I'm going to be changing accounts soon. I will not be disabling this one, but all profile information will be removed.

Also, i'm probably not going to link to the new one, but you'll see me around.
I know that will kill my watcher count, but i need a new start, honestly. So yeah.


See you on the flip side.

wasn't tagged but EH i'm bored and procrastinating.


A – age: 21
B– biggest fear: Tornadoes and dying painfully... which kinda go hand in hand!
C – current time: 4:22am
D – drink you last had/are having: Tea that was too sweet
E – easiest person to talk to: Noel, Katie, and Britt
F – favorite song: Incompatible by Baths (that was a hard choice)
G – ghosts, are they real: I used to have a friend called the Black Hat Man
H – heritage: African american
I – in love with: WHAT IS LOVE, BABY DONT HURT ME. DONT HURT ME NO MO'
J – jealous of: I try really hard not to be because that annoys me
K – killed someone?: IF ONLY IF ONLY
L – last time you cried?: last month i believe? I was jsut so tired of life. Like there was jsut no point to it anymore because shit always gets worse, never better.
M – middle name: T'chele
N – number of siblings: one older sister
O – one wish: I would not mind being immortal? or at least living a very long time. I want to see what happens to the world.
P – person who you last called: my mom
Q – question you’re always asked: how old i am
R – reason to smile: having people that genuinely care about you and not because you have something they want
S – song last sang: DESIRE by Ashesborn
T – time you woke: 10:48pm
U – underwear color: white :|
V – vacation destination: Canada so i cna go to the fuckin EXP Bar
W – worst habit: I like to claw at my skin before i go to sleep. My left upper arm is an entire shade darker because of healed over scabs flaking off
X – x-rays you’ve had: Teeth, chest, knee
Y – your favorite food: I really love duck and sushi omfg (but not raw sushi)
Z – zodiac sign: Cancer/Leo and Dog

i fucking hate oktober in terms of school there's too much shit going on and no one seems ot understand that you have a life? or at least had one

Like my brain si jsut... i don't evne know man. I meanlook, i put a fuckign k in october what the freshfcuk
oh my god


I'm just gonna

lay down

until 5:30 cause then i gotta go take a mid term AHAHHAAHHAAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAH



fuckme



and if oyu think i'm exagerating;
I have a midterm in approx. 1 hour of writing this
I have some shit called 'key terms' due tomorrow (may or may not have to also write a short paper)
I have ANOTHER mid term as well as a project on thursday (haha mind you that class is only an hour)
and then on wednsday i have a 5-7 page midterm essay due as well :'''''D


just kill me now
PLEASE SEND DOWN THE RIGHTEOUS THUNDERBOLT
JUST CRASH THROUGH THE CEILING IDC

:DDDD

Some of the editing got a little messed up but EH.
Also here's a sample of music i listen to~

I just realized my anatomy is not very good ad also i completely forgot how to draw human faces
someone he l p me

and by help i mean you have any go references or tutorials or whatever, throw em' at me. Doesn't matter what site they're on cause i have accounts all over the god damn place


Edit: I'm gonna draw lots of SMT demons ad see if i cna improve hhhhhhhhhhh fUCK















I hate when i can't draw. Also i made some things called Star Walkers that i might sell off.

I can only work on them friday through sunday though. I have class the rest of the week.

This commission opening is mainly for Taurs and Ferals. I've really been wanting to try drawing some lately so... yeah.

this is, of course, for both people who have Feral/Taur characters and for people who'd like to see what they character would look like as a feral/taur~

....you know, this is gonna get real confusing so i'll make a price sheet when i open them up. So just be on the look out, yeah? C:

I can if you want, but if you don't care then i'm not gonna do it lol

Also i migght livestream Tomorrow afternoon around.. mmm.... maybe 8pm EST so keep an eye out for that, yeah?

alternatively titled: Shove your ideas down my throathole


So!
I need ideas.
as you cna see, i haven't drawn jack shit. I have no idea for ANYTHING AT ALL
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING
_{ok well there's one thing but i can't draw it because it's a closed species}

BUT BASICALLY NOTHING

so here's a big chance to tell me to draw something. I'd rather it only be a single character n' no background
or you cna jsut throw a prompt at me, that's fine too
i jsut need to draw something

MY BODY YEARNS


IDEAGs
GOGOGOGOGOGOGO

I got my new computer! Hello Aura Kingdom
and hello gaming with buddies again!

hella sweet

i cna also probably livestream now!

