Taken from  quixoticmutt

From now on, you can’t tell lies, are you ready?
- sure ._.

Think back eight months ago, were you single?
No but I was pretty damn close...

What do you carry with you at all times?
"Wallet/keys/cellphone"

Are you a cuddler?
W/ friends I'm comfortable with and that's a very small number

What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?
I sleep on a boxspring on the floor

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you text messaged?
My room mate Monica

How are you feeling?
Absolutely shitty. Alcohol did not help :/

Is something wrong right now?
What ISN'T wrong right now?

Are you mad at someone?
No I can't say mad's the right word

How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?
They play a role but my tastes are also weird and I'm more a personality guy

What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
I got drunk...and considering all that did was make me wanna cry in public I can't imagine what that means for the other stuff that happened today :/

How many TRUE best friends do you have?
A handful as I mean to

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
I got 3 hours of sleep last night. If life permits I would LOVE to sleep in...

How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
None

Where is your number one friend on your friends list?
I have no idea, mainly because I don't know which list you want me to use...

Do you have anyone crushing on you?
Probably, but I feel crappy in saying my mood/emotional status this week is making me wanna toss them all off a cliff...

When was the last time you talked to your most recent ex?
I had to call him today. The bigger part of me doubts that he even gives 2 fucks that we havent spoken much/at all since FC :/

Do you sleep with the TV on?
No

Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
Nope

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
Nope

Are you jealous of someone right now?
No

Where is the person you like right now?
Who knows. Work probably.

What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
Food

What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Not being a depressing mope

What is the sexiest part of the opposite sex's body?
Chest/belly

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Many times

Could you handle a long distance relationship?
Been there done that but don't think I could handle it as well after having a long term relationship in real life

Could you cry right now?
Welcome to the majority of my afternoon

Are you okay with the life you live?
Right now I fucking HATE the life I live...

Did you enjoy your day today?
My day was horrible :/

Do you have a tattoo?
No

Would you ever get any piercings on your body, other than your ear?
Maybe

Ever had a song sang about/for you?
Not that I know/remember

What was the last thing you spent money for?
Food as I do 80% of the time nowadays

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
My ex :/

Do you call it fall or autumn?
Fall

11:11… Make a wish!
I wish my life wasn't so depressing right now :/

Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
Jerin used to and still has the ability to when he's not an ass. Nowadays I have to look elsewhere. A couple people do great jobs but I typically have these stupid crap out moments where noone can do much of anything to make me happy :/

What were you up to at 9pm last night?
I was stuck at work til 12:45

Do you hold grudges?
depends


Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
Yes

What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
Burn in hell furfags...but legitimately? I'm gay...kinda a slanted question.. :/

Who was your last text from?
Jeff

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
It can ALWAYS get worse lol...

One thing you’re looking forward to?
I have to fall asleep somewhere between now and tomorrow morning

Are you shy at first when it comes to meeting people?
Yes I am, depending on the situation

Has anyone ever called you sexy?
I've received many of these

What color is your camera?
Silver and black

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
I don't even know anymore.... :/

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
I'm supposedly an open book

Are you wasting your time on someone?
Honestly? Yes. Yes I am. This is what pisses everyone else in my life off to hell.

Have you ever overheard a conversation you weren’t supposed to?
Yes I have

By the way, what is your name?
Call me Jaron or 'Ron or Cetra; I don't care much as I respond to all of them

Are you currently in a relationship?
Nope. I don't think I should be in one atm anyways

Do you give out second chances too easily?
Retardedly so. :/

What color is your favorite hoodie?
Black and White

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Yes

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

:/ & :'(

I've been super down lately...

Work crap...

Ex crap...

Phone crap...

Life crap...

Call me a toilet...ew...on second thought let's not...

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

My turn ons...

1) Masculine Men
I'm gay cuz I want men...not boys...not girls...Men. Dominant personality both in and out of the bedroom.

2) Musk
I'm not saying BO, I'm saying that deep manly smell...yeah sweat has a play in it, but there's a differnce between musky and smelly and there IS such a thing as too much

3) Chest hair and happy trails
Are fucking hawt....I'm not saying I want a jungle or a carpet man, but I do like a little fur to scritch and a map to help me find that buried treasure you're hiding down there ;3

Well that was slightly fun...

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

What's a total turn off?

