All in the title cake for everyone! owo

A friend of mine is in a tough spot right now. Her job messed up her schedule, and because of that, her last paycheck was much lower than usual. She doesn’t have enough to cover her internet and phone bill, which are due next week.

She’s opened a Ko-fi goal to raise $300. Every bit of support will go directly toward paying those bills.

If you can help or share, it would mean a lot:
https://ko-fi.com/cyraquil

I’m currently testing out a bunch of things.
Other accessories, including corrective lenses, are on the way.

Thinking about getting into body tracking, especially for VRChat 👀
(Still need to get a 3D avatar commissioned
just gotta decide which character it'll be!)

That said, while I’m definitely enjoying the experience and having fun, I do notice a few inconveniences with the headset mainly the battery limitations during long sessions, and some slight discomfort when wearing glasses directly.

In the future, I’m considering going full PCVR with a tethered headset that can run non-stop without depending on battery life, and that’s fully compatible with body tracking via SteamVR.

If anyone has advice or headset suggestions for that kind of setup (with long-session comfort and tracking expandability), feel free to share!

Lately, I've had decent purchasing power.
I've wanted a VR headset for a long time, but it was out of reach back then.
Now I'm looking into what kind of VR would be nice/fun to have
whether it includes augmented reality features or not.
(Though maybe it's not the best time, especially with what's happening in the U.S., which might cause a lot of price fluctuations...)

I am open to suggestions

I'm looking for a music artist to create an original track for a pixel art animation inspired heavily by Chrono Trigger.
The animation will feature two Pokémon characters:
Xaur and Machu.

The musical style should draw inspiration from Chrono Trigger’s soundtrack, but I'm also open to music inspired by Pokémon games such as Mystery Dungeon and similar titles.

The Music will need two phases :

\- Phase 1 : A calm or mysterious introduction.

\- Phase 2 : A transition into a battle or intense action segment.

The artist doesn’t need to sync perfectly with the animation's rhythm
Note that the video does not show the combat phase although the music will start a little before this one

my team and I will adapt the animation to the music.

WIP Animation Link (Google Drive)
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1-X.....ew?usp=sharing

Scene & Music Reference (YouTube)
https://youtu.be/yKca4X3AKR0?t=56

Estimated budget: $60 USD
with room for discussion depending on your experience and what you can offer.

I'm doing this for fun, this project is not for profit.

Thanks for your interest!
I will monitor private messages, comments and my discord account ( xiardoruzo )

I'm just updating because I haven't done it yet.
Following this journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10576241/
And the others that followed, so I'd like to reassure those who aren't yet aware.

I'm back to normal.

Basically, following sleep deprivation and high anxiety, my body went into a state medically called "fight or flight."
Basically, my brain was on high alert, as if there was constant danger.

- Heart beating 180 beats per minute
- Shortness of breath (as if blocked)
- Constant dry coughs
Physical symptoms of anxiety that kept me from sleeping 24/7 (almost)

Normally, anxiety symptoms last less long for some people, or even intermittently
Because it's possible to distance yourself from the source of danger (which the brain triggers)
But you know, I have chronic tinnitus, and guess what the brain decides to take as a source of danger?
I think you guessed it. You can't run away from chronic tinnitus, you live with it.

After 3 months, I started to feel better; I simply needed rest. I was less and less hypervigilant.
I didn't really give any updates on it because I needed time to process what had happened to me.

Today I feel better (even though I lost a few friends along the way who didn't understand what I was going through).
I've changed some lifestyle habits. I'm less anxious than before, because this kind of experience has put certain things into perspective.

Bonne année! Happy new year!

I wish you all a happy holiday season 'w'/

owo/

Any artists here? I'm trying to make a mini story strongly inspired by pokemon mystery dongeon

Here is what has been done so far in the commissions I have paid
=> https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....1293021/Elvium

Since my last crisis, which was the worst I've ever experienced, I've become less receptive to the advice of others. I fear that I may have lost the friendship of some people with whom I used to get along well. I don't know what happened, but some of them have stopped responding to me and are now ignoring me. Typically, I try to mend these situations, but I'm starting to think that this kind of reflex has exhausted me and had a detrimental effect on my health, especially as it generates high levels of anxiety. I'm beginning to consider that it might be better to keep my distance from certain individuals with whom my connections are unstable and anxiety-inducing, especially since I've recently discovered that anxiety can trigger very unpleasant states, a risk I had underestimated.

