((THIS CAN ALSO BE FOUND ON MY NEW ACCOUNT HERE ON FA; unbreakable-warrior ))

So as you know and I are married. We are now trying to get the paperwork done to get me to stay permanently in the U.S; so we can finally have a more 'normal relationship without all the worry of raising money again and again to see each other for only a few weeks every time! xD
Sadly paying for the lawyer and paperwork is extremely expensive. We did it; but..
There's a but.

My dog; our dog; is still in France; with my biological family.

They will not keep her and she has to be gone before may 23th.
My mother's option?
Letting her at one of her "friend's" house. Friend I do not know; and that my dog doesn't know; either. And this is where the big problem is:

See; my dog is an EXTREMELY shy dog; scared of her own shadow (she is terrified of bottles; anything that would look like a relatively big stick; men in general; loud voices; running people; any kind of car/bus; water)...
She was abandoned and abused as a puppy; she's a rescue; but despite all the work I did with her she is still very jumpy and terrified of strangers. I could not take her with me when I left France because it was too expensive. Our first plan was to get me and my dog in the U.S; then have my pup stay with my mate when I'd go back to France to get the fiance visa (so that we'd then get married and finally stay together). It could not be done; and we thought leaving her in France for a while would be fine; that we'd get her in the U.S relatively soon.
But things didn't go as planned (As you can see xD I mean we're married /now so x3), and the plane ticket to get her here is very expensive... she is a dog with extreme separation anxiety; and her constant whining/howling when left alone is now a problem for my biological family (with work for some and school for other; she would be left alone pretty much all day in the apartment).

The thing is; with her extremely fearful behavior; she cannot be left with a stranger. If she feels scared/cornered/threatened; she could bite (she never did; but she's a dog with normal dog instincts, you know?) and IF she did bite; she'd be put down!
PLUS she has severe allergies to any kind of bird meat and eggs; and ANY KIND of dog food contain chicken meat. So I have to feed her 'human food' (as in; red meat and fish and such things that are good for dogs). I doubt a stranger would be able to take care of her; she is a high maintenance dog just with the food problem - it is expensive to feed her; and takes some time as you have to cook her food. And with her high metabolism she needs three meals a day because without that; she gets skinny (she is healthy though; the vet said so).
AND she needs a lot of walking/running; being a Belgian malinois mix.

SO our problem now is; we need money to get our dog in the U.S!
We are not asking for donations (though they would be greatly appreciated as we have very little time to get the money)
But if you could share this; or commission xxowlflight ; this would be absolutely amazing! I will also work on LOTS of YCHs (I will write a journal where you guys can comment on to give ideas of what you'd like to see). I cannot take commissions; but I can sell YCHs that my mate will then finish x3

My pup is my baby and I am extremely worried about her. She saved my life when I was suicidal by giving me a reason to get up in the morning and keep on trying. She stayed by my side without failing for 7 years no matter how much of a stupid teenagers I was at some point; or what I thought of myself and others thought of me. She is a wonderful friend; a great support in my life and the most amazing; patient; loving and loyal dog I've ever known.
And I refuse to let her down.

So I just want to say thank you to anyone who will help in any way. It really means the world to me

So I needed a new start and new username; both on dA and FA.
The sad thing is you can't change usernames on FA; so I had to create a new account.

 Unbreakable-Warrior

My name is the same on dA; http://unbreakable-warrior.deviantart.com/

xxowlflightxx here to announce this cool thing X3 (cuz Jazz's comp's a pain in the butt so it's faster for mt to do it)

So I'll have my mate home for christmas <3
We got the tickets and Jazz's plane will land on Tuesday the 23rd and we will get to spend the next 3 months together <3 We don't kow for sure what will happen after that, but we will figure it out as we go. For now we can just be happy that he'll be here for at least a while <3 We're both very excited but haven't really realized what's happening XD I had a dream last night that I saw him at the air port and just passed out cuz to many emotions. I KNOW I won't know how to handle it all hitting me at once XD

I can't thank everyone enough for helping make this happen. We're not in the clear yet and we are still taking commission and working our butts off to get us where we need to be but for now we're out of the fire, and I couldn't be more thankful. You guys are amazing <3

Two YCHs are still waiting to be taken:

NSFW:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15178182/

SFW:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15184366/

We just wanted to take a moment to say thanks to everyone who has helped us. We know we've posted a lot online asking for help, and we're really extremely sorry for that. We didn't want to but we didn't know where else to turn. Thanks for all of you for standing by us and helping us with donations and support. There is nothing we could ever do that would be enough to repay you for what you've all done. All we can say is when we are stable enough to do so we will do everything we can to pay it forward and help others like you have done for us. For now we can not donate to others because we are still working on stabilizing our own lives, but we will still do what we can to help others in every day life. Even if small things are all we can do for now, it won't stay that way forever.

We wish we could say more to express our gratitude, but really it leaves us speechless. We've both been brought to tears by the support we've been given and people are continuing to give. Thank you all, we're not religious, but if you are then god bless you, because that's all I(cricket) can bring myself to say. You are all amazing and deserve the best. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

I'm out of the hospital!

So.
A lot of things happened and a lot of things that happened were due to bad conditions and a really crappy situation.

The appartment here sucks and is falling apart. My mother lost her job and other little problems like that made her extremely tensed. I've had my own problems and we ended up fighting everyday or so. Of course after a while; things got bad.
Fights were worse and worse and words have been said without real meaning behind. During my time in the hospital I got to talk to my mother a lot.
About being trans; about my plans to leave to be in Cali with cricket, about our fights and how hard it was to communicate.

We cleared most of the things while I was there and it's a good thing. Basically things are looking up again with my family and they even help with paying the plane tickets and will pay for things like the dog's cage and other silly details that would be hard to deal with alone.

They also now call me Jazz/Jasper and they use male pronouns. I gave my mother the possibility to chose my second name to show I wasn't rejecting her and she chose Gabriel; showing she cares and tries hard to make it work.

I am now planning on leaving in december. Things being the way they are I'll take as many commissions as possible and donations are still greatly appreciated because we have very little time to get all the money D:

Anyways; all the family drama should finally be over.
Thanks for all the support, this really means the world to me. It was necessary and without people's help I wouldn't be here today so. Thank you guys.


Also sorry for all the worries and such; it was super hard for me and I needed to share things and ask for help. I truly appreciate everything you did for me. Some of you guys donated; helped to spread the word, other stopped to give some words of support and it's just fantastic to see that I'm not alone <3