1) Overbearing people...
Playfulness is one thing. Thinking entirely with your dick is another. Feeling overly come onto makes me uncomfortable:/ REALLY uncomfortable :/

2) Flamboyancy and lisps...
Flamboyancy in excess can be frustrating, and sexually speaking, being a sub, it makes my dick soft. I'm gay because I want a MAN...not because I want a Queen ._. Don't get me wrong, though. A little is fine and regardless it doesn't mean I wouldn't talk/hang if you're overly queer...just saying that personally, it's just not a trait I like in people that are 'more than friends'
Lisps fall into the category for the same reason pretty much. I want a man...and lisps typically kill that effect, ya know? Doesn't mean I'm not gonna associate with you; it's just hard for me to take a someone seriously when they sound like a chick and wanna tap dat ass :/

3) Some more extreme sexual fetishes...
Blood/gore, vore, scat, extreme bondage like those people that suffocate themselves in spandex. Just kinda freaks me out a lil :/ Not o say I'm not a kinky person at all, but even I have certain limitations.

4) That awkward 'I think I love you moment'...
Nothing super kills me more than talking to someone for a few days and suddenly hearing something along the lines of 'OMG I think I love you'. :/ The pressure from stuff like that just makes me feel awkward. Kinda the same as being over bearing except it's a lil different.

This one was actual alil difficult. I don't think much on my turn offs to be honest. Hopefully it serves all the same.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

Excluding Family...cuz they're obvious ya know? This ones a really unfair question because I can list more than that. To remedy this situation, Ima clot some people together and go with my current life status.

1 )My Ex.
He can be a dick sometimes, but he's still around, isn't he? :/
2) Jerin's Family.
This was really all I had for support for the last 3 years of my life. Regardless Jerin and my status, his his mom and his sisters (Even Alecia) and Baby are pretty big in my life. I owe them loads lol ^^;
3) The dragons
Some of the only friends I have around, I don't think I've ever NOT had fun hanging around with them. They're all super nice, Draeis is a sweet guy and Koba and Ember are equally as great to hang with. Thanks for putting up with me.
4) Bob R. & Family
This kinda goes along with all my 'pokefamily' from WA, but Bob specifically sticks out because he's so awesome. Who else would not only invite me down to CA for the Pokemon World Championships, but pay for my room and food as well? Pretty fucking sick. His wife and kids are great to be around as well. Though I haven't been to league in a while, he still has the courtesy to poke me on facebook and text me about the TCG.
Many thanks Bob
5) My tiny circle.
Believe it or not I only talk regularly to a few people. Those of you I do should count yourself to be pretty special ^^; I know that may come off as a lil stupid, but it's nice to have someone a click away to keep me company, and the 4 or so of you do a fantastic job.
Means a lot.

Furverts everywhere, stay tuned as I'll now be getting into the section involving that thing between my legs and how to make it happy/sad XD

I've decided to use my tax return along with my savings account to start drastically changing up my life.

1) Buy a car
I'm tired of feeling restricted and dependant on other people. It's been this way for a while now, I've just been forcing myself to choke down the last few months so I can throw down a decent payment on a decent car. It's sucked majorly...
2) Move
I'm growing tired of my living situation. No problems with my current roomates, but it's like living with my parents, and sticking to my room and the bathroom is unhealthy. I don't know where I'll wind up atm; I have offers for rooms in Redmond and Seattle as well as dotted housing in California and an offer in Arizona. I figure getting a car will reveal which of these options is most practical.
3) Find a new job
My current roommate and tons of other people I know have been telling me I need to ditch out on my job for a while now, but the bait at the end of the OG hook was too good to pass by. I've suddenly remembered the phrase that money really ISN'T everything. I'm pretty miserable at my current place of employment and it's failing miserably to get any better. I kinda don't care where I wind up, but I'm pretty sure much of anything would be better than the Everett Olive Garden. My current roomate can pretty much guarantee me a job at the Seattle Cheesecake Factory; I'm leaning quite heavily towards trying that out. I hear the staff is amazing...
4) College
Living with my ex nuked my college plans pretty hard. Paying taxes and a mortgage with a crappy minimum wage job shafted my original plan to jump in right after the move, and catching up with taxes kept the idea on the back burner. And the safe feeling that 'I'm happy where I am and nothing can break that' put the nail in the coffin.
Now I'm single and 3 years behind on something that I had all the tools ready to do before I ditched out of California :/ I've waited long enough, and now I'm gonna start applying to take classes this fall at a JC somewhere in the Seattle area.
5) Find new happiness :/
Maybe the change up can shock me back to a spot in life where I'm actually content again, because the last 7 months have failed that pretty miserably and I'm finally feeling worn down to that point where all I really wanna say is fuck everything and start bouncing.

