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Nah son. Fuck this. Fuck that, Fuck you, FA
Posted 10 months agoThis site is a fucking disaster of a joke. From TAKING THIS FUCKING LONG to address the ongoing pushing out of babyfurs (which i dont even have on here) and the HEADASS way staff have been managing this leading up to Dragoneers death, it feels like spitting on his legacy to me. I no longer what to support this site whatsoever. I still have a facebook but as soon as someone can point out a tool for me to rip my furaffinity gallery (especially stats and comments, the things I would miss having the most) please let me know, send me an EMAIL bruh at this point (meowmaster5[at]gmail.com)
Yeah. Find my fucking inkbunny people. Its Beebz. Which I cant share because I have drawn loli, shota and cub despite it being behind barriers in there.
And the following is directed toward antis and all the people who have made the culture and climate like this!
And i dont want to FUCKING HEAR IT from ANYONE. Because when I was fucking running away after my mom dislocated my leg, you know who fucking paid like 80% of my living expenses. Fucking inkbunny and cub art and cub voice acting.
Im sick of you assholes dictating shit we get to do in art or fiction and sure! Tell your fucking friends!! Make your fucking callouts! I DONT GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE.
If you have your head so far up your ass that you value a fucking CONCEPT of a fictional character being harmed more important than the well being of an actual persona physical or mental well being, I hope you get hurt. Legitimately. Im tired of you assholes calling us pedophiles and telling us to kill ourselves but we're fuckin evil if we we break your DNI responding to your kys comment. Uno reverse card if you ever throw that shit around. I dont care.
I dont have to care about my reputation anymore and tiptoe among people who constantly have to bring up abuse is bad and circlejerk to how good a person they are.
CUT 👏 ME 👏OUT YOUR LIFE. Please! Do it motherfucker! I dont wanna see you exist near me either
I have ALWAYS been respectful and understanding of this sites policy and never had an issue with it being here in the first place. But the puritan train goes off the rails here. I tag my shit properly, I content warning. i keep my stuff 18+ only. If you look for my shit and get mad THATS YOUR PROBLEM.
Never forget how you pieces of shit sided with Kyle Carozza on politepuppet being "an evil person" over fosters home nsfw when that fucker was found with csem. I hope you know how you made it easier for him to be a piece of shit without recompense for longer.
🖕Spin on it, antis. Talk about how we're evil and whiny and then you have a panic attack over calling a bank you hypocritical coward fucks. None of you would ever have the cojones to say or do anything to me if you saw me in real life, so stay trippin.
And to anyone who has half a brain cell and knows that fiction enjoyed =/= endorsement. Poggers. Hit me up off this festering shit fuck of a place and lets chat. I have been wanting to make a public address for 10 years and honestly if i regret this? Whatever bruh. Prioritize your pixels over my friendship
I never forced anyone to look at my stuff. Goodbye.
Yeah. Find my fucking inkbunny people. Its Beebz. Which I cant share because I have drawn loli, shota and cub despite it being behind barriers in there.
And the following is directed toward antis and all the people who have made the culture and climate like this!
And i dont want to FUCKING HEAR IT from ANYONE. Because when I was fucking running away after my mom dislocated my leg, you know who fucking paid like 80% of my living expenses. Fucking inkbunny and cub art and cub voice acting.
Im sick of you assholes dictating shit we get to do in art or fiction and sure! Tell your fucking friends!! Make your fucking callouts! I DONT GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE.
If you have your head so far up your ass that you value a fucking CONCEPT of a fictional character being harmed more important than the well being of an actual persona physical or mental well being, I hope you get hurt. Legitimately. Im tired of you assholes calling us pedophiles and telling us to kill ourselves but we're fuckin evil if we we break your DNI responding to your kys comment. Uno reverse card if you ever throw that shit around. I dont care.
I dont have to care about my reputation anymore and tiptoe among people who constantly have to bring up abuse is bad and circlejerk to how good a person they are.
CUT 👏 ME 👏OUT YOUR LIFE. Please! Do it motherfucker! I dont wanna see you exist near me either
I have ALWAYS been respectful and understanding of this sites policy and never had an issue with it being here in the first place. But the puritan train goes off the rails here. I tag my shit properly, I content warning. i keep my stuff 18+ only. If you look for my shit and get mad THATS YOUR PROBLEM.
Never forget how you pieces of shit sided with Kyle Carozza on politepuppet being "an evil person" over fosters home nsfw when that fucker was found with csem. I hope you know how you made it easier for him to be a piece of shit without recompense for longer.
🖕Spin on it, antis. Talk about how we're evil and whiny and then you have a panic attack over calling a bank you hypocritical coward fucks. None of you would ever have the cojones to say or do anything to me if you saw me in real life, so stay trippin.
And to anyone who has half a brain cell and knows that fiction enjoyed =/= endorsement. Poggers. Hit me up off this festering shit fuck of a place and lets chat. I have been wanting to make a public address for 10 years and honestly if i regret this? Whatever bruh. Prioritize your pixels over my friendship
I never forced anyone to look at my stuff. Goodbye.
Why Should I Care About Being Here (FA) Anymore?
Posted a year agoI'm making this journal to see if I can be convinced to come back and post anything or talk about updates. If the past 3 years wasnt hell on me enough, the fact that I kept getting fucked over for drawing and supporting the "wrong" kind of art just makes me fucking exhausted.
I've always followed Furaffinitys policies on art, no posting cub or loli or shota on here. I always kept those posts to inkbunny. Yet here and on multiple discord servers, people have labeled Triste as a cub in situations where he never was one. Triste has always been a representation of myself. He's short and chubby like I am. Plus my style is a pretty reasonable 4-6 heads tall proportions consistently. To the point I was so stressed out in 2018 and 2019 I felt pushed to do 1:7-1:8 and it felt awkward and awful.
