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Am I uploading enough artwork or not?

Comment your thoughts

So, I am gonna make it short on here.

I'm sad.

Cause my contact person just died.
No I don't know what the cause of death was.

http://www.livestream.com/rinnydraw

come watch!
I draw stuff

Okay, I had absolutely no luck on DeviantArt so I am now trying to catch the attention of my watchers on here.

See, I am short on money and there's this market I really wanna attend, but it ain't no fun if I have no money. The market is the weekend next week, so I need to raise a bit of money during this and next week, so I am opening commissions.

5 FLAT Commission slots. - Flat means you get an image of your character, with transparent background and no shading. There's an extra fee on 5 $ (27 dkr)per extra character. Say if you pay the original price for the artwork you can have one character drawn but if you want two characters in the same piece, the fee on 5 $ will be added to it. I'd prefer if folks could keep it down to one character in their commission piece though, but eh.

Slot 1: Open
Slot 2: Open
Slot 3: Open
Slot 4: Open
Slot 5: Open


I am also doing a batch of 4 Deal-With-It typed icons.
example 1: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13180823/
example 2: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13186576/
example 3: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13188372/

These are shaded icons with a colour background. You tell me the desired colour you have in mind for the background and I'll make a background of colours, in that spectre/nuances. Needless to say that I also draw the characters.
I will add sunglasses. You can give me a ref for desired sunglasses if you want, but I might simplify the sunglasses a bit, as I am not the best at doing sunglasses.

Slot 1: Open
Slot 2: Open
Slot 3: Open
Slot 4: Open

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Prices for the flat commissions are 25$ (142 dkr)
Prices for the icons are 30$ (165 dkr) - this 'much' because they are shaded.
Also let it be known that I may attempt with a different style of shading for the icons, shadings like the one used here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13338780/ and here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13514250/

Also. I am best with canines/felines
I am not good with birds, reptiles, humans.

Also I am better with doing feral art, instead of anthro art. (Mainly because my anthros are horrible and have fail anatomy.)

Anywho, let me know if you're interested.
Payment only throufh Paypal.

http://www.livestream.com/rinnydraw

it is onlina already. but I am fixing a few things before getting to the art part

I will be streaming in a while

so come join.

Just posting links to the stream everywhere before starting for reals

http://www.livestream.com/rinnydraw

it will be online in a sec or two

http://www.livestream.com/rinnydraw

might make myself a new main sona.
I apologize in advance for the music

(or well. 4:59 AM. close enough)

and I will go sleep.

I will go sleep and try to forget the dickhead who thinks my art sucks.

and then, later today, I will try to post something 'happy' and less negative.
it's gonna be a sort of, follow up piece to "You Are Meant To Fly"

if that eases any curiosity that may or may not have been awakened.

It's a flu. That's what the emergency doctor said.
He also ordinated that I take painkillers, and relax.

He said that if my throat gets worse, and I end up being unable to swallow ANYTHING at all, I should call again.

But I am hoping my voice is gonna be better during this week.

I won't be much active, probably won't reply to notes during this period of time.


I also sneeze pretty much.
Anywho.

As I said, I will rest, as well as take painkillers and sucking tablets, until my situation improves.
If it doesn't improve, but instead gets worse, I will go to the doctor again.

Not that you guys can do much

but I am experiencing a somewhat heavy pain in my lower back, slight pain in my ribcage and slight pain in the shoulder and back(between the shoulders)

I don't know what the cause is
but I am terrified it might be something serious
dangerous

maybe something that could kill me if I'm not helped in time
my parents aren't home, and ain't coming home until much much later this night (still roughly 18 hours till, at least)

I can't talk because my voice is gone
so I can't call the hospital or police or you name it

my friends are sleeping so I can't call or text them either


I am terrified of going to sleep because what if I die.
I am on the edge of getting a panick attack.

I am sincerely sorry for the lack of art, guys.
but truth is, I have fallen ill.

I have a horrid fever
a killer cough
a sore throat
loss of apetite
unable to sleep because of the cough
hardly can't speak, eat or drink at all.


I might not be uploading anything until I am feeling better
this all started yesterday and has only gotten worse and worse.

SO. tonight is the night that me and my currently best friend in the house, are getting DRUNK.

And we are going to get drunk while watching Supernatural, because that is a good plan and a nice cocktail.

I, am going to down a bottle of vodka. Good, strong, russian vodka.

She just came up with Dooleys, Smirnoff Vodka, something I don't know what is and more vodka, Cuba Pure Premium Vodka.

all of the vodka!

I am probably gonna be feeling like shit tomorrow then.
Anywho.

No I am not alcoholic, but it is time I tried getting drunk again.
It's been years since I was drunk. Haven't been drunk since 9th grade.

Time to break the sober-ness, hahah.
I had the chance yesterday with Scotc Whisky, but I never got around to drink any of it.

The vodka was cheaper than the whisky, so I bought the vodka.


Sometimes I wish I was russian fffffs

Apparently this is "Starve-yourself" weekend.

The fridges are open don't get me wrong, and yes there's raw food in them. Sounds nice eh?
But uh, there's no access to the closets with the tools to cook said food

so uh, can't eat it.

Smart right?

NO IT'S NOT IT'S FUCKING DUMB AND I AM REALLY PISSED RIGHT NOW
I REALLY WANNA GET A HOLD OF THE PERSONS THAT LOCKED THE FRIGGIN' CLOSETS AND ALL SO I CAN FUCKING RIP THEM TO SHREDS OMFG

I AM SO MAD AND I REALLY SINCERELY HATE THE STAFF RIGHT NOW

Yeeah, it was about time for another vent/rant journal, wasn't it?
Needless to say why I am writing this, or whose fault it is, or what caused it. Stuff just came up, and it broke my heart, to bits and pieces. Just like everything have a habit of doing lately.

