I live underground this state.

somedays; being here is comparable to being in a bunker.

I game now; more than draw sadly.
still in physical therapy slowly hope to be better by next year to draw. Least that is a goal- ha!

I play on steam

games I own; "*'=("fully ready to play game")

Aion - not patched but downloaded
Archeage- semi patched

Borderlands 2*

Creativerse*

Dead Realm*

Dragomon Hunter - needs to be patched
Fallen Earth*

Final Fantasy xiv: a realm reborn* - INSTALLED not patched and i canna afford the sub Q_Q I loveee this game!

Garry's Mod*
HL2*
Killing Floor *
La Tale*
Portal Knights*
Rift* (daily mmo) <----
Rust* IF SOMEONE GIVES ME SUM PANTS
The Secret World* (needs few patches)
The Ship*
Smite - installed

TF2 -partially downloaded D":
Tree of Savior TOS**
Vindictus*
Wakfu*

So my pen and my very loving and adorable chewer bit my very lovingly donated pen a nice funeral. The time it lasted me was half filled with seering back pain; I have not much to show for it.


Update on my back- Physcial therapy got approved to start work on lower as we as upper spine now. And the tendinopathy in my shoulder is still a constant battle..


High lyfe (stoner furs hey ;) )

Send me notes if you wish to get a reply i will be checking today -

kudos to anyone caring enough to touch in with me.

I avoided FA for the years I was in school; because life and arthomework is a nasty lady devil and u barely notice all your time is gone; and kinda I believe go over leaving school and being a vagabound; gypsy; couch surferer for awhile.
I came back home - thought i had ulcers- wrong. took out gall bladder.


PROTIPFROM HUSH-
KEEP UR GALL BLADDER IF YOU CAN AT ALL COSTS.
munchies barely have me fed
(ps. unless you want to feel zombie-esque)




PEN HALP""""""""""""""""""


where can i find the best pen for intuous5 large - I believe; the one donated by a far greater artist than I; I am sure I link back to his work and accounts in, a past journal. I would like to say without relinking him - as I have no found everyone again- is that I appreciated the; well paying it forward to an amateur.
-it kept along side me. You got me a companion; though it was short lived in proof of usage. I would like some help again.


I will show off all my energy and skill to anyone who c an find me a cheap wacom replacement - or has an extra pen with some decent nips willing to donate.


I am going in a more pixelated and smaller - for icons and figurines.



Well i am not proofreading forgive me and my over tiredbrains

hmmm


Does, anyone else have preteen-adult memories of the 2-D The Palace Avatar Chat.

The mansion gate; where all the golden glow is apparent and the still mansion does not move. You can click to the door way. There is a a brief and accurate idea in which explains the chat best.

Everyone has used the application paint; even before it was as half decent as now. In fact if not the first one of the first submissions was withmy cheap off brand pen I purchased a longtime ago.

so it is as if microsoft paint w/ a chat shoved into it.
There's coding
There's art
There's insanity and ghosts






Now; back on steam green lit. I have looked back into my past and reopened chat; crazy dark place.

The people that you find there; probably have not moved on to other chats; are stuck in the past a bit.

I am hoping to remind some of thepast users and maybe even some new ones to check it out..

PCHAT.ORG <this is the link to the house, that jack ,built.

I went to art college, two in fact. I raved, I drew, I rolled..

I don't want to go into a long winded thing, my back wouldn't appreciate it either.. I will get to that..

So, hey anyone out there?

I am sorry, I disappeared. I think it's a trait seen on this site, a lot. But, life has a way, to kick you when you're down..

School :
Went to a local; girl infested traditional art college near home, then transfered to a more modern, digital college in boston. The actual real life socialization. I am not quite sure I am any good at it, even now..

I raved, a lot in boston. Made a lot of nice memories. ~ While I was drowning in debt, I later drowned in sorrows ..

My aunt she passed at the end of my ability to attend school; happened almost same week it feels. She was pretty much the closest thing to a mother, I have ever felt. It destroys me to this day.

I did not deal well, and ran across america, couch surfing, and just distracting self with self inflicted homelessness (sigh) and I miss it (insanity?)

I won't go further into that, as I am not quite grieving properly, even now :/


After coming back, almost same month, I had my gall bladder out.. So, I no longer get hungry????
Now if you ever met me in person, you can see I am clutzy.. (Hi, my name's Angel, I have a broken wing...fml)

MY BACK

From my neck to my tail ;) (cries) I have managed to hurt my spine in so many ways it shouldn't be possible.