How's that for a belated New Year's resolution?

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

What do I wish I'd never done...?

1) Agreeing to open my relationship instead of putting my foot down and keeping it that way.
This one regret over shadows anything else I can think to come up with to fill the other 5 spots. It's pretty much the only regret I dwell on as well as it's such a ground breaking move in the chain of events leading to my present situation :/
2) I wish I'd never met that Witley girl as a kid
3) I wish I would've told my cousin to shove off
4) I kinda wish I wouldn't have gotten involved in relationships when I did
5) I should never have given that con artist in the mall that 20$ last winter...
6) To a varying extent. I kinda wish I just hadn't moved to WA.
That's sort of a complex situation though. I tore my family apart and caused hella issues all to move in with some guy that eventually just got rid of me :/ I gave up my easy route through college and everything I had going for me at the time. Sure I got out of the house, which is something I pry needed, but with the board how it's set up right now, it's just been a thought on my mind lately. I have a lot of guilt that I'm the major reason my mom's so sick too :/

But yeh...mostly just filler today.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

1) If I'll be fired at work that day
2) College
3) Finances
4) Where I want to go now that I've split with my ex
5) My ex
6) The past
7) The future

Picking up a little early...

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

Day 3; 8 Ways to Win My Heart:

1) You gotta be sensitive :/
I'm a delicate creature and you gotta grasp that. If I start to cry, you gotta be the first one to wrap me in your arms and whisper that it's gonna be ok...sounds fucking corny as hell but it's how I roll :/
2) Respect and nurture my insecurities
Even if it means going a lil out of your way, you gotta make me feel safe in as many aspects of life as you can
3) Be understanding
I make a lot of mistakes sometimes. I don't mean to, and you need to realize and come to terms with my shortcomings
4) Make me feel special
Who doesn't wanna feel like they're the center of someone's universe?
5) Little things mean a lot
Be it making me dinner or giving me some snugs after a hard day at work, the little things add up for me and every trivial little thing actully kinda means a lot to me :/
6)Take things slow
I hate feeling pressured. I hate feeling guilt tripped. I hate feeling rushed. If you wanna waste your time seeking a relationship with me, then prove you're in for the long haul.
7) You gotta be able to read me.
I'm kinda quiet, and opening up can be really hard for me sometimes, but it doesn't take a nuclear physicist to know that if I get quiet during a situation, then I'm pry getting uncomfortable, ya know? I've always had to hear 'I'm not a mind reader'. Well no, you're not, but I expect you're also not an idiot either. I'm not THAT complex; you just need to pay a lil attention and think a bit.
8) Be genuine.
None of this fake/extra effort giving nonesense. I want something that'll last, ya know, and that's not gonna happen if you start out giving it more than you have...when the burnout hits it'll suck. Be what you intend to be further down the road.

I know that's kind of a crappy 8th spot, but I pretty much listed the main points earlier on.

Anyways, see you all tomorrow

[x] you meow/bark to get attention (I marf)
[] you find pets toys amusing
[] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food
[] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you
[x] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection (I nuzzle/marf/ twitch into)
[] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and bring it back
Total: 2

[x] you love to be scratched behind the ear
[] you love fish/meat
[] you like to stick your head out trough the window of a moving car.
[x] you like when people pet your head
[x] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper
[] you think feathers are fun to play with
Total: 5

[x] you sleep a lot during daytime
[] you enjoy scaring birds
[x] you lick peoples faces to show you like them (only certain people)
[] you bite people if they annoy you
[x] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours (on occasion >.>)
[x] milk or water is your favorite drink
Total: 9

[x]you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it
[ ] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it (no but I want one...)
[x] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit (tail)
[x] you enjoy long walks in the park
[x] you meow/bark/paw when you see something you want (paw)
Total: 13

[x] you call your hands and feet "paws"
[x] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about
[] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk
[x] you really enjoy cuddling
[x] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up
[x] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around
Total: 18


[x] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep
[] you meow or bark very often
[x] you hide when you get scared
[x] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house
[] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[] you tend to chew on stuff a lot
[x] you like to do tricks to get a treat
Total: 22

[x] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it (there EXISTS a tag with with my name on it)
[x] you refer to your self as an animal (I refer to myself as a wusky when in fandom)
[] your username has something to do with animals
[] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better
[x] you look for edible stuff often
Total: 25

[x] you often find yourself looking through the window for a long time
[x] you like to say hi to strangers
[x] you like to be petted when you have done something good
[x] people think you act like a pet (they also think I'm adorable or something like that)
[x] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like (more like aroo...)
[] you like to eat grass
[x] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water (hair especially)
Total: 31

Final Total: 31

Take your score and multiply it by 2
Put your title as "Im __% Furry"

Moving right along...

