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Posted 13 years ago...moving back to California?
How the hell was that supposed to solve any of my problems?
I'm so stupid :/
How the hell was that supposed to solve any of my problems?
I'm so stupid :/
Fuck June 7th... :/
Posted 13 years agoOn November 7th, 2008, I boarded my first plane to Seattle to see my boyfriend. My mom pitched the biggest bitch ever about me going and it was even more exacerbated by the fact that my parents had searched through my bag the previous day and found the Zeta I had wrapped up for his birthday. I remember just about every detail of the 5 days I stayed in Everett and to this day still have all the pictures on my flash drive. My hair looked soooo stupid back then :/
On June 7th, 2011, I lost my mate. A year later it still hurts like hell.
I still talk to him. I still get calls from his mom. I still tell all my friends about all the fun time we had and I still put up with them telling me how much better I am without him. A year later I still tell people I don't wanna date them because I'm not over my ex. A year later I still carry his picture in my wallet :/
Last year really sucked for me. 90% of the people in my life today don't even know the full story of why, and instead mark me off as just another kid looking to be dramatic about god only know what for who the fuck cares why.
But I didn't just lose a boyfriend :/
I lost the guy that came into my life when nobody else in it at the time really gave two shit about me. I lost the person that would stay on the phone with me until I passed out at 4am that was still there when I woke up before school. I lost the guy that drove 1000 miles through a fucking blizzard with his mom to come get me all so I could move into his house. I lost the person I could snuggle up to after those crappy nights at work or that would curl up next to me when I'd break down for whatever stupid reason. To me, I didn't have a breakup, I had a divorce. :/
Sure, my ex had flaws; I do too. But 9/10 people don't even know the guy they'd talk down about around me, and to those people, they're lucky I'm polite enough to redirect the conversation calmly. Jerin and I had our issues, but who doesn't. I didn't really care, so why should you if you think I could've done better :/
On December 19th, 2008, I threw two suitcase and some boxes in the back of a Foxbody Mustang and ditched out in the middle of the night. On May 19, 2012, I ditched out again and landed myself right back where I came from under oddly similar circumstances.
Now it's my breakup anniversary, and there's noone here that I can even hang out with to take my mind off how crappy a day this is for me :/
So just a forewarning. When all I do is spout depressing shit all day today on my Facebook and my Twitter, shut the fuck up and let me vent because it's not easy for me, yeah?
P.S. I miss you :/
On June 7th, 2011, I lost my mate. A year later it still hurts like hell.
I still talk to him. I still get calls from his mom. I still tell all my friends about all the fun time we had and I still put up with them telling me how much better I am without him. A year later I still tell people I don't wanna date them because I'm not over my ex. A year later I still carry his picture in my wallet :/
Last year really sucked for me. 90% of the people in my life today don't even know the full story of why, and instead mark me off as just another kid looking to be dramatic about god only know what for who the fuck cares why.
But I didn't just lose a boyfriend :/
I lost the guy that came into my life when nobody else in it at the time really gave two shit about me. I lost the person that would stay on the phone with me until I passed out at 4am that was still there when I woke up before school. I lost the guy that drove 1000 miles through a fucking blizzard with his mom to come get me all so I could move into his house. I lost the person I could snuggle up to after those crappy nights at work or that would curl up next to me when I'd break down for whatever stupid reason. To me, I didn't have a breakup, I had a divorce. :/
Sure, my ex had flaws; I do too. But 9/10 people don't even know the guy they'd talk down about around me, and to those people, they're lucky I'm polite enough to redirect the conversation calmly. Jerin and I had our issues, but who doesn't. I didn't really care, so why should you if you think I could've done better :/
On December 19th, 2008, I threw two suitcase and some boxes in the back of a Foxbody Mustang and ditched out in the middle of the night. On May 19, 2012, I ditched out again and landed myself right back where I came from under oddly similar circumstances.
Now it's my breakup anniversary, and there's noone here that I can even hang out with to take my mind off how crappy a day this is for me :/
So just a forewarning. When all I do is spout depressing shit all day today on my Facebook and my Twitter, shut the fuck up and let me vent because it's not easy for me, yeah?
P.S. I miss you :/
New Life Updates and Junk
Posted 13 years agoIt's really hard for me to believe I've only been down in California for a week now. I keep freaking out about needing to get college apps filed and job apps in thinking I've been here like a month, but looking at the date has me twacked out. I blame he weekend...
So yeh, I've been gone a week. It's been rough, I've been emotional and I've had bumps. I've even been drilled into for blowing up my twitter with shit. So what's the actual status on life?
Starting with the obvious, living with my parents is weird. After a near 4 year break from each other, things have settled down significantly but they've settled akwardly with both parties not really knowing how to fully deal with the other. I keep my space and they give it to me, but there's still lil moments of tension. They still argue over stupid shit that makes me uncomfortable, my dad, though capable of handling his anger issue alot better, still has occasional complexes like how I'm not my sister's parent and shouldn't be correcting her behavior. The gay thing has been heavily avoided as much as possible, though my mom and I did have a bit of a row about my wardrobe (specifically about my pair of pink frilly dainties). My grandma is a shocker. Once the first and pretty much only person in the family down here to accept and not overly judge me on my sexuality and life choices, has nearly flipped a 180 and has been grilling me hard about things like my wardrobe and how it an my collar 'imposes my sexuality and lifestyle choices on others.' and how 'Normal people don't want me shoving my lifestyle choices and orientation down their throats'. This has had me a lil unnerved and was exacerbated by my Friday Night Magic venture where the majority of the players for the night sat and cracked gay jokes like it was going out of style. Bakersfield still has me feeling really closed in where my sexuality is concerned; it's just not the same as seattle where I don't feel I have to guard my actions or personalities from people because it's just not that big a deal. Here, I get more than a few raised eyebrows if I walk around in public in my zombie ninja T :/
Socially I've felt a lil lonely. Save meeting up with a a couple friends from highschool and another local friend that helped me reorganize my room, I've kept pretty to myself, which just given my personality and the situation was a bad combination :/ The furry community here seems really split, supposedly involving some guy and drama that happened to ruin meets and junk? I don't really know the whole story. In regards to new friends; I haven't gotten very fair with being imobile, and it hasn't helped that one of the few people I'd actually been able to get ahold of suddenly raged on me about how I'm some sort of attention whoring whiny bitch...that did loads for my self esteem and the situation as a whole :/ As an after effect, I've taken down stray social sites I had accounts with like FX and have severely cut my friends lists on Twitter, Facebook and FA. I kinda just went on a personal rage and wanted to wipe out stuff, cuz the more I think about it the more I miss just having a tight nit group of really close friends :/
On the financial front I've hit some bumps, though I can't say they weren't expected. I was right in assuming my parents wouldn't be able to fit the bill on paying my tuition AND buying me a car. On the car front I'll be doing the payments and the insurance/gas/maintenance while they handle the 1000$ down payment and where school is concerned though they'll do their best to help me out, I may come out of pocket with that as well where grants and loans fail. I may even need to use my scholarship from Pokemon which I was hoping to save for when I aim to transfer in to University back up north. Now don't get me wrong, any help is better than none and I GET that...but the problem isn't just me being some spoiled brat expecting his parents to do everything, it's that the agreement my parents baited me into moving with entailed that I'd pretty much have nothing to pay for save my own leisures. What it all comes down to is that, be it responsible or not, had I 100% known this was going to happen, I might've opted to stay in WA and claw my way back o stability on my own, than uprooted myself and left behind the life I'd been building myself for 4 years and all the people that came with it.
Happy news update for the day though is that after today I DO in fact have a car, which will hopefully start getting things easier for me to manage as I'm able to travel around the area and get myself out of the house. I'm locked into about 400$ a mo in car expenses which goes back to the previous discussion on my parents buying my car, but ultimately the way I'm viewing it is that A) I'm down here now and I can't much do anything about that and B) It'll pry mean more to me paying the car off with my own money. It does come with a couple bad news points though. The first is kinda trivial but still has me a lil worried. I set aside a good 1300$ in my WA savings acc to cover a contingency plan that if, at any time, things get too hard to deal with here, I can use that money to relocate myself (back to WA) but I had to take 700$ out of it to help with the down payment. Ultimately not that big a deal as I'll easily be able to make it up once I have a job and all, but it's still got me a lil anxious. More importantly though is that I found out today that I may need to transfer my driver's license after all which will lose me my WA state residency. What this means is that in 2 years if I still plan to move back to WA for university, I will no longer have residency in the state and will have higher tuition costs which could ultimately fuck over my plans to jump right back into school and could also force me to stay in CA until I'm completely done with my education...I know this may sound like a stupid worry, but to me it kinda hit me a lil hard. I really want to be back in the seattle area. I miss my friends, I miss my town and I miss my ex :/ And anything that makes me feel like I won't be able to go back to any of that really sucks for me.
On a more positive note, employment has been just as easy as I thought it would be. My first day out got me 3 on the spot interviews and another scheduled for tomorrow afternoon. All 3 prospectives WANT to hire me, but one was only hiring seasonal, the second needed to clear hiring me with his GM and the 3rd has to hold a manager meeting to see where they could put me. Another application on friday landed me another on site interview and he wants to hire me as an expo but again needs to talk with his GM. And lastly I applied to the local Famous Dave's Sunday night. Having been with the company before and being as experienced as I am with them, hiring me would solve a lot of his problems. He has me coming in tomorrow afternoon to talk to a couple of the other managers. Ultimately just as easy as I thought it would be and I aim to have something by the end of the week.
And that just about wraps it up with what I've been up to honestly. It's been a rough week on me, and I miss WA alot, butI'm forcing myself to just stick it out. I need to go to school. I need to get my life going like I wanted to years ago. This is the best way to do it, but I hate being away from the people that've have made the last 4 years of my life fun and meaningful. I started into this week a lil discouraged, but after today it's picked up and hopefully can stay that way a while.
