Hey all. I just wanted to give my thoughts on Dragoneers Memorial stream. It was a real mix of emotions. I was crushed to see all his family and friends grieve his loss but at the same time glad to see all the people in his life come together and celebrate his life and who he was. He created a wonderful platform and community where we can all come together and share our artwork. Without Dragoneer I would not have found the community I am in now or have any of the friends I have now. I never knew him but he changed my life in so many ways my past self could never have comprehended. Dragoneer may be gone but the fruits of his hard work and dedication to this community still live on.

Fly high Dragoneer, the community is forever grateful for this website

A good friend of mine is in financial trouble. He has started a gofundme to fix his finances. Please donate if you can. Even a small donation will help.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11060735/

https://gofund.me/7e7bcfa4

Wishing that everyone had a great Christmas and got some cool gifts or just spent some good and valuable time with family.

It's my birthday today. It started rough but turned out to be a kickass day. A personal thanks to my good friends who got me through the first half of the day and supported me through my troubles. My heart goes out to you guys. You're awesome. And also a thank you to everyone who have given me some good birthday wishes. It's not the material things that make me most happy. It's the good people around me that I can be kind to and receive it back

Been so stressed on finding a new vehicle. I really regret getting my WK 3.7L jeep. It's a pretty shitty car and I got it all busted and had to fix it. Either way the poorly engineered thing burns oil and is high mileage. Motor also tends to blow head gaskets at this high mileage. Gonna have to save up for a better car if I can find one. I really don't know what would treat me right and not break down. I don't trust how modern cars are engineered. Seems like they're all shit. Just be patient with me because I'm having a bad time.

The news was pretty sad and a shocker. His passing is tragic and I only wish the best for his friends and family.

I'd also like to remind everyone that life is precious and you only get one so be well and live good everyone.

Congrats you made it to another Christmas dear reader. I hope it is merry for you. I hope you're having a good time with your friends or families because that's what Christmas is all about. As well as a Merry Christmas I wish everyone a happy new years.

sorry had a major mental breakdown. I'm too stressed and I don't have it in me to render or post anything right now

this journal doesn't have to be fancy. Just take some time to remember those who gave everything for your rights and freedoms

Today I was informed of some guy named lucasindoraptor used my character without my permission as well as using my friends characters without theirs. I will not take kindly to this

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/lucasindoraptor/

And the proof he did what he did

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51827133/

I'm spreading the word for this journal is a copy paste. reached out to me a couple days ago asking if he should try doing some story commissions, and I said yes, as I feel he is a rather great writer and should give it a try, so as of today he has posted a Journal on his page about, please do go check him out and give him a follow, and maybe give him some ideas!!! ^^

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal...../#cid:59739655

I'd like to thank everyone who watched for watching and supporting myself and my renders. I hope you all are having a good and restful holiday break.

Best regards, Douglas

allow me to explain. I was cutting something with my knife wasn't careful and sustained a nasty cut to my finger nail and finger on the left thumb. For the past three days I've been struggling with constant pain a useless thumb, and making sure I don't get an infection along with making sure it heals properly. which has made me absolutely miserable. I can't play any games and can just barely make my renders. But now I really don't feel like it after this comic I kind of made. Even that caused the feeling of somebody driving a nail into my finger. I also know some of you have heard nothing but this for the past 3 days now. I'm sorry. This is for everyone else who hasn't been informed on why renders are probably gonna stop happening or just be overall worse. I will recover eventually but for now I've just got to survive...

so today I got to find out I have some sort of ADHD that they deem "combined" Which basically means I have piss poor memory (average low) and that I tend to lose focus by spacing out. I also take a while to process things which I've kind of noticed. I want to say don't treat me any different but this is huge. Hell, writing this stupid journal is kind of a pain. I'll be real this just makes me feel like a dumbass and that everyone's gonna treat me as such. I don't even feel right myself anymore, maybe I should've never known.

sorry no motivation combined with hating my own stuff and myself. Expect like no renders at all. fuck it

Hello all. Or at least to whoever actually reads this. I just wanted to post an update on myself right now. At 2 in the morning for some reason. Anyway, onto what I was gonna go on about. I've been having a hard time lately with school and such which explains the lack of any good uploads whatsoever. That vapid shithole we call school has drained any creative or good ideas from my head only to replace it with worry and stress. I still feel the urge to create renders but just can't make any I'm happy with. I don't feel like quitting either so I'm stuck as of right now. I hope you got other favorite artists because there's probably gonna be a whole lot of nothing coming from me. One last thing before you click off, to my close friends I'm sorry it's mostly radio silence from me. I look to chat but can't do it most days. Forgive me for that, I say I'm gonna improve but never do. Do not feel obligated to help or anything. This is probably a me thing. I'm just gonna stop typing now because I'm aware you're probably bored out of your mind reading the same repetitive garbage that comes from almost every journal I create.

So, a friend of mine reached out to me, asking if I could help spread word for him, who has suffered a lot from the floods over in Australia. He is an extremely good friend of mine, and I will just quote what he had said regarding his situation.

"I've lost most of the power to our house due to the 3 day storm and floods, only to have one outlet working upstairs and one downstairs. I've literally got no power in my room, and am dealing with other family issues."

Because of this, he's asking for any possible help he can get. Anyone who wants to help, please send it to him here: https://www.paypal.me/Radman1123

Even if you are currently unable to help him via sending funds, the least I could ask is for you to at least spread the word around for him. Hopefully he does get what he needs.

WOOHOO, THANK YOU EVERYONE!

I hardly have motivation if any. My content is simple and lazy when it could be more. I enjoy this but it clearly seems I can't enjoy anything anymore.

I tried advertising my server once and it didn't work. The invite expired. So here it is again with a perma invite. If there's any problems let me know.
(had to remove the link for the time being)

With the help of steam support I managed to get my steam account back. Sorry if I had everyone worried

I got scammed and lost my steam account. How long I'll be going without uploading depends on if I get my account back or not. I could draw in the meantime but I feel too shitty to do it.

Hey there. I'm accepting trades now. I'll trade gmod artwork and sketches. I can't do colored pieces because I don't have a drawing tablet. Send me a note if you'd like to trade and we can discuss it

Hello there. I would like to share this journal with everybody watching in the hopes that anyone could help out.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9969489/

I do enjoy drawing but doing it on pencil and paper can be a pain in the ass. I like how it gives me the freedom to create whatever I want without the limitations of my 3D stuff and inexperience with it. I do wish I could get over myself and just not give up on it. But hey rather then complain about it I should just shut the fuck up and just draw. Complaining gets you about as far as driving on bare rims. For now I plan on just taking a small break from it. Thanks to anyone keeping up with this account.