I have slow whiplash; my neck
So, from that I guess, my spine, is now leaning to the left?
(when the dr asked me, what I was doing ? - I simply said "leaning?" he laughed)

I also somehow have tendinopathy in my left shoulder _-_
I am unaware what I did to the lower back, but who knows..


I am now back in this underground shelter ;) my basement limbo of hell~

I smoke, almost constantly for pain, but I am alive my friends!


Working on finding trimming job/living situation through some friends; so hopefully the next update, is moving forward, not being stuck in reverse.. <3



OH also I am in Physical Therapy
I am setting up a YT channel
I fixed my TWITTER (omg today? I realize my twitter was hacked)

lets just hope me repropping up this excuse for a life, isn't as unsturdy as I XD

ANYTHING!!!

traditional you pay 5 dollars and shipping you get it!!!

ANYTHING!!!

traditional you pay 5 dollars and shipping you get it!!!

Traditional photographed uploaded neatly commissions

I have 88 cents in my account and job hunting now - I need to pay my school fee of 600 dollars and a late phone bill of 200+ dollars to keep my phone on.

My entire family is broke. I honestly could use any help.

My pen broke so i can only offer traditional. If you pay shipping you can have it either made into a badge I have lanyards floating around.

I can create really cool 10 dollar badges I have all kinds of crafty things. if you look in my gallery and tell me what you like I will work hard!

Anything! Really!!!!!!!!!!


:(

[Foot notes on bottom, way too long but I have to detail it out]

I am not really certain.. How to start explaining..

I moved from the regular dorms in Brookline, MA. To the apartment style housing through my school in Boston, MA. Thinking location was everything. I forget girls can just be straight mean.


I decided on moving in with a fashion student, mainly based on being near a close friend of mine in the same suite. 6 girls 1 apartment, I didn't have "HIGH" expectations...

I didn't at all expect the shit storm that went down..After I met her, I recalled my friend stating she had already decided to not give me a chance because of her. She also I think hated my unique style, piercings and what not.. So superficial.

No matter what I came in with a positive attitude to make new friends. It's how I like to be?
When I got there, she didn't feel good she was asleep, when I had to move in.. Great way to meet someone. Anyway She went back to bed after my mother left, and I decided to just come back and crash on the couch not to wake her, she let me turn on the light, and I got to crash on my bed. I didn't really notice any hostility really until the next day.

She texted me the next day, as I was in my first class, asking me to come back and clean up my totes from the room. Even acknowledging she sounded like a bitch..
I went back that night, with my friend Wade, and he helped me tuck everything on my side of the room, and fix everything so my tv was set up etc...

I thought she'd be happy. Nope. Her friend, my friend's roommate two doors down.. Brought a room switch to me. Which I was happy with, and the next night I agreed to it, and confirmed it all nicely with my roommate.

Third night living in this apartment. Dry campus. Roommate switch all accepted. She asked if I smoked earlier. I said yes.



I left. My. Bag...




Fuck...



Crashed at my friend Glen's place, actually in a good mood...
9:30am I found out through her friend, that she had reported my bag for smelling like bud. She had the Resident Life Counselor insect my bag. Confiscating my pieces and an empty half pint of JD. Threw away my bud.

She also reported a nug she could have just thrown out...

That's two incidents. Thankfully the school didn't call the cops, or kick me out.

Obviously I no longer felt safe there. She just wanted to mess with me. So, I just started bumming around. Finally switched rooms after 2 weeks. But my homework got stuck in Quincy, then I got sick with Bronchitis and conjunctivitis in both eyes during midterms...

My whole term was fucked. Wasted 6k. No money left. I was forced to withdraw from school.

As I was waiting to come home, my aunt who helped raise me since birth. Suddenly passed away, she was getting better... I love her so much, and I didn't get to say goodbye.


Now, my whole life feels like it's in a hole. ~


My art style might change.


[Foot notes]

Life.
D:
Homeless.
Roommate was a mean-girl and reported me for things unnecessarily that lead to me having to couch surf
School.
Being homeless, caused me to miss too much school/ sick
I was forced to withdraw, and am destitute.
Death.
My beloved aunt passed away unexpectedly and my life is crumbing because of it.
Hate.
So much negative happening - is killing me.

