So, based on the coloring of a butt toy I saw on MouldForged's social media, I got two butt toys of my own: a Bunbutt in Drotar's colors, and a Queen Rat in Kovar's. Here's the thing: both have dark-colored genital areas (dark purple for Drotar, dark brown for Kovar), to give them the "dirty used whore pussy" look.

Here's my question: Should I do a bit of touch-up for the models' artwork to give them such pussies, or no? I'm leaving this up to you guys.

Still feeling a lot of emotional burnout, and the fact that no one is really interested in suggesting things for me to make in SFM doesn't help, either. I kinda feel like I'm done with art, at this point, just puttering around with refining what models I already have in Blender and not doing much of anything with them. I don't draw, anymore, despite getting a manga set for that kind of thing, and reading stuff let alone writing is right out; I don't have the patience or attention span for it, anymore. I feel like, the only way I can contribute to the non-AI art, here, is to commission other people to do stuff for me, but that costs money, of which I have very limited income. I'm sorry to everyone who was hoping to see a comeback from me, truly I am, but I'm just tired and done with things, right now. I wish I could be more active, but I can't be...

So, sorry to ask, but I've been working with a guy to get a glove sleeve mold shell made for a torso-based penetrable toy, based on a model of my ownership. However, last time I took this design to someone to be made into a pour (not the guy I'm working with for the shell), they were very unprofessional and wasted 5 months of my time without any real indication that they were going to work on it at all, forcing me to back out and get a refund on what I paid for the project. I would do this myself, but I don't have access to a 3D printer or have the room or makings or the funds to get the makings for doing it, so I need to find someone fairly reliable in the USA to help me make this. I've got around $400 saved up, with the possibility of going to $500-$600 when I get my next check, and as I said, I'm working with someone to get a file for the shell made. I would go with MouldForged, since they're really professional and have experience with this kind of thing, but they don't have access to a 3D printer, either. Is there anyone I can check out who might be able to do this? Please let me know. Thanks. The size of the final pour for my toy would be 7.5" (length) x 7" (wide, from hip to hip) x 6.25" (depth, from back to tip of the breasts/belly).

*sighs* I want to get back into doing SFM stuff with my KabalMystic models, but two things: 1. no one wants to suggest to me any ideas for it, and 2. when I try myself to do something, I end up defaulting to my personal models for gross/disturbing renders, which I don't like the idea of. I've been bouncing on and off my meds, lately, due to mood crashes and burnout, and honestly, it just feels like a chore to even exist, anymore...

So, for the last FIVE MONTHS, I've been dealing with a toymaker called Max the Maker Toys to get a Drotar torso sex doll made. Yesterday, I gave up and had to get Paypal involved in getting me a full refund of $1150 for the project. Why? Because the guy is an incompetent scammer, that's why! He kept on putting off doing the project for these months, never getting back to me on ANYTHING unless I poked him hard enough to get a response, and the furthest he got with my project is maybe half of a printed mold? I don't even know if he had the entire mold ready to go, just half of it. This month, he went to like 3 furcons - two of which he never told me about until after the fact - which kept on delaying things even further. He always had an excuse for why he wasn't able to do it, and to "prove" what he was doing, instead, he sent me very, VERY intimate and personal photos of him, photos that no self-respecting professional toymaker would EVER show a one-off client. The straw that broke the camel's back for me, though: when asked when he would be back from the latest convention, not only did he show me personal pics of him doing fuck all at the convention, but he punctuated it by saying he was "high as balls" and couldn't remember when he'd be returning, spitballing a Thursday date, which he didn't sound at all confident about.

Does this sound like professional work to you? It certainly doesn't to me. I switched to him from a guy in Australia to do this project, solely because of the tariff situation, since this guy lived in the US not far from me, and thus wouldn't have to be subjected to them. Should've stayed with the guy in Australia. So, now, I have most of the $1150 waiting to be refunded, with the last bit in dispute, and frankly, if this puts his account in the red and strands him at the furcon, that's his loss. He gave me NO indication of what progress was made, NO indication of when he'd get to it other than "when I get to it", treated me more like a drinking buddy than a customer, delayed as much as he could with bullshit excuses... The guy's a fraud, and I would not consider him for any projects, in the future. In fact, it's because of him that I'm not going to do any more projects of my own creation with other companies, anymore. This is just bullshit. STAY AWAY FROM MAX THE MAKER TOYS!!!