That's why I'm thinking of making the decision to distance myself from these individuals.

For commissioners who like Pokemon, this artist has free slots in his patreon tiers he does an excellent job and so far I have been satisfied with his services
Here is his gallery: https://www.instagram.com/dextracontent/
and
his patreon: https://www.patreon.com/dexsterpiece/membership

I'm currently taking medications that help with anxiety, but they don't really address the physical anxiety.

I hope to survive this... Basically, what happened is that my brain identified my new left ear ringing as a threat. So, it switched to fight or flight mode.
I can't run away from a sound created by the brain, nor can I really fight it, so my brain needs to let go, essentially.

If you have any advice, I'm open to any new experiences. I'm trying to find alternative molecules that can help my brain let go and realize that I'm not in danger.


I will keep posting stuff and try to keep my mind occupied, but it's not easy when the physical anxiety is present. (Currently, I often experience shortness of breath.)

At the end of April, I live my life without worries, end of colds (maybe covid) a high-pitch tinnitus wakes up, like a ringtone that can pierce the eardrums sometimes. Comparable to chalk sounds on a board drawn in the treble

Since my body is attacked, I look for solutions online. Even if it means living with it. Because the goal is not specifically to get rid of it, but to get rid of this feeling... of torture on the body by these sounds... are that my body interprets as a threat.

I watch
- cognitive behavioral therapy
which consists of living with
- the various tools to live with,
including
tinnitus maskers
I called the emergency services who did not do an MRI (any x-ray)

I don't know if it's because of the limbic system or my amygdala brain which decides to react to this, giving me this impression of danger and constant distress.

I have been surviving for 3 months, time goes by in slow motion, I no longer enjoy anything. My medications are frozen... but the feelings of distress and danger remain.

I have so many things that I want to accomplish... but I don't want to suffer anymore

I feel that something dramatic is going to come... I'm trying to prevent it... My body risks giving up eventually, we all have our limits...

Sorry, if ever I don't accompany you for the next few years.

I will try the ER

I didn't want to leave you in silence.

Cordially

Be careful, if you have a mini symptoms of covid, take the least risky vaccines. I only took 2

I FEEL THE POWAH!!!!!! (its cost me 2500CAD ¬w¬)
My old pc had dropped me (Just the hard drive with window but I decided to renew everything)

I would look at the possibility of streaming and then maybe 3D models in commissions for VR experiences...

Lots of new possibilities, I'm trying to see how far I can go ^w^

All is here 'w'/ Commission open read. -- frostise's Journal -- Fur Affinity [dot] net

Here my friend code

SW-8236-5988-5193



I risk becoming more no-life in the coming months ¬w¬

I wonder what kind of site would be better for storing personal lore and storing worlds

-I have toyhouse which offers the world tab and which seems fully customizable (If we pay however)
https://toyhou.se/xiardoruzo

-furiffic seems to have a good interface and we can add more details (size, other power ...)
but only limited to character
https://www.furiffic.com/xiardoruzo.....t=created:desc

- the creation of a personalized site
https://ladykubwa.weebly.com/

A popular furry in the fat macro had an interesting solution
(thatbritishdeer)

via weebly, use is free for personal use
the problem is that I am not an expert in layout
and that I don't think I have a lot of interesting images to make such a layout like this. In addition, I also want to create something that suits me more.


Another person had directly made a google drive
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1ZJ9DAmTCHCwpUpKVRIeYGRJfILdonudXjXDg77rT0yc/edit?usp=sharing
But visually I find it already less interesting


I already have some folders to sort my characters and worlds in my own google drive, I just want to have something to show it visually to others.

What do you have in mind?

What do you think is better?

Do you have any other ideas?

