Apologies for the delay in uploads. Today Furward Command brings you another Dead Ops Arcade game.

 zoefox gives killing zombies a try in this arcade style shooter, learning rather fast.

Video link below.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Ov8asaCgGow

Furward Command is now officially the furry gaming network that it was intended to be, fully decked out with awesome art lovingly created by the awesome  bagelcollector

Be sure to stop by our awesome looking channel and check out our content. We're always uploading new things. Don't forget to subscribe!

Channel link:
https://m.youtube.com/channel/UC1o7.....e7wdtoTZpvpd3w

Give some love to  BagelCollector he put some hard work into our channel banner, and deserves more commissions than he gets.

Part 2 of our Diablo III Let's Play is online. Join  zoefox and I as we quickly learn what hard mode with fresh characters means.

Video link below.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=EFYJMheRiCY

Part 4 of Crysis 2 is up.  zoefox escapes certain eggy doom, and  sladekelberry almost loses his latest meal when he discovers the contents of a crashed alien cruiser.

Video link below.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4X9DmnO0zOw

Today we are showcasing two videos that have been uploaded to Furward Command

The first being the launch of a Diablo III series that stars  zoefox and myself, with the occasional appearance of other Furward Command players.

Video link below.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=FlYAsGvx5YQ

Next we have part 3 of The Last of Us, where we finally get into some action that doesn't involve me getting shot in the head.

Video link below
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Oy49_kItHQ4

We plow forward, carried only by our own amusement at this absurdity while Zoe battles with her mother for control over her Easter plans.

Video link below.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=mf6mqnyQ-4U

Part 2 of the survival game The Last of Us is online. We take a brief emotional hit to the nads before moving right back into our mindless antics.

Watch us cry, watch us laugh, watch us die, watch us be sly.

Video link below.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=a4rn4e3jhTI

Part 2 of Slade and Ali Play Crysis 2 is now up. We continue forward with Zoe still at our backs, keeping us from taking the extinction of humanity too seriously.

Link below.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=xFh6roU3EEM

We are very proud to announce the launch of a series of videos on The Last of Us, a post apocalyptic zombie survival game that takes place 20 years after a catastrophic outbreak of fungal spores that hijack the human body.

 fox_forrester and myself take this journey through a beautiful and horrific landscape, taking it upon ourselves to face the infected, and try to find a glimmer of hope for humanity.

Apologies for the coughing in the background. The only other choice was to force a sick  zoefox to sleep on the couch.

Furward Command has released a Dead Ops Arcade play with  sladekelberry myself, and  zoefox

The first part of the video was lost due to software failure, but the bulk of it was clean of corruption, allowing us to upload it. Check it out, and watch as we question our sanity.

Video link below.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ne7-1g64ne0

Furward Command, previously having two videos online has officially launched a series of Crysis 2 videos. Watch as  sladekelberry picks up the controller and fends off an alien invasion with the power of the nanosuit, while a tired  zoefox and myself cheer him on and give him bad advice.

Video link below.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=sT08X-aIKqo

I am very proud to announce the highly anticipated and highly belated launch of the furry gaming channel Furward Command. Our resources are thin, and our time is strained, but we will work tirelessly to upload as much content as possible as often as possible. Our innaugural video is a rather embarassing playthrough of Black Ops Zombies involving myself and  Fox_Forrester on the map Kino der Toten. Despite our best efforts, and a rather promising test play we fall far short of our goal.

But tune in next time when our equipment fails us and we begin directly in the middle of an intense zombie battle. Channel link below.

https://m.youtube.com/channel/UC1o7.....e7wdtoTZpvpd3w

Do not eat the fish at the Renaissance Festival.

I really liked our truck. It was reliable, sturdy, roomy, and in the end, kept my family safe as a teenager struck my door and sent us into a pole. It's dead now, but it died protecting us. We are all safe. Either by sheer ford engineering, my last minute instincts, or an act of God, despite being hit by some idiot turning into an intersection while I had the right of way, and ramming into a traffic light pole, no one was seriously hurt.

Go out and buy yourself an F-150 folks, it'll save your lives.

Perhaps it is just my drunkeness, or perhaps it is the artist within me speaking tonight. For some reason, I feel the need to speak out about the great, and somewhat overlooked movie known as, The Crow.

A movie so beautiful and well constructed as, The Crow. It may be the goth in me, it may be the version of me stuck in the 90's. But, I feel that the movie is being passed over as one of the THE most masterful of films despite its cliches.
It is one of my favorites, and I continue to rewatch it well into a decade after first seeing it (not saying much as I am only 21).