Lastly I don't wanna write up these update journals for attention. I'm not doing it to gain sympathy. I'm legitimately just letting the people that follow me and actually care how stuff is going down know how stuff is going down. If you follow me on here, or twitter and don't like how my posts go, or find me to be too depressing for you to handle, please do ME a favor and unfollow me. I don't wanna cause anymore waves with people. I come online to vent, I journal here because it's the only website I feel comfortable using that my parents don't watch (twitter doesn't count cuz I can't journal there), so please don't take offense and I apologize ahead of time if I DO get a lil TOO down on a situation. I don't mean to.
Anyways thanks for stopping in. I'm pry going to write up one of these a week or so. Or a the least when something worthwhile happens.
P.S. I'm trying to hit up Califur this weekend. I really wanna go and get outta the house, and think that going to a con to do so would be the shit. If things work out, I hope to see a few of you there. You should hit me up and maybe we can hang out for a bit.
Anyways, I'm heading out now.
xCetra
So yeh, I've been gone a week. It's been rough, I've been emotional and I've had bumps. I've even been drilled into for blowing up my twitter with shit. So what's the actual status on life?
Starting with the obvious, living with my parents is weird. After a near 4 year break from each other, things have settled down significantly but they've settled akwardly with both parties not really knowing how to fully deal with the other. I keep my space and they give it to me, but there's still lil moments of tension. They still argue over stupid shit that makes me uncomfortable, my dad, though capable of handling his anger issue alot better, still has occasional complexes like how I'm not my sister's parent and shouldn't be correcting her behavior. The gay thing has been heavily avoided as much as possible, though my mom and I did have a bit of a row about my wardrobe (specifically about my pair of pink frilly dainties). My grandma is a shocker. Once the first and pretty much only person in the family down here to accept and not overly judge me on my sexuality and life choices, has nearly flipped a 180 and has been grilling me hard about things like my wardrobe and how it an my collar 'imposes my sexuality and lifestyle choices on others.' and how 'Normal people don't want me shoving my lifestyle choices and orientation down their throats'. This has had me a lil unnerved and was exacerbated by my Friday Night Magic venture where the majority of the players for the night sat and cracked gay jokes like it was going out of style. Bakersfield still has me feeling really closed in where my sexuality is concerned; it's just not the same as seattle where I don't feel I have to guard my actions or personalities from people because it's just not that big a deal. Here, I get more than a few raised eyebrows if I walk around in public in my zombie ninja T :/
Socially I've felt a lil lonely. Save meeting up with a a couple friends from highschool and another local friend that helped me reorganize my room, I've kept pretty to myself, which just given my personality and the situation was a bad combination :/ The furry community here seems really split, supposedly involving some guy and drama that happened to ruin meets and junk? I don't really know the whole story. In regards to new friends; I haven't gotten very fair with being imobile, and it hasn't helped that one of the few people I'd actually been able to get ahold of suddenly raged on me about how I'm some sort of attention whoring whiny bitch...that did loads for my self esteem and the situation as a whole :/ As an after effect, I've taken down stray social sites I had accounts with like FX and have severely cut my friends lists on Twitter, Facebook and FA. I kinda just went on a personal rage and wanted to wipe out stuff, cuz the more I think about it the more I miss just having a tight nit group of really close friends :/
On the financial front I've hit some bumps, though I can't say they weren't expected. I was right in assuming my parents wouldn't be able to fit the bill on paying my tuition AND buying me a car. On the car front I'll be doing the payments and the insurance/gas/maintenance while they handle the 1000$ down payment and where school is concerned though they'll do their best to help me out, I may come out of pocket with that as well where grants and loans fail. I may even need to use my scholarship from Pokemon which I was hoping to save for when I aim to transfer in to University back up north. Now don't get me wrong, any help is better than none and I GET that...but the problem isn't just me being some spoiled brat expecting his parents to do everything, it's that the agreement my parents baited me into moving with entailed that I'd pretty much have nothing to pay for save my own leisures. What it all comes down to is that, be it responsible or not, had I 100% known this was going to happen, I might've opted to stay in WA and claw my way back o stability on my own, than uprooted myself and left behind the life I'd been building myself for 4 years and all the people that came with it.
Happy news update for the day though is that after today I DO in fact have a car, which will hopefully start getting things easier for me to manage as I'm able to travel around the area and get myself out of the house. I'm locked into about 400$ a mo in car expenses which goes back to the previous discussion on my parents buying my car, but ultimately the way I'm viewing it is that A) I'm down here now and I can't much do anything about that and B) It'll pry mean more to me paying the car off with my own money. It does come with a couple bad news points though. The first is kinda trivial but still has me a lil worried. I set aside a good 1300$ in my WA savings acc to cover a contingency plan that if, at any time, things get too hard to deal with here, I can use that money to relocate myself (back to WA) but I had to take 700$ out of it to help with the down payment. Ultimately not that big a deal as I'll easily be able to make it up once I have a job and all, but it's still got me a lil anxious. More importantly though is that I found out today that I may need to transfer my driver's license after all which will lose me my WA state residency. What this means is that in 2 years if I still plan to move back to WA for university, I will no longer have residency in the state and will have higher tuition costs which could ultimately fuck over my plans to jump right back into school and could also force me to stay in CA until I'm completely done with my education...I know this may sound like a stupid worry, but to me it kinda hit me a lil hard. I really want to be back in the seattle area. I miss my friends, I miss my town and I miss my ex :/ And anything that makes me feel like I won't be able to go back to any of that really sucks for me.
On a more positive note, employment has been just as easy as I thought it would be. My first day out got me 3 on the spot interviews and another scheduled for tomorrow afternoon. All 3 prospectives WANT to hire me, but one was only hiring seasonal, the second needed to clear hiring me with his GM and the 3rd has to hold a manager meeting to see where they could put me. Another application on friday landed me another on site interview and he wants to hire me as an expo but again needs to talk with his GM. And lastly I applied to the local Famous Dave's Sunday night. Having been with the company before and being as experienced as I am with them, hiring me would solve a lot of his problems. He has me coming in tomorrow afternoon to talk to a couple of the other managers. Ultimately just as easy as I thought it would be and I aim to have something by the end of the week.
And that just about wraps it up with what I've been up to honestly. It's been a rough week on me, and I miss WA alot, butI'm forcing myself to just stick it out. I need to go to school. I need to get my life going like I wanted to years ago. This is the best way to do it, but I hate being away from the people that've have made the last 4 years of my life fun and meaningful. I started into this week a lil discouraged, but after today it's picked up and hopefully can stay that way a while.
Lastly I don't wanna write up these update journals for attention. I'm not doing it to gain sympathy. I'm legitimately just letting the people that follow me and actually care how stuff is going down know how stuff is going down. If you follow me on here, or twitter and don't like how my posts go, or find me to be too depressing for you to handle, please do ME a favor and unfollow me. I don't wanna cause anymore waves with people. I come online to vent, I journal here because it's the only website I feel comfortable using that my parents don't watch (twitter doesn't count cuz I can't journal there), so please don't take offense and I apologize ahead of time if I DO get a lil TOO down on a situation. I don't mean to.
Anyways thanks for stopping in. I'm pry going to write up one of these a week or so. Or a the least when something worthwhile happens.
P.S. I'm trying to hit up Califur this weekend. I really wanna go and get outta the house, and think that going to a con to do so would be the shit. If things work out, I hope to see a few of you there. You should hit me up and maybe we can hang out for a bit.
Anyways, I'm heading out now.
xCetra
Anyone with room for one at Califur?
Posted 13 years agoI'd really like to get outta the house and junk, but I have noone to stay with. Just wondering if anyone had room or knew anyone that has room for me. I'm a fairly laid back, enjoyable guy to stay with and I'm more than willing to mix some drinks and hit the dancefloor all night long XD
If you're interested or know anyone who is drop me a line yeh?
If you're interested or know anyone who is drop me a line yeh?
Let's Do Something Fun For Once (Sex with me meme)
Posted 13 years agoCopied from 
drakesapphire
Rules: Just copy and paste in a comment or via note if you want to keep is hush hush. most of all Just be truthful and re-post if you wish. Just be Careful posting this, you may just get the answers you didn't expect.
Don't be shy and have fun ^^
1) Would you have sex with me if you could?
2) Have you Thought about it before?
3) Where would we do it?
4) Top or Bottom?
5) How many times?
6) Position(s)?
7) rough or soft?
8) Lots of foreplay? or get right to it?
9) more than one person? or have meal to yourself?
10) what do you think it would be like if you could?
drakesapphire Rules: Just copy and paste in a comment or via note if you want to keep is hush hush. most of all Just be truthful and re-post if you wish. Just be Careful posting this, you may just get the answers you didn't expect.
Don't be shy and have fun ^^
1) Would you have sex with me if you could?
2) Have you Thought about it before?
3) Where would we do it?
4) Top or Bottom?
5) How many times?
6) Position(s)?
7) rough or soft?
8) Lots of foreplay? or get right to it?
9) more than one person? or have meal to yourself?
10) what do you think it would be like if you could?
Mother Fuck Bro...
Posted 13 years agoWhat's the point in moving if just thinking about it gives me a major panic attack? I shouldn't have to ignore the actual event just to cope with the reality of it :/
This is super fucking rough :/
This is super fucking rough :/
And Now I Tell Everyone I'm moving :/
Posted 13 years agoThis is my official announcement that come May 19th, I'll be jumpin a plane and moving back to Bakersfield CA :/
It's been a super long few months and an even longer year. I lost my mate, I lost my house, I lost my job and in doing so screwed myself out of a car and out of my financial stability that would've allowed me to finally get into college.