I am trying to travel a few places. Between now and May. Wanted to know if I knew anyone in the following areas:

Texas- preferably Dallas area.
Fort Wayne, Indiana- Because I said so.
Oregon - Because fuck you!
Pittsburg -Because duh.
If anyone lives in any of these areas, let me know :)

If you have a suggestion of a place to visit leave it below vvv

Whatever.
The world didn't end. Surprised. I think not, I think people make these theories up to ''live'' like the ''end of the world'' is coming. People wanted to party, do extreme things the night prior.
I feel like we've seen 20 of these in my life time thus far.

In other news. Tips in communicating with artists and commissions.

If you do not like someone's style, do not commission them.

When commissioning someone. Send them one or two refs. Only send more if they all look alike. Multiple different styles of the same character showing vast differences will only confuse artists. Include instructions, if you do not have an actual ref sheet label your references for what you like about each one.
Artists can't follow ''simple'' instruction, without instructions.


If you do not like a person's piece they did for you. Do not say "interesting" or "unique". We ''all'' know what this means. Be straight. "I am not happy with this piece, could I please get a refund or could you try again? (include details you want fixed if they agree to try again.) Realize that the piece you've received took time and effort.

DO NOT insult the capabilities of the artist. It does nothing to encourage them to want to draw for you.


If an Artist offers a refund. Do NOT elude that they can't draw a simple picture. Do not add insult to injury, at this point you already have a picture and they are offering a refund.


(just some tips)

OMG THAT WAS SOO GOOD!
Destroyed the plastic cup but omg

yuuuuuuum

my dorm has no internet so sorry for delay in responses
<3

I just now received this laptop from . I am very grateful she was able to sell me it. Going to set up my STEAM account and re download some games. Very excited to bring it to school and use SAI again :P

Thanks so much Ali <3

Should finish the sketch I owe you silver once I get to school in about a week, after everything is set up ^^

Pretty much what the title says. I am moving to Boston, to go to school at the New England Institute of Art. I hope to make many new friends. Anyone out there from Boston?

I am planning Many adventures there.

Most of my time lately, has been fixing up my stuff to move. I don't want to pack too much. But I want to pack what I need.

Greenline, baby. All the way!

https://twitter.com/AngelinChaos

Just a way to keep up to date on my life. If you want...


I am making it more so to use whilst in college, but gaining a habit starts early ^_^

<3

Also I am not uploading much this week, as being DRUNK mixed with GRAVITY... doesn't work out. So needing to rest a bit.

I am doing a warmup sketch/drawing and need someones character who wants to hug me <.<

put ref VVVV and i will pick :)

http://electricfaery.deviantart.com/journal/
^^ info there, but u can comment here as well

I have 8 or 9 NEW and different type of ways I can DRAW you!!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8284673/ BLASTS Make a statement!


http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8284513/ STICKERS - STICK URSELF PLACES!


http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8284502/ - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8284699/ KEYCHAINS EVEN IF YOU DON'T DRIVE YOU CAN CARRY KEYS TO LOOK COOL AND HAVE YOUR CHARACTER ON THEM D:


http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8228084/ GRAFFITI BADGES FUN!!


http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8268759/ MOVING BADGES - YOU CAN MOVE DLDLDOFNSODIVNDFLKNVFDV :OOOOOO


http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8276694 DECOUPAGE BADGES so much fun I take ur interests and find things to decoupage on your background then draw your character on top its cute! and PERSONALIZED!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8299582/ SWEETS EAT EM HOLD EM I CAN DRAW YOU WITH SO MANY SWEET FOODS

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8299619/ PAWSIES Cling onto yourself VERY UNIQUE no lanyard needed YAY just clip ur paws to urself and go :D


DONE ADVERTING MYSELF

SORRY FOR SHOUTING!

I am really at a loss of what to do about school. (yes yes art school haters shut up :/)

I really improved with just one parttime semester, so I really think its something I want to do.
But I don't enjoy the lack of community commuting takes out of it. I can't even afford to rent an apartment or anything. :/

Money can't even be stretched to go full time class wise.
My mother put all her money into a failed business plan. Also with that failing I lost my job this past december. We've been trying to pay bills with her high school teacher salary but with mine on top of hers we are living day to day. :(

No one and I mean no one in my family apparently has good credit. :sniff:

We called a payment plan place today, all they do is, divide the payment up by 9 or 10 payments, and thats around 2k each month without even housing...