And its like, why is everyone so obsessed with making sure they "don't condone pedophilia". This is literally the default stance of most people. I would say if you try to use statistics to prove otherwise, that's just being doomeristic. Even so, attacking art and literature does nothing to help victims of assault or molestation. Not only do many victims use art for cathartis, the messy thing ppl dont wanna talk about is it actively can also help would-be predators from moving onto real things.
Why do people take issue with that? Many claim the "slippery slope" fallacy that classifies taboo artwork as a sort of gateway drug to wanting to perform the actions irl. Do people get inspired by kinky art? Yeah. But people fail to acknowledge that this inspiration is typically within the confines of consensual adult relationships. You're furries. I'm sure you've heard of roleplay.
I dont even know why I'm talking about this because I already fear being attacked by random one liner "gotcha's" with people using the disgusting outdated terms such as "child porn" or worse "cheese pizza" (seriously, fuck you for trying to make it sound cute just so you can have an inside joke. If you took this as seriously as you claim, you would never.
Maybe it's because inkbunny helped me pay my rent when I was on the run from my mother who dislocated my knee.
Maybe it's because I've indulged in cub art and transgressive fiction as a teenager to project and vent about the severe abuse I went through.
Maybe it's because for disagreeing with a person on toyhouse saying nsfw feral art should be banned, they stalked my twitter posts and MADE AN ACCOUNT to show everyone my inkbunny only artwork, and then they were rewarded for the callout by my being banned for offsite stuff.
Maybe its because antis got my paypal banned which directly contributed to me being unable to work and getting homeless on the street in freezing January with my cat.
Maybe theres some part of me that hopes this won't have been a waste of time to write and I'd actually get some people agreeing with me on how fucked up these agendas are, harming real people to protect the fictional ones.
I just hate puritan behavior so goddamn much. I hate how smug and vicious they are, always hunting for the next person to crucify. I hate how there have been persistent stalkers of my friends spreading misleading lies for their own idea of vigilante justice. I hate the constant attempts to reeducate being met with effectively fingers in ears "lalala cant hear you pedo".
I hate having to be afraid to show my art and what makes me happy. It doesn't matter if I hide and tag and warn, people use it as leverage to find and attack as opposed to avoid or block.
Im just so tired of it all.
I've always followed Furaffinitys policies on art, no posting cub or loli or shota on here. I always kept those posts to inkbunny. Yet here and on multiple discord servers, people have labeled Triste as a cub in situations where he never was one. Triste has always been a representation of myself. He's short and chubby like I am. Plus my style is a pretty reasonable 4-6 heads tall proportions consistently. To the point I was so stressed out in 2018 and 2019 I felt pushed to do 1:7-1:8 and it felt awkward and awful.
And its like, why is everyone so obsessed with making sure they "don't condone pedophilia". This is literally the default stance of most people. I would say if you try to use statistics to prove otherwise, that's just being doomeristic. Even so, attacking art and literature does nothing to help victims of assault or molestation. Not only do many victims use art for cathartis, the messy thing ppl dont wanna talk about is it actively can also help would-be predators from moving onto real things.
Why do people take issue with that? Many claim the "slippery slope" fallacy that classifies taboo artwork as a sort of gateway drug to wanting to perform the actions irl. Do people get inspired by kinky art? Yeah. But people fail to acknowledge that this inspiration is typically within the confines of consensual adult relationships. You're furries. I'm sure you've heard of roleplay.
I dont even know why I'm talking about this because I already fear being attacked by random one liner "gotcha's" with people using the disgusting outdated terms such as "child porn" or worse "cheese pizza" (seriously, fuck you for trying to make it sound cute just so you can have an inside joke. If you took this as seriously as you claim, you would never.
Maybe it's because inkbunny helped me pay my rent when I was on the run from my mother who dislocated my knee.
Maybe it's because I've indulged in cub art and transgressive fiction as a teenager to project and vent about the severe abuse I went through.
Maybe it's because for disagreeing with a person on toyhouse saying nsfw feral art should be banned, they stalked my twitter posts and MADE AN ACCOUNT to show everyone my inkbunny only artwork, and then they were rewarded for the callout by my being banned for offsite stuff.
Maybe its because antis got my paypal banned which directly contributed to me being unable to work and getting homeless on the street in freezing January with my cat.
Maybe theres some part of me that hopes this won't have been a waste of time to write and I'd actually get some people agreeing with me on how fucked up these agendas are, harming real people to protect the fictional ones.
I just hate puritan behavior so goddamn much. I hate how smug and vicious they are, always hunting for the next person to crucify. I hate how there have been persistent stalkers of my friends spreading misleading lies for their own idea of vigilante justice. I hate the constant attempts to reeducate being met with effectively fingers in ears "lalala cant hear you pedo".
I hate having to be afraid to show my art and what makes me happy. It doesn't matter if I hide and tag and warn, people use it as leverage to find and attack as opposed to avoid or block.
Im just so tired of it all.
Update::x-post from Inkbunny
Posted a year agoHey so for some reason i guess our old street experience kicked in for my surival sake. Ive located a day center and also paid for 1 month at the ymca which is another place i can stay and shower. and to sleep theres a church courtyard with security cameras and its not solitary or spooky and both places are in walking distance literally just a block loop.
For some reason i almost feel this trauma imformed sense of relief st having more freedoms. Not that it was hell in the shelter, it just felt i guess nice that i wouldnt have to waste food and have access to my own stuff. I dont know why, maybe I felt choked by the routine snd structure? But then the fact that i feel better out of it feels like "why am i valuing such freedom?" Well for one itsvnot cold with me gettng hypo thermia every other day. and with savvy safe in a foster im not limited by where i can go...