It's all in the title, it's what I could pay for. I have trouble finding an artist for that.

x'D

I created this account 1 years ago.

I am looking to bring together those passionate about fusion

(Besides, I'm still looking for people for other icon animations in commissions. I like trying various things)

Put this on your profile if you like the concept. Just like we already do with the macro and something like this. :b

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/-fusion-/

I will delete this later surely

('' he/his '' is used in the neutral sense to preserve anonymity)
A user had left the server or that I am, of which I am the owner, this one years ago

I was on good terms with before despite a mini conflict at the end.
He returned 1 year later in 2021. He seemed new

when i saw the private messages with him i apologized for a past thing I see in the history
but he was like: who are you? I don't know you '' What? nani? Conversation history is empty on my side ''

On the one hand he told me not to remember me,
I don't have a problem with that.

But the thing ... is that privates messages in discord are not supposed to react like this. When a message is deleted, it is deleted on both sides.
God knows I would have liked to delete my conversation histories (completely) easily but that is not possible.

So the person would in theory have been lying.
In that kind of case, I would just avoid / ignore that person.

The problem is, I am the owner and I couldn't pretend that this person didn't exist because he would be constantly exposed to my "sight".

What did I do?
I confronted the person directly but he was constantly revolving around the problem and not wanting to give specific answers on questions.
He provided a screenshot but an intermediary and I were in doubt, so we requested a screenshare.
This person left after that.

I just wanted to have peace of mind and support his presence on the server, especially since he was well with others users. But only it seemed too much...

I just wanted to notify it, the information is more complete for the curious. I go back to my stuff. x'D

This follows this journal https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9694935/

Hm where to start? I guess I have to start at the beginning.

Usually on discord (And other software) I sometimes have a feeling of waiting for messages from certain people.
A kind of impatience I imagine?
To counter this unpleasant feeling I close the conversation
(In the event of discord I close the DM)

The problem is that...
it's starting out in a silly way ...
I removed the person from my contacts by accident.
It must be said that with the tight time allotted to me I was in a hurry and I did not pay attention to certain details.

It stressed me out a lot, especially since I liked this person.
Because I was like: Gnuuuuuuu, I love talking to this person I hope I could talk to him again; w ;.
Irrational thinking took hold, so more catastrophic scenarios got worse in my head ...
the worst part is that in all this I was aware that it was all irrational.
But the irrational emotions were so powerful that it took over.
All because I'm afraid ... of losing people I like.

Following various discussions, I was able to put a definition to what I was experiencing :
Social anxiety.

I would like to send a message to those I like.

If I don't talk to you for a while, it's possible that I'm just afraid to disturb you. Feel free to poke me.
If you see me more hyperactive than usual in the conversation, maybe I am anxious. Especially if I did some awkward/clumsy action.

However, keep in mind. Although I am often anxious, unlike other people, I try to be less paralyzed by my emotions as possible.

I try to control these parts of me as best I can, but also keep in mind that small things can seem big to me in a negative way.

I am writing this because I felt that I needed to release myself from all of the feelings that I had been feeling for years. Must say that it does a little good.

There are just some things that I prefer to face directly and others that I don't.

Just like I would rather be hurt sooner rather than later instead of trying to have some illusory relationship.

I try not to reproduce classic behaviors of other users/peoples that I see too often because I have seen errors too often repeated that I repeat myself by accident, that I try to rectify. This is why I have a severe look at myself for the most part.

This brings me to another problem... others are afraid to criticize us for fear of hurting... It puts some person in a vicious cycle whereby the same mistakes are repeated over and over. Because nobody wants to tell them what they have in mind.

I get tired... Especially since I do this because I want to be irreproachable in the sight of people and to myself. Because I am afraid of the judgments of others. It paralyzes part of me, especially in public...
(This is surely due to an old trauma from the past that I remember)

I don't like to say this kind of thing even to decompress, I don't want to impose my problems on others... Because I have seen too many people doing it... it loses its meaning and its value I feel like... too many wolf cries and i don't want to be part of them... but sometime... it's pain is just so intense...


Part 2 of this => https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9708841/