I know it's typical for people when watched to pop to your page and say thank you. I know for a LOT of people I have not done this. Well as revealed by a past couple of posts. I have been going through a VERY hard time and have been for some time. From my car getting totaled back in August to a life time of past problems to a pile of current ones I tend to live on a razors edge when it comes to my emotions and keeping it together. I have been in a Desperate search for a councilor for months now with ZERO results because I carry state insurance which is like being a leper it seems. No one wants to deal with it. - sighs - Anyways, I really do appreciate all the comments and watches I get for posting the pictures ( past ) and commissions ( present ) that I post and the light flirts that happen in the comments. I'm sorry I have not gone and said thank you to each and every one of you, but I do hope that this makes up for that lack of doing so just a bit :)

Ever since losing Koa I'm just been slipping down hill little by little. Yes I have a new Puppy and I love him dearly already. However, my mood and my over all feelings are continuing to slide. I find myself randomly crying. I don't want to do anything and only do it because I have to. I've been snapping at people for no reason. I sit here looking at my desktop not caring. Flat out.. I'm lonely, Depressed and at the edge of just wanting to give up. All my Supposed " Friends " always stop talking to me when I get depressed. These are the people I don't snap at. My GF as much as I love her is just to young and immature to handle when I get like this and cannot support me emotionally. I even tried going back to Second life only to find my contacts list as dead as door nail with no one online anymore. To top all the shit off I told you about already in my last posting... I was told today that after I lose some more weight.. in about 6 months I'm going to need a total Knee replacement for my right knee. Honestly... I'm getting to the point I want to crawl into bed and not wake up the next morning.....

So my Boy, My Koa at only 10 years old had to be put to sleep last night. He was Fine all day, then about 8pm Last night he became very unsteady, walking in circles, drooling very badly, clung to me like something was wrong, shaking and crying. When I took him to the Emergency Tufts Vet in Walpole, the Vet looked him over and told me almost 100%, it was a Brain Tumor.... which would finally explain him going blind suddenly, losing his hair and other behavioral traits he developed over time. With all I have been through recently including a sever Auto Accident, this is the last thing I needed.

I never told you guys but this past weekend I went on Vacation to visit a friend in Atlanta. I drove down and back ( a total of nearly 2200 miles ) I got back late last night and feel fairly refreshed despite having to dive right back into the work Meat grinder this morning. ANYWAS I haven't posted pictures in a little while because I've been ordering YCHS left and right and wanted to wait till I got them all before I started posting them :) So now that I have them all I'm going to start tonight. So keep an eye open for them :D

So I purchased a slow in a YCH. It's a PoV dual Tit fuck. The male slot is taken and my big Hoss has taken a slot, however the other female slot has yet to be bought. The Artist says she is very busy and and has not been able to promote it, and if it doesn't sell she'll just plop one of her girls in there. Well honestly I'd like to avoid that if Possible, So I'm not asking anyone here to go, I'm just presenting it if anyone is interested in kind of getting drawn with me, going boob to boo around a big boy's cock. You can see the YCH and the price ( it's honestly pretty cheap ) Below,The red slot is still open, I am the Purple slot.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28629697/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28629697/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28629697/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28629697/

Recently I got myself a 2015 Nissan Rogue. My first ever car, done all on my own. Great shape little black car with less then 40k miles on it. I had it less then a month.. key word HAD... today I was T-boned at 9 am at an intersection not even a mile from my house. My car will most likely be totaled, and I can only pray that my car is covered enough to pay off the loan. My new car... gone... I'm mostly okay I guess. Physically I'm very sore.... I'm going to make an appointment with my doctor tomorrow. Mentally I'm not okay... I keep hearing the crash in my head, keep feeling the impact through my body. I keep breaking down into tears and just losing it. I have a Lawyer coming over tomorrow to talk to and what I need to do..... otherwise I don't know where I am going right now. To top this all off? I have a CDL test in 5 hours.... and I can't sleep.