But aalso it just makes me wonder and feel ashamedl i know im burnt out. I have been since at least 2021. But I dont really get the opportunities to recharge. Not on the level that i need. I'm very sick mentally and im accidentally jeipardizing my relationships because of the deep self loathing i have that.. i dunno, burns out their empathy. And the extreme things i feel i then dont want to tell anyone because things are so unfair it bums them out that im inna bad position.
I dont want this to be the rest of my life just begging for money... I think people dont realize that me taking so long to work isnt just simply because i dont feel like it or dont want to. My severe ADHD has made me miserable more than once or twice. I dont get to have real, genuine specialized care because even when im not masking, clinicians dont believe me.
I have been saying scary stuff about wanting to self harm in various an trying to vent and cope but i dont really intend to go through with it its like my constant desire to die just spiced up. Ive been coping how i can. Vent art. Vent poems, trying to be good,,, trying to be good and make the bad stuff in my mind stop.
I miss my friends... I keep dreaming about them, especially my partner who i knew for 15 years and it sucks not knowing that they were upset and didnt bring anything up until it was too late for me to redeem myself. I miss my old roommates that let me stay in their basement. I dream about day to day life just with friends being there bu im sure it sounds creepy,
I miss the person who would be gruff but supportive. She was doing her best. I didnt want the stepback of my own to be forever.
Im chronically lonely. Having the depths of my mental illness swallow me so hard that it just makes things too hard for other people really sucks. I dont know how else to get these distressing feeling out without resorting to going over the edge. Im endlessly supported by people which i have endless appreciation for.
I dont think the things they told me were wrong, but they hurt all the same. Told to be an adult by multiple people and... I get that at the end of the day with important stuff its gotta get done regardless of how you feel but a reminder doesnt help. I AM trying. Im just frustrated because my current capacity isnt enough and i cant constantly maintain the gotta keep going mindset even if i want to. Sometimes ive tried for hours to will myelf to get water and thats not a brag. it sucks i wish so much to be normal but i havent had luck with trying to turn things around which i do behind the scenes constantly.
You dont know how many self care and psych harm prevention things iv listened to or watched and try to put into practice. And again thats not a brag just yeah i am an active participant in my own dbt cbt whatever. Its not just me always accepting darkness i try but its often times not copeful ebough,
This isnt an attack or callot or whatever esp because the specified ones dont go here so its not easy to sus out or try to cause more drama. \
Bottom line is i respect that how I handle my current situation has made my friends want to step away for their well-being. I dont wish harm or revenge or coercion i just straight miss them and feel absolutely crushed and i think thats fair for me to feel to... I just wish that i could have been given like a talk about if you do x again im gonna be mad because my friend and i established that to avoid issues.
I just wish and hope beyond that i can get a break to break diwn my trauma sn heal in a safe secure controlled way. Then maybe i can in som ways return to the vibrancy we used to have that we've lost which is also awful because its just whate been happening to me
Anyways im coping and im doing my best i swear im not trying to manipulate anyone inhate being driven to ask anyway... Like i said im aware of my commissions but the adhd and depression is so strong some days i wont even open clip at all. Its not as though i want to run off. I think a few people here can testify that ive given them refunds when i could finish a project. Every time i could afford it i wanted to make sure i wasnt in debt to someone for too long and even though im slow keep my reputation at least admirable.
I guess what im saying is i still want to do my best in terms of being an Artist and have a smarter system of dealing with clients and making sure things are delivered without a problem. Im sure ppl can understand my life has been pretty hellish.
With that being said, if i owe you a commission,(voice or art) and you would like a refund / the project to be continued. There are 4 people I know I owe stuff to, 3 on commiss.io so i have their info, but the 1 voice script i couldnt do now for obvious reasons. And 1 illustration from discord.
So if you aren't one of these people ive remained in contact with and i owe you a comm or refund, please note me here.
In the opening note, please include as much of the following info if you have it
Where we discussed terms (discord, email, etc)
What was the commission supposed to be
How much was paid for it
When the commission was placed (exact datebnot needed)
Notes: anything you feel the need to tell me if you like, ill try to take it in stride.
For some reason i almost feel this trauma imformed sense of relief st having more freedoms. Not that it was hell in the shelter, it just felt i guess nice that i wouldnt have to waste food and have access to my own stuff. I dont know why, maybe I felt choked by the routine snd structure? But then the fact that i feel better out of it feels like "why am i valuing such freedom?" Well for one itsvnot cold with me gettng hypo thermia every other day. and with savvy safe in a foster im not limited by where i can go...
But aalso it just makes me wonder and feel ashamedl i know im burnt out. I have been since at least 2021. But I dont really get the opportunities to recharge. Not on the level that i need. I'm very sick mentally and im accidentally jeipardizing my relationships because of the deep self loathing i have that.. i dunno, burns out their empathy. And the extreme things i feel i then dont want to tell anyone because things are so unfair it bums them out that im inna bad position.
I dont want this to be the rest of my life just begging for money... I think people dont realize that me taking so long to work isnt just simply because i dont feel like it or dont want to. My severe ADHD has made me miserable more than once or twice. I dont get to have real, genuine specialized care because even when im not masking, clinicians dont believe me.
I have been saying scary stuff about wanting to self harm in various an trying to vent and cope but i dont really intend to go through with it its like my constant desire to die just spiced up. Ive been coping how i can. Vent art. Vent poems, trying to be good,,, trying to be good and make the bad stuff in my mind stop.