God. Fucking. DAMN! Was that a rough game to get through. Even on Normal difficulty, it was long, hard, GIRTHY, and exhausting to get through in one attempt. Even breaking it up in multiple sessions, it was a nightmare to beat. I expected Iga-sama to pull one of his classic tricks for unlocking the true ending, but I didn't expect it to be ANOTHER FUCKING HALF OF THE GAME LOCKED. This isn't even, like, SOTN Inverted Castle stuff, this is more Order of Ecclesia half the castle is blocked off unless you do a series of long and arduous events to get the means to unlock it. Seriously, I hope he tones this down for the sequel (but we all know he won't do that, will he?), because I was literally feeling the mental and physical fatigue of playing through it. Even skipping the cutscenes (which I shouldn't do, for my next playthrough... provided I DO one, given the investment I made to this one...) didn't help much. Didn't help that muscle memory fucked me over raw with the controls; the delay with the swing of the two-handed blades threw off my rhythm (yeah, they threw off the emperor's groove, man), and I kept pressing up and attack to use the bullet shards, instead of the dedicated button for them, leaving me fucked to attack too many times to count. I nearly beat it blind... almost. Got to the final, FINAL boss, but didn't have enough healing items to weather its attacks. Eventually, I said "screw it", looked up some tactics and where stuff was, and just maxed out the Chisel Barrage directional shard, took on the optional bosses for boosts and to get a hold of the entire library's worth of power-up books, and just spammed chisels to the face of the final bosses. I was just... so done with trying to beat it legit, by that time.

That being said...

...I thoroughly enjoyed it! It's an awesome game, very much worth your time! It plays very much like the Aria and Dawn of Sorrow games (which are some of my favorite Igavanias out there), so the shard usage was very intuitive (minus the muscle memory issues), I never really got that lost, the crafting was a bit of a workout (didn't get all of the crafting stuff, though I likely did get all of the recipes), and leveling up and buying/selling/using various equipment was rather fun to do. My favorite weapon, believe it or not, of the non-shard variety was the Spiral Sword, because it's basically a giant chainsaw. That was pretty cool, and I loved how it dealt multiple hits with each swing. Good way of racking up blood for the blood drain shard, too. Wish some of the healing shards were more useful, but eh *shrugs* The bosses were all pretty cool, if tough as nails, and the secrets were rather cool (still have yet to beat the 8-Bit Nightmare area or the Journey tie-in area, though). I never really got bored with the game, it was very engaging, and even through the exhaustion with its length and difficulty, I still felt the drive to push through and continue playing. Iga-sama really knocked it out of the park, here.

Just... don't try marathoning this thing, please. Save your sanity. Take it in reasonable bites. It is NOT the kind of game you want to burn out on, believe me.

So, apparently, the gender keyword list was removed, because one or more of the words in it were found offensive? Is that right? If so, here's my thoughts on it:

Frankly, I find this all confusing and just muddies up things more than the keyword list did. This is coming from a cis male who is a fan of intersex characters in fiction, and has intersex characters that he uses for artwork. You might have seen me label Drotar and friends as "herm", which I understand is now an offensive term. Okay, fine, word meanings change over time, like how "gay" changed from happy to homosexual. Here's the thing: biological hermaphrodism is a thing, and so is the Greek myth of Hermaphrodite, and being both a fan of mythology and a logical-minded person, I intended to use "herm" to represent both in a respectful and accurate manner. I don't mean it as a slur, I mean it as a specific thing that is scientifically and mythologically accurate to the name. Furthermore, I've had people criticize me for using the term, by saying they prefer the term "futa" instead; this confuses me, because a) in my experience, it may or may not be used to describe a slightly different intersex setup than what "herm" does, in my understanding ("herm" being used for people with the full package of breasts, vag, penis, and balls, with "futa" being used for those that lack the vagina or the balls in that combination, and even then, there's no real separation between the two versions of "futa"), and b) I was always taught growing up in the fandom that "futa" is just as derogatory and offensive, reducing the intersex person to a fetish, hence why I found "herm" to be more appropriate.

