Two weeks ago on August 18 2012 I lost my grandmother. She was 87 years old and died in her sleep at home in her bed. I went to her wake and was a pawbearer at her burial. Since then i have tried to be strong for those around me but its hard. When i am alone i cry. I have tried to go out into the wood and talk to her but all i do is cry. The pain of her loss is overwhelming at time. I have been told that the pain will lessen over time but i wish it would go away. Its just wishfull thinking i guess.

Well i am starting to look for someone to draw Xander's ref sheet. The problem is i am not sure where to start. Does anyone have any suggestions as to where i should start looking?

I am thinking of adding another fursona. It will be a White Wolf with crystal blue eyes, a small greey patch on his chest and a tribal on his back. His name is Nanok and he is a year old. Just curious as to your thoughts.

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The song in this video means so much to me. It reminds me that what ever happens to me , that i am never alone as my friends will be there right by my side giving me the encouragement to keep holding on and that things will get better. Thank you.

It has taken me all my life to figure out where i belonged. In the past few years i think that i have found where i belong. I belong with those that care and love me for who i am and not for what i am not. Those are the fursons that i want to have around me even when things are not going well or when things are at there best. I belong with those that want to have me around and not want to use me. To those that want to use me i say this to you " go away and stay away" and to those that will stay by me through the good and bad times i say this " i welcome you, come and stay with me and let us cry and laugh at whatever life throws our way."

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I have found something that was missing in my life. Its a great feeling to have finally found inner peace. All i had to do was to let go of my painfull past and reliese that it nolonger has a place in my life. As a result of finding this inner peacdde i am alot happier now and really look forward to what life has in store for me. This was something that i needed in my life along time ago.

Friends are like the greatest person someone can have. They are there to help pull us up when we are down. There when we laugh and when we cry. They are the sholder to cry on when you need it and the strength to comfort us while we cry or they cry with you. They are there when we laugh and when you are having fun. They come to help you when you need it and not worry about the cost of gas for their car. Friends are the best thing anyone can have in there corner. Friends are there to help you through anything that life may throw at you. Friends do not judge you because you are different, and they accept you for who you are. If you have friends that do all of this, then you are the luckest person in the world. You should charish those people.

I have a few people that are like the above. I find that when talking with them its great. They do not judge me because i am different, they accept me for who i am. They care about me and what happens in my life. I am humbled by the friends that i have because i never thought that it was possible for me to have friends that would accept everything about me and that i would let get to know the real me. All i can say to them is this " Thanks you for beleiving in me when no one else would." For everything that you have done for me so far and in the future, i am greatfull.

Many have asked who i am and i will answer with this:


I am the face that is forgotten,
My name that is not spoken,
I am the person that time forgot,
I am the one that people forget,
I am seen but not looked at,
I talk but am not listened to,
I am full of love but noone cares for me,
I live but yet am dead inside,
I see but yet am blind,

I will be rembered,
My name will be spoken,
I will be looked at with admiration,
When i speak people will listen,
I will have people that love and care about me,
I will become alive inside,
I will see the beauty in everything,
All of this will come true because i am a suvivor