Err Comment on here so I can make a list of you and what colors I need to go buy! =O

I apologies for not being on and not submitting anything. Or for keeping with my selling of pillows and blankys but I'll have much time for that when my Girl friend goes home.. I have less then a week with her now.. She leaves on the 24th and then it will be a long time till I see her again.. Could be as long as 2 years.. So sometime after the 24th when Im done my crying and such this stuff will start up again <3..

Sorry..

Sorry I havnt been on in a while guys! Been spending alot of time with my girl friend Melissa x3 We're trying to find a place to stay in my home town so I can introduce her to my family.. OH! She got me a ban new tablet!! x3So now I have two! But ones still missing a pen.. Anyways x3 I love her soo much and we're having alot of fun together >3

On another note. I'd really like a reason to get up early in the morning sooo.. Who wanted pillows? or Blankies? Let me know ;-;

Well my friends =3 Im getting my shop started now! Theres pillows and blankets available right now but I guarantee there will be more stuff to come! Got any ideas what could be next? Let me know x3! Chek it out yall!

www.iwantapillow.piczo.com

Monster Pillows: (Like the large green one)
Small= 8$
Medium=13$
Large=18$

Custom Pillows: (Like the Styx one)
Small= 10$
Medium=15$
Large=20$
This price could go up depending on the difficulty

Blankets: (With your Charcters head on it)
Small=15$
Medium=25$
Large=35$

Blankets: (With landscape and chibis)<-- These are more expensive cause they use more material
Small=30$
Medium=50$
Large=70$

The blankets can be both the same color or you can have a diffrent color on the back.

Heres some examples xD
Blanky with your head on it--->http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v.....chik2006/1.jpg
Blanky with chibis and trees and grass and stuff that you want..--> http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v.....chik2006/2.jpg
Blanky with two colors--> http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v.....Daawwee012.jpg

Well.. Do you guys think the prices are reasonable?

xD I don't know what the titles about..
But uh I need help x3;
I have no sense of style, and Melissas here Friday and I wanna wear something nice.. Nothing fancy but you know..

Soo I was wondering what goes good with a scarf?
These are my scarfs

Scarf 1:
Style--- http://www.garage.ca/images/styles/.....-9901grn_1.jpg
Color--- http://photos-f.ak.fbcdn.net/photos.....53_1370270.jpg <-- Lawl that's my little cousin..

Scarf 2---
Style--- http://www.garage.ca/images/styles/52-9941_1.jpg
Color--- http://www.garage.ca/images/styles/.....948_prpl_1.jpg

I'd like to wear one of them but I don't know what kind of clothes they go good them..
Any ideas!

I want to start selling my stuff but.. How? Paypals an ass so I cant use it.. So how would I even get peoples moneys so I could do a comission? Any ideas ;-;

I havnt posted art lately..
Cause it sucks..
So I know why my art sucks lately!
Yeah dude I totally figured it out...
I NEEED MY TABLET BACK RIGHT FUCKING NOW!!!!

;-;

Talked to Melissa today x3
16 more days and I will be picking her up at the airport!
Cant wait to see you my baby!!!

I miss you so much.. 17 more days my lovely x3..
And we'll be together again..

So before when I didnt have a job my girl friend decided she would help me out by giving me some money every month. We tried to transfer it through paypal but it wouldnt work. So we sent it back to her account so it wouldnt get wasted. But not only did they not give her, her money back but the -250$ out of my account so I am in debt 250$ and I havnt gotten paid yet so Im broke. I was supposed to pay it on march 25th. Fucking retarted. FUCK FUCK FUCK! I will never combine money and the internet together again.

If my love has to pay for this again I will hate myself.. Shes done so much for me and shes not exactly rich herself.. I feel so bad that she has to spend her hard earned money like that.. If she does.. Im gonna show these pillows I make on here soon.. maybe I can sell thoughs and make some money to pay it off..

But for seriouse, Fuck you Paypal.

Today I recieved my Christmas present from my bestest best friend sister Taylor! ;-; It was sooo nice! She got me this awesome shirt of my favorite band! x3 Its a little tight but actually really comfy.. And she drawed me an awesome picture of sulfur! The Sexyest man to ever live in a persons brain!! xD And her letter made me smile.. x3

Thanks soo much taytay.. Im pretty sure imma be in an awesome mood for the rest of the day! Come see me soon daling! ;-; I LOOOVVVEEE YYOOOUUUU

Seriously though..
Just need to keep track of this stuff xD

TRADES:
 StyxandStoned Awaiting to see what I am to draw so I can begin!
 reddeath909 Awaiting to see what I am to draw so I can begin!
 bluehart Waiting for my half! Cant Wait! x3

AM I FORGETTTING SOMEONE!

