So for the last little bit I have been doing my commissions on more of a "wait in line" basis. That line is like 7 people long now so I am officially CLOSING commissions! I will make another post like this when they open up again.

Hey so if anyone is wondering why I haven't been uploading as much, it's because (1) I recently graduated from my college and was focusing on that, and (2) I'm in the process of making Patreon-only content, which will be released to the public later while I work on stuff in the future. I'm not dead, just busy!!

i dont wanna be annoying but ive decided to cut down on my feed bc it hit 11k and i dont want to annoy anyone by having "Xyveon liked 20 of your art things." Am I delusional or should I cut back on that

Expect my art to pick up soon!!

So I am very very autistic and I have a meticulous method of combing through the shows and old anime that I need to watch. Specifically I log my "watch later" anime through MAL and sort the order I watch them by lowest established rating to highest. I recently came across Gleipnir, a 12 episode anime about a high school body who can transform into a living fighting fursuit. You'd think that this would be right up my alley (and it was!!) but my rating was bogged down a little bit because he is essentially owned by Nicole from Class of 09. The show was really funny and kind of insane, and the premise even beyond the main character is incredibly unique (and the soundtrack bops, its a shame it hasn't been released publicly) but I think it's funny that there is a show out there that so closely panders to my hyper-specific kink but also strays so far from making it just pandering. I would probably be way more into the show if I was straight but oh well. Now I'm gonna read the manga and see if the rest of the story is as good since we're probably never getting a Season 2.
I would draw smut of this show but the main character is in high school so I probably (definitely) won't.
Sorry x.+

-Ace

So I've been thinking for a while and have been considering the prospect of doing art full time. I'm graduating college in the spring, and I've already got rough plans to move in with a friend in an apartment. Rent would probably be around 500-800 monthly, so ideally I'd get a part time job at a cushy bookstore or something and work that around 15 hrs a week, which would account for most of rent. Other than that I'd be doing art as a full time thing!!

Some friends and even one of my counselors have encouraged the idea, but I'm also scared that maybe I won't have enough people commissioning me to make a living off of. I'm also considering the prospect of getting burnt out... but I feel I'd get a lot more burnt out if I had to balance a regular full time job with art.

I guess I'm just hesitant because this is a big turning point in my life and I'm not sure what's going to happen next! But I want to try this and see where it goes. If any of you who are doing this as a full-time thing have advice for me I'd love to hear it.

Go check out my art raffle!!!!!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59716535/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59716535/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59716535/

https://bsky.app/profile/rubberxyv.bsky.social
https://bsky.app/profile/rubberxyv.bsky.social
https://bsky.app/profile/rubberxyv.bsky.social

Hurry! They're first come first serve. To claim your slot, DM me anywhere and fill out the commission form, which you can find here:
https://xyveon.carrd.co/

Will make another announcement when they close.

Alright, I'm officially opening commissions! I'm opening three slots on Friday, January 31st, at 3 PM EST. Commissions of any kind will be accepted as long as they adhere to my TOS, which can be found in my Carrd, which you can find here!

https://xyveon.carrd.co/

3 slots!
3 PM!
3 days from now!
Be there!!

So I might be busy and my already slow art output might slow down even more... but i get my bachelor's degree in May! I'm literally not sure what's going to happen after that. Job searching is kinda going awful so far but hopefully I find something in the future.

In the mean time, I'm working on a couple personal projects and then I'll open commissions again! Expect me to open no later than the end of January.

Thanks for caring! Ace

This is kind of random but if you have a favorite show or movie, gimme
I need stuff to binge while I draw

https://bsky.app/profile/xyveon.bsky.social

FOllow me pls

We will get through this because we have to.

Stand together. I love all of you (except the ones who caused this to happen you bitches can die)

- Ace

So I don't usually post this kind of thing here but I figured I would on the off chance that it actually does something.

For a while I've felt kind of disillusioned with the rubberfur community and it's not because of anything anyone specific has done. Rather, I've found it really hard to be on here regularly and as a result I can't really say I have a lot of friends in this community. Sure I KNOW a lot of people. But honestly I don't really talk with most of the people who know me on here all that often, much less hang out with them at all. The majority of people I know on here just kind of stopped messaging me after a while, and I'm too afraid to reach out again on the off chance that they stopped messaging me out of some annoyance or grievance. I know that's mostly just social anxiety but it's honestly exhausting being constantly worried about how people perceive me.

I know it's kind of my fault; I've been so busy with my last year of college and I've been putting a lot more energy into my life irl than I have on here. I have a bunch of furry friends and a great small college friend group, my grades are okay and I'm starting to look into career stuff... but the downside is that I barely have the energy to even look for new communities on here.