With a new 60 day notice of eviction at my current place and my other falling through, I don't even have a place to stay up here anymore :/
I'm finally just throwing in the towel. I'm out of options up here, and I'm too far behind to recover easily on my own. My parents are offering to fit my bill through college along with providing my a free car and free room and board while I'm in school...the extra grounding is super beneficial, especially if I wanna keep on my own personal schedule to keep up with where I want my life to go.
But I won't lie that I absolutely hate this decision, and I'm angry and ridiculously frustrated that I A) couldn't find a better solution and B) drug my feet so long :/ There are a lot of variables at play right now, but I'm kinda too worn out to deal with them all anymore.
Hopefully I can go down there, bust my ass at school for 2 years and move back up to the pacific north west asap. But alot of things can happen in 2 years. I can't even guarantee my original reasoning for wanting to be here will still even be viable but that's my own issue. :/
Anyways, yeh I'll elaborate later if I need to I guess. For now I'm just really REALLY tired...
It's been a super long few months and an even longer year. I lost my mate, I lost my house, I lost my job and in doing so screwed myself out of a car and out of my financial stability that would've allowed me to finally get into college.
With a new 60 day notice of eviction at my current place and my other falling through, I don't even have a place to stay up here anymore :/
I'm finally just throwing in the towel. I'm out of options up here, and I'm too far behind to recover easily on my own. My parents are offering to fit my bill through college along with providing my a free car and free room and board while I'm in school...the extra grounding is super beneficial, especially if I wanna keep on my own personal schedule to keep up with where I want my life to go.
But I won't lie that I absolutely hate this decision, and I'm angry and ridiculously frustrated that I A) couldn't find a better solution and B) drug my feet so long :/ There are a lot of variables at play right now, but I'm kinda too worn out to deal with them all anymore.
Hopefully I can go down there, bust my ass at school for 2 years and move back up to the pacific north west asap. But alot of things can happen in 2 years. I can't even guarantee my original reasoning for wanting to be here will still even be viable but that's my own issue. :/
Anyways, yeh I'll elaborate later if I need to I guess. For now I'm just really REALLY tired...
League of Legends
Posted 13 years agoAdd me:
xCetraTheWusky
xCetraTheWusky
100 truths
Posted 13 years ago001. Name → Jaron
002. Nickname(s) → 'Ron, Cetra or xCetra
003. Status → Single, not looking.
004. Zodiac sign → Scorpio
005. Male or female → Male
006. Elementary → Loudon Elementary
007. Middle School → Earl Warren Jr High
008. High School → Stockdale High School
009. Smart → I like to think so
010. Hair color → Brown
011. Long or short → Depends but it's either short and spiked or long and straight
012. Loud or Quiet → Depends on my mood. I can be super bubbly but I can also be super quiet if I'm upset.
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Phone
015. Health freak → Not uber but to a varying degree I guess
016. Drink or Smoke? → Drink socially
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → No not really :/
018. Eating or Drinking → Eating
019. Piercings → Nope
020. Tattoos → Maybe some day
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN...?
019. An Airplane → Yes.
020. A Car Accident → Yes.
021. A Fist Fight → Yes.
FIRSTS:
022. First Piercing → None.
023. First Best Friend → Jake Y. & Bret H.
025. First Award → No idea
026. First Crush → Sophmore year?
027. First pet → Had a dog. My parents got rid of her :/
028. First Big Vacation → No clue. Too many to count.
LASTS:
029. Last Person You Talked To → In person? My ex's mom
030. Last Person You Texted → This new guy I know
031. Last Person You Watched A Movie With → My ex
032. Last Food You Ate → Pasta of some sort
033. Last Movie You Watched → I guess naruto movies count; don't know which one.
034. Last Song You listened To → Brielle - Sky Sailng
035. Last Thing You Bought → A bottle of alcohol.
036. Last Person You Hugged → My ex. In all honesty I don't really like hugging people anymore, but I tend to do it as a courtesy when offered :/
FAVES:
037. Food → Mexican
038. Drinks → Baja Blast
039. Clothing → Jeans and Ts with hoodies.
040. Book → Song of Ice and Fire Series
041. Music → A=I listn to pretty much anything
042. Flower → Daffodils...
043. Colors → Black and Pink
044. Movies → Don't watch many. Chick flicks are nice.
045. Shoes → The comfy kind
046. Subjects → english and science
IN THE PAST YEAR I...
047. [] Kissed In The Snow
048. [] Celebrated Halloween
049. [x] Had Your Heart Broken
050. [x] Went Over The Minutes On Your Cell Phone
051. [x] Someone Questioned Your Sexual Orientation
052. [] Came Outta The Closet
053. [] Gotten Pregnant
054. [] Had An Abortion
055. [x] Done Something You've Regretted
056. [x] Broke A Promise
057. [x] Kept A Secret
058. [x] Pretended To Be Happy
059. [x?] Met Someone Who Changed Your Life
060. [] Pretended To Be Sick
061. [x] Left The Country
062. [x] Tried Something you normally wouldn't like, and liked it
063. [x] Cried Over The Silliest Thing
064. [] Ran A Mile
065. [] Went To The Beach
066. [x] Stayed Single
CURRENTLY:
067. Eating → Nothing
068. Drinking → Water
069. Getting Ready To → Do nothing. Shocker...
070. Listening To → Breaking Benjamin
071. Plans For Tomorrow/Today → Do nothing. Shocker...
072. Waiting For → My ex to get home.
YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want Kids? → Maybe but I highly doubt it
074. Want To Get Married? → Only if theyre special enough and I really can't see it right now.
075. Careers in mind → Teaching.
WHICH IS BETTER ON A BOY/GIRL?
076. Lips Or Eyes → Chest
077. Shorter Or Taller? → Taller
078. Romantic Or Spontaneous → Spontaneity can be really romantic actually
079. Nice Stomach Or Nice Arms → Hard one...because I love both...
080. Sensitive Or Loud → Lottle of both
081. Hookup Or Relationship → I don't really want either atm :/
082. Troublemaker Or Hesitant → More towards trouble maker but nothing too drastic
HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost Glasses/Contacts → Yup
084. Ran Away From Home → Yup.
085. Held A Weapon, For Self Defense → No.
086. Killed Somebody → No.
087. Broken Someone's Heart → Yes.
088. Been Arrested → No. But I have been put in the back of a cop car.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself → To a degree.
091. Miracles → To a degree.
092. Love At First Sight → Kinda but not really. :/
093. Heaven → Something to that degree
094. Santa Claus → No.
095. Sex On The First Date → Depends
096. Kiss On The First Date → Yes.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is There One Person You Wanna Be With, Right Now? → Yes :/
098. Are You Seriously Happy With Where You Are, In Life? → Fuck no :/
099. Do You Believe In God → Yes but moreso that there's SOMETHING there
100. Post As 100 Truths And Tag sum people → Meh
002. Nickname(s) → 'Ron, Cetra or xCetra
003. Status → Single, not looking.
004. Zodiac sign → Scorpio
005. Male or female → Male
006. Elementary → Loudon Elementary
007. Middle School → Earl Warren Jr High
008. High School → Stockdale High School
009. Smart → I like to think so
010. Hair color → Brown
011. Long or short → Depends but it's either short and spiked or long and straight
012. Loud or Quiet → Depends on my mood. I can be super bubbly but I can also be super quiet if I'm upset.
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Phone
015. Health freak → Not uber but to a varying degree I guess
016. Drink or Smoke? → Drink socially
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → No not really :/
018. Eating or Drinking → Eating
019. Piercings → Nope
020. Tattoos → Maybe some day
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN...?
019. An Airplane → Yes.
020. A Car Accident → Yes.
021. A Fist Fight → Yes.
FIRSTS:
022. First Piercing → None.
023. First Best Friend → Jake Y. & Bret H.
025. First Award → No idea
026. First Crush → Sophmore year?
027. First pet → Had a dog. My parents got rid of her :/
028. First Big Vacation → No clue. Too many to count.
LASTS:
029. Last Person You Talked To → In person? My ex's mom
030. Last Person You Texted → This new guy I know
031. Last Person You Watched A Movie With → My ex
032. Last Food You Ate → Pasta of some sort
033. Last Movie You Watched → I guess naruto movies count; don't know which one.
034. Last Song You listened To → Brielle - Sky Sailng
035. Last Thing You Bought → A bottle of alcohol.
036. Last Person You Hugged → My ex. In all honesty I don't really like hugging people anymore, but I tend to do it as a courtesy when offered :/
FAVES:
037. Food → Mexican
038. Drinks → Baja Blast
039. Clothing → Jeans and Ts with hoodies.
040. Book → Song of Ice and Fire Series
041. Music → A=I listn to pretty much anything
042. Flower → Daffodils...
043. Colors → Black and Pink
044. Movies → Don't watch many. Chick flicks are nice.
045. Shoes → The comfy kind
046. Subjects → english and science
IN THE PAST YEAR I...
047. [] Kissed In The Snow
048. [] Celebrated Halloween
049. [x] Had Your Heart Broken
050. [x] Went Over The Minutes On Your Cell Phone
051. [x] Someone Questioned Your Sexual Orientation
052. [] Came Outta The Closet
053. [] Gotten Pregnant
054. [] Had An Abortion
055. [x] Done Something You've Regretted
056. [x] Broke A Promise
057. [x] Kept A Secret
058. [x] Pretended To Be Happy
059. [x?] Met Someone Who Changed Your Life
060. [] Pretended To Be Sick
061. [x] Left The Country
062. [x] Tried Something you normally wouldn't like, and liked it
063. [x] Cried Over The Silliest Thing
064. [] Ran A Mile
065. [] Went To The Beach
066. [x] Stayed Single
CURRENTLY:
067. Eating → Nothing
068. Drinking → Water
069. Getting Ready To → Do nothing. Shocker...
070. Listening To → Breaking Benjamin
071. Plans For Tomorrow/Today → Do nothing. Shocker...
072. Waiting For → My ex to get home.
YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want Kids? → Maybe but I highly doubt it
074. Want To Get Married? → Only if theyre special enough and I really can't see it right now.
075. Careers in mind → Teaching.
WHICH IS BETTER ON A BOY/GIRL?