I miss my friends... I keep dreaming about them, especially my partner who i knew for 15 years and it sucks not knowing that they were upset and didnt bring anything up until it was too late for me to redeem myself. I miss my old roommates that let me stay in their basement. I dream about day to day life just with friends being there bu im sure it sounds creepy,
I miss the person who would be gruff but supportive. She was doing her best. I didnt want the stepback of my own to be forever.
Im chronically lonely. Having the depths of my mental illness swallow me so hard that it just makes things too hard for other people really sucks. I dont know how else to get these distressing feeling out without resorting to going over the edge. Im endlessly supported by people which i have endless appreciation for.
I dont think the things they told me were wrong, but they hurt all the same. Told to be an adult by multiple people and... I get that at the end of the day with important stuff its gotta get done regardless of how you feel but a reminder doesnt help. I AM trying. Im just frustrated because my current capacity isnt enough and i cant constantly maintain the gotta keep going mindset even if i want to. Sometimes ive tried for hours to will myelf to get water and thats not a brag. it sucks i wish so much to be normal but i havent had luck with trying to turn things around which i do behind the scenes constantly.
You dont know how many self care and psych harm prevention things iv listened to or watched and try to put into practice. And again thats not a brag just yeah i am an active participant in my own dbt cbt whatever. Its not just me always accepting darkness i try but its often times not copeful ebough,
This isnt an attack or callot or whatever esp because the specified ones dont go here so its not easy to sus out or try to cause more drama. \
Bottom line is i respect that how I handle my current situation has made my friends want to step away for their well-being. I dont wish harm or revenge or coercion i just straight miss them and feel absolutely crushed and i think thats fair for me to feel to... I just wish that i could have been given like a talk about if you do x again im gonna be mad because my friend and i established that to avoid issues.
I just wish and hope beyond that i can get a break to break diwn my trauma sn heal in a safe secure controlled way. Then maybe i can in som ways return to the vibrancy we used to have that we've lost which is also awful because its just whate been happening to me
Anyways im coping and im doing my best i swear im not trying to manipulate anyone inhate being driven to ask anyway... Like i said im aware of my commissions but the adhd and depression is so strong some days i wont even open clip at all. Its not as though i want to run off. I think a few people here can testify that ive given them refunds when i could finish a project. Every time i could afford it i wanted to make sure i wasnt in debt to someone for too long and even though im slow keep my reputation at least admirable.
I guess what im saying is i still want to do my best in terms of being an Artist and have a smarter system of dealing with clients and making sure things are delivered without a problem. Im sure ppl can understand my life has been pretty hellish.
With that being said, if i owe you a commission,(voice or art) and you would like a refund / the project to be continued. There are 4 people I know I owe stuff to, 3 on commiss.io so i have their info, but the 1 voice script i couldnt do now for obvious reasons. And 1 illustration from discord.
So if you aren't one of these people ive remained in contact with and i owe you a comm or refund, please note me here.
In the opening note, please include as much of the following info if you have it
Where we discussed terms (discord, email, etc)
What was the commission supposed to be
How much was paid for it
When the commission was placed (exact datebnot needed)
Notes: anything you feel the need to tell me if you like, ill try to take it in stride.
FA you are clowns
Posted 2 years agoMinors cant be pregnant now, pack it in. Look, no minors under 13 being preggo i could understand because even though it can happen its pretty unfortunate. BUT DO YOU FORGET THAT TEENS FUCK EACH OTHER TOO? not every relationship a minor gets into is predatory. Hly fucking crap I am sick of this buffonery thats coming from this dumbass site.
My Stance on FA + Find me elsewhere
Posted 2 years agoIts stupid, point blank. Yeah I'm a filthy profic proshipper if you dont like it, rejoice that this site has now bend to your whim and then bitch when they come after your art style or kink next.
I have never posted nsfw cub artwork on here. But we're especially fucking tired of Triste getting labeled as underage because I have a cutesy art style. If you wanna be real most of my people i draw at 1:6 head to body proportions which is still a possibility for adults. The tanner scale was never meant to be an indication of age. I shave my poonani and am 5'2, does that mean I'm "coded underage" get the fuck out of here.
I already had a previous commission flagged here before and gotten me suspended for a week without warning or asking me to take it down. This is insane. 7 years waiting for folder implementation and what, how long have we been in beta for? Thank god i never got furaffinity plus I would vomit if i ended up having subtly supported this.
Im hesitant to post anything anymore on here. I used to be scared to be caught with my inkbunny even though some insane fuck made an account to tell toyhouse what i do offsite, its only a matter of time before they do that fuckery here. Get out of here.
Here's where you can find me offsite. I dont give a shit anymore. I dont want to support this.
Best I can do is mirror YCH's here or something but yeah. I cant take it anymore.
Inkbunny
https://inkbunny.net/YimYim
Mastodon
https://aethy.com/@Beebz
AO3
https://archiveofourown.org/users/The_Beebz/
Askbox
https://retrospring.net/@TheBeebz
Wishlist
https://throne.com/thebeebz/wishlist
I have never posted nsfw cub artwork on here. But we're especially fucking tired of Triste getting labeled as underage because I have a cutesy art style. If you wanna be real most of my people i draw at 1:6 head to body proportions which is still a possibility for adults. The tanner scale was never meant to be an indication of age. I shave my poonani and am 5'2, does that mean I'm "coded underage" get the fuck out of here.
I already had a previous commission flagged here before and gotten me suspended for a week without warning or asking me to take it down. This is insane. 7 years waiting for folder implementation and what, how long have we been in beta for? Thank god i never got furaffinity plus I would vomit if i ended up having subtly supported this.
Im hesitant to post anything anymore on here. I used to be scared to be caught with my inkbunny even though some insane fuck made an account to tell toyhouse what i do offsite, its only a matter of time before they do that fuckery here. Get out of here.