I just am sick of seeing these 18-20 year olds who have it handed on a silver platter, who just drink and smoke it all away...

I can't even make enough money to save to put towards school, lack of commissions and no ones called me back on jobs..


/end rant - don't read if you don't want -.-


Commission me if you care Q-Q (I hate to beg but I am negative in the bank, and just trying to keep afloat over here :sigh: )

I have added some new types of art you can buy including moving badges and keyring badges..
I also lowered some of my pieces by 5 dollars or so.

Any commissions would help -

Click for prices

I don't know something was off. I don't know if it was the fact that I tried to make new friends, and things just didn't click.
I think I was comparing it a lot to last year. But I had some fun times few and far between.

Day 1 for me was heading out from home to boston to take the amtrak unusually I was going on a tuesday.

I was on the wifi for the most of the ride. I had Cortez polarjoe and meet me, it was nice to see friendly faces.
Then we arrived @ and we all chatted and Cortez and Joe left. I ordered food and Arrived finally! With poodle hair and crazy dancing times ;3

Later I got to meet the roommates and get silly with em. Until I crashed upstairs.

I think B.Westley was the funniest person ever. Ever.

Wednesday morning Tach arrived and we all went to the con. Surprisingly there was a good amount of people already around. So we socialized a bit then me and Wac went to get food at Tonic and I got the best mac and cheese meal D:! And we had drinks which helped Wac. We went home after David showed up :). So when we got back to the house, I wanted a drink. So. David, Hizzie, West, Wac, and I all went down the lovely steep hills and stairs and dragged ourselves back up them while having an foreign tour guide appear in West XD!

After that West, Wac, the roommates, and i all hung out and chatted hanging out.
- After awhile me and Wac gave up trying to watch a movie downstairs with loud people and soft speakers, so we went upstairs. There in which a wild hizzie attacked.

We all ended up playing bs and West wandered in but don't ask him he doesn't remember playing bs with us. Next year so bringing my apples to apples.

So, when hizzie and david and everyone went to bed, me and wac... tried?
We ended up talking WAY too much. He felt way better with the little sleep we got D:
Well I had fun just talking about random things with him. But I never really got to hang out with him again. So, yep onto other tries at making new friends!

Thursday morning Wac moved to his room, and me and Tach moved to this far away hotel that you need a car to get to... ;/ I didn't even sleep there once, but my stuff did! ( wait I lied I napped 2 hrs there on fri)

I hung around, and ended up finding Alden which is always hilarious, I think its his goofy laugh. He has a great sense of humor the buttmunch. Through him I got to meet he was drunk but very silly and turned out to be one of the sweetest people. (I am glad he cared enough to come find me to say goodbye :))
Also was a good text buddy for my train ride D:) This is also where I met Tristan.
V offered me a drink when I suggested tonic to them for dinner because the mac and cheese :> - It was a very funny meal. And V kept feeding me o.o but it was mac and cheese <.< how could I say no hahah!

Thursday night I had a drink with Why did I have to go 16 hrs to hang out with local furs D: but he wanted to fur suit more so I went and hung out for a bit with Trist and his other skunks but hizzie took us on an adventure and I met Who is a brat but in a good way, and he helped give me laughs.

Long story short, through not a great time I feel closer to a friend.

I stayed up all night thursday cuz I didn't wanna wake up Tach so I ended up not being able to go to bed until 1pm or something, I ended up being stuck there with no ride, people were too busy doing social things ;/ made me feel really sucky that I was that insignificant. But meh whatever.

Friday I got a room at the Marriot from some luck, the city center one, 4 blocks from the con. I actually enjoyed the walks :)
I took a 20 dollar taxi to get out of the old room X.x waste of cash D:
It took forever to check in, but its been the best hotel in pitt I have ever stayed in. D: I didn't wanna leave D: EVER!>!!!!

I went back to the con, and got to see 2. I was 5 minutes before the show started and was lucky enough to run into someone I had done art for previously to get a decent seat. I liked his new material, but some fur was farting D: ewww...

After that I went to the zoo.. and then I don't really recall what I did that night...it will come to me, I walked home around 2-3am and I got catcalls and weirdness from a bunch of locals, it was weird.