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

Onto day #2...

Nine things about myself:
1) I slave away at an Olive Garden for 12$/hr
2) I come from the crappiest town in California, Bakersfield
3) I love to write but havent done so since moving in with my now ex boyfriend.
4) I hate being cold
5) I have an overly sensitive personality which leads me to being a delicate flower...
6) All but 3 shirts in my wardrobe are black and against all attempts to change that I have failed every time to add more color into my life...
7) I'm slowly falling out of the Pokemon TCG
8) I hate being alone and living extendedly/dying as such is one of my biggest fears :/
9) I'm single and my lingering and complicated feelings/interactions for/with my ex are constantly clouding any progress I can make to change that :/

So how crazy is this?  FurryFreakStudios is actually giving away FREE FURSUITS!!!

OMG...

Interested? Favorite that beesh and follow the link to this hurr journal thingy:

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3096413/

And good luck :D

This'll keep me busy for TEN WHOLE DAYS!!!

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

So for day 1:

1) Everett Olive Garden: Screw this shit; I'm staying home tommorow cuz I can't even walk down my fvckin driveway D:<
2) Snoho Co. PUD: thank you for the overly generous 80$ tip from your togo order tonight
3)  bloodwiser : Thanks again for letting me use your jacket. It was fvcking cold bro D:
4)  riio : thanks for making FC the shit
5) George R.R. Martin: Thank you for being brilliant; I;m really sorry I take so long to read all your books...
6) Cute Blue Haired Bad Dragon co-worker guy: Thanks for being so awesome :D But what's your NAME D:
7) Guy of My Dreams: You better hurry the fuck up cuz I'm tired of waiting on your ass D:<
8) Ex Boyfriend: Wish you'd stop being such a dick :/
9) This Guy I Know: Sorry I'm still all blah.
10) Monica B.: I can has cheer me up hot butter rum naos? o~o ~whimpery pup~

That took forever :/ Sorry it wasn't all that amazing either; I only really have things to tell a few select people. I'll try making the next 9 days better, yeah?

I'm off to find happiness somewhere in my room now :/

So after a ridiculous full of alcohol and romping, my phone decided to derp and now it's dead ._.

So yea...please hold while I hunt a new one, yes?

BTW, thanks to  Tigon & his mate  bloodwiser for keeping me company last night and giving me a jacket to use...lol

Know your foodz son D:<

http://i.imgur.com/fz6JR.jpg

1. What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before?
Played in the Pokemon World championships.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Didn't make one. This year I wanna actually cook more...

3. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
Stuck at work for the second year in a row closing togo...woooooo...

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Metaphorically speaking maybe...

5. What countries did you visit?
Nothing

6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
Happiness...tolololol...

7. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
June 7th and 8th...

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I'm still breathing...

9. What was your biggest failure?
I lost a 3 year relationship and everything that went with it.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Only on a figurative and emotional level...

11. What was the best thing you bought?
God only knows considering how much worthless crap I buy...

12. Where did most of your money go?
80% food 20% other...

13. What song will always remind you of 2011?
'How I became the sea' & 'Set Fire to the Rain',

14. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Moving towards happiness

15. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Crying...which encompassed a good 80 % of my year...

16. What was your favorite TV program?
MLP, GoT, Adveture Time and Regular Show

17. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
It's beyond myself to hate anyone...I can sevrely dislike a few though....

18. What was the best book you read?
Pfft...A Game of Thrones...duh...

19. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Adele...

20. What was your favorite film of this year?
I don't quite know...

21. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
My ex ditched ou on my 21 run :/ A friend of mine took me outta town but I didn't enjoy it as much as I should've being too worked up over w.e...

22. What kept you sane?
Honestly, I don't know...frankly speaking, nothing should've...

23. Who did you miss?
My mate dumped me. :/

24. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011:
Don't even bother...just stick your head in the sand where it belongs...

Isn't all that great after all :/

So now I get to debate some stuff before my plane leaves to take me back up North in a couple days.

Mom's sick being off work and debating critical medical leave, which supposedly falls into the same category as Retirement for he terminally ill? I really don't understand that to be honest. After over exerting herself to try and keep everything up for my visit, things finally seem to be showing through as to what actually's been going on and it puts some stuff into perspective...