Honestly it's been hard connecting with people on here even before I became less active. I'm not the best at finding Discords or whatever to hang out in, and the ones I'm in are either dead, really tight knit so I don't feel like I fit in, or filled with people who give me bad vibes. Most of the people I have added don't actually talk to me at all and at this point I'm just kind of wondering if there's even a point? A part of me feels like I could rid myself of a lot of insecurity just by sticking to art and not even trying to interact with people on here. But I want to have friends in this community and it sucks when I'm not just held back by my life off the internet, but just how hard it is to find people who genuinely want to talk to me.

Idk if I'm also just socially awkward to the point where people don't want to associate with me? I'm adhd/autistic but I've never really been able to get a complete sense of how much I "pass" to neurotypical people and maybe it's all in my head, but I've had enough people avoid/ignore me to my face because I was weird like one time. And it's annoying because you can never just ASK because then you look weird in the process anyway. It's to the point where I'm afraid to even reach out to anyone because I don't want to come across as annoying because then it's in some guy's DMs forever and they can tell their friends about how awkward I was.

The other thing is that so many people in this community are just horny 24/7 and while I'm totally down to get lewd with people I know, I don't want that to be literally the only thing we do because then that's the only reason I talk to you. I need to just start ignoring people who open with "hi how are you" or "do you rp" like send me a funny meme or tell me about your special interests, don't try to dom me repeatedly after I tell you that IM a dom or flirt with me and then call me "sus" because that shit makes me want to take a boiling shower.

I'm not expecting this post to really fix anything, I just wanted to air this out to anyone who used to talk to me for a little bit because I really feel like I barely have anyone here I've genuinely connected with. I don't want that to come across as callous to the people who DO feel like they've connected with me, but I can't help but feel disconnected from all of this compared to the friendships I have offline.
I guess this is kind of a call for help? This is an online space that I'm invested in and I hate feeling like I'm either not welcome here or just too stupid to find where I fit in. I know a lot of it is just in my head but I don't know HOW much of it is, and I also know that at least some of it isn't.
It's not like I want to even be all that popular either, I could be fine with just one or two decently active group chats and a server of people who ACTUALLY know me. I just don't really have that connection with anyone on here and it sucks :/

anyway I'm almost done drawing a Spyro suiting sequence commission, classes have had me busy as usual but I'm trying to get on it more than I usually do. Expect that within like a week or so, and keep in mind I post on Patreon a few days before I do everywhere else!

Thanks (pls talk to me im lonely and awkward), Ace

I'm open for 5 slots! Check out all the relevant information here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57423555/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57423564/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57423590/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57423600/

i know i promised to post more often than i did before but this is the last month of the semester for me and im really busy,,,,,,,
my next thing is almost done though, its a little late considering the trend but i hope yall like~

Hey!! I'm back. What does that mean?

For one thing, I'm trying to upload a little more frequently. I want to try and get something made once every 10 days to 2 weeks, depending on how busy I am. It's not like I'm going to be holding myself to that one hundred percent, but it's a goal I'd like to shoot for.
I'm also trying to change things up a little! Expand on what I draw, as well as how I draw it. My style has changed a little since I left and I'm hoping it will continue to do so.
I have a couple new ideas for the short term, including:
- A couple art trades with some good friends
- A couple pokemon suit tfs because of course that's always a brainrot I have
- Some dronification and hypno/zonking stuff
- Possibly a new character??
- Some personal, SFW work sprinkled in

In other news, I might open up some commissions up at some point again. I want to kind of revamp how I do them a little bit before I open completely. I'm also open to making some YCHs, doing some auctions, and eventually regularly using my Patreon again! (Reminder that while my Patreon is currently open, it currently functions purely to support me as someone who doesn't have much money. Any support is appreciated, but don't feel obligated to support if you can't!)

Finally, I'd like to invite anyone reading this to comment some ideas you'd like to see me draw. I'm always open to new ideas, and if it excites me I just might get to it!

Glad to be back~

Happy holidays everyone!! My year was pretty average, but I got closer with a lot of friends, worked on my self-image, got some online therapy, and finished another year of college. I also got a VR headset (a Quest 2) for Christmas so I'm hoping I can maybe set that up and maybe get a custom avatar at some point in the future when I'm not broke.

In other news, I want to give a short update on what I'm doing and where I'm going to go from here.

Taking a break was definitely the right call, not having to worry about making deadlines for myself and worrying about burnout has been such a relief. A lot of my friends have been getting some really nice and art doing things and its all inspired me to have a bunch of fun ideas for when I come back- but still none of the motivation to do any of it. I've been doing some brainstorming, and I kind of want to do a sort of soft reset/rebrand when I come back. New design for my character, new improved art style, and an actual "identity" that my character has that I can play along with. A couple of artists that I look up to do that, and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a little jealous? So that's something that's in the oven right now.

I've been slowly doing a lot of introspection lately on both when I want to come back, and what I plan to do once I do. I think I'm probably going to start getting back into art regularly somewhere around late spring/early summer of 2024. Ideally I want to be making new content more frequently than I used to, but I understand that might just lead to me getting burnout again, so I want to pace myself.