Now, I'm perfectly willing to use the right word to describe an intersex character or person's gender, but the problem is... WHAT IS THE RIGHT WORD?! "Dickgirl" is definitely out, because of how offensive that is, "Gynomorph" sounds too clinical, "Intersex" is too broad a term, and we already established how "herm" and "futa" are individually offensive, so... what can I use? How can I describe Drotar, when she's either a) a female with full vag, breasts, balls, and penis, as with my renders of her in 3D, or b) one without the vag, as per the Gromofox pics? In short, what do you WANT me to call you, and what is the most appropriate, non-offensive, and most accurate descriptor to use?

So, we know of the issues that this site has with SFM artwork. Does that extend to Daz Studio artwork, as well? I ask, because I recently downloaded and suggested to be made for download a bunch of Star Wars alien characters (some of them were made on my suggestion, so I figured they counted as "original work"), and I'm wondering if I'm allowed to post renders of them up on here. If anyone knows, please inform me. Thanks.

1. Got my final backpay from SSI, so I'm using it to pay off various stuff, like getting the car repaired (turns out it just needed a tune-up), paying off the toy project I had going on, etc.

2. Also got an upgrade to my computer, which was fiddly to get done, annoyingly.

3. So, question to people: have you ever only been attached to a franchise's fandom SOLELY because of the porn for it? Like, for me, I'm not a big fan of horror stuff, or MLP, but I'm into porn of MLP, FNAF, Predator, and Alien. Anyone else have similar feelings for a franchise?

4. So, we got rumors that the place is being bought out that we live at, but that turned out to be somewhat wrong; it was the land on the same lot as us that got sold, and is being used to build a homeless apartment complex for people, partially sponsored by the mental health group that we go to for our therapy sessions. We're concerned, because we're not sure how this will affect our standing at the apartment complex we're in, if we have to move out to make room for the new thing or what. I'll keep you guys informed as news comes in.

I'm looking at all I've done with my Kovar/Cobar models, and wondering if I should retire them to make a more distinct version, since these were originally made with JoeAdok's design in mind, and I feel like I've corrupted and tainted it by my use of them. I have talked with the artist years ago about it, and he said that it was alright, since he knew what he was getting into by allowing me the use of the design, but the more I look into it, the more I feel very guilty about it. Sadly, I can't contact him to ask his opinion, because I can only find him on Deviantart, and I had to deactivate my own due to getting a ton of spammers trying to scam me with offers to pay me to let them make fan art of my work (if you EVER get these kinds of emails, DO NOT ENGAGE, just report the user and block them, and move on). What do you guys think? Should I retire the models and designs, for the artist's sake, even if he's said he's okay with it, or no?

https://www.mediafire.com/file/sr7u.....eeter.rar/file

Thanks to Hiroshi-san for helping me update Sherman and Skeeter with new flexes and - for Sherman - a new jacket. Hope you guys like it.

As the title says, I need a distraction from all of this shit news from the political side of things, so ask my anything, if you'd like. Please. Thanks.

As the title says, my roommate wants to commission people, but most people use Paypal for that, and he can't really use it for himself for that kind of thing. If you guys know of any artists out there that don't use Paypal that have decent prices he can check out, please let us know. Thanks.

As the title says, what attribute, kink, or situation do you associate with my non-KM models? The Wolvalix ones, or the ones I cobbled together for my own use, like the male Sonic ones or the BMFM ones?

For those who like watersports but not scat, what's the reason behind it? What makes piss play to you different than scat play, as a sexual concept or kink? Technically, both are excretions, and it's been proven that neither is very sanitary to play with, let alone consume, so... why is the first more acceptable to you than the second? Is it the whole "marking your territory" bit?

It saddens me, looking at my list of artists that I'm watching on here, that most of them have either disappeared entirely or have become lurkers instead of continuing artwork. Big names like PherociousEso, VictoriaViper, Hasani, etc. Like, what happened to them?