*throws confetti*

I have literally slept all day btw

what the fuck tho

i'm not ready to be an adult
i don't want aLCh oOL

Noel said i should try a mixed drink but thEY'RE GROSS
No matter what it is i always taste the alcohol and t's nasty

maybe i'll just go stand awkwardly in a club somewhere and be awkward while awkwardly shifting my feet in an awkward sorta way

 kingofmaggots is needing to get up some money for food, Take a look at their adotpables! (they're really cool like holy shit man)

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6889415/

Also give them a watch, yeah?

I tried to make some fresh hash browns
washed the potatoes
grated the potatoes
seasoned the potatoes
put the potatoes in the oven

see a step i missed?
yeah
i didn't know about that step until juSTNOW

AND NOW I HAVE BLACK POTATOES THAT AREN'T EVEN TASTY

Wow

Did i ever mention how much i love like
Interspecies relationships (particularly with one of them being completely human)
Just woooooooowwwww i love those a lot
a lot lot lot
so much
all of the love
i adore them

i wish i could draw humans again because i LOVE

Why do i love it so much? I jsut think there's got o be a lot of acceptance going on there.
And then i found a picture that was interspecies AND size difference? Just sign me right up, i don't even need to read the fine print.

In conclusion makes amazing art go look yes/yes.

I'm gonna do something gorey
gorey is nice
i like drawing blood
and i need to practice drawing guts and severed limbs and the like

also Ikky is... probably going to be my ych muse because you can do just about anything to or with him and he's just like 'fuck it, sure why not'

also it will probably be inspired by Little Monster by Royal Blood.

But hey, if you have any suggestions for future YCHs, lemme know
i'm always open to suggestions for anything

trying to sell soe stuff since North Caorlina took $1200 from us today
(we only managed to earn $50 today btw)

bu i saw a two coputers at the pawn shop.

Both had 900GB hard drves and 8gb of RAM

one was an HP, win8, with an AMD processor
the other was a Dell, win7, and intel processor (i think)

both were $300 (299.99)

now, i know some people don't like win8 but i don't really prefer one over the other, they both freak out whenever they want to. and also i have a free upgrade to win10 apparently so???

anyway, if when we have some money, should i get one of those mostly new computers(if they stll have them) or try to get my old one fixed? idk how much it'll be cause i'm pretty sure it's the wireless adapter that's damaged.

(my old one is an Acer, win8, 6gb of RAM, 500gb hard drive. and intel processor)

One, I am STILL TAKING 3 MORE WAIST UPS (I knocked $2 off the fullbody ones for this lol wow a whole 2 dollars)
They are easy for me to do and have like zero stress.

Two, I've discovered that when i feel pressured to do something, it takes me waaayyy longer to do it than usual.

Three, how do you guys feel about surprise gift art? Cause sometimes i see people's characters and i'm just like "WOWZA... i wanna draw them" of course not nsfw art that's kinda rude to draw that and not ask them if its ok. So yeah, lemme know about this one please.

uhhhhhh... four... I JUST HAD THE MOST FUN ON SECOND LIFE TONIGHT. Like holy shit i have no idea what was going on. There was a group of us over at my place and the shit jsut started flying, no one knew what the fuck was going on. I am the proud owner of the best chat logs ever.

five.... I'd like to talk with you guys more... i know i need to really learn how to initiate conversations without sounding like a huge dingle dangle but like
i like talking with people, i'm jsut scared of people.

does that make sense?


sIX I am going to be redoing my price sheet to reflect style changes. Aside from the commissions and refsheets, my art lately has not had lineart. It's just been a really cleaned up sketch (depending on the look i'm going for)
so, instead we're gonna have like.. semi-rough sketches instead of sketches and the only things that will have solid lines will be refsheets.




that should be all i think, ok have a nice day

I want to do hormone replacement therapy. Probably not like... 'soon' but i want to go through with it.

I've been trying to let myself to things that are more... well... what society (and my mom) typically determines as 'masculine.' But those are'nt really going all that well, heh.

I've recently stopped wearing bras at least, and my mom hasn't said anything about it so... little bit of progress.
I've also been letting on more and more about anything related to trans folks and they don't seem repulsed by it or anything either so also good.

A few years back we had a talk about me being trans. My mom wasn't upset by it, she jsut didn't understand it. But the next day she and my sister asked if i wanted to do HRT but i said i wasn't sure.

Hopefully that offer still stands. maybe i'll be able to once we have more money to get the process started.

Really, FA?
Really?

This is a bit much.

If anyone has stylish or is willing to install it there's a work around for these ads here


I don't mind having ads, FA, but this is just plain silly.

