We had to let our Shadow Boy go today because he got septic and they reopened him and no bowels were good. So had to make the decision that he doesn’t suffer and not wake up from the surgery. He was only 4 years old I’ll miss him and playing with him every night.

Well our pup is back to the vets office cause he was still being lethargic, not wanting to eat or drink nor walk much unless really pushed to get up so had to take him back to the vets office. They got him in and they ran some blood work and his SDMA level is high and a few others that wasn't too scary to the vet but still a worry but ATM the vet tech is the one who took him in and ran the blood work and sent results to vet and then called and told her and she then told us. So our original bill for his surgery and meds and 2 night stay before this was $2300 USD and now its going to just go up -_- only good thing is that they are willing to work with us on the bill and let us do payments for this but still a hard expense to get and recuperate from.

Well I have to say being an adult sucks first off (lol). Our youngest pup (4yro) went through surgery to remove a blockage in intestine which 4-5 inches had to be removed due to necrosis and a vet bill of $2380.00 USD and 3 nights of him not here in his usual sleeping spot in bed and another vet bill prior {other vet in my opinion since first time to him and examined him first, after then he got worse so since we were closer to normal vet who is not that way used a dye for her to see if there was a blockage via x-ray, she found it with the dye and x-ray} doesn't like to use a lot of meds or chemicals unless necessary). I am hoping he pulls through completely since he was able to come home today (Tuesday(operation day)-Thursday) but ate a little but not much and loose well you know. I hope he recovers soon and is back to his normal silly self and that we can afford to pay his vet bill(s) and our others like food, home, etc.

I know random but in watching some friends and being a fly on the wall so to say cause I don't do well anymore in crowds or gatherings cause of my past and that. (Yes I'm the quiet outcast that others like to vent to and get advice from but no one ever reads or listens to me when I have something to vent about or have an opinion about but is what it is been that way since I can remember). But I digress, some friends were talking (and mainly friends of the mate girls) about how their mates were asking to yiff/have fun/play the horizontal mambo/etc. and they were "not in the mood, have a headache, not feeling well, etc" but they were just like "eh, I don't care just didn't want to have sex cause its not benefiting me". I can say that cause one pretty much said I'm not going to get anything from it I just lie there and wait until he finishes and not like I'll get a gift nor is it an anniversary or birthday so why should I give it to him? Which as Peter Griffin says "you know what really grinds my gears" is how they think its ok to deny it or say shit like "it's not like amazing or the greatest its like average" (yes that is what one said and didn't realize I was in the corner on my phone pretending that I wasn't listening (mainly cause I can't be playing music cause mates watching TV and dislike headphones) when talking about having sex with their mate/BF/Husband/Wife/etc. yet men are not taught to not show emotion, not to expect a pat on the back, a bouquet of flowers, an atta-boy, praise, etc. yet girls are the opposite you got to do all that to show them you love them, you care, etc. but for men the one way they can express their love and get (in a sense) a way to show emotion, a pat on the back, a bouquet of flowers, an atta-boy, praise, etc. is through sex and women/girls don't get it. If a man shows his emotions he's weak, he's a girl, he's a looser, etc.. Yes, a man is to protect and care for his mate and be strong, emotionless, but a provider but he shouldn't be expected to be deprived of the one thing that he can do/get to be shown that he is loved or cared for. Yes, its not everything to us (yes I am a male, married, happy) but it is important even if you or others don't think so it is one way that we feel we are loved and cared for. (This is my thoughts and others that I know think the same) We don't want it just cause we want sex we want to be able to show and feel love we are taught not to show emotions (and is good and bad because if we are emotionless we are more of a stronger presence and more of a foe to those who wish to do harm or that to our loved ones but if we show our emotions we are weak). And to hear mates talking as if sex is a weapon to get things or that they don't like it or its like "eh I'll just do the motions cause its nothing" is frustrating to me. If you don't like it talk about it how can he make it more fun, better, enjoyable, better, or best for you I can guarantee he will try to and do his best to make it better but don't condensed him or make him feel inadequate cause sex is learned not inherited. I know this is my thoughts but shit I hate hearing this kind of sh@ like "my BF/husband is just wanting sex" or "sex is only if I want him to get me something or do something for me" . Sorry if I offended well not really sorry it's my thoughts and opinions. I just think a lot of cheating is done because of this. mate never wants to have "fun" (aka make him feel loved/appreciated/show-feel emotions) but she/he is willing to have "fun " and let me feel appreciated. I just don't get why no mates really want to actually sit down and walk of their issues or what they are feeling (and has to stay between you and him/her not your friends or family). But I know one reason how can you trust each other when more than likely yo told them something that was supposed to be between you and her/him and he/she said it to their friend/family member which made them lose trust. And is understandable (I've been through it and still have trust issues but am open about it with her and she's understanding that I am not stating everything of my past due to that and the past) to have that trust lost but the only way to get around it or patch it is through slowly giving up little things that is to be only between you two and no one else and see if he/she keeps it between you two only and slowly gain that trust back. (Once trust is lost its hard if not near impossible to gain back depending on past incidents but can be re-gained if you don't do anything to lose the trust again. Men have an ultimately harder time re-gaining trust once lost than others cause it is taken advantage of too many times especially with those they love/trust enough to tell their secrets too and be more open than what they are with those around them. This is my thoughts and what I have been through but it is me and my thoughts/opinions. I’m only being honest here and stating this because I lost my care of what others think about me or what others think of me no matter who it is cause I’m at that point of not giving 2 sh@s about others …. But …

Sorry just a rant so I'll stop here.