076. Lips Or Eyes → Chest
077. Shorter Or Taller? → Taller
078. Romantic Or Spontaneous → Spontaneity can be really romantic actually
079. Nice Stomach Or Nice Arms → Hard one...because I love both...
080. Sensitive Or Loud → Lottle of both
081. Hookup Or Relationship → I don't really want either atm :/
082. Troublemaker Or Hesitant → More towards trouble maker but nothing too drastic
HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost Glasses/Contacts → Yup
084. Ran Away From Home → Yup.
085. Held A Weapon, For Self Defense → No.
086. Killed Somebody → No.
087. Broken Someone's Heart → Yes.
088. Been Arrested → No. But I have been put in the back of a cop car.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself → To a degree.
091. Miracles → To a degree.
092. Love At First Sight → Kinda but not really. :/
093. Heaven → Something to that degree
094. Santa Claus → No.
095. Sex On The First Date → Depends
096. Kiss On The First Date → Yes.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is There One Person You Wanna Be With, Right Now? → Yes :/
098. Are You Seriously Happy With Where You Are, In Life? → Fuck no :/
099. Do You Believe In God → Yes but moreso that there's SOMETHING there
100. Post As 100 Truths And Tag sum people → Meh
Getting to know you
Posted 13 years ago1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? Whats your name?
Jaron or 'Ron if you prefer
2. How tall are you?
5' 10"
3. Natural hair color? (if you can remember it)
Brown
3. What about eye color?
Brown
4. What orientation are you?
Gay
5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Single
6. What do you do in your spare time?
Read, write, Pokemon, Maplestory, Contact Juggle, Poi, lay about, etc
7. What's your job?
I'm recently unemployed
8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
My character
9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
How horrible my outlook on life can get
10. What are some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
I'm a total fag
Good! Hold on, yer coming up on some deeper questions now... ready?
11. Of what faith/religion are you(if any)?
Christian
12. Do you drink?
Socially
13. Do you smoke?
Once in a very long time.
14. What are your fears?
Dying alone
15. What are your dreams/goals?
Getting a grip on life and strangling it between my toes
16.Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
Well yes?
Almost done!!! Time for some lighter topics now :D
17. Who's your best bud?
No idea anymore
18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
Taco Bell
19. Favorite drink?
Mountain Dew in various types
20. Favorite color?
Black and PInk
21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Teleportation or duplication
22. Favorite movie?
Hard to say cuz I don't watch many
23. Least favorite food?
Tilapia..
24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
Shepherds Pie because I want it now...
25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
Honda Fit or a scion xa
Last 5 questions. You're in the homestretch, come on, you can make it! Lets see what gets under your skin.
26. Most disliked bug?
Bees
27. Most hated pet peeves?
No idea...I'm very easy to please in those regards
28. Dislike in life?
How fucking gey it can get
29. Most annoying sound?
Chalkboard anythings and pencils...
30. Mot disliked TV show?
I have very few LIKED TV shows.
Jaron or 'Ron if you prefer
2. How tall are you?
5' 10"
3. Natural hair color? (if you can remember it)
Brown
3. What about eye color?
Brown
4. What orientation are you?
Gay
5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Single
6. What do you do in your spare time?
Read, write, Pokemon, Maplestory, Contact Juggle, Poi, lay about, etc
7. What's your job?
I'm recently unemployed
8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
My character
9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
How horrible my outlook on life can get
10. What are some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
I'm a total fag
Good! Hold on, yer coming up on some deeper questions now... ready?
11. Of what faith/religion are you(if any)?
Christian
12. Do you drink?
Socially
13. Do you smoke?
Once in a very long time.
14. What are your fears?
Dying alone
15. What are your dreams/goals?
Getting a grip on life and strangling it between my toes
16.Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
Well yes?
Almost done!!! Time for some lighter topics now :D
17. Who's your best bud?
No idea anymore
18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
Taco Bell
19. Favorite drink?
Mountain Dew in various types
20. Favorite color?
Black and PInk
21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Teleportation or duplication
22. Favorite movie?
Hard to say cuz I don't watch many
23. Least favorite food?
Tilapia..
24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
Shepherds Pie because I want it now...
25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
Honda Fit or a scion xa
Last 5 questions. You're in the homestretch, come on, you can make it! Lets see what gets under your skin.
26. Most disliked bug?
Bees
27. Most hated pet peeves?
No idea...I'm very easy to please in those regards
28. Dislike in life?
How fucking gey it can get
29. Most annoying sound?
Chalkboard anythings and pencils...
30. Mot disliked TV show?
I have very few LIKED TV shows.
MOOOOOAR MEMESSSSSS D:<
Posted 13 years agoWhat if~
♥ I died:
♥ I kissed you:
♥ I fell:
♥ I lived next door to you:
♥ I showed up at your house unexpectedly:
♥ I stole something:
♥ I was murdered:
♥ I cried:
♥ I asked you to marry me:
♥ I was hospitalised:
♥ I was turned into a zombie:
~What do you think about my~
x Personality:
x Eyes:
x Hair:
x Family:
x Smile:
~Would you~
♪ Trust me enough to sleep in the same bed as me?
♪ Keep a secret if I told you one?
♪ Hold my hand?
♪ Study with me?
♪ Cook for me?
♪ Love me?
♪ Date me?
Answer truthfully ;)
~Have you ever ~
☼ Lied to make me feel better?
☼ Wanted to kiss me?
☼ Wanted to kill me?
☼ Broke my heart?
☼ Thought I was unbearably annoying?
☼ Hated me?
☼ Wanted to tell me something but didn't?
☼ Wondered about my sanity?
☼ Wanted to do something to me?
~More ~
► When and how did we meet?
► Describe me in three words.
► What was your first impression of me?
► What do you think of me now?
► What reminds you of me?
► Could you see us together forever?
► When's the last time you saw me?
► Are you gonna re-post this to see what I say about you?
♥ I died:
♥ I kissed you:
♥ I fell:
♥ I lived next door to you:
♥ I showed up at your house unexpectedly:
♥ I stole something:
♥ I was murdered:
♥ I cried:
♥ I asked you to marry me:
♥ I was hospitalised:
♥ I was turned into a zombie:
~What do you think about my~
x Personality:
x Eyes:
x Hair:
x Family:
x Smile:
~Would you~
♪ Trust me enough to sleep in the same bed as me?
♪ Keep a secret if I told you one?
♪ Hold my hand?
♪ Study with me?
♪ Cook for me?
♪ Love me?
♪ Date me?
Answer truthfully ;)
~Have you ever ~
☼ Lied to make me feel better?
☼ Wanted to kiss me?
☼ Wanted to kill me?
☼ Broke my heart?
☼ Thought I was unbearably annoying?
☼ Hated me?
☼ Wanted to tell me something but didn't?
☼ Wondered about my sanity?
☼ Wanted to do something to me?
~More ~
► When and how did we meet?
► Describe me in three words.
► What was your first impression of me?
► What do you think of me now?
► What reminds you of me?
► Could you see us together forever?
► When's the last time you saw me?
► Are you gonna re-post this to see what I say about you?
I'm only 26% manly x.x
Posted 13 years ago01) [] You own tools that you use regularly
02) [x] You carry a wallet
03) [] You prefer movies or shows where there is more action than romance
04) [] You spit on the ground when not in a building.
05) [x] You scratch where it itches when it itches
06) [] Your idea of good footwear is boots or tough tennis.
07) [x] Your wardrobe only changes if you gain weight or the clothes fall apart.
08) [x] You don't count calories when eating.
09) [x] You have deodorant strong enough to make you socially acceptable, but not strong enough to make you smell like it.
10) [x] You tend to wipe your hands on your clothes instead of a napkin.
Total So Far: 6
Do you love:
11) [x] Video games
12) [] Working on mechanical items.
13) [x] Building things.
14) [] Working out on gym machines
15) [x] Getting in and out of stores as quickly as possible
16) [] Football
17) [] Baseball
18) [] Wrestling
19) [] Boxing/ MMA
20) [] Hunting and/or fishing
Total So Far: 9
Do you shop at:
21) [] Home Depot
22) [] Lowe's
23) [] Big and Tall men's stores
24) [] Hunting and Fishing supply shops
25) [] Auto supply stores or other mechanic shops
26) [] Hobby shops
27) [x] Comic book stores
28) [] Sports supply stores
29) [x] Video game stores
30) [x] Electronic supply stores
Total So Far: 12
Do you say:
31) [] Son
32) [] I can fix it.
33) [] Man-up (More like "Grow some balls")
34) [] When I was your age
35) [] Don't be a wuss.
36) [] It's just a scratch
37) [] Take it like a man.
38) [x] That's not how you do it. (You're doing it wrong)
39) [] Shit
40) [] Here's your [insert profanity and what the person just said].
Total So Far: 13 ._.
Do you read:
41) [] Field and Stream.
42) [] Bear Magazine
43) [] Playboy
44) [] Sports Illustrated
45) [] Pro Football Weekly
46) [] Comic books
47) [] Men's Health
48) [] Men's Fitness
49) [] Men's Journal
50) [] Private Media Group, Inc.
Total: 13 x.x
Multiply your total by 2 and then you have your percent:
02) [x] You carry a wallet
03) [] You prefer movies or shows where there is more action than romance
04) [] You spit on the ground when not in a building.
05) [x] You scratch where it itches when it itches
06) [] Your idea of good footwear is boots or tough tennis.
07) [x] Your wardrobe only changes if you gain weight or the clothes fall apart.
08) [x] You don't count calories when eating.
09) [x] You have deodorant strong enough to make you socially acceptable, but not strong enough to make you smell like it.