's been a while, but I'm open again!

I'll be taking 5 waist ups of any kind (Sketch, Flat, or Shaded)
Sorry but no specific backgrounds this time!


And here are the prices for your convenience~

Sketch Waist up - $4
Colored Sketch - +$1
_{(All sketches are clean!)}

Flat Wast-up - $8

Full-Shaded Waist up - $10 (special price~)

I'll also do lineart if you just want that for $5

Add ons:

Extra Character - Half Base Price
Adult/Erotic - +$4
Artistic Nudity - +$2



Check HERE for the TOS, but follow the prices listed on this journal

Comment to claim, and then note me(or i'll note you) to discuss the details C:

SLOTS

1.  nezerith

2.

3.

4.

5.

god fucking dammit

alright, screw it, i was kind of hesitant about flooding my gallery with porn but i don't even care anymore
i will draw all of the porn, whatever

so expect to see a lot of adult YCH auctions or FCFS in the future
i actually have a pin-up i'm about to post

That YCH i jsut finished up a few days ago was me dipping my toes in the water, seeing if anyone would even be interested. And apparently people are.

but here're my concerns...
1, were they jsut interested because it was free and
2, would they still be interested in a YCH if it wasn't explicit?

Cause i'd liek to continue doing YCHs, but you now, i'd liek to not draw porn ALL the time But that's what people like and i need the money so i might have to suck it up, haha.

Also, I'm going to start adopting out more otelisks, i may even have some custom ones eventually.
right now i have witch hazel and spotty up for grabs for $7. They're flat chested across the board, but can have very very small 'breasts'. There's a link to some information about them in the link in the bottom of this journal if you wanna check them out.

 d3adb3ar

She's a fantastic artist but super underrated, I think she could use some more views!

Her style is adorable and she is very versatile in what she cna draw. Also have you sEEN her imagination? It's like so fucking awesome, she comes up with the MOST AWESOME things jsut on a dime.

So go check her out, She's open for commissions as well! And has a little redbubble that you can buy stuffs from C:

 d3adb3ar

http://i.imgur.com/14NMm0o.png


 dexxy~ with number 207

Thanks everyone for participating~
also note that i am in the press of moving (again) so i'm going to work on this on my down time.

sometimes you jsut wanna talk about stuff you know?

alight so first i just checked my email and paypal sent me an email saying "ARE YOU READY FOR THE STEAM SALE?????"

like FUCK I FORGOT ABOUT THE SUMMER SALE
also paypal is learning, it's learning

I wonder if there's gonna be anything i want that is cheap enough for me to buy lol
_{also swear to god if someone gifts me anymore games i am going to scream
i don't know how to respond to gifts other than 'ok what do you want from me?' which is jaded as hell but, well...}



Also! the raffle ends today in about 5 hours, so if you're not in it and want to be, get ta' headin' over there!

Also i did infact get complaints about the YCH but i can do what i want, just because you're friends with someone doesn't mean you're obligated appease them.



uhm.. what else.... idk man, i just want to talk about stuff I on't really talk with my watchers much (or my followers on tumblr for that matter) because i am a shy potato
Oh, on the note of social stuff, I have made my skype public if you haven't noticed, so add me if you want c:

but please, don't expect me to RP with you :| also don't expect me to vidchat. I voice chat sooommeetimes if i'm home alone, but it' still pretty rare.
Basically anythign else is fair game.



Also i've let go of my livestream channel. It's gotten to complicated to even get it started up so i'm just going over to picarto. OBS is nicer to work with anyway and records separately from streaming so my think isn't in 50000 parts. Because of this, though, i might start uploading sped up videos of my streams YoouTube for you to see.



MOVIN ON _{(wow this is getting long, i told you i want ranting though)} So about Ikky. I really like him. I know his pattern (at least the front) is from Dramatical murder, the back through is just threw together but i really like him and i'm finding myself able to draw his markings on faster and faster~

On the downside though his fucking face s hard as fuck. On the humanoid body it's fine enough _{(i even found an artist who kinda draws kemono style heads, so i'm going to try to absorb some tips from their art haha.)} but on his feral form i can't get ti to fucking look right with out him looking directly to the side. I'm fiddling with it now though, s i might come up with a solution cause i think his feral form is pretty nice. Especially when it's all angry and he has black flames coming out of his mouth and on his tail~



I think that's all now, really hah. If you read this whole thing... <3
if you didn't read the hole thing... still <3




tl;dr: i wanna buy games, stuff about the YCH, add me on skype, livestream.com is stupid, ikky's face is dumb

have a nice day vuv