in doing so have begun creating thumbnails to inform people of certain themes so that there are no surprises. Hopefully this will also lower the amount of comments I get regarding personal preferences about other people's characters. Since I would like to keep my gallery a friendly and open place for any commissioner and watcher to feel comfortable, I'd like to ask you all for suggestions on themes that I should make thumbnail warnings for. I look forward to your input and feedback! =D

I'm considering making a new payment option for my commissions. I'm slowly improving my style but the time I have to put into certain things is increasing as my level of detail rises. As such rather than make a large hike in prices, I've decided to open a new payment plan in the form of bitcoins.

Any picture. Any content. - 1 (one) Bitcoin.

Would many people take me up on it? Unlikely, but I don't need many! As it is, I am just a colorist and I don't charge nearly what my line artist friends do and I need to make up for the inequality in time. You would be amazed at how many people are willing to shell out over a hundred bucks for an hour's worth of work on lineart, but get angry when I request 25 dollars for nine hours of coloring. I get that not a lot of people consider colorists to be artists, but I would like to be compensated for my time. I promise, I'm trying to be faster in the meantime. X3

Input and feedback would be appreciated!




tldr version: Hey Boss, can I have a raise? Toss me that bitcoin you're not using.

Six months without posting, even though I've actually been working. Maybe I should fix that!

Just as a heads up to everyone, my boyfriend will be visiting in a few weeks so if you thought I was difficult to reach while getting things ready for his trip, things are only going to get worse. X3

In the meantime I am still working on several images. Originally I intended to post a few images I did where I began leading up to my current method, but I am afraid that I will have to simply begin uploading as I finish. One of the reasons I have been so hesitant to act is because of my concern over quality. My most recent image is one that I spent weeks on, learning new things and pushing myself in new directions, and I cannot invest so much time and effort into every image. Not just because it'd take forever, but also because there is a limit to the amount of work I'm willing to do for less than $2 an hour. I will continue to do my best, but I shall now be more cautious with invested time so that no one has to wait eight months for a picture.

That said, while I do try to take payment only after an image is complete, I am willing to expedite projects if someone is willing to help pay the bills a bit more than they need to so keep that in mind if you want yours faster. Cheap, Quick, and fancy. You may pick two! X3

In other news, I have been facing some concern about being a bit typecast as a colorist and as such have taken projects outside of what you usually see in my gallery. Given that I have the option, I'd like to take a moment to actually thank everyone for keeping me so busy that I can actually pick and choose what it is that I work on! To be spoiled by choice is to be spoiled indeed. However, while I do not mean to distance myself there is a difference between what I work on and what I personally find appealing. While I can appreciate certain kinks, my friends have agreed that I am in person disappointingly vanilla and annoyingly female-inclined. As such those things will probably be getting favoritism on my end for a bit. But worry not, there will be plenty of other stuff coming this way, I can assure you as I have several images already accepted and begun that are sure to tickle someone's fancy or another. I am after all here for the fandom, I just don't want people to get discouraged by seeing only one sort of content. =)

Well seems like my lunch break is about over here, so I'm going to get back to work! I'll be keeping an eye out for new projects and streaming opportunities as my schedule allows and I hope that if you're reading this, that I can catch you there one of these days. Feel free to come in and say hi! =D

Finished the big collab thing that's been eating up all of my time, and now I think I should probably start posting the things that I did as warm up and to practice certain techniques. Unfortunately there aren't as many of these as I'd have liked, but I'll be going through them and then the final version of the larger project. I'd love to just put everything out now, but to be honest I'm still fiddling with a few things because even after so much time on something I feel as if there's still more to do! i will freely admit to obsessing over minor details that no one will ever notice and will probably have to stop working on the picture before I ruin it, which is why I have a version out now juuuust in case. =p

In other news, personal things have been ongoing, and are less dire than before; thank you to those who asked. I still have my ever-present complications but am finding the support to make them more tolerable, and have even re-entered twitter on the advice of people smarter than I. Thank you all again for your patience and understanding through all of this. It's certainly made a difference.

Anyways that's enough vague complaining and whatnot from me, let's get back to having fun, shall we? I'll be on later today to do some more coloring work on my back log, who here thinks I should stream it just for old time's sake? =D

For those of you who chat with me on IMs, this shouldn't be a surprise, but for the rest of you I think I should at least take the time to say yes I am alive. My computer went offline due to a SSD failure and locked my files in a dead drive that I am only NOW getting to recover.

Very sorry about the hiatus, but on the up side it gave me time for my wrist injury to recover and stopped me from working too hard and burning out on coloring. Stay tuned as I finish up projects and try to make this wait worth it!

It's all in scraps.

Hey, if I were to offer three free colorings to be done in time for Christmas, would anyone want one? If so, link me to a picture here. I'm not sure if I should limit it to pictures that are already inked and ready so if you have plans to get something drawn and want a shot, comment here anyway and I'll see what I can do.

There is no cost, no raffle, just a random lottery so I can spread some joy during the holidays so please... Spread the word! Let's make some people smile. :)