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 magicwhitelady Sexy bitch is making me a shirt..


OH MY GOD CONTEST PEOPLE!
ENTER ENTER ENTER!
Chibi is the only awesome one.. EVERYONE ELSE IS FAIL!
50$ PEOPLE!
Lawl Canadians..

Does anyone have a network I could join..
I am lonely ;-;
I want to doodle wif you too!

Well not much to say.. Still waiting to see if others enter ;-;
ITS GOING ON MY TSHIRT!
AND IMMA WEAR IT!
EVERYWHERE!
xD
Dont forget the contest ends march 30th..
I'd give more time but the person making the shirt for me is soo inpatient xD

Entries so far:
 magicwhitelady - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2064470

Contest Info:

What's going down Shelley?
I'm getting a shirt made and I want it to have one of your guys arts on it!!
I really hope people enter xD
SO! Here are the bribes.. I mean.. Prizes..

What are the prizes woman?
If you live in CANADA:
50$ Cause I am poor and cant get more xD; And one picture from me colored and all.

If you live ELSEWHERE:
If you're willing to give me your address - The same as above (But may I remind you it will be in Canadian moneys)
If not! You get 3 free pictures from me and a flash icon thinger x3

What the hell are we drawing anyways?
Well Its free to you. My character, your character.
But I would really love something that says "free hugs" x3!!!
That would be so cute!
Also there's two sides of the shirt.
You don't have to do this part but on the back I'm gonna have "Gay Pride" written on the lower part.
So if you want to be cool you can do some cool writing so I can stick it on that part of the shirt x3 Little designs and what not around it. Just make it colorful!
Again that part isnt obligated.
Just as long as the front picture if done x3

Do you have any rules or anything else we should know?
-No nudity please!
-Swear words are fine x3
-The picture should be pretty big. DON'T MAKE IT TOO SMALL!
Example of good:http://img122.imageshack.us/img122/.....one1024ef1.png
Example of not so good:http://i149.photobucket.com/albums/.....g?t=1235452050
-You must either have a black background or if you want to do a nice colorful background make a cool border around it x3
Examples:http://dark-dragon-stock.deviantart.....ushes-79285568
http://sirus4me.deviantart.com/art/.....esign-23531809

Anything else we should know? YOU PICKY BITCH!
Uh x3 Well just remember I love colors and psychedelic designs and stuff.
I love girls x3 Specifically Melissa ;D
Um I dunno what else.. I'll post updates as I go!

Contest ends March 30th!
Cant wait to see what you guys come up with x3
If anyone even does enter.... xD PLEASE!!!

I just watched this show called trading spouses. If you haven't heard of it its when two moms from like.. Different parts of the country trade spots for a week and at the end each family gets 50k. Thing is the mom from the other family gets to decide what happens with the money.

People I'm talking about so you understand:
Julie- Gay woman who leaves to do the swap
Pepper- Gay woman's wife
Bitchface- Homophobic bitch who comes to the gay woman's house for the swap

The one I watched tonight was horrible.. It started out with this really amazing lesbian couple who had been together for 20 years (Julie and Pepper) and they had two kids and seemed like a really happy family. Then the other family is fucking messed up as all hell. The mom (Bitchface) from that family is the most racist most homophobic person I have ever fucking seen. She was saying how mexicans are useless and they were gonna take over the world and all this shit. And then when she got to Julie and Peppers house (while Julie spent the week in Bitchfaces house) all she did was hassel Pepper about being gay, telling her how disgusting it was. They went to a restaurant one night where Pepper just wanted to show her that it was normal where they lived and all Bitchface did all night was laugh at all the gay people.

The last part of the show She talked about how being gay was like having a birth defect, being born mentally ill and all this. And Julies wife Pepper tried to explain to Bitchface that its not a birth defect. And she asked Bitchface if she found out her kids were gonna be mentally ill if shed abort them and she basically said.

"Hell yes that's fucking so grouse"

And coincidentally Peppers sister had down syndrome and she started getting really emotional.. So she started crying and Bitchface laughed at her and told her to toughen up.

I dunno.. Being a lesbian myself it was really hard to watch.. I cried and I never cry at shows or movies.. I felt this thing deep in my throat and I just wanted to find that woman and fucking beat her sensless.. How could someone be that closed minded? How could someone ever be that horrible to anyone? It makes me sick.. Im so fucking sad right now cause all I keep thinking is

"I'm gonna run into someone like that someday.."