Just curious, because I'm not seeing anything new, pop up, lately, and I know that, while just a static base model, Runnherd/Darkhedgehog23 has stuff out for Cassia, Clove, Mimic, Rough and Tumble, etc, that we can take advantage of. I know people have been asking me for characters like Rough and Tumble, Thrash, and Clutch (all of which were mad,e but Clutch is still stuck in paywall limbo), so...

If you guys didn't know, I was a bit of a dong designer, back in the day, the more recent attempts (before I had to stop due to getting on SSI, and not needing to thanks to the stable income it gave me), being to just get some extra money to keep from swamping my roommate with requests for him to buy me stuff (like food, clothing, games, etc), but it started off as an attempt to get a toy designed, sold, and made based on a walrus dong, just so I could have one based on Rotor. My designs started out as a freehand attempt to combine realistic texturing and veins on a visual approximation of Zetapaws' old Seal jelly toy design. Now, despite being based loosely on Zetapaws' seal design, I did try different designs of my own, and didn't copy it one-for-one. Once I got a good design that I thought would work, I went out trying to find a buyer.

That proved difficult, since both Bad Dragon and Exotic Erotics, at the time, refused to take it; partially because I tried selling it to both at the same time, partially because of issues with the cartoony nature of it. I ended up finding Average the Porn Fish (aka Candiru Curio) to commission two of my designs (you can see them on his FA account), but it seemed like the initial rejection I got cursed the project, because we only got like 1 of each toy molded and poured before the mold broke, and he quit before he could make another mold for them. He tried giving the designs to another dongmaker, back when Etsy was still allowing their sale (I don't remember which one, though) had too many issues with the clay positives he made. I ended up selling the firmer of the two toys, because it wasn't quite what I wanted, but I still have the other.

It took until I started designing and selling my own unique designs, a few years ago, that I found my old designs, and decided to spruce them up and see if I could sell them again. Fortunately, many of my designs did sell, including two of my old walrus designs; the one I was most proud of ended up selling to Erogeisha, a company that deals more with non-size queen/king toy lovers, and the toy was smaller than I tought it would be, but that's fine with me. It's currently for sale on their website under the name Maguma, a nod to a Toho Kaiju that, while technically a lizard, looks much like a walrus.

The other was snatched up by another company, Element Toys in Canada, where they took my alt name for it, "The Leviathan" and made it their own. It's more along the size of my remaining old design, and that's pretty cool. It's still up for sale on their website, along with another toy I made based on the Werehog, and hopefully they'll reupload for sale the first toy I sold to them, the Cyberpanther, though apparently that one didn't sell too well on Etsy, due to the size of the head compared to the shaft.

Anyway, what started out as an attempt to make something I could use, personally, based on Rotor, turned out to be a long and arduous, but ultimately fulfilling, quest to make a small name for myself in the amateur/independent toy maker club. If you want to check them out, go get yourself a Maguma from Erogeisha or a Leviathan from Element Toys. Fortunately, they look nearly nothing alike, so you should be pleased, either way.

*This journal is not an endorsement for any companies, living, dead, real, or fictional, and is just to toot my own horn about having a walrus dick I can take while screaming the name of a portly Mobian pinniped.

After having to constantly wrestle with the program to get me something even remotely correct with any character other than Rotor (who, even then, the program likes to fuck up with), I'm throwing in the towel with AI artwork and going back to normal art and SFM work. AI shit is just too fiddly for me to compromise on. Let's just say this: when I tried, tonight, to make some Doggie Kruger AI porn for the first time (using an actual lora of the model), and the first time it gave me a close up look at the lower legs and dong of the character, NEITHER OF WHICH WERE EVEN REMOTELY CORRECT TO THE CHARACTER, and the second time with a simplified prompt, I got a NORMAL FERAL CANINE THAT DIDN'T EVEN RESEMBLE DOGGIE OR HAVE HIS COLOR SCHEME AT ALL, I knew that was the last straw for me. Fuck AI.

I'm stuck in my own mind, and I dunno how to reconcile my thoughts and feelings about something, that something being the advancement of AI artwork.