I know my mates going to be mad at me but oh well...

We're trying to have pups but sadly my mate is unable to have them naturally due to some medical issues...I'll leave that at that... but she can bare them so we opted to do embryo adoption (if you want to know about it ask or oogle) and well first try was well a miscarriage sadly and now of all else she got off her insurance to be on mine since 4 months ago they said they accepted mine however they told her when hers expired that they haven't accepted mine for a year now (jerks wouldn't even look at the card prior to hers expiring which could've told us they didn't accept then would've kept hers just for this) so now of course all bills are 100% out-of-pocket with no insurance help. I'm taking on as much overtime as I can get and side electrical jobs as well to try to help but not many looking for electrical here apparently and I don't know how to do sublimation nor can I draw to save my life. But ATM I'm at my wits end of ideas to make some more moola to have pups. I have to pay $800 dollars tomorrow just for them to check to make sure all is out so my mate doesn't have sepsis or get it if anything is left if not going to be a heck of a lot more to do a DNC . I wish I could do something to help make more money so we can have pups. My in-laws have helped tremendously and my folks would help more but they've been in rough times (accident, car broke down, limited income due to no work no pay and no PTO, my vehicles having issues and I have fixed what I can but some I can't fix myself due to lack of know-how and funds {i.e. drive with a jacket and gloves or pay to fix actuator or whatever is the problem, jerry rig/JB weld to fix things temporarily till can fix properly, etc.}. I just don't know what to do to help more to have pups and be able to enjoy and be a father that can play with my pups and not be always know as a Jurassic or old father that can't play and be with my pups like a father can/should be like and see them grow up and have grand pups and that. Any ideas or ways that I can help in this situation would be greatly appreciated especially since 99% of insurances would cover pregnancy's and abortion but not to get pregnant which IDK why that is but go figure and not to be a negative Nancy kind of one but I just don't understand that but what do I know. TIA

Thank You to all here.

Me and my mate (who isn't a furry) have started a little side hustle/gig of doing sublimation tumblers, cups, etc. and much more.

Please visit us on Facebook or here (I'll post all the new stuff we make here ASAP but not as fast as on Facebook though).

We are open for commissions and questions can ask here or on our Facebook page (https://www.facebook.com/GonzalesCraftJunkies)

Please help us out and support us

THANK YOU ALL
(Those who support us by purchasing our crafts, those who share our page and crafts, and everyone.)

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I got a tattoo and it's off my fursona and it's just the line art and I like it but I possibly would like to have it colored but I want to see it before I get it tattooed on me permanently (line art style is good and may not but if looks good colored I might get it colored) thank you in advance. (https://www.furaffinity.net/view/3050232/)

Happy New Year or Nude Deer hopefully this new year is better fur all of us

Keep your spirits up and stand tall great at to all I love all the art ^_^

Also, question is any fur interested in helping me out with coloring a piece of art that was drawn fur me (which I did get it tattooed on me) and I would like to have it colored eventually. I just currently don't have a lot of funds due to stupid Bill's which I tell the post man bill don't live here but he still brings them here -_-

Anyways, have a great day or evening or whatever time it is fur y'all

Well I have posted some of the items me and my mate have been making with some more to come. Been to many vender markets and not really much to show and trying to post online via FB and here we might stay with it fur the summer but then probably stop if we don't really make enough to really keep going with making products and that but end up like our body cream spent money on it to make it to only selling 2 of 15 in 4 months and 6 vender markets. Hopefully, we can make it so we can continue to do this stuff so we can continue to grow and make other items.

Me and my mate are making sugar scrubs (no chemicals used in making them), iron on vinyl decals (still learning so just one color for now unless separate pieces), and with my degree and currently working on getting my electricians license I'm working on some steam punk style lights (haven't gotten pictures yet but soon) I'm wondering if any fur would be interested in anything like this?

I'm open for commissions with the latest posts of items in my gallery. I can make other items as well just ask ^^ and I'll let you know if I can make it. (Sorry I don't draw though I'm not that talented plus can't even draw a straight line nor a circle.)

Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, ETC. Stay Safe and Be Well

My wife does some artsy stuff like creating kitchen boas which is similar to a scarf but for the kitchen, some cricket stickers, and other stuff like that. She does knows I am a fur but she's not and not one for yiffy stuff/art but we are trying to sell them on social media outlets and word of mouth but not so well. She was making masks for a while and giving them free and just asked for donations for she could continue to give them out but couldn't afford to keep giving them out free and she got burnt out of making the masks; however, she has made covers for 3D printers, Ice Machines, monogramed-ish coasters and such. I will post some pictures of some of the items she has created and would you tell me if they would be something you could use. (All is customizable to a point don't have shinnies to get all the professional grade items or the upgraded style of machines due to covid and buying a home that had multiple issues break and have to be replaced or repaired within the first year of getting it and still having to pay them off.) Any suggestions would greatly appreciated ^_^ Thank You In Advance and Stay Furry My Furiends

Happy Holidays, Merry/Murry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, And All others I don't know but would like to know

Today we had to let one of our family members cross over the rainbow bridge Boo. He was our 14 or 15 (we don't know his age but doctors said he was about 14 or 15) year old black lab that my wife had taken in when her grandmother crossed the bridge about 2 years ago. We both don't want to be in the room when we have to let them cross so I did it. I just didn't feel that it would be right to let him cross over without someone he knows and one who cares for him to be there with him and it was really ruff to stay until the end. I well we both think that it was the best thing for him and it would have been selfish to just keep prolonging it. He was really stiff, his lungs didn't sound good, he was coughing and throwing up with wheezing, and in the x-rays he had before had some spots that looked concerning and possibly turned into cancer cells around his lungs but we don't know. And couldn't afford for a biopsy or blood tests but he was 14 or 15 and had a good life I hope. May he rest in peace and be with his mom my wife's grandmother and be happy and playing upstairs

Jeepers Creepers where you get those peepers

Well I'm probably going to start Looking for a design for a company I'd like to start possibly next year or the next. It's going to be an electric company (husk or husky electric idk) and I'm still thinking of names and logo designs. I kinda want to use my fursona or some husky head or husky with an electric/lightning bolt going either through or in the background of it. Anyone have any ideas or suggestions?

The prices of the soaps in previous journal is with the bars having all ingredients: essential oil, clay, and color.

Hopefully I can multiply correctly so I can make some money and not just break even for what I spent on materials to start this. These soaps are made with natural materials by hand for custom scents, colors and addition of clay for more scrubbing as well as clay soap is great for shaving gonna try it in one personal batch since my bro made my shaving soap (peppermint fur cooling effect) for me with similar recipe (P.S. I use a straight razor for shaving muy facial fur).

Scented:
1. Bar Soap: 2.5oz $6.00 +S/H
2. Cube: 2.1oz $5.75 +S/H
3. Square Design: 1.6oz $5.50 +S/H
4. Circle: 1.4oz $5.25 +S/H
5. Bone: 1.2oz $4.75 +S/H

Colors: Green, Silver, Gold, Yellow, Red, Black, Purple, Blue, Pink, Orange.
Scents/Essential Oils: Lemon Grass, Eucalyptus, Peppermint, Orange, Lavender, Tea Tree Oil

If you know or have suggestions I would greatly appreciate it ^^

PM/Comment Have a good day-evening-afternoon-whatnot Fuzzbutts :P

Well here is my beginning of soap making. 100% Natural and this one is Oatmeal. I am going to make more with goats milk and hemp.

Natural soaps tend to not foam as store bought soaps due to lack of foaming chemicals added for visual effects.

There are options of scents and some colors which are done through natural ways of mica and clay.

Any tips or comments or suggestions please comment or PM me


Thanks muy Fur Friends and stalkers ;)

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Happy Belated Christmas/Holidays & New Years.

Just an fyi I am in a bind of funds so can't afford new art sadly :(

Trying to remember who/all of the artists that has done art for me before just to keep in mind as well as to ask a question as well

The new look of FA is weird to me but guess have to get use to it.

Planning to start making homemade soaps and will post as I can.

And Thank You to all the watchers of my account and those who I have added to my stal... erhm I mean watch list ;) jk

Ask me anything and I'll answer as soon as I can.

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Needs to raise some money for an operation/medical bills possible help for him? Good cause because everyone may happen to fall into this predicament I know I have before but at least had stuff I could sell to help pay it and yard work to get through it but if you can please help.

Sorry I do a lot of vent work but atm haven't had the courage to contact a counselor or anything of that sort started smoking again and having bad luck all year so far and seems to not stop including my depression that I hide from everyone and bottle up and in time it over fills and turns to anger sadly and I know I need help but idk I'm just one to be one who says its my problem and I need to man up and just deal with it I don't need help from anyone -_- I know I shouldn't be that way but is me and yes I freak up a lot with friends and all and go too far without really knowing I did until its too late v.v

Happy New Year hopefully this year goes better than this sh@tty arse year has been