That's honestly the main thing I've been worried about here, I don't want to repeat how I felt the last time I got burnout. I'm not just referring to art either, being online consistently is hard for me. I can't log on every single day for hours like other people can and be active in 20 different group chats and 50 dms, as much as I kind of want to. I see people getting art of their friends and them, and making lewd group things, but I'm not really too integrated into any kind of community like that- I'm kinda just here. I either need to go out of my way to socialize more and find my niche, or reexamine my priorities and maybe be fine with just kinda existing without an entourage of friends. I'll fess up that my inability to commit to things online, whether it be for content, friendships, relationships, etc has led me to burn some bridges, and even if that isn't something I can take back, I want to improve. I'd like to think I have over this past year.

I know this is all kind of vague. I'm really just sort of throwing up what's in my head as I type, but what you should take away from this as someone that follows me for my art is that I'm going to be on a break for a while longer, but I'm going to be back eventually, probably sooner rather than later. I have a lot of ideas and a lot of inspiration, and the only thing holding me back right now is myself. I have some issues that I need to work through before I can fully commit back to making content on here, but I want everyone to know that I'm doing pretty good and that I'm really grateful for all the support I've gotten from my friends who check in with me regularly.

While I'm here- thank you guys for 900 watchers!! Holy shit! That's a lot of people. I know my main following is on Twitter (Almost 2.5k followers at the time of this post), but seeing the number be that big on here makes me really happy, because honestly Twitter is a sinking ship and I'd like for that following to slowly migrate here as well. Thank you for the support!!

Hey so I decided I would make a formal announcement on here, since I've thought it over a bit.

My nsfw art content has slowly been declining in quantity lately and at first I thought it was just burnout, but now I'm kinda starting to realize that I'm not really enjoying doing nsfw art to begin with. Idk, I like drawing art of my characters and dnd characters my friends have because there's that emotional connection, and there really isn't anything like that when it's just porn.

Because of this, I've decided that I'm going to be taking a break from NSFW art for the foreseeable future. It's just not fun for me like it used to be, and now I'm kinda bored of it. Maybe I need to just take a break from it for a while? I don't like the idea of never doing lewd stuff again, so I would plan to come back when I feel like it. This isn't a forever break, I'll just be taking a few months/a year to myself. I'll still be online and stuff so you can always send me a note if you have any questions.

I'm also hoping to take this break to improve my skills a lot. I'll still be drawing, I'll just purely be working on personal stuff (which you can find in my scraps folder) and I'm hoping that the diversity of what I draw in there will allow me to improve a bunch when I return. Hopefully when I do return there'll be a marked improvement!!

I want to make it clear that I'm not doing this because I'm like depressed or anything. I'm actually in the best place I've ever been in my life and it kind of feels like this is holding me back a little. I think me being in a better mental state kind of has a side effect of dramatically decreasing my libido and I think that's kind of partially why I'm not enjoying this as much.

Thanks for understanding regardless! This isn't the end of me drawing porn either way, again, it's just a break. Love you guys <3

So one thing I'm considering is maybe posting my sfw stuff in the scraps section on my page. I've been drawing a lot of stuff for my dnd campaigns and I'm kinda proud of it. Should I post it in scraps?? Do scraps show up in your feed? I just don't want my sfw stuff cluttering the porn i draw because I know that's mostly what you guys are here for.

I'm really sorry for being slow. My home life isn't exactly the most stable, and honestly motivation is hard enough to come by as it is without my parents fighting or taking their anger out on me and my siblings. But I'm doing my best, and I don't have as many classes as usual in my fall semester so hopefully I'll have more time to work!
My art obligations are as follows:
- A two-part continuation to my nargacuga suit tf
- A two-part toyification tf commission for a very special rubbery wolf friend
- Maybe a couple art trades with some squeaky friends

And some personal works I want to get to at some point
- A Lucario & Zeraora toysuit tf sequence
- Some drone stuff
- maybe a story-focused kink comic???
- A jojo stand (part 9 brainrot has stayed strong)
- DnD doodles for the campaigns I'm in

I can't promise I'll post as frequently as I want to, but I'm going to try! And while I'm here, feel free to suggest some ideas of your own!! I might do them if I like them :D

Hey I'm opening commissions again!! The slots close on Monday. Please fill out the Google Form if you're interested!
https://forms.gle/JtxisBSMwu2k5J7c7

i could have sworn it was like 400 last time i checked thank you lol, I'm sorry I don't post more often

I see a couple artists asking this and I'm curious too. Don't be shy~

Check it out! My Patreon is open now. Subscribe for sneak peaks at what I'm working on, access to my private Discord, entries in raffles and Patreon-exclusive YCHs! I'll also be adding more perks in the future so look forward to those. Thanks for the support!!
https://www.patreon.com/m/Xyveon