I know it's a touchy subject, with a lot of detractors, and I understand their arguments against it, I really do; as an artist, I don't like the idea of my stuff being stolen and recycled into something else without my permission. I want regular art to thrive and will support normal artists, whenever I can. The issue I have, though, is in the details.

Every argument I've heard and seen against AI artwork, I manage to think of a logical counterargument for it; "It's stealing without permission", yeah, plagiarism and forgeries have existed long before AI happened. "It'll rob artists of jobs". Yeah, that's what people said about Photoshop and CGI, yet we adapted and now consider them integral parts to modern artwork."It looks uncanny and shiny and soulless!" And yet Funko Pops are all the rage. Y'see my point? While I can see and understand the arguments being made to detract from the method, I can see the mirror image of those arguments to counter them. As such, I'm stuck in the middle, without any real leanings one way or another on the subject, and it makes me feel like a hypocrite and too wishy-washy to be a good judge of this.

One thing that I use to compare AI to is my old hobby job of KM headhacking. I see it as being no different: you put a bunch of other people's assets together, slap a half-assed texture on them to make it look "different", and even program in something (or use someone else's program) to make it work the way you want it to. That's it. It looks like I'm creating a new character for someone, and it looks like I'm putting in real effort to do so, but... it's really just frankensteining together parts from other people's works and putting in programming to make it look and act the way I want it to. If you break the model down to its constituent parts, you can even point out which parts come from what models, and from whom they were made by. What is the difference between what I did, in those cases, and what people who do AI artwork do? Hell, most of the time, I don't really ask for permission directly to use the assets, I get them from public releases on Deviantart and Steam's SFM Workshop, so the parallels are further cemented.

Another thing that I'm struggling with is that, when done right, and with some care put into how it's formed, I can see the aesthetic pleasantness of some AI artwork. I can acknowledge that, when done well, it can look decent enough to be pretty and likeable as a casual art lover. I've found 2 AI artists, one furry and one Japanese-based, that do it well enough that I can see myself fapping to their porn. But, thanks to the stigma people have on it, whether it's justified or not, it makes me guilty for doing so, because it makes me feel like a hypocrite, something that is one of the biggest things that I don't like feeling about myself.

I had a long 2-hour talk with my roommate about it, and while I tried to remain neutral and see both sides of the situation, it felt like he was harshly judging me, and he even said that it sounded like I was advocating for it instead of against it. And after a while... it made me wonder if I was. I did call him out on his bit of hypocrisy, pointing out that he had friends who dabbled in AI artwork, and as part of his job as an organizer in a big VR game show group, he does occasionally use ChatGP to come up with certain dialogue for the shows. But I still understand his concerns about it, and want to acknowledge that, as well...

I'm not sure what to do with this, honestly. I don't want to engage in trying out AI artwork, myself (partially because of the stigma, partially because I fear the programming part would be too technical for me to follow), but I don't see it with as harsh an eye as my friends do. Even some of them acknowledge that it has its uses as a tool... but I can't seem to get them to understand that, in my opinion, we can and have adapted to other such tools that had the same accusations that AI artwork does, and I don't see any difference, mechanically, between the two, so why can't we find ways of adapting that tech to our own uses and make it work for our benefit? I admit, I don't get some people's hatred for even using references to help make an artwork look better. Is this any different from that? I dunno. Am I the asshole for being on the fence about this? Please let me know. Thanks.

...But I don't recall there ever being a fanfic or comic or whatnot made in the fandom about a masochistic sub werewolf slave who gets off on being used and abused by dildos and other sex toys made of silver. If there has been, please let me know where I can find it. If there isn't, anyone interested in trying it out?

I say this, because someone on a Reddit, in regards to a question about why the character isn't as talked about as the other Freedom Fighters, made an interesting observation: his general attitude toward things is very militaristic and pragmatic, with his opinions being assertive in a rather aggressive way. Examples that were given: when Robotnik first invaded Knothole, his first thought was to use his Party-Hearty Quanta-Sonic Rock'n'Roller gun to blast the tyrant to ashes (which failed), then later, when Sonic returned from his year long trip into Space, and Rotor was on his anti-gun pacifist kick, he was very aggressive in asserting that opinion to Julie-Su. He also was very vocal and aggressive in his opinions and subsequent retirement from the Council of Acorn, mainly over Nicole's banishment, and he was quite an assertive leader of Team Freedom, after he got his Iron Rotor suit. Finally, in the reboot, he had no qualms with suggesting stealing the Chaos Emerald from Breezie, instead of going through her tournament of champions to win it. It's like, he cares for his loved ones, and won't try to see them get hurt, but he is very opinionated and firm in his opinions, and pragmatic enough that he wouldn't shy away from doing morally gray things to get an outcome he wants achieved.