10) [x] You tend to wipe your hands on your clothes instead of a napkin.
Total So Far: 6
Do you love:
11) [x] Video games
12) [] Working on mechanical items.
13) [x] Building things.
14) [] Working out on gym machines
15) [x] Getting in and out of stores as quickly as possible
16) [] Football
17) [] Baseball
18) [] Wrestling
19) [] Boxing/ MMA
20) [] Hunting and/or fishing
Total So Far: 9
Do you shop at:
21) [] Home Depot
22) [] Lowe's
23) [] Big and Tall men's stores
24) [] Hunting and Fishing supply shops
25) [] Auto supply stores or other mechanic shops
26) [] Hobby shops
27) [x] Comic book stores
28) [] Sports supply stores
29) [x] Video game stores
30) [x] Electronic supply stores
Total So Far: 12
Do you say:
31) [] Son
32) [] I can fix it.
33) [] Man-up (More like "Grow some balls")
34) [] When I was your age
35) [] Don't be a wuss.
36) [] It's just a scratch
37) [] Take it like a man.
38) [x] That's not how you do it. (You're doing it wrong)
39) [] Shit
40) [] Here's your [insert profanity and what the person just said].
Total So Far: 13 ._.
Do you read:
41) [] Field and Stream.
42) [] Bear Magazine
43) [] Playboy
44) [] Sports Illustrated
45) [] Pro Football Weekly
46) [] Comic books
47) [] Men's Health
48) [] Men's Fitness
49) [] Men's Journal
50) [] Private Media Group, Inc.
Total: 13 x.x
Multiply your total by 2 and then you have your percent:
Let's play a game...
Posted 13 years agoIf you comment on this journal, I will do all of the following:
1 Tell you something I've learned from your userpage.
2 Tell you the color you remind me of.
3 What element (fire, water, etc.) you remind me of.
4 Tell you what anime/comic/videogame character you remind me of
5 Ask you a question. You must reply.
6 Tell you something I like about you.
7 Give you a nickname.
8 Give you the name of an object to the left of me.
9 Tell you what food flavor or smell you remind me of
10 Might tell you to do this
1 Tell you something I've learned from your userpage.
2 Tell you the color you remind me of.
3 What element (fire, water, etc.) you remind me of.
4 Tell you what anime/comic/videogame character you remind me of
5 Ask you a question. You must reply.
6 Tell you something I like about you.
7 Give you a nickname.
8 Give you the name of an object to the left of me.
9 Tell you what food flavor or smell you remind me of
10 Might tell you to do this
Kid Icarus Uprising
Posted 13 years agoAnyone have it?
Super fun and hear multiplayer is amazing...
Super fun and hear multiplayer is amazing...
A very large meme...
Posted 13 years ago01. Have you ever really cried your heart out?
See also my last 2 breakups
02. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
See question 1
03. Have you ever cried on your friend’s shoulder?
There was a time in junior high some people kept making fun of me and yes, I did have someone there to let me physically cry upon said shoulder
04. Do you cry when you get an injury?
That depends on the injury, but typically no.
HAPPY SECTION
01. Are you a happy person?
I try but it's not always ideal.
02. What can always make you happy?
Nowadays? There's nothing in my life that gets that honor.
03. Do you wish you were happier?
After this year? Of course I do :/
04. Is being happy overrated?
Why would it be?
05. Can music make you happy?
Of course, but depending it can also make things worse.
LOVE SECTION
(question one was missing)
02. Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
No durr :/
03. Anyone besides your friends/family ever said they loved you?
Yes
RELATIONSHIP SECTION
01. Are you in a relationship?
I recently (lol actually not really recently...) fell out of a long term one
02. Are you happy?
No
03. Do you look at other guys?
On VERY slim occasion, but they either have to be super nice or I have to be drunk and giddy.
(questions 04 and 05 were missing)
06. Been cheated on?
Not to my knowledge
07. Have a crush on a person?
Right now? Not really :/
HATE SECTION
01. Who do you actually hate?
Mo-fucking-song...
02. Have you ever made a hate list?
No
03. Are you a mean bully?
Not at all
SELF ESTEEM SECTION
01. Are you good looking?
I admit to being fairly attractive
02. Do you wish you could be someone else?
Not particularly
03. What is your current hair color?
Brown.
02. Natural hair color?
Brown.
03. What color are your eyes?
Brown.
04. Current Piercings?
None
05. Straight Hair or Curls?
Straight
CURRENTLY WEARING
01. clothes?
Blue jeans and a T shirt
02. Shorts?
Underwear? Blue I think
03. Shoes?
No.
04. Necklace?
Collar
HAVE YOU EVER
01. Hugged someone?
Naaaaaaah :/
02. Been on the phone until the sun came up?
Yes
03. Put a song on repeat for more than an hour?
Yes
04. Laughed so hard you cried?
Yes.
LAST
01. Person you talked to in person?
My ex's mom
03. Person you talked to on the phone?
My dad
04. Person you talked to on msn?
No idea
05. Person who made you laugh?
No idea
07. Last time you had a shower?
This morning...because having a clean butt is important
OTHER
01. Do you like surveys?
That's why I googled this one
02. What kind of shampoo do you use?
Herbal essences 'Hello Hydration' cuz I'm secretly a woman.
03. Do you get along with your parents?
No
04. Do you have mental breakdowns?
Mental? No.
05. Did you ever fake being sick?
See also Grade school through Highschool
CURRENT
01. Current Mood:
Agro
02. Current love:
Pokemon
03. Current hair:
Plain
04. Current Longing:
Better life. :/
05. Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing:
Nothing
06. Current desktop picture:
Contact juggling pokeballs
At this moment in time, if you HAD to have someone’s name tattooed on you, who would it be?
My ex's in a super drunken fit of depression
How many states have you lived in?
2
Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Yes
Is there anything you need to tell someone?
The fuck bro... :/
If someone you used to be friends with slashed your tires, would you call the cops?
Meh
Are you allergic to anything?
No idea
What did you do to get your first detention?
No idea
How did you spend 4th of July for the past three years?
Partying hard...at work
Have you ever been taken to the ER in an ambulance?
Nope
Is your bathroom clean?
Pry not
Did you talk to anyone on the phone before bed last night, who?
No
Who did you last share a taxi ride with?
Me myself and I
Do you try to start fights when you’re drunk?
No
Do you drunk dial?
No, but I do text drunk
If you had a sex tape and someone offered you five million dollars to sell it, would you?
Yes.
How did you and your number one become friends?
No idea
Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
No idea
Where were you born?
Bakersfield, CA
Is it more common for you to follow your heart or your mind?
Depends...probably my heart
What were the last words you said to your Dad?
Kthnxbai
Do you know someone in the war?
Not to my knowledge
What was the last thing you ordered when you went out to eat?
App fries and tenders
Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Yes
Do you still talk to the person you last made out with?
We even share a bed. Isn't that funny?
Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
Probably
Did you get any compliments today?
Um...can't recall...
Have you ever thrown up from drinking?
No
Have you ever had a crush on your siblings friend?
Eww
Have you ever gone to a beach?
Durr
What’s the longest amount of time you’ve been on an airplane?
14 hours
Have you seen your best friend(s) naked?
Probably
Do you have a Honda, Toyota or Nissan?
No
Who was the last person to call you babe?
Probably some furry. I hate that word/name :/
What time did you wake up this morning?
10? 11?
Has someone smacked or looked at your butt in the past week?
Yup.
When was the last time you were really sick?
A few weeks ago?
What are you planning to be for Halloween?
A furfag
Do you like Grease?
Ew in all respects
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Yes. Tell me so I can crush your soul...
Can you do a split?
pry not
Do you get along better with guys or girls?
Both?
Do you think you have made a difference in anyone’s life?
Probably but who knows
Part 1: The Birth of You:
Were you a planned baby?
No idea
Were you the first?
Yup
Were your parents married when you were born?
No
What is your birthdate?
Nov 19th, 1990
Part 2: The Family
How would you describe your family?
Crazy
Are your parents married?
Yes
Siblings or an only child?
A younger sister
If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?
Oldest.
What are your siblings names and ages?
Erica and like 9?
Which parent do you get along with best?
My mom I guess. I don't even know anymore
What do you fight about?
Everything?
Do you have step parents?
No.
Part 3: The Friends
Do you have more than one best friend?
No idea.
Who are your best friends?
I have no idea anymore.
What do you like to do when you are together?
Probably play cards of some sort...I'd love to say 'fuck' as a joke for good measure but whatever
Do you share the same interests?
Yes.
Which friend can you tell anything to?
Izzy works for being a nuetral party though if I tell anyone anything anymore it'd typically directed to Jerin
Part 4: Your Personality
How high/low is your self esteem?
Over 9000
Are you an extrovert or an introvert?
Extroverted probably though I'd say a blend of both?
Are you happy?
No.
Do you live life to the fullest?
I try.
Part 5: Appearance
Are you comfortable with the way you look?
Most of the time.
Do you have any piercings besides your ears?
No
Describe your hair…
Plain
What make-up do you wear?
None.
How do you dress?
T shirts and pants complimented by a hoodie
Part 6: The Past
Were you a strange child?
Totes bro
What did you use to love that you no longer do?
My life
Do you have the same friends?
No. Tho not to say I don't have some of the same. My circles have just shifted a lil
Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?
See the majority of my childhood
Part 7: The Future
What is your ambition?
No idea anymore
Are you scared of growing old?
Meh
Do you want to get married?
Depends
Part 8: The Outdoors
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?
I don't care
What is your favorite season?
Spring
Do you like walking in the rain?
Yes.
Part 9: Food
Are you a vegentarian?
No.
What is your favorite fruit?
Watermelon probably
What food makes you want to gag?
Funny how I can't think of any right now...
What is your favorite dessert?
Cheesecake
What is your favorite restaurant?
None
Are you a fussy eater?