Here's where you can find me offsite. I dont give a shit anymore. I dont want to support this.
Best I can do is mirror YCH's here or something but yeah. I cant take it anymore.
Inkbunny
https://inkbunny.net/YimYim
Mastodon
https://aethy.com/@Beebz
AO3
https://archiveofourown.org/users/The_Beebz/
Askbox
https://retrospring.net/@TheBeebz
Wishlist
https://throne.com/thebeebz/wishlist
Mastodon
Posted 2 years agohttps://aethy.com/@beebz
They have an AWESOME content filtering system so I can post anything I wanna. LMK if you want a follow back if you're coming from here!!
They have an AWESOME content filtering system so I can post anything I wanna. LMK if you want a follow back if you're coming from here!!
3 Voice Commission Slots Open
Posted 2 years agoGoing to be doing the current ones I have on stream tomorrow so opening these up early
If you dont have a script give me a scenario and you get every 2 minutes of content for $30
Note me or add me on discord Workbeebz#5048
If you'd rather have more control I also take scripted commissions for $25 per 2 minutes
to be paid via commiss.io, will send listing link individually when details are hashed out.
If you dont have a script give me a scenario and you get every 2 minutes of content for $30
Note me or add me on discord Workbeebz#5048
If you'd rather have more control I also take scripted commissions for $25 per 2 minutes
to be paid via commiss.io, will send listing link individually when details are hashed out.
All Voice Slots Claimed!
Posted 2 years agoOutside of referrals my slots are now closed! if you contacted me on discord and settled out details youre good and ill walk you through payments today.
Cute and Fuzzy ADHD Catboy Hangout (stream)
Posted 2 years agohttps://twitch.tv/beebzvico
Streaming Just Chatting: Cute and Fuzzy ADHD Catboy Hangout | Variety Stream maybe Fortnite Minecraft and Chatting | !tip !bttvemotes | New & Improved Vtuber Model!
Streaming Just Chatting: Cute and Fuzzy ADHD Catboy Hangout | Variety Stream maybe Fortnite Minecraft and Chatting | !tip !bttvemotes | New & Improved Vtuber Model!
3 Voice Commission Slots Open
Posted 2 years agoIf you dont have a script give me a scenario and you get every 2 minutes of content for $30
Note me or add me on discord
If you'd rather have more control I also take scripted commissions for $25 per 2 minutes
to be paid via commiss,io got caught in a paypal banwave
https://commiss.io/listings/QxZ9
Note me or add me on discord
If you'd rather have more control I also take scripted commissions for $25 per 2 minutes
to be paid via commiss,io got caught in a paypal banwave
https://commiss.io/listings/QxZ9
Streaming Fallout 2: Can a Femboy Survive Apocalypse?
Posted 2 years agohttps://twitch.tv/beebzvico
Streaming Fallout 2: Can a Femboy Survive Apocalypse? | Semi-Blind Fallout2 NO SPOILERS | !tip !8ball !bttvemotes | Improv Rewards and Interactive with Chat
Streaming Fallout 2: Can a Femboy Survive Apocalypse? | Semi-Blind Fallout2 NO SPOILERS | !tip !8ball !bttvemotes | Improv Rewards and Interactive with Chat
Twitch Stream
Posted 2 years agoDuck Weave BANGBANG [18+] | Enter the Gungeon | 105 FOLLOWER / 3 SUBS GOAL
https://www.twitch.tv/beebzvico
NEW CHANNEL NAME Dont forget to follow and use your prime sub if you enjoy the show!
https://www.twitch.tv/beebzvico
NEW CHANNEL NAME Dont forget to follow and use your prime sub if you enjoy the show!
Microphone Broken...
Posted 2 years agomy expensive mic i bought a couple of years ago is now staticky and shit so Im going to have to go for a Snowball Ice. I think I know enough audio processing that I can make my headset sound decent after recording with noise removal, but it doesnt do anywhere near 44hz >> i hope no one is a dissapointed audiophile- i try my best but sometimes i get shook seeing how much people like me tbh ^^
its a lot of pressure i put on myself i guess,
its a lot of pressure i put on myself i guess,
Friend Needs Money 4 Power Bill (Commissions)
Posted 2 years ago
peachcreamsicle is a good friend of mine and could use some help to pay $200 for a power bill their guardian went delinquent on. Without money for the power it will be shut off and they'll be left in the cold and without means to work or keep their food refrigerated, etc etc. Please, if you are a fan of cute art, especially Transformation Fetish sequences, considering supporting him. He has YCHs for sale, or send him some Shinies or something. I'd really appreciate it. He helped boost my gofundme when I was in the hospital and supported me a lot. I would really appreciate it if you guys could help repay the kindness he showed me.
2 $30 Wingit- Voice Commission Slots open
Posted 2 years agoFinished 2 that were on my back so I'm open.
If you dont have a script give me a scenario and I'll give you 2 minutes of content for $30.
Note me or add me on discord
If you'd rather have more control I also take scripted commissions for $25 per 2 minutes.
If you dont have a script give me a scenario and I'll give you 2 minutes of content for $30.
Note me or add me on discord
If you'd rather have more control I also take scripted commissions for $25 per 2 minutes.
Taking Voice and Art Commissions
Posted 2 years agoSimply Note me if interested
More or Less Safe Now
Posted 3 years agoApologies for the disappearance. As you all know I was in the hospital to get a sort of hard reset of my mental health. I have better medication and a better living situation now and I hope that is heartening to hear for everyone.
Goodbye. Getting Hospitalized.
Posted 3 years agoI've been trying to hang on, steadily getting worse, even trying to post this update I keep staring off into space, not feeling real. a Tingling in my Chest and Left Hand occassionally. Pain, physical and psychological, is almost the only thing I'm aware of anymore, even when I try to smile occassionally to cope, so that others dont feel awkward around me. At the end, I want to love everyone.
