I really don't want to move, but at this point it is inevitable. I'm not a very adventurous person, and I love it when there is a home to go back to, so this... is going to be a bit hard for me. My sisters have decided that they wanted to move out alone, and I'm going to have to do the same. I found myself a room mate already, but she wants to move to Sacramento. Well. I'm fine with that as long as I have a job waiting for me over there with stable hours. By that I mean not like in L.A. Where the hours can be anywhere from early in the morning to midnight, and night shifts in the most random order. I don't like that. I like a nice schedule where I know I'll be able to get decent rest. So... yeah. That's all I'm asking for. Gonna start looking for places right now, and I'll be looking for jobs over there. Hopefully I am able to survive because this is the first time that I'm going to try to live without my parents help.

Wish me luck. (;´Д`)

Hi you guys! I would like to start this off on a happy tone since the ending of this journal will be very grim. First up in the line of things to talk about:

!.) I am going to be drawing occasionally. I will try my best to draw some Halloween stuff in full color, and background. It will mostly involve Lassy, and the gang. Some of it might be sexual, and some of it might not. Then I will be drawing my new fursona/scalesona/ scaly who's name is EMERISSA (  TigerBren helped me name her), and sadly she will not be doing anything sexy. I will try to keep her as sfw as possible. I will also be drawing a lot of traditional art. This is only because technology is a big pain in the butt, and my tablet can only work with me for about 30 minutes to an hour after I plug it in to the computer. Most of the drawings will be Halloween based, and I'll even make a few traditionally drawn Halloween \comics. That'll be fun.

2.) I want to do commissions, but I don't think I'll have time for it this year since everything has become almost unbearable. What I mean by that is that there's so much to do that I will hardly have any time to draw things in the most professional way possible. I want to provide the best drawing that I can produce, and if I don't have the time or energy then i wont be able to do that properly.

3.)I wanted to do a furry comic. I've been planning it for a while now, but with everything that is going on in my life I have to say that it is impossible. So... yeah.

4.) WARNING EXTREMELY SAD STUFF COMING YOUR WAY. DO NOT READ IF YOU DO NOT WANT YOUR HAPPY MOOD TO BE RUINED.

This one is going to be a long explanation of why I haven't been posting as much lately. I'm surprised I even posted anything.

My dad was admitted to the hospital on September 3rd. He had a heat stroke, and later had a heart attack. He was in bad shape, and the family was struggling. Without him at home we were practically useless. We tried paying all of the bills, but it was extremely hard to pull off. At this point people started bringing us food. The neighbors were especially helpful with this. We tried our best to live without him, but we knew we couldn't, and we were hoping for a fast recovery. He was a very strong man after all. Then he got admitted to the rehab center. Everyone did not agree with this decision. The only one who thought it was a good idea was the doctor. In my opinion that doctor shouldn't even be a doctor. He should be sued for every penny that he's got. He didn't even know what went wrong with my dad. He just sort of told us that it might have been a heart attack. Now. This frickin rehab center was the worst. It was literally a place where old people went to die. I would go there almost every day, and I would notice that some of the rooms that used to be full were now empty. We tried helping our dad as much as we could, but it was all for naught. The day after my birthday... he died. He died on September 19th. I remember that day very well since there was an earthquake in Mexico city. It was a very upsetting day, and it would only be the start of our troubles. We tried to get the whole funeral thing in order, but one of my dad's brothers was making it very difficult. He even took out a loan without our permission so that he could pay for the damn thing. I will never see him the same way again. I can really say that I hate him. Then the rest of the family started to turn on us. I feel like my dad's brother was the one who caused them to treat us like we were garbage, and I don't think I will ever want to see them again. I will most likely disappear from most social media, and create a different persona. They were all looking at us like trash at my dad's burial. It was disgusting. I did not want to be there.

Ever since then I've just been looking for a job since we're most likely going to lose the house.

If I ruined your happy mood then I'm sorry. I did warn you at the beginning.

That's pretty much all I wanted to say.