No
Part 10: Relationships and Love
Are you single or taken?
Single.
If taken who is the lucky guy/girl?
Nobody loves me :/
Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?
I'll stick with the last person's response and say I think you should drowned...
Do you believe in love at first sight?
Maybe
Part 11: Experiences
What was one of your greatest experiences?
Moving
What was one of your worst?
Getting dumped after 3 years :/
Have you ever done drugs?
I've smoked pot a handful of times. Not my thing.
Have you ever thought you were going to die?
Yes.
Have you ever suffered from depression?
Funny story, my parents had me hospitalized.
See also my last 2 breakups
02. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
See question 1
03. Have you ever cried on your friend’s shoulder?
There was a time in junior high some people kept making fun of me and yes, I did have someone there to let me physically cry upon said shoulder
04. Do you cry when you get an injury?
That depends on the injury, but typically no.
HAPPY SECTION
01. Are you a happy person?
I try but it's not always ideal.
02. What can always make you happy?
Nowadays? There's nothing in my life that gets that honor.
03. Do you wish you were happier?
After this year? Of course I do :/
04. Is being happy overrated?
Why would it be?
05. Can music make you happy?
Of course, but depending it can also make things worse.
LOVE SECTION
(question one was missing)
02. Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
No durr :/
03. Anyone besides your friends/family ever said they loved you?
Yes
RELATIONSHIP SECTION
01. Are you in a relationship?
I recently (lol actually not really recently...) fell out of a long term one
02. Are you happy?
No
03. Do you look at other guys?
On VERY slim occasion, but they either have to be super nice or I have to be drunk and giddy.
(questions 04 and 05 were missing)
06. Been cheated on?
Not to my knowledge
07. Have a crush on a person?
Right now? Not really :/
HATE SECTION
01. Who do you actually hate?
Mo-fucking-song...
02. Have you ever made a hate list?
No
03. Are you a mean bully?
Not at all
SELF ESTEEM SECTION
01. Are you good looking?
I admit to being fairly attractive
02. Do you wish you could be someone else?
Not particularly
03. What is your current hair color?
Brown.
02. Natural hair color?
Brown.
03. What color are your eyes?
Brown.
04. Current Piercings?
None
05. Straight Hair or Curls?
Straight
CURRENTLY WEARING
01. clothes?
Blue jeans and a T shirt
02. Shorts?
Underwear? Blue I think
03. Shoes?
No.
04. Necklace?
Collar
HAVE YOU EVER
01. Hugged someone?
Naaaaaaah :/
02. Been on the phone until the sun came up?
Yes
03. Put a song on repeat for more than an hour?
Yes
04. Laughed so hard you cried?
Yes.
LAST
01. Person you talked to in person?
My ex's mom
03. Person you talked to on the phone?
My dad
04. Person you talked to on msn?
No idea
05. Person who made you laugh?
No idea
07. Last time you had a shower?
This morning...because having a clean butt is important
OTHER
01. Do you like surveys?
That's why I googled this one
02. What kind of shampoo do you use?
Herbal essences 'Hello Hydration' cuz I'm secretly a woman.
03. Do you get along with your parents?
No
04. Do you have mental breakdowns?
Mental? No.
05. Did you ever fake being sick?
See also Grade school through Highschool
CURRENT
01. Current Mood:
Agro
02. Current love:
Pokemon
03. Current hair:
Plain
04. Current Longing:
Better life. :/
05. Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing:
Nothing
06. Current desktop picture:
Contact juggling pokeballs
At this moment in time, if you HAD to have someone’s name tattooed on you, who would it be?
My ex's in a super drunken fit of depression
How many states have you lived in?
2
Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Yes
Is there anything you need to tell someone?
The fuck bro... :/
If someone you used to be friends with slashed your tires, would you call the cops?
Meh
Are you allergic to anything?
No idea
What did you do to get your first detention?
No idea
How did you spend 4th of July for the past three years?
Partying hard...at work
Have you ever been taken to the ER in an ambulance?
Nope
Is your bathroom clean?
Pry not
Did you talk to anyone on the phone before bed last night, who?
No
Who did you last share a taxi ride with?
Me myself and I
Do you try to start fights when you’re drunk?
No
Do you drunk dial?
No, but I do text drunk
If you had a sex tape and someone offered you five million dollars to sell it, would you?
Yes.
How did you and your number one become friends?
No idea
Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
No idea
Where were you born?
Bakersfield, CA
Is it more common for you to follow your heart or your mind?
Depends...probably my heart
What were the last words you said to your Dad?
Kthnxbai
Do you know someone in the war?
Not to my knowledge
What was the last thing you ordered when you went out to eat?
App fries and tenders
Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Yes
Do you still talk to the person you last made out with?
We even share a bed. Isn't that funny?
Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
Probably
Did you get any compliments today?
Um...can't recall...
Have you ever thrown up from drinking?
No
Have you ever had a crush on your siblings friend?
Eww
Have you ever gone to a beach?
Durr
What’s the longest amount of time you’ve been on an airplane?
14 hours
Have you seen your best friend(s) naked?
Probably
Do you have a Honda, Toyota or Nissan?
No
Who was the last person to call you babe?
Probably some furry. I hate that word/name :/
What time did you wake up this morning?
10? 11?
Has someone smacked or looked at your butt in the past week?
Yup.
When was the last time you were really sick?
A few weeks ago?
What are you planning to be for Halloween?
A furfag
Do you like Grease?
Ew in all respects
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Yes. Tell me so I can crush your soul...
Can you do a split?
pry not
Do you get along better with guys or girls?
Both?
Do you think you have made a difference in anyone’s life?
Probably but who knows
Part 1: The Birth of You:
Were you a planned baby?
No idea
Were you the first?
Yup
Were your parents married when you were born?
No
What is your birthdate?
Nov 19th, 1990
Part 2: The Family
How would you describe your family?
Crazy
Are your parents married?
Yes
Siblings or an only child?
A younger sister
If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?
Oldest.
What are your siblings names and ages?
Erica and like 9?
Which parent do you get along with best?
My mom I guess. I don't even know anymore
What do you fight about?
Everything?
Do you have step parents?
No.
Part 3: The Friends
Do you have more than one best friend?
No idea.
Who are your best friends?
I have no idea anymore.
What do you like to do when you are together?
Probably play cards of some sort...I'd love to say 'fuck' as a joke for good measure but whatever
Do you share the same interests?
Yes.
Which friend can you tell anything to?
Izzy works for being a nuetral party though if I tell anyone anything anymore it'd typically directed to Jerin
Part 4: Your Personality
How high/low is your self esteem?
Over 9000
Are you an extrovert or an introvert?
Extroverted probably though I'd say a blend of both?
Are you happy?
No.
Do you live life to the fullest?
I try.
Part 5: Appearance
Are you comfortable with the way you look?
Most of the time.
Do you have any piercings besides your ears?
No
Describe your hair…
Plain
What make-up do you wear?
None.
How do you dress?
T shirts and pants complimented by a hoodie
Part 6: The Past
Were you a strange child?
Totes bro
What did you use to love that you no longer do?
My life
Do you have the same friends?
No. Tho not to say I don't have some of the same. My circles have just shifted a lil
Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?
See the majority of my childhood
Part 7: The Future
What is your ambition?
No idea anymore
Are you scared of growing old?
Meh
Do you want to get married?
Depends
Part 8: The Outdoors
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?
I don't care
What is your favorite season?
Spring
Do you like walking in the rain?
Yes.
Part 9: Food
Are you a vegentarian?
No.
What is your favorite fruit?
Watermelon probably
What food makes you want to gag?
Funny how I can't think of any right now...
What is your favorite dessert?
Cheesecake
What is your favorite restaurant?
None
Are you a fussy eater?
No
Part 10: Relationships and Love
Are you single or taken?
Single.
If taken who is the lucky guy/girl?
Nobody loves me :/
Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?
I'll stick with the last person's response and say I think you should drowned...
Do you believe in love at first sight?
Maybe
Part 11: Experiences
What was one of your greatest experiences?
Moving
What was one of your worst?
Getting dumped after 3 years :/
Have you ever done drugs?
I've smoked pot a handful of times. Not my thing.
Have you ever thought you were going to die?
Yes.
Have you ever suffered from depression?
Funny story, my parents had me hospitalized.
Stream Websites/Programs
Posted 13 years agoAny recommendations? I wanna start streaming my practice games in the Pokemon TCG that I play on an online simulation program but dunno which program would be best for what I need.
What do you artists use to stream ur drawing?
What do you artists use to stream ur drawing?
Single...or not? ._.
Posted 13 years agoSINGLE OR NOT put this as your journal & see what you get
♥ = I want a relationship with you
C: = I'm falling for you
:3 = I miss you
;] = i really like you
:* = I want to kiss you
:< = I hate you
: X = I like you
O: = I like you but im in a relationship
:/ = I like you but your in a relationship
:] = You're cute
</3 = I regret leaving you
:b = We should get to know each other
;^) = We should hang out
<3 = I love you.. \o/
<:^ = i want to know you
@FT@=*stalk*
eue= You're hot
<:3 = You're a great friend
^_^ = We're friends
^.^ = We're best friends
>;3 = I want you on top
>:3 = I want on top
♥ = I want a relationship with you
C: = I'm falling for you
:3 = I miss you
;] = i really like you
:* = I want to kiss you
:< = I hate you
: X = I like you
O: = I like you but im in a relationship
:/ = I like you but your in a relationship
:] = You're cute
</3 = I regret leaving you
:b = We should get to know each other
;^) = We should hang out
<3 = I love you.. \o/
<:^ = i want to know you
@FT@=*stalk*
eue= You're hot
<:3 = You're a great friend
^_^ = We're friends
^.^ = We're best friends
>;3 = I want you on top
>:3 = I want on top
Because it's all about me
Posted 13 years agoALL | ABOUT | ME
____________________________________________________________________________
- Name: Jaron
- Single or taken: Single
- Sex: Male
- Birthday: Nov 19th
- Hair color: Brown
- Eye color: Brown
- Height: 5' 10"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Gay
____________________________________________________________________________
S P E C I F I C S
____________________________________________________________________________
- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Herbal Essences Hello Hydration
- What are you listening to right now?: Nothing
- Who is the last person that called you?: My ex for sandwich makery
- How many buddies are online right now?: Too many.