Dad's not much better off. Not only did noone happen to fully explain to me how ungodly retarded his work schedule is, but his diabetes is crapping out on top of it. In the 5 days I've been in own I think I've seen my dad MAYBE 14 hours? The rest have been spent out at work...hell, wednesday he worked 23 solid hours and slept the next day away before getting called back out.
That leaves my sickly mother home alone with my 8 y/o sister who knows how long...Sure they have my grandma to hep, but that only gets so far, ya know?

In short I guess my grandma was right and the family does in fact seem to need me to think about RE relocating back o my home town to help out...though honestly what would that really accomplish? And there seem to be so many negatives to moving back...
I mean moving loses me my job and ditches what little bit of a social circle I've made for myself. It lands me in a local where college becomes a game of leap frog as I trudge through a mediocre JC and then upend myself again when I transfer to a university. I have to deal with living in close corridors with my parents which I can't say I'd look forward to and ontop of that whos to say I'd really have much time for anything depending on how things go...

Ionno. I'm a tiny bit stressed out atm...

Because I'm a social Networking whore...

https://twitter.com/#!/xCetrax

Yeah...so do that thing you're supposed to do on here now.

So while phishing for something in my suitcase I stumbled across a notice to inform me that my bag had been randomly selected for physical inspection. I feel so sorry for the person that had to inspect the crown royal bag that I use to keep my lube and  Baddragon Werewolf toy in.

Trol...lol...lol...lol...lol...

3 years ago today I left my hometown and everything I had going for me to run willy nilly into a relationship I thought was the end all solution to all of my issues...we left Friday night, december 19th, 2008 and arrived Sunday at around 3am...I still remember that weekend like it was yesterday right down to how little I cared about the spunk in my hair shortly after we got settled in.

Now 3 years later on the day I wound up in my new home, I have to take a plane back to my old home to fae my parents as a failure in the aspect that I ran away for and wrecked the family over in the process...

The stress is kinda starting to get to me...

I wake up for work at 7...its 3 am...and I can't fall asleep to save my soul. Why on earth did I request to open the day before my flight? x.x

Pre-apologies for the depressing journal. My attempts to stay positive have to have their momentary lapses ONCE in a while...

To central California from Tuesday December 20th through the following Wednesday December 28th. I'll be visiting my parents in Bakersfield over Christmas and though I'm sure I'll be having ever such a lovely time already, why not shoot to keep myself just a wee bit more entertained?

Anyone up to hang while I'm down?

Funny thing is I don't know like...ANYONE...even though that's totally a lie, but I can count the people I DO know on one hand, so yeah.

Anyways, here's hoping the trip isn't horrible, and if it's aimed to turn that way, maybe the higher power(s) will crash my plane beforehand.

To all you Washington people (all like 3 of you?) I'll be back next Thursday for New Years, so we can party it up then yeah?

After much deliberation...

Hotel:
No fucking clue

Arrival/Departure:
the day before con and the night after

Means of transportation:
plane and :riio:

Sharing a room with:
:jerinheadisson: & :riio:

Who do you hang out with:
I would assume some bastard combo of the above mixed in with some dragons like :sanith: and probably that kangaroo guy from SLO :khelnio:

Or maybe I'll keep to myself in the bars or whatnot after I browse the dealer's den for porn.

Gender:
One pansy ass fag >.>

How old are you:
21 & Legal for everything.

Are you an Artist:
not in the traditional sense of the word

Do you do free art?
if by free art you mean providing passing entertainment then sure

Do you do commissions?
Nope

Do you do trades:
Can I trade nothing for something?

Are you a Fursuiter:
Handler most likely

How many Fursuits are you going to bring/wear:
Me personally, none but there will be more than a few where I'll be.

Attending parties:
Why the fuck not...

Do you drink:
I'll pry only survive this trip on a very large bottle of hard alcohol...

Do you smoke:
nope

Can I buy you a drink:
If you want to be my guest. We'll call it a late bday shot drink

Can I give you lots of money:
I accept paper and all major credit cards

Are you attending any panels:
possibly

Stage or public performance:
possibly

How do I identify my self to you:
I'll be the guy with the balls...you'll know what I'm talking about ...

Rules of engagement (physical Contact out of Suit):
A 'hi' works. Honestly I don't care so long as you don't get all up on my nuts,

Personality Type:
Shy/bubbly/hyper...gotta warm up first

How do I know if you're not looking to socialize (angry, busy or upset):
I'll look as though you just kicked my dog...

