Guess it has dawned on me. I'm nothing more then an entertainer to people. A Joker. A class clown. A Party Animal. Many girls whom I attempted to date wouldn't take any consideration to not cheating on me thinking I won't care or I'll be too high or drunk to notice or do anything. No one ever fell in love with me let alone for whom I am. I was just there for fun to them. Fun, entertainment and attention. People threaten me because they think I'm a reckless and careless animal devoid of any real care or emotions. Most are too used to the jokes and antics that in my moments of darkness no one can handle me nor wants to deal with me. You would want me nearby, but you never want me close. No one wants a clown. I grow tired of wearing the painted on smile...

It is consuming me...

and ruining my life...

The more I learn in college the more I lose hope...

Imagine what it will feel like when you fall in love with someone who actually loves you back

I'm not exactly in a happy mood so I can not fake a smile. It just pisses me off more. I know people have enough problems of their own so I keep all my shit to myself and bottled up. Someone asks me "What's wrong?". I tell them and they give me an attitude saying "Well I don't know what to tell you." I didn't ****ing ask for advice. If someone asks me whats wrong and I don't tell them they harp on me or lay into me. I swear some people just look for an argument...

I gyrated my hips and attempted to click the " +Watch " on my own page because a voice from my radio told me to "Shake my ass, Watch myself!"

Caffeine withdrawal is a bitch.....

I will have more writings and drawings up. Just juggling work and such

Look folks here my little rant. Why is it that if I express the fact that ::gasps abruptly:: I feel pain, since I'm not dead yet, I'm considered whiney. Yet when I hold them in people act like I have a nasty look on my face or that I look off and everyone has the audacity to ask "Whats wrong Wolfy?". I feel pain just like everyone that will read it. Maybe some of you can channel it better, but some of you can't. Just face the reality that not everyone is happy and then when we all realize how miserable maybe misery loves company will become a main factor and we can pull ourselves out of this rut.