Saturday I had decided to do artist alley and thus I met who has very cool dreads and awesome art style. You should commission him ^_^ .
Fortunately there was 4 tables and 4 people. We so did the total nerd high five thing. But then this one guy had to go to another line ahha cuz he was already an Artist Alley member for other nights.
I settled in beside Tora who was awesome and didn't get annoyed at me at all which as i was nervous and jumpy and weird hahahha well me...? its a good thing!
I got 2 commissions and was alright thats cool some sympathy commissions.. moneys is moneys... but then I got 3 commissions from people who just liked my work. I was so blown away. I have almost 500 watchers.. and rarely do I get commissions so I found this amazing.
I have already finished 3/6 :D

Saturday night I was sick of being lonely and one of my good friends hurt my feelings and Saph and dinner. Me and Hizzie went to change. Then Hizzie UNCHANGED. We went back to the con. I decided to be on a party mission. Which after a lot of work was found thanks to Joey the Penguin. I met him waaay back on thursday night so long ago right, well it was a con. The lil goth boy was one of my faves to see. Polarjoe took me to tonic and I bought myself some strong drink, and then stumbled my way to the Westin parking lot. I then was invited by joey to the omni for party. This then led to an adventure of confusion.
So we are walking to the omni and someone involved with the plans, this short boy with plugs pops up in the middle of the street with an apple :O
it was funny
We then were in the room, and thus my adventure began. I was so out of it, I recall picking a cut out animal that was offered. The funny thing is, Joey was wearing all white and I was wearing mostly black and we both picked the opposite of our color. I wanted to keep it but i didn't have it.
Joey had to go to his room a few floors up so I then took a stumble adventure of a slow confusing walk down the twin hallways, I found ice and everything sped up when i hit the button.

Joey found me and we went to the zoo, and I picked up my bag and zoned out at table in the zoo i am almost sure i was half dead XD Zombie hush

I got a taxi to the hotel and was going to start to draw, fast forward 4 hrs and I have no idea if i slept and I came to, to my mother yelling to pack my things.. I had to switch hotels. I switched hotels and finally made it to the con around 1:30pm So I got to go to the zoo and sit down and work hard on icon :)
I ended up finishing it.

I made my rounds around 11-12am I tried to say bye to everyone I saw I knew. I ended up losing my badge D:

Sunday felt like it kept going I got 3? hours of sleep in my room, and just got up around 4 and went downstairs cuz my COFFEE MACHINE SO WORKED D: and got two cups of teeny cups of coffees. I chugged them around 5 and packed hardcore repacked ect..I still had some time so I put together a random outfit I will upload a pic .. LOL I then went downstairs and waited for my cab got to the train station and had to pay more so that was nerve wracking. OK so on the train at 7:20.

TRAIN HOME :
So I met some cool chick on the way to the train but oh well no new friend in her i didn't get her contacts

I ran into a fur Matt on his first con, outside of the train and he asked to sit together, but he never said bye. ;/

I go to have train con with Silver and then and his gf Harley later on from Philly.

I worked hard on a commission for Lizbeth (not that Lizardbeth) but she is so awesome ,and I enjoyed doing one of my new type badges for her. I will post this soon :)

I got off the train and go into the car and 3 minutes out i get a message from am track that I've left my bag with my macbook and art supply there D: BIG ASS DERP
20 mins to get back in inchxinch traffic. I finally got it, and got home around midnight.


Mentionables

Silver and Mike, thanks for being so sweet
thanks for being a Hizzie?


And everyone else ;3

Sorry that I was sad faced sometimes :(

I want more hugs :O

I will be having to leave early from con. I am not even sure if I have to lug my luggage with me atm lol~

So I will make a list of you and what I owe and we will figure out shipping, and hopefully will get these done in good time :)

I want to thank you all for commissioning me, and I will do my best.

I am taking any badge/art orders I can to be able to have food money for rest of con.
Online or come find me at AC and I'll work on them ASAP
20 large bust
20 full body larger size
15 small full body
10 headshot
5 chibi not laminated
5 sketch shaded
5 bottle cap pendent

Laminated and shipped if not at con
Laminated @ con


Anything would help

I pretty much feel like a nusunce staying with person to person or needing rides..
Not sure what I can do about that though.
I just hope I get some laughs tonight <3

Whose up for drinks tonight?
So far cons okay kinda wandering alone but getting to see old friends is always a treat