I'm leaving the house today. Moving out, tossing things again, and then tomorrow- yeah. I'm afraid, I dont want to be here, but I guess it must be done.
Please Donate and Share my Story. Funds will be handled by my partner to help me get my life back. I hope that can happen.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/recovery-for-beebz
https://ko-fi.com/nyvivianv
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I'm leaving the house today. Moving out, tossing things again, and then tomorrow- yeah. I'm afraid, I dont want to be here, but I guess it must be done.
Please Donate and Share my Story. Funds will be handled by my partner to help me get my life back. I hope that can happen.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/recovery-for-beebz
https://ko-fi.com/nyvivianv
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Gofundme made. I'm Going to be Hospitalized.
Posted 3 years agohttps://www.gofundme.com/f/recovery-for-beebz
Cost breakdown inside, want to foster my cat, store my things and refund clients, manage the bills while im away too. Shares will help.
I was supposed to share this on Friday, but the shame, self loathing and emptiness keeps swallowing me up. I'm like, seriously running out of hope and thoughts of suicide keeps crossing my mind.
My foodstamps were cancelled on top of everything else like last week and I was being told I would be sent a new form to fill out, which never came and they refused to intake me online like they did last time..so- I dont know. People keep telling me I'm paranoid but sometimes I feel like my time is up.
Cost breakdown inside, want to foster my cat, store my things and refund clients, manage the bills while im away too. Shares will help.
I was supposed to share this on Friday, but the shame, self loathing and emptiness keeps swallowing me up. I'm like, seriously running out of hope and thoughts of suicide keeps crossing my mind.
My foodstamps were cancelled on top of everything else like last week and I was being told I would be sent a new form to fill out, which never came and they refused to intake me online like they did last time..so- I dont know. People keep telling me I'm paranoid but sometimes I feel like my time is up.
The Story Thus Far (Past Year Summary)
Posted 3 years agoAs you guys know, I've been eating shit when it comes to how I've been treated medically and socially the the people near me in meatspace for years, but this all kind of took a big spike starting last year.
I really hate starting shit out like "oh I'm a black fat disabled girl bluh bluh bluh" because the last thing I want is for people to feel pity for me based on identity or things I can't change at all or because of other factors. Has a lot of the bad shit I've been through been a result of these things? Maybe? It could also just be the poverty, the circumstances of being medically overlooked growing up kind of katamari-ing into itself. I dont really know- But the point is nobody can tell me that I havent been trying my fucking hardest to overcome all the stuff life has thrown my way.
But also - theres only so much I can do on my own.
I moved to Philly to be near my girlfriend and her fiance (now husband *polylife*) back in August 2021. Everything was fine, if not a bit chaotic, I had money left over unemployment I was getting and *had to keep spending* in order to keep my food stamps and medicaid, not to mention because of my SSI case.
If you've known me on Discord during 2020, you'll know I pretty much funneled maybe a quarter of that money into philanthropy, AFTER securing my rent, bills, debts, and refunding customers who had been waiting on me from the 2019 deep depression I had suffered.
As I told a client recently: "It will be a great pleasure to all involved when I can get back on my feet and do the work I owe... unlike many other artists in my position, I really do not intend on taking more on and running. Maybe its to my detriment but i have too much pride and respect for my clients to do that"
I take a long time because of the absolute **shitfuck** of a situation I've been in since pretty much 2015. *7 years* of things I wouldn't have had to go through if my DNA Donors weren't monstrously evil, but more on that later.
So after I settled in in Philly, I was doing the typical move things you do. Ignore the packed boxes, unpack computer first, try to get used to the weirdness, and of course, change address and most importantly! Get connected to doctors.
Now I'm on Medicaid, and have been for maybe a year? Year and a half? Anyway I find a clinic close by and they really take their sweet time with intake and have a 2 physical appearance process.
Christ, even as I type this I'm starting to disassociate a bit from everything thats happened since then but. I'm going to try.
So- I finally see the psychiatrist and. Because the previous psychiatrist had diagnosed me with bipolar disorder (which was wrong, but I didnt know at the time) this psychiatrist said it wasnt this clincis "policy to give stimulants". Despite the fact I had been on Adderall with the previous psychiatrist for 2 years and have been on it many times even before since then.
So anyway, they give me this- drug that doesnt have a generic form yet (always a good sign... /sarcasm. I didnt react well to Vyvanse either but lets move on). And so- they switched me off Adderall cold turkey. I uh. Just- didnt have anything left.
Around this time I also had this throat thing. Tonsilitis? For about two weeks in the end of september, and finally I couldnt take it anymore, went to an urgent care who called the Emergency Room right away, where I stayed overnight. From there I was given antibiotics and while I was taking the antibiotics I started taking this medicine they gave me for the "bipolar"
And I didnt realize it right away but- it gave me horrible, terrible burning hives. I had *never* had an allergy to a medication before, so I didnt make the connection it would have been that until later, and even after I stopped taking it the hives were still dissipating for 2 weeks after and I had wounds on my legs that didnt heal until *last month*
They didnt care or reach out so I cut my losses and tried to contact another clinic.
On Nov 1st 2021, my phone sim card suddenly stopped working. Spent like a month with boost mobile support asking for a new sim card to be shipped and reminding them. when it finally came, it still didnt work.
Dec 21st 2021 Bought a cheap crap phone from Walmart just so I could live my life again, had to change the phone number I had for maybe 10 years because boost requires you to have a "user id" which requires you to go to a physical location, which I couldnt do. So fuck them.
Money was running dry, and didnt know how to pay rent. Applied for philly rent assist.