What's the best way to find you:
I'll pry be strolling about. I hear its a big con. Mayhaps you wont see me at all...

Can I touch you:
shrugs

Can I hug or snuggle with you:
also shrugs

How tall are you:
About 5' 10"

Are you nice:
For the most part.

Can I stalk you:
akward...

Do you like parties:
They're growing on me.

If I see you, how should i get your attention:
Just say hi

Can I buy breakfast, lunch, or dinner sometime:
go for it

Can I take a picture of ya:
sure

Can I kidnap you for *censored*:
. . . . .

Are you going to commission art at the con:
probably

Anything to add:
I don't know wtf I'm doing lol...

And its not even because of my new xbox.

Just having one of those really gay 'omg I just realized I'm going to bed alone' nights. I'm just a lil lonely I guess...and stuff on my mind isn't helping either.

On top of that my laptop is fried as of Thursday morning and no laptop means a world of inconvenience for me and limited ways of winding down, not to mention I lost all my quiet time music I tend to fall asleep to...

As if that weren't bad enough I even got to find out today that I'm not even goonna get next weekend off for my 21st birthday. I requested the weekend off 3 months ago...Yet who's to say it'll even matter at this point. I was the one talking about just working through it....maybe this is the powers above siding that its not a bad idea.

My ex's birthday is today. I wonder if he even wants me around at all. Tho I also wonder if he has nights like this too...which last I checked he says he doesn't...

Its 4am and I get to work tommorow...that is if I don't get fired for tearing my manager a new one for neglecting my time off requests...and after canceling my trip to Salem for Regionals too...

Ionno. Tonights just kinda lame ya know?
-curls up-

Having fallen into a bizarre twist of fate/turn of events...life decided to give me something nice for a change...

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6825840/

I now have a fully gaming setup complete with a 32" flatpanel lcd tv w/ hdmi atop a pretty nice looking glass entertainment system. The icing on the cake is the limited edition Call of Duty Modern Warfare 3 xbox that came with a copy of the game itself, and if you're smart you know what that means...

I once again have xbox live.

So add me (nMemoriam) and let's do gaming stuff. Though I'll hopefully soon be cracked out on Skyrim, so long as there are friends to play with, I don't mind switching to modern warfare or even halo Anniversary if fate allows me to get my paws on a copy...

Financially speaking, even though the money will be returning to my account in the form of my parents' birthday check and my paycheck from this week, my bank account HAS dropped substantially to a mere 400$...But with this done, my new saving plan has my old one flipped backwards as I'll only be keeping 100$ from each of my paychecks in my checking account while pumping the other 200-300$ into my savings. I aim to have a car by the end of the month if not by Christmas and DEFINITELY by the end of the year.

Oh and did I mention I need to start looking for a new job? Yesterday my GM decided to let slip how our restaurant is barely making even financially...so we're pretty much a short step away from Hemorrhaging money...which is bad...I'm going to start looking into new employment options which funny enough may actually plan into the grand scheme better than expected. Perhaps the powers above are trying to push hmy ass through the door I'm too lazy/hesitant to walk through myself.

So yeh I turn 21 next Saturday November 19th...hopefully nothing bad happens. Am I excited? i don't really know to be honest...I'm not SUPER big on alcohol, but I can definately see that changing when I'm legal and who knows. From a social aspect I can see it being nice, but let's just wait and see.
Don't forget to shower me in praise and affection...I love both. Oh and gifts...gifts are nice too.

Anyways, hopefully this means something somewhere is going somehow.

And yeh. Journals.

3 years ago today I cut school early, hit the card shop for the newest Pokemon Theme decks, grabbed my week pre-packed suitcase and confronted my mother as to why there was a dog cock dildo boxed inside XD That was definately a fun conversation and I left the house in tears, but that was retardedly irrelevant because...

...I was about to board a plane to visit my mate for the first time ever...

I remember just about (if not) everything about that weekend and it was one of the best trips in my life. And so important was my 5 day visit that we wound up making the day I arrived, November 7th, our official anniversary day.

That was 3 years ago and it's not even valid anymore...I don't even have anything to celebrate today, let alone someone to celebrate it with.

Today was supposed to be my 3rd year anniversary...

Fucked that one up, didn't I?

The irony? Tommorow marks 5 months of not being together...that's almost HALF A YEAR...

Where the fuck did all this time go...?

Sorry I messed up so bad...