____________________________________________________________________________
F A V O R I T E S
____________________________________________________________________________
- Animal: Wolf
- Color: Black
- Drink: Baja Blast
- Element: Water
- Food: Mexican
- Game: Pokemon
- Movie: Spirited Away?
- Song: atm it's probably...'Set Fire to the Rain' by Adele
- Subjects in school: English
- T.V show: Game...of...Thrones...
____________________________________________________________________________
H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
____________________________________________________________________________
- Given anyone a bath? Do showers count?
- Smoked?: Yes
- Bungee jumped?: nope.
- Made yourself throw up?: Not on purpose
- Skinny dipped?: Loads
- Ever been in love?: Yup
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Not since I was like 10...
- Pictured your crush naked?: Duh?
- Actually seen your crush naked?: Yes
- Cried when someone died?: Yes actually, thought hat denotes I have a soul...
- Lied: Yes.
- Fallen for your best friend?: Yup
- Used someone?: Unintentionally.
- Done something you regret?: Of course
____________________________________________________________________________
C U R R E N T
____________________________________________________________________________
- Clothes: Jeans and a fancy sweater
- Desktop picture: A pic from RF of my roomates
- CD in player: Who has a CD player?
- DVD in player: Got none.
____________________________________________________________________________
L A S T | P E R S O N
____________________________________________________________________________
- You touched: Me :D
- Hugged: My ex
- You kissed: My Ex
- You imed:
metal-head-rush
- Talk to online: metal-head-rush
- You sexed it up with: My Ex
___________________________________________________________________________
A R E | Y O U
___________________________________________________________________________
- Understanding?: I try to be
- Open-minded?: I try to be
- Arrogant?: I try not to be
- Insecure?: Lots...
- Random?: On a fairly regular basis
- Hungry?: I eat ALL the food...
- Smart?: I like to think so
- Moody?: On occasion
- Organized?: Very
- Shy?: Sometimes
- Difficult?: Not really
- Bored easily?: To a degree
- Entertained easily?: Far
- Obsessed?: Depends
- Lazy?: on occasion
- Angry?: It takes a lot to do that...
- Happy?: I try to be
- Hyper?: Depends
- Trusting?: Honestly? Not so much anymore.
___________________________________________________________________________
R A N D O M
___________________________________________________________________________
- In the morning: I hide under the blankets
- Love is: a disaster waiting to happen
- I dream about: Lots...
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Chests
___________________________________________________________________________
D O | Y O U | E V E R
___________________________________________________________________________
- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Been there done that
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: No.
- Wish you were younger?: Not really
- Cry because someone said something to you?: All the time...lol...
___________________________________________________________________________
N U M B E R
___________________________________________________________________________
- Of times I have had my heart broken?: Who knows. But it's ben enough to change my personality
- Of Cd's I own: No clue...what's a cd again?
- Of scars on my body: No clue
- Of bones I've broken: None
____________________________________________________________________________
- Name: Jaron
- Single or taken: Single
- Sex: Male
- Birthday: Nov 19th
- Hair color: Brown
- Eye color: Brown
- Height: 5' 10"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Gay
____________________________________________________________________________
S P E C I F I C S
____________________________________________________________________________
- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Herbal Essences Hello Hydration
- What are you listening to right now?: Nothing
- Who is the last person that called you?: My ex for sandwich makery
- How many buddies are online right now?: Too many.
____________________________________________________________________________
F A V O R I T E S
____________________________________________________________________________
- Animal: Wolf
- Color: Black
- Drink: Baja Blast
- Element: Water
- Food: Mexican
- Game: Pokemon
- Movie: Spirited Away?
- Song: atm it's probably...'Set Fire to the Rain' by Adele
- Subjects in school: English
- T.V show: Game...of...Thrones...
____________________________________________________________________________
H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
____________________________________________________________________________
- Given anyone a bath? Do showers count?
- Smoked?: Yes
- Bungee jumped?: nope.
- Made yourself throw up?: Not on purpose
- Skinny dipped?: Loads
- Ever been in love?: Yup
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Not since I was like 10...
- Pictured your crush naked?: Duh?
- Actually seen your crush naked?: Yes
- Cried when someone died?: Yes actually, thought hat denotes I have a soul...
- Lied: Yes.
- Fallen for your best friend?: Yup
- Used someone?: Unintentionally.
- Done something you regret?: Of course
____________________________________________________________________________
C U R R E N T
____________________________________________________________________________
- Clothes: Jeans and a fancy sweater
- Desktop picture: A pic from RF of my roomates
- CD in player: Who has a CD player?
- DVD in player: Got none.
____________________________________________________________________________
L A S T | P E R S O N
____________________________________________________________________________
- You touched: Me :D
- Hugged: My ex
- You kissed: My Ex
- You imed:
metal-head-rush- Talk to online:
metal-head-rush- You sexed it up with: My Ex
___________________________________________________________________________
A R E | Y O U
___________________________________________________________________________
- Understanding?: I try to be
- Open-minded?: I try to be
- Arrogant?: I try not to be
- Insecure?: Lots...
- Random?: On a fairly regular basis
- Hungry?: I eat ALL the food...
- Smart?: I like to think so
- Moody?: On occasion
- Organized?: Very
- Shy?: Sometimes
- Difficult?: Not really
- Bored easily?: To a degree
- Entertained easily?: Far
- Obsessed?: Depends
- Lazy?: on occasion
- Angry?: It takes a lot to do that...
- Happy?: I try to be
- Hyper?: Depends
- Trusting?: Honestly? Not so much anymore.
___________________________________________________________________________
R A N D O M
___________________________________________________________________________
- In the morning: I hide under the blankets
- Love is: a disaster waiting to happen
- I dream about: Lots...
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Chests
___________________________________________________________________________
D O | Y O U | E V E R
___________________________________________________________________________
- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Been there done that
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: No.
- Wish you were younger?: Not really
- Cry because someone said something to you?: All the time...lol...
___________________________________________________________________________
N U M B E R
___________________________________________________________________________
- Of times I have had my heart broken?: Who knows. But it's ben enough to change my personality
- Of Cd's I own: No clue...what's a cd again?
- Of scars on my body: No clue
- Of bones I've broken: None
~curls up and cries~
Posted 13 years agoIt's 4:30 and all I wanna do is sit here and bawl my eyes out o~o
So I Lost My Job Today :/
Posted 13 years agoWhich piles another log on the fire of shit I really don't feel like dealing with right now.
My day's sucked, my week's sucked and the last time I really enjoyed myself was back in Cali for con and even THAT turned gey in the end :/
I;m feeling uber down and I don't even have anyone to keep me company over here :/ I miss having a house full of people that were always there when I needed them to be and I miss having someone to hold me when I get all faggy and emotional :/ I don't even have someone to crawl in bed with anymore...
I'm taking the week off to recollect my fucked up self so that I can hopefully start looking for jobs come monday.
Talked to my parents. Now that I REALLY don'thave anything going on up here they REALLY want me to move back to CALI :/ If I don't have any leads by friday, I think Ima take my dad up on an offer he gave me to move back home and start college...the idea of which I loathe entirely...
What's the point moving to California where I'll be just as miserable over my ex and life situation save that I'll be dealing with all that with my parents in a town that barely has anything to keep a person busy :/
But I'm tired of where I am right now and getting canned just trashed my plans for a car and moving and I don't wanna do any of that until I get into somewhere new and actually feel the place out first which could take months to settle :/
I don't wanna move to CA but I don't wanna stay where I'm at anymore :/ I don't feel I belong much of anywhere between point A and B and I'm just feeling generally disheartened about everything...
Sorry for all the emo journals...not like I like being a whiny bitch, but writing is how I vent my frustrations and l'm a pansy...I kinda don't know how to react right now :/
And when my manager fired me, she had the balls to tell me a major factor was that she knew what was going on in my personal life and felt it was stealing my focus from my work....then to ice the cake, she actualy had the audacity to ask me when the last time I was genuinely happy was and that firing me should give me the time she feels I needed to regroup myself...all firing me did was take al my present issues and drop a fucking brink on them :/
And I keep waiting for that one person to knock on my fucking door, walk into my room and make me feel better....but hes not my support system anymore and as such won't be making any of those moves....and yet I keep on waiting...
And I can't even fucking sleep properly this week...I've had like 14 hours of the stuff since tuesday...and it's now Saturday :/ I just can't calm myself down...thats one reason I'm so emotional...I get cranky when I'm worn out :/
Ionno...Today has me reeling...it was a really bad day...
Also I won't be getting my 425 number back...someone else is getting my phone and line :/
And then I realized how few of youI have that will even wind up reading this :/
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I don't like my life right now :/ ~curls up
My day's sucked, my week's sucked and the last time I really enjoyed myself was back in Cali for con and even THAT turned gey in the end :/
I;m feeling uber down and I don't even have anyone to keep me company over here :/ I miss having a house full of people that were always there when I needed them to be and I miss having someone to hold me when I get all faggy and emotional :/ I don't even have someone to crawl in bed with anymore...
I'm taking the week off to recollect my fucked up self so that I can hopefully start looking for jobs come monday.
Talked to my parents. Now that I REALLY don'thave anything going on up here they REALLY want me to move back to CALI :/ If I don't have any leads by friday, I think Ima take my dad up on an offer he gave me to move back home and start college...the idea of which I loathe entirely...