Man this gets very tough now. so much happens at once.
Philly Rent Assist denies me in march and I spend a month in emails back and forth until finally their own incompetency allowed me to file again on the same form for more money and they finally realized I guess how stubborn I was and finally approved it "contigent on funding" So they owe me like, A little over $2,000 now.
Meanwhile, next clinic I chose is no better. They kept flaking on phone calls because of some weird interaction with the Phone I got in December claiming number no longer in service, but people can still call me and vice versa so- maybe it was office exclusive?
god this. this is getting harder.
From first going to the clinic I think December 17th 2021 ish or something- I didnt see a psychiatrist and get my Adderall available to me until **MARCH 2022** could maybe have been April too but- man I dont wanna look at the discord logs and find out, can you blame me? one of those 2 months.
Thought it was a victory. Also through all this I was basically just, asking for rent assistance from a local place and by the time they came through it was- yeah, just the time that had passed. I hate. everything.
Also, throughout all this time one of the housemates was being a passive agressive - aggressive fuck nut with no regards to anyone around him. Like look. I'm low maitenance. I dont even come out of my room except to use the bathroom because I subsist off a kettle, rice cooker and air fryer. I couldnt care less about dishes. But when I feel the vibrations of music blasting in the main living area in my floor, their guests vomit in the sink and I see it with no warning (when I have struggled with Bulimia in the past SO YEAH--- NOT TO MENTION JUST NASTY ANYWAY??) all sorts of horrible things.
And I told the landlord every time they were crossing the line, which I think I'm pretty patient. And every time, a rebuttal was something about my ESA cat and his litter. (Which- makes no sense because like, It's not the litter box, this area is the type of neighborhood where the "dumpster" is just the edge of the building on the sidewalk dont blame me. )
So also the maintenance of the shower was fucky, there was no hot water for a month, i told the landlord repeatedly. I was feeling super gross one day and was going to go out so I went downstairs to have a hot shower-
im not even looking at the screen right now because basically what happened was just. another addition to the trauma catalogue. Yeah. Called the police, they left doing nothing, and when I left my room for .5 seconds to take out some garbage while waiting for my gf to pick me up he said
"nice try"
then when I called my landlord and told him. stayed at my gf house that night so i could be safe.
Supposedly he texted her that morning about how they were complaining about my cat meowing.
seriously?
um- its getting really hard but im almost done, jeez.
Uh- so psychiatrists kept canceling appointments but represcribing adderall, up until they wanted an inperson appointment. and um. I was feeling okay that day.
except for the fact the week before, I had to deal with a fire alarm end of life in my room for.
37 hours.
and started having seizures at the 3o hour mark? Um. Yeha. And was- confused and, scared and didnt know who i am. I told the landlord like- 2 hours into realizing the fire alarm was going off that it was happening but i guess thats a given.
Since then- emotional trauma, neglect and extreme distress had been setting off petit mal seizures.
Um. When I went to the clinic in person? I was doing fine I thought. Looking forward to things and then.
They cancelled again. While I was there and um. I had spent $20 to get their already for the uber. The prospect of another $20 to get back. For a day of no progress- with no care. no apologies. no. empathy. It kind of. broke me? a bit? maybe.
So, I had enough in me to- ask if they could compensate me somehow because- thats not fair. thats not right. Thats not my fault and - it was consistent and they knew my situation.
While I was waiting in the room um.
I had a seizure.
In public.
I still am- feeling weird thinking about it. Just. My body went limp and. god I dont wanna go into detail I just- I went to the emergency room in an ambulance and they did tests and referrals um, none of which...haha, followed up of course. at all. (i did have a new phone by then so...)
Jeez, keep it together. Fuck. Okay so um. Yeah, literally had a seizure in the clinic from their neglect, and- ha. I called Friday about my adderall prescription and the person was like "Oh you were scheduled to come in Tuesday"
What. You mean the day I passed out on location with dozens of witnesses?
Oh god god its hard to go on like this but- basically yeah just, another month of medication bs something about the adderall was in shortage! wow okay cool, um. and saying they'll call never doing it. I was making complaints and reporting and none of it mattered! And finally i saw a psychiatrist again and they were so mean and snappy on the phone call and after i explained EVERYTHING they were like.
"Oh, i see you have bipolar on your chart. I'm not comfortable giving someone adderall."
Go to hell.
This was someone of the same clinic by the way, that had prescribed me the adderall, that confirmed yeah i dont have bipolar. they didnt bother to put it on the chart, didnt bother to do anything and i just.
Yeah, so thats where we leave off now.
This was hard.
I never wanted it to be this way. I never asked to be abused by my mother, father and stepfather. I never wanted to have to willingly become homeless. I never wanted to move like, 7 times. I never wanted to give my mom another chance. I never asked for my knee to be dislocated by her or- or...
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
I'm not strong- but I'm not weak I'm just...
I'm Beebz.
Thank you for your support. To avoid anyone being sad I want to also say despite my- despondence, I want to say that I am not at risk for suicide. I just- i love too many people, I have too much potential and help to give to want to do that. I want the pain to stop too.
I just want- I just want hope again.
I really hate starting shit out like "oh I'm a black fat disabled girl bluh bluh bluh" because the last thing I want is for people to feel pity for me based on identity or things I can't change at all or because of other factors. Has a lot of the bad shit I've been through been a result of these things? Maybe? It could also just be the poverty, the circumstances of being medically overlooked growing up kind of katamari-ing into itself. I dont really know- But the point is nobody can tell me that I havent been trying my fucking hardest to overcome all the stuff life has thrown my way.
But also - theres only so much I can do on my own.