Many of my friends seem distant, and others might seem too clingy.
I don't want to complain about that though, I've said before that I like when my friends take interest in me and seems to care about me, rather than just ignore me. So that's not the reason.

maybe some of the things with some of my friends being distant is part of the reason, but it's not the sole reason for me to even concider this.

Before anyone starts freaking out, no, I am not talking about suicide. I am much too big of a coward to take my own life, I mean, I've tried and planned to do so a few times, but I always end up pussying out of it. So no worries. I'm not gonna die tonight or any time soon unless I like, get murdered or ends up in another car crash that could be fatal.

And honestly, who would go so far as to crash a car just for that? Not me, guys. I'm sad, depressed and broken, but I am not a maniac or a psykopath.



As some of you might have noticed I cleared my front page of hardly everything that was on it, my art is still here though, nothing in my featured folder though. Removed everything from my featured folder. Stored some deviations, that I didn't like.

I now have a ton of stored deviations, which I am not gonna un-store, as I am not fond of them, and do not like them, and don't want to be judged and criticized by them. I just can't handle that sort of thing atm.



I have and am still concidering to close my accounts. (all my current dA accounts, as well as my fA accounts and then only remain on skype and partially on facebook. Which only my friends can view) So that I can go underground and try to recover and get better.


I am honestly just tired of seeing tons of stuff everyday, here and everywhere else, that makes me sad and breaks my heart, and I do see such stuff every now and then, but in extreme ammounts lately. I know the artists that post the stuff, don't know that, and I know that they are not intentionally trying to make me feel down.

So I am not gonna mention anyone or anything.
Taking as I have gotten quite a few watchers, and I do not want to risk any of said watchers to rabidly attack someone just because I mention them in the same journal as I am airing my conciderence of closing my accounts in.


It is still just a thought and an idea hanging in the air, and the decission is not yet been made, but if I don't feel better in the next few weeks, about being here or anywhere else, I might just close them even if my friends are saying it's a bad idea and won't help my situation.

I don't know.



But I am tired of being sad, and it just doesn't seem like there's anything that makes me happy any more.

Cookies for anyone who draws him


srsly. My hand is being killed by drawing this guy and he never recieves any fanart. His feelings are hurt, guys.

anywho.
How are you?

I am going to bed. it's night. and I am tired.

http://www.livestream.com/rinnydraw

I'm drawing more titan, this time in monster-demon.wolf shape
taking nobody liked it yesterday when I tried to finish the piece of art I had of him as a humanoid creature. eh.

I am sorry for spamming you with all the Titan-art x3

but my watchers on deviantart ( www.suspexdog.deviantart.com ) voted that they'd like to see more of him, so I got into a frenzy.

I've been neglecting my demon sona for too long. I hope you guys like him though. He takes a shitload of time to draw despite his simple design. But that's because I draw him on HUGE canvases, he's got the curled back ram horns, that long dragon like tail and actually wings too (wings are optional though, and dragon-tail can be drawn as a normal wolf tail instead if artists don't feel like drawing the original tail.)

Horns can also be left out, as Titan has a 'normal' wolf shape too.
He always have red eyes with slit pupils though.

Anywho.

I'll repost his ref here sometime because why the fuck not.


Anywho. I am going to bed, just wanted to apologize for all the Titan first, lol.
Night kids.

Go watch

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ejj.....ature=youtu.be

Is it because I'm not drawing what you guys want to see?

I sense little to no activity from my watchers
And tbh, it kinda hurts my feelings

'cause i spend so much time on my artwork, I fuck up my day rythm just to please my watchers, and no one seems to react.

It makes me think, is it even worth posting anything on here? Hell, I get more faves, comments, notes, etc on dA than I do on here, and it makes me dislike this site more and more.

I mean, seriously.
What am I doing wrong here, since you guys don't care at all?

Do I have to draw fucking tits and dicks to please you?
Cause I am not ever gonna do that.

I am NOT a pron artist, or an iron artist, so if you're looking for sex / adult pictures, you won't get 'em from me.
Mature = bloody/gorey yeah, that's likely. But nothing that involves sex and naked bitches and douchebags.


So if you only watched me in hope of seeing THAT, you can unwatch me again, cause I won't draw that.
If you notice anything on the SKETCHES I upload, it is not because I intend to finish it THAT way.
I am gonna put clothes on my characters, or place them in a perspective where genitals etc ain't visible, and if they are, I am gonna find a way to cover 'em up.


okay?
So if you want to see tits and dicks from me, forget it guys.
You ain't gettin' that.


//xRinny

So guys. I got some bad news for all of you.

You see, you all like my art right?
that's a damn shame, 'cause my prefered tablet has decided to die.

So now I don't have a functioning tablet, so now I can't draw anything.
Unless I go and use my laptop for it, but my laptop lags something awful.

So I can't.
Yeah.

So unless I get some donations for a new tablet, you'll probably have to wait a pretty damn long time before seeing any art at all from me.

Then again
Maybe it's a sign

Maybe it's the universe's way of telling me to quit drawing.

honestly I don't really know how many I have, or anything. it's like... idk.


I just feel alone and abanonded for some reason.

so i think my tablet might be broken.

it's kinda fucking up, despite me updating the driver, changing the battery in the pen and restarting the computer, as well as unplug and re-insert the damn tablet.

much like my internet is also being a bitch these days.

except, you know what it means if my tablet is really done for, right?
It means I can't do any more art then.

Well unless anyone wants to help me out by giving me one or give me the money for one, and lets be honest, who's gonna help silly old me?

exactly. No one.

'cause no one gives a fuck about me.
Maybe it's a sign, idk.