Just finally gained access to my old account like... 10 years later lol. Working on a compilation of older tracks so this place is a gold mine. If you guys wanna check out my new stuff, head on over to my new account at: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/technomancer./

The last days have been a bit better emotionally. I have money now, and I'm living a better life in general. ^^

And I have so many friends online that I'm starting to feel very wanted =3

Love you all!

- Xonic

I got a break from ym computer today. Went to my grandma's place for the whole day almost. Had dinner , watched some crappy TV and had fun with my sister.

Emotionally, I'm still broke down, for reasons that I suppose you all know.

Warning: Going into emo mode

I'm lonely, I have no other company than my computer at the moment, I have no job, no school, no income other than welfare and I'm a social outcast. The only persons I really love are too far away from me for me to do anything and I feel isolated to the point where it just kills me inside.

Emo mode off.

I had a nice day today at least. Some inspiration came as well.

Got about 3-4 hours of sleep last night. Couldn't stop thinking of VGM. It's just such a pain inside me right now, makes me so depressed...

On a lighter note, my mum invited me for dinner, which is always nice. Might give me a chance to get away from my computer and all my worries.

It kinda eats me up from inside to see VGM suffer like he does. It kills me to feel so helpless. I feel like I should, no... I MUST do something for him, to ease his pain or even take it away. I wish so hard I could just do it. It's such a burning pain inside me right now.

I would even kill him, if it came to that. If there was absolutely no other way...

Fuck, I hate my life right now. Everything is just depressing and not fun anymore.