So… since I promised myself that I would change my fursona after every big event in my life… Yeah. It’s time you guys. This year there has been a lot of changes. Too many. I’ve changed considerably as a person, and after talking to my friend about it I’ve decided what to draw. I’m going to start designing it right now. My taur fursona will stay as she is, and I will continue to draw her. She will no longer be named Lassy though. She will go by a different name. Not sure what, but I’ll decide it soon.

Update: 09/26/17
Hi! It's me once again, and I'd just like to talk about my struggles with my new fursona. First of all it's really hard to draw her. Second of all I can't figure out exactly how she'll look. The color has already been decided, and so has the habitat, but I don't know how I'm going to make her look a bit cooler. She has this derpy face, but I want her to look a little bit more menacing and beautiful. Then again I look derpy all of the time, and I kind of want it to represent how I look and feel right now.

I've been going through some rough times, and all I've been doing is hiding, and just being an air head. I miss out on a lot of things that are happening around me, and I feel like derpy is exactly what I am. Derpy, or beautiful? Hm... Decisions decisions.

Update: 09/28/17
Omg I made some sketches of her, but I feel like there's something missing aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Will share soon)

Update: 9/29/17
I have begun coloring her since I want her pattern to be mostly colored without any black outlines. Also, after I post my new fursona here I will have probably change to a different account. BUT THAT'S A HUGE MAYBE. Someone told me that I should, but I might not since my name is Xiore, and not Lassy Venpaw. I will probably post the new design one of these days. Maybe tomorrow, or maybe on Monday. I will also be doing something for October, so stay tuned for that!

I'm afraid I wont be able to draw much because of whats happened, but I'll try my best!!!

I want to do the inktober challenge, but I was wondering if there were any other drawing challenges that I could do. I mean, it wont be a for sure thing, but I'll try my best!

So you guys know that I am a very persistent young woman, and I will last days working on something until it is ready (I'm obviously lying here, but hear me out). This is not the case for my tablet. I can't get the pen pressure to work on sai. All I have ever really known is sai. BUT I have medibang paint installed. I only used it for the screen tones, and the text, but now I'll have to use it for drawing too. You see... the pressure sensitivity works there. I don't know how to use it well, or even how to draw on it well. It has a different feel, and my characters come out looking a lot more different than they did on sai. I'm practicing on it regularly, and I'll post my progress sooner or later.

https://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/xiore/

(I reserve the right to raise the price if the character is really complex)

I will not draw:

Cub
Hate Art
Animal Abuse
Drugs
Scat/ Water Sports

Traditional Bust Drawing:
$5.00 paypal FOR BLACK AND WHITE
$8.00 paypal FOR COLOR

Traditional Full Body Drawing:
$7.00 paypal FOR BLACK AND WHITE
$10.00 paypal FOR COLOR

*$7.00 for +1 additional character in BLACK AND WHITE
*$10.00 for +1 additional character in COLOR

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Digital Full Body Drawing:
$25.00 paypal FOR BLACK AND WHITE
$30.00 paypal FOR COLOR

*$25.00 for +1 additional character in BLACK AND WHITE
*$30.00 for +1 additional character in COLOR

Digital Bust Drawing:
$15.00 paypal FOR BLACK AND WHITE
$20.00 paypal FOR COLOR

I've been working on installing the driver properly for my drawing tablet, and I just gave up on it. So I moved on to the other tablet that I had, and it worked okay at first, but then it didn't want to work on sai. Then I uninstalled, and reinstalled a bunch of other things. A bunch of restarts. ... I've been working on this issue since late last night. I frickin hate how complicated this is. Also, no it's not a wacom. I bet I could have solved that issue easily since so many people own that. No. I own a XP Pen Star 04, and it's killing me. I have to rely on other types of HOW TO GET YOUR TABLET TO WORK ON SAI tutorials. They've been helpful enough, but I don't know how to get the pen pressure to work. So now I think I'm going to have to install and reinstall it. UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Take my words with a grain of salt. I'm known to be a flake, and I hate myself for it. Either way I'm gonna try to upload more on FA. I will also try to draw more adult stuff just to see if I can get better at it.

I finally got one of these, and I have to admit it's pretty cool. My name on there is Lassy Venpaw. Yay!