It means so much to me, and influences so much of my creative works, that it feel that I cannot, without conscience, credit a single item of my writing to The Crow. It covers everything meaningful to me. A lost sense of place, powerful emotion, revenge, and a strong sense of connection to a single person who has been taken from me; it is the very base of all my creative works (seriously, read what I have uploaded and quote me on this shiznit.) The Crow may be the single most overlooked masterpiece in existence. A film so beautiful and well crafted, that it does not receive the praise it truly deserves. It's a tragedy, really, that The Crow is not mentioned as much as it needs to be.

Perhaps it is only the goth stuck in the 90's that sees this thing. Perhaps it is only the drunken goth stuck in the 90's that sees this. I am not sure yet. But I know one thing. The Crow, is a masterpiece. And should be respected as one.

Hey, FA. Kind of a first for me. I've never had to ask a collective group of something like this. My mate,  ZoeFox is having some serious problems with her eye. She feels a persistent stinging pain in her right eye. Whether open or closed, it causes her pain. From what we can see, there is nothing in the eye, but it has become bloodshot over the course of the day. Even light bothers her.

If anyone who reads this knows what could be wrong, and give us some advice, anything at all, we would really appreciate it. She's in an incredible amount of pain, she can't even look at a screen long enough to ask for help on her own page. We've run out of options on our end. We can't even afford to take her to an optometrist to see what the problem is.

If you have any information, or know someone with any sort of helpful advice, I would truly appreciate it. We really need something. I can't bear to see my love in such agonizing pain. Please help.

It's very rare for someone to rile me up to the point that I can't take anymore. My patience is infinite, and my willingness to forgive is reasonable. There are very few people who have wronged me in such a way to deserve my ire. As of now, there are a total of three people I would not mind killing with my own hands.

And yesterday, I was told that the man who wronged me in an unforgivable manner, who left me stranded a state away from my home with no way of making it back on my own, who withheld hard earned wages from me for weeks, and nearly killed me in order to have a superfluous vacation to Hawaii, has been arrested for his wrong doings, right before he could frame his own mother.

As terrible and violent as my rage has been, I now feel that I can let it go, knowing that the man who tried to play around with my hard earned dollars, and tried abandoning me on the road home will now get his.

A few years ago, I struggled with not only depression, but anxiety, anger, and many other emotions that I found difficult to cope with. A very typical teenage story, of being bombarded with alien expectations from school staff and parental figures, and dealing with the cruel acts of my peers.

During my last two years of high school, it wasn't too bad. I had begun healing from the emotional wounds of my previous six years of life. Things were looking up. But there was something else there. Something, prevalent, and powerful. Something I could barely hold back. It fueled me for so long, that I never realized exactly how persistent it had been in my life until recently.

There's a piece of me, a piece not many know of, or acknowledge as actually being there. Something... Vicious. And vindictive. Something angry, and far too willing to lash out. For the past four years I've kept it in check, dealt with it healthily, and even directed it toward some new creative projects. It's still been there, but I've been in control of it.

But now...

Now I'm not too sure who is in control.

Very recently, I have been treated very unfairly, and unprofessionally by my employers. In my own terms, I've been fucked over. And no matter how hard I grit my teeth and push through their bullshit, they continue to poke and prod me, as if they are having fun watching me squirm. Making a fool of me, forcing me to dance to their tune, and act on their whim.

There is hatred in me. An intense hatred. And every poke and jab is exacerbating it. I've told so many people that my willingness to act irrationally grows by the second, but they all seem to take it as a joke.

It is no joke.

My own emotions are consuming me from the inside, wearing away at my will to hold back my hand. With every second that passes, I truly grow weaker to this anger, and I don't know how much longer I can keep myself from breaking my knuckles over someone's skull.

I even dream about it now, what I want to do to the people who withhold my hard earned wages, who as I speak, lounge and live comfortably, while all I can do is pray that everything I've worked for wont disappear overnight.

I'm falling apart, and I'm afraid that what's left standing wont be able to distinguish between my loved ones and my enemies.

I'm scared.

After staring at my computer for a total of two hours, having recently plugged it back in, I've decided to upload the story I've been talking about for so long. It's not anywhere near finished, but after looking at where i paused on the page, I decided to upload it in parts. Possibly only two, but at the most, thee. Only time will tell. I hope those of you who watch me enjoy it. I'm not confident in editing my own stories, so feedback is most appreciated.