Its just really horrible.. I know me and Melissa may have to fight through people like that.. If we were to have kids we'd have to go through hell to get a child, a child we'd want when there's straight people everywhere (No offence) Having babies and sticking them into garbage cans and all this.. How could a woman like that judge gay people when people like her are doing this kind of shit to kids.. Aborting them cause they have a mental disability? That dose not make you any better then me you whore.. It makes me really upset.. Its comforting knowing Melissa and I have a lot of people behind us and our wanting to spend our lives together.. But just.. Seeing that.. I have never seen anything like it ever before..

I saw this preview for the next show and Bitchface has a mental breakdown saying it was the most horrible thing that ever happened to her and all that they did was make her feel like a bad person.

TOUGH LUCK YOU STUPID CUNT!

;o April 14th will be my one year anniversary with the fur affinity x3
I love this site so much ;3
Its lasted much longer then my love for deviant art xD
The people are so friendly
And always leave me nice comments.
I don't remember ever getting a bad comment n.n
Still have not been able to do a collaboration with anyone yet ;-;
Hopefully that will happen for me soon! x3
Anyways thanks to all the friends I've made
Some of you its been almost a year that I've known you ;o dosnt seem like its been that long!
I'd hold a contest thing or something but no one would participate xD
My arts not that cool.
Anyways thanks everyone! x3
Love you guys!

Today I am hung over..
Thats right! I drank all alone..

So I was in bed today sick.. And when I finally came out it was dark and I couldnt see anything really except little chunks of something on the floor.. I thought my dog took a shit in the living room. So I called him but when I turned on the light it wasnt shit at all. And I looked and Matier and he had his ears down and he wouldnt come near me.. He had chewed my tablet pen to nothing ;-;.. I am so sad.. And Matier knows to stay away from me right now.. He knows what he did was wrong.. So for thoughs of you who I have trades with.. Do you mind if its traditional? Kira? -_-

Soo saadd...

If I have a trade with you Please comment so I can add it to my to do list!

1. Robyn and Family
2. Russles Character
3. My half of trade with  magicwhitelady
4. My half of trade with  bluehart

I feel like Im missing stuff!

Hey guys!
I got this really cool blank calender for Christmas and I just thought how awesome would it be to get my favorite artists to draw in it for me!! I dont know if you guys would do it for free n.n;; I was just kinda hopeing since its me itd be special and you would draw something pretty in my calender <33!!

It would be awesome if I could get you guys to do this! I would send you the Calender and then you could send it back to me and onto the next person! I dont know if you guys trust me enough to give me your address lol but if you do please send me a PM! This would be awesome!

Favorite artists!
1.  thegrey
2.  bluehart
3.  ridethespiral
4.  styxandstoned
5.  vollita
6.  MagicWhiteLady
They arent in order or anything! I love you all equally xD

Thats all I can think of x3 So.. If theres anyone else that would be up to doing this it would be mega super awesome!! x3 Anyone on my friends list has awesome artz! I just cant remember everyones SNs! Leave me a comment to let me know if itd be ok and then a PM with your address! ITS CONFIDENTIAL! x3 THANKS GUYS!!

Tagged by  ridethespiral

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I wish I could be with my love..
I wish her ex would get the fuck out of our lives once and for all..
I wish I could get an apartment with my best friend Taylor and her love Jimmy <3

You got tagged!
1.  MagicWhiteLady
2.  K-puz
3.  bluehart

I just finished saying goodbye to the love of my life.. We were laying in bed and she was holding me but the damn cab came and picked her up early.. So we had to say our goodbyes..I've been crying all day and shes just been here comforting me.. And just now.. When we said our goodbyes.. She began to cry to.. I have never seen or ever even heard Melissa cry before.. She really does love me.. And I know now, 100% this is the girl I'm going to spend my life with.. Its just going to be hard not having her around anymore again for another few months.. I had someone to wake upto every morning.. I think thats one of the things I'm going to miss the most..

I've never cried so much in my life.. I feel like Im going to vomit.. Im not being emo.. Of corse Im sad.. But Im happy for the time we spent together.. After 6 years we only got 2 weeks together.. But I'm glad we were together..And once I get used to being alone again Im sure I'll be ok.. But I'll never stop missing her wich is normal when your other half is far away isnt it?

I love you.. <3

So I am in the basement but I just over heard my mom and Cam arguing about me moving out. Cam says no matter what he's kicking me out in january.. So I have to find a place to live yet again..

I dont get it.. Im not pregnant and I dont do drugs.. Am I really that much of a hassel to live with? I dont know what I'm supposed to do..