This brusque, authoritarian attitude seems like it would be perfect for him in a leather daddy role, where he needs to show control, assertiveness, and support for his submissive - enough assertiveness to make sure he can punish a slave who is misbehaving, and keep them in line, but with enough compassion to stay his hand from going too far, and reward the slave for doing well. Makes one wonder, doesn't it? For me, I wonder how I can incorporate this attitude further into any stories I write/commission with him in it, or any RPs I have involving him...

1. Had to shut down my Deviantart account, on account of getting a bunch of scammer accounts hitting me up all at once. I just got hit with two such scams, and while I didn't fall for them, it is getting annoying that I keep on being targeted for it. What's worse, is that my Circuits, Crossed rewrite? Never got any traction on there, so yeah...

2. Speaking of, I'm finding that most of my stories aren't getting traction anywhere, at all. That's super frustrating, and I'm wondering if it's worth continuing to try and write anything, anymore...

3. On another note, I'm wondering what I should do with my collection of sex toys. I don't use them, my roommate doesn't use them (except for very rarely his arcanine toy I got for him from Bad Dragon, years ago), and it just feels like a waste to keep them, but some of them were my own design, so they hold a little bit of a special place in my heart, so... I dunno...

4. Rent's more than doubled on us, now that I'm on SSI, which sucks, because I am most definitely not getting the max amount I should be getting for it. I need to get the paperwork for the rent to the office, but thanks to the recent crash that was reported, I'm nervous about faxing it in...

5. On a good note, I'm getting an RG35XX H from a friend of mine, in exchange for one of the larger toys I had. I dunno how well that computer runs, since it's an emulation handheld, but I hope it's okay. I don't like that it doesn't have any way of using Android apps, which means some of the programs I have won't work on it...

6. Overall, though, I'm just...tired. Blah, worried about my health (especially my dental health, since one of my remaining teeth decided to chip off, again), my financial safety, and overall just... my future in general. I really don't feel like I'm going anywhere or getting anyplace in particular, just stuck in neutral.

So, any Yugioh-heads out there know, it's rough in the game, right now; we're in a very unpopular meta, one which is going to be getting worse with the next set: the price of the cards are going up substantially, making casuals like me who can't afford to buy into these expensive decks feel left in the dust; and as a result, people are leaving in droves for games like Lorcana or Pokemon or One Piece. I recently just learned that my local card shop (not an OTS; they applied but never got a response) is thinking of dropping the game, entirely, because of these issue, and one other: the people who DO stay behind for the game are so few and far between, and are royal assholes, complaining about the set they were given a box of for a prize for their last tournament, pissing off the tournament holder, as a result. Because of this, the game's essentially dead in our area, and thanks to other expenses, we can't make it out an hour's drive to the nearest OTS, either.

So, this leaves us in a bit of a pickle: do we quit the game, entirely, and if so, where would we offload our decks and cards to, to ensure we get our money's worth, but not burden our local store? What would we keep for sentimental value, if anything? What would we do, afterward? All tough questions to figure out, but hopefully, once my roommate gets back from AC, we'll have a way to answer those.

I'm looking for fans of my Drotar and Friends characters (Drotar, Kovar, and Tammy) to help me come up with an origin story for them. How did they come about, why do they do the things they do, where did they come from, etc. First one to come up with one that I can discuss with them about and approve of will get an exclusive download to the characters' models, free of charge. This will be your ONLY chance to get a hold of them, so if you're interested, please PM me with your idea. Keep in mind the kinky and somewhat awkward stuff I'll be getting them into, with my renders, when coming up with something, please. Thank you.