What's the point moving to California where I'll be just as miserable over my ex and life situation save that I'll be dealing with all that with my parents in a town that barely has anything to keep a person busy :/
But I'm tired of where I am right now and getting canned just trashed my plans for a car and moving and I don't wanna do any of that until I get into somewhere new and actually feel the place out first which could take months to settle :/
I don't wanna move to CA but I don't wanna stay where I'm at anymore :/ I don't feel I belong much of anywhere between point A and B and I'm just feeling generally disheartened about everything...
Sorry for all the emo journals...not like I like being a whiny bitch, but writing is how I vent my frustrations and l'm a pansy...I kinda don't know how to react right now :/
And when my manager fired me, she had the balls to tell me a major factor was that she knew what was going on in my personal life and felt it was stealing my focus from my work....then to ice the cake, she actualy had the audacity to ask me when the last time I was genuinely happy was and that firing me should give me the time she feels I needed to regroup myself...all firing me did was take al my present issues and drop a fucking brink on them :/
And I keep waiting for that one person to knock on my fucking door, walk into my room and make me feel better....but hes not my support system anymore and as such won't be making any of those moves....and yet I keep on waiting...
And I can't even fucking sleep properly this week...I've had like 14 hours of the stuff since tuesday...and it's now Saturday :/ I just can't calm myself down...thats one reason I'm so emotional...I get cranky when I'm worn out :/
Ionno...Today has me reeling...it was a really bad day...
Also I won't be getting my 425 number back...someone else is getting my phone and line :/
And then I realized how few of youI have that will even wind up reading this :/
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I don't like my life right now :/ ~curls up
Late Night Realizations and Other Nonesense :/
Posted 13 years agoTo those that don't know I'm probably losing my job tomorrow over some BS with breadsticks. Needless to say it's had me pretty stressed out and I've kinda just been curled up on my bed since like 6-ish :/
I think my major problem is I no longer have that 'to hell with what happens' attitude.
With Jerin around it was always 'don't care what happens long as he's around' and now I'm having to deal with major issues without him around for the first time since High School :/
That's a MAJOR thing in this whole situation...
The point it comes down to is I no longer feel like, no matter what, I'm gonna be ok :/
And this ontop of all the other crap I'm dealing with... :/
I'm not really doing all that ok right now
I think my major problem is I no longer have that 'to hell with what happens' attitude.
With Jerin around it was always 'don't care what happens long as he's around' and now I'm having to deal with major issues without him around for the first time since High School :/
That's a MAJOR thing in this whole situation...
The point it comes down to is I no longer feel like, no matter what, I'm gonna be ok :/
And this ontop of all the other crap I'm dealing with... :/
I'm not really doing all that ok right now
Memes
Posted 13 years agoA. Why my last relationship ended.
Lots of reasons. But I kept a guy around my mate didn't like which was the final straw on that one. :/
B. Favorite band.
Owl City
C. Who I like and why I like them.
Actually from a very nuetral stand point, I like my buddy
riio mainly cuz in all the times I've hung with him (be it however few they've been) I've always had fun. He also owes me a mojito...
D. Hardest thing I’ve ever been through.
Breaking up with my mate after 3 years of crazy life :/
E. My best friend.
Honestly I don't even know anymore
F. My favorite movie.
I always say it's inception, but there's one better that I just can't remember right now...
G. Sexual orientation.
I take cock...
H. Do I smoke/drink?
I drink socially. I've only ever smoked pot in the presence of my ex and only a handful of times
I. Have any tattoos or piercings?
Nope
J. What I want to be when I get older.
I'm thinking of fielding in teaching for either highschool level English or some form of science
K. Relationship with my parents.
Better but still slightly crazy. Mom's always wanting me to come home. Hates my ex. Both think I should move because I don't have anything going on up here anymore. Gay stuff. Blah.
L. One of my insecurities.
Trusting people.
M. Virgin or not?
Hell no.
N. Favorite place to shop at?
that's a hard one...I'll generalize it as 'the mall'
O. My eye color.
brown
P. Why I hate school.
Waking up early. Pretty much my only distaste
Q. Relationship status as of right now.
Single. Did I mention I'm also miserable?
R. Favorite song at the moment.
Probably Set Fire to the Rain by Adele
S. A random fact about myself.
I contact juggle
T. Age I get mistaken for.
Super young
U. Where I want to be right now.
Anywhere but where I am...
V. Last time I cried.
Tonight lol...I do that.
W. Concerts I’ve been to.
Owl City in Seattle
X. What would you do if (…)?
That depends entirely on what (...) is...
Y. Do you want to go to college.
Up until this afternoon I was hoping to go this fall. Now I have no idea when I'm gonna go...
Z. How are you?
Honestly? I'm a very unhappy puppy :/
Nothing new really but it didn't get any better today :/
Lots of reasons. But I kept a guy around my mate didn't like which was the final straw on that one. :/
B. Favorite band.
Owl City
C. Who I like and why I like them.
Actually from a very nuetral stand point, I like my buddy
riio mainly cuz in all the times I've hung with him (be it however few they've been) I've always had fun. He also owes me a mojito...D. Hardest thing I’ve ever been through.
Breaking up with my mate after 3 years of crazy life :/
E. My best friend.
Honestly I don't even know anymore
F. My favorite movie.
I always say it's inception, but there's one better that I just can't remember right now...
G. Sexual orientation.
I take cock...
H. Do I smoke/drink?
I drink socially. I've only ever smoked pot in the presence of my ex and only a handful of times
I. Have any tattoos or piercings?
Nope
J. What I want to be when I get older.
I'm thinking of fielding in teaching for either highschool level English or some form of science
K. Relationship with my parents.
Better but still slightly crazy. Mom's always wanting me to come home. Hates my ex. Both think I should move because I don't have anything going on up here anymore. Gay stuff. Blah.
L. One of my insecurities.
Trusting people.
M. Virgin or not?
Hell no.
N. Favorite place to shop at?
that's a hard one...I'll generalize it as 'the mall'
O. My eye color.
brown
P. Why I hate school.
Waking up early. Pretty much my only distaste
Q. Relationship status as of right now.
Single. Did I mention I'm also miserable?
R. Favorite song at the moment.
Probably Set Fire to the Rain by Adele
S. A random fact about myself.
I contact juggle
T. Age I get mistaken for.
Super young
U. Where I want to be right now.
Anywhere but where I am...
V. Last time I cried.
Tonight lol...I do that.
W. Concerts I’ve been to.
Owl City in Seattle
X. What would you do if (…)?
That depends entirely on what (...) is...
Y. Do you want to go to college.
Up until this afternoon I was hoping to go this fall. Now I have no idea when I'm gonna go...
Z. How are you?
Honestly? I'm a very unhappy puppy :/
Nothing new really but it didn't get any better today :/
So ya know...
Posted 13 years agoI pray your breaks go out runnin' down a hill. Pray a flower pot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I'd like to. I pray you birthday comes and nobody calls. I pray you're flying high when your engine stalls. I pray all your dreams never come true. Just know wherever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car, wherever you are, honey, I pray for you. I pray for you.
Vindictive Wusky is Vindictive...
Posted 13 years agoLast Day Of The Meme
Posted 13 years agoDay One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession
So let's hear a confession...
I miss my old life :/ I miss my ex boyfriend and his family. I miss coming home to someone that was supposed to care about me and make me feel better when work was a bitch. I miss having company 24/7 and having someone to cuddle up with at night even though half the time I had to wait til he fell asleep cuz he hated trying to fall asleep with me clinging everywhere. I miss having a partner to play pokemon with and a partner to go to tournaments with me. God forbid I miss giving foot rubs and having to make dinner out of a box every night for my lack of cooking ability...
I miss the life I dropped my last one for to have. It might not've been perfect all the time, but it was mine, and I felt happy living it vs now where half the time I just wanna get drunk and jump off a bridge :/
And I miss my boyfriend...he was an ass...alot...but he was a loveable ass and more importantly he was MY loveable ass :/ Sure I wish he'd act a lil different sometimes, but that doesn't mean I loved the guy any less...And my inability to cut those feelings off and walk away is the major reason why life is capable of getting as gay as it is right now...
The worst parts are a) knowing I could've stopped things somewhere and moreso b) feeling like he probably doesn't even 'give two fucks' that we've barely spoken in the last 2 weeks...
So there's your confession :/
I tried going to bed early tonight in hopes that I'd wake up tomorrow morning and everything would be better, but instead I wind up waking up at midnight, groggy as hell and even more disappointed in life than when I went to sleep D:
I need a hug...
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession
So let's hear a confession...
I miss my old life :/ I miss my ex boyfriend and his family. I miss coming home to someone that was supposed to care about me and make me feel better when work was a bitch. I miss having company 24/7 and having someone to cuddle up with at night even though half the time I had to wait til he fell asleep cuz he hated trying to fall asleep with me clinging everywhere. I miss having a partner to play pokemon with and a partner to go to tournaments with me. God forbid I miss giving foot rubs and having to make dinner out of a box every night for my lack of cooking ability...
I miss the life I dropped my last one for to have. It might not've been perfect all the time, but it was mine, and I felt happy living it vs now where half the time I just wanna get drunk and jump off a bridge :/
And I miss my boyfriend...he was an ass...alot...but he was a loveable ass and more importantly he was MY loveable ass :/ Sure I wish he'd act a lil different sometimes, but that doesn't mean I loved the guy any less...And my inability to cut those feelings off and walk away is the major reason why life is capable of getting as gay as it is right now...
The worst parts are a) knowing I could've stopped things somewhere and moreso b) feeling like he probably doesn't even 'give two fucks' that we've barely spoken in the last 2 weeks...
So there's your confession :/
I tried going to bed early tonight in hopes that I'd wake up tomorrow morning and everything would be better, but instead I wind up waking up at midnight, groggy as hell and even more disappointed in life than when I went to sleep D:
I need a hug...