The story can be found here. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8272984/

Despite not having many people watching me, or even reading my journals, I have been asked to carry on a meme from  fox_forrester's journal. So, if you leave a comment here, I will...

1) Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your FA page.

2) Tell you a color you remind me of.

3) Tell you what Element I think you belong to (e.g. water, fire, air, etc.).

4) Tell you what comic, manga/anime, or video game character you remind me of.

5) Ask you a question, and you must answer.

6) Tell you something I like about you.

7) Give you a nickname.

8) Tell you the object that is to the left of me.

9) Tell you what food/ flavor/smell you remind me of

10) Tell you to do one in your journal too

Something has been stuck in my head for the longest time. I'm a big fan of the video game, The Darkness, based off the comic series of the same name. It's such a beautiful game with its details and emotional story. I would recommend it to anyone who enjoys a story driven game.

Something about the game has been stuck in my head though. There's a point in the game where you are in hell, a nightmare version of WWI, where soldiers are never allowed to die, and have suffered for centuries in a place they can't understand. At some point, you go through a bunker, trying to find a cannon that could aid in the fight against the Darkness. The very moment you step out of the bunker, you have to take cover, or the shockwave of the cannon firing will kill you.

The weapon is so massive, that simply being near it while it fires is deadly.

The very moment the shockwave dies down and you look upon the monstrosity, the Darkness speaks in your mind. This is what is stuck in my head.

"War. Your gift. Your heritage. Your burden."

I just can't get that phrase out of my head for some reason. I'm beginning to obsess over it. Maybe it's the way it was delivered, from the masterful Mike Patton. Maybe it is the phrase itself, the way it was worded. Or maybe it's the fact that the Darkness is naming the cannon as the Fourth Horseman of the apocalypse, which he had done with three previous creatures. As if the Darkness is suggesting that it was the creator of War.

I'm not sure. Maybe I'll figure it out soon.

I'm having some difficulties with my current story. Not plot wise, or even character wise.  fox_forrester's character, Hikari nearly writes himself. And the other characters are rather static, but rightfully so, as they only play background roles. The problem I'm having, is that the plot seems too close to another work that I am very fond of.

That, and I feel the need to express that there is a highly distinct line between me (my fursona, who is inseparable from who I am), and the character I have made for FA, who uses the name Xenex.

I am not Xenex. Xenex is merely an alias utilized by the greatly exaggerated version of me featured in the upcoming story.

The fact that the character Xenex is a greatly exaggerated version of myself, is what makes the plot so similar to a work I am so fond of. Death Note has been a great influence on me, but Xenex is no ripoff of L. Xenex hasn't the same strength as L. But since I have been influenced by the fictional character, I have adopted some of his characteristics. And those characteristics have been exaggerated in Xenex.

Maybe these problems won't bother me once the story is complete. We will see.

For any of my watchers who also follow  fox_forrester you might have seen one of the pieces I commissioned from him.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7339506/

He had the great idea of writing a story describing the background and events happening in the picture, and I wanted to help in any way I could. But, now I am writing the story on my own, of course with help from  fox_forrester as I could never recreate his character Hikari on my own.

It's a completely new project for me, and I might be a bit rusty, but I'm looking forward to submitting here.

For anyone who actually reads my journals and story submissions, how should I upload this story? Currently, it's broken up by time skips, but isn't organized by chapters, as it will be a short story. Should I upload by time skips, which vary in length, or upload the story as a whole?

I'm leaning toward uploading the story as a whole, as that would allow me to work on the earlier parts a bit longer.

I think I'm on the verge of some great inspiration. It's not here yet, but I feel it on the horizon, like a massive army trudging through the landscape. Despite my talk of a hiatus, I can't stop this inspiration. I wouldn't want to anyway.

In anticipation of this coming inspiration, I will release a teaser for the story I was working on before I decided to take a break. Rather than an excerpt from the pieces I've already written, I am going to submit a scene I've had stuck in my head since I began writing it. Hopefully it'll be up soon. I'm going to begin work on the teaser as soon as possible.

I can feel the army coming.

I'm sorry to everyone who has watched me recently because of a journal advertising my writing. I'm currently on an indefinite writing hiatus. I need some experience in my life before I continue writing the projects that I've had in mind.

Fortunately, I have some stories I've already written in my files. Despite them being a bit old, I'm willing to edit them a bit and post them here. I hope you enjoy them.