I moved to Philly to be near my girlfriend and her fiance (now husband *polylife*) back in August 2021. Everything was fine, if not a bit chaotic, I had money left over unemployment I was getting and *had to keep spending* in order to keep my food stamps and medicaid, not to mention because of my SSI case.
If you've known me on Discord during 2020, you'll know I pretty much funneled maybe a quarter of that money into philanthropy, AFTER securing my rent, bills, debts, and refunding customers who had been waiting on me from the 2019 deep depression I had suffered.
As I told a client recently: "It will be a great pleasure to all involved when I can get back on my feet and do the work I owe... unlike many other artists in my position, I really do not intend on taking more on and running. Maybe its to my detriment but i have too much pride and respect for my clients to do that"
I take a long time because of the absolute **shitfuck** of a situation I've been in since pretty much 2015. *7 years* of things I wouldn't have had to go through if my DNA Donors weren't monstrously evil, but more on that later.
So after I settled in in Philly, I was doing the typical move things you do. Ignore the packed boxes, unpack computer first, try to get used to the weirdness, and of course, change address and most importantly! Get connected to doctors.
Now I'm on Medicaid, and have been for maybe a year? Year and a half? Anyway I find a clinic close by and they really take their sweet time with intake and have a 2 physical appearance process.
Christ, even as I type this I'm starting to disassociate a bit from everything thats happened since then but. I'm going to try.
So- I finally see the psychiatrist and. Because the previous psychiatrist had diagnosed me with bipolar disorder (which was wrong, but I didnt know at the time) this psychiatrist said it wasnt this clincis "policy to give stimulants". Despite the fact I had been on Adderall with the previous psychiatrist for 2 years and have been on it many times even before since then.
So anyway, they give me this- drug that doesnt have a generic form yet (always a good sign... /sarcasm. I didnt react well to Vyvanse either but lets move on). And so- they switched me off Adderall cold turkey. I uh. Just- didnt have anything left.
Around this time I also had this throat thing. Tonsilitis? For about two weeks in the end of september, and finally I couldnt take it anymore, went to an urgent care who called the Emergency Room right away, where I stayed overnight. From there I was given antibiotics and while I was taking the antibiotics I started taking this medicine they gave me for the "bipolar"
And I didnt realize it right away but- it gave me horrible, terrible burning hives. I had *never* had an allergy to a medication before, so I didnt make the connection it would have been that until later, and even after I stopped taking it the hives were still dissipating for 2 weeks after and I had wounds on my legs that didnt heal until *last month*
They didnt care or reach out so I cut my losses and tried to contact another clinic.
On Nov 1st 2021, my phone sim card suddenly stopped working. Spent like a month with boost mobile support asking for a new sim card to be shipped and reminding them. when it finally came, it still didnt work.
Dec 21st 2021 Bought a cheap crap phone from Walmart just so I could live my life again, had to change the phone number I had for maybe 10 years because boost requires you to have a "user id" which requires you to go to a physical location, which I couldnt do. So fuck them.
Money was running dry, and didnt know how to pay rent. Applied for philly rent assist.
Man this gets very tough now. so much happens at once.
Philly Rent Assist denies me in march and I spend a month in emails back and forth until finally their own incompetency allowed me to file again on the same form for more money and they finally realized I guess how stubborn I was and finally approved it "contigent on funding" So they owe me like, A little over $2,000 now.
Meanwhile, next clinic I chose is no better. They kept flaking on phone calls because of some weird interaction with the Phone I got in December claiming number no longer in service, but people can still call me and vice versa so- maybe it was office exclusive?
god this. this is getting harder.
From first going to the clinic I think December 17th 2021 ish or something- I didnt see a psychiatrist and get my Adderall available to me until **MARCH 2022** could maybe have been April too but- man I dont wanna look at the discord logs and find out, can you blame me? one of those 2 months.
Thought it was a victory. Also through all this I was basically just, asking for rent assistance from a local place and by the time they came through it was- yeah, just the time that had passed. I hate. everything.
Also, throughout all this time one of the housemates was being a passive agressive - aggressive fuck nut with no regards to anyone around him. Like look. I'm low maitenance. I dont even come out of my room except to use the bathroom because I subsist off a kettle, rice cooker and air fryer. I couldnt care less about dishes. But when I feel the vibrations of music blasting in the main living area in my floor, their guests vomit in the sink and I see it with no warning (when I have struggled with Bulimia in the past SO YEAH--- NOT TO MENTION JUST NASTY ANYWAY??) all sorts of horrible things.
And I told the landlord every time they were crossing the line, which I think I'm pretty patient. And every time, a rebuttal was something about my ESA cat and his litter. (Which- makes no sense because like, It's not the litter box, this area is the type of neighborhood where the "dumpster" is just the edge of the building on the sidewalk dont blame me. )
So also the maintenance of the shower was fucky, there was no hot water for a month, i told the landlord repeatedly. I was feeling super gross one day and was going to go out so I went downstairs to have a hot shower-
im not even looking at the screen right now because basically what happened was just. another addition to the trauma catalogue. Yeah. Called the police, they left doing nothing, and when I left my room for .5 seconds to take out some garbage while waiting for my gf to pick me up he said
"nice try"
then when I called my landlord and told him. stayed at my gf house that night so i could be safe.
Supposedly he texted her that morning about how they were complaining about my cat meowing.
seriously?
um- its getting really hard but im almost done, jeez.
Uh- so psychiatrists kept canceling appointments but represcribing adderall, up until they wanted an inperson appointment. and um. I was feeling okay that day.
except for the fact the week before, I had to deal with a fire alarm end of life in my room for.
37 hours.
and started having seizures at the 3o hour mark? Um. Yeha. And was- confused and, scared and didnt know who i am. I told the landlord like- 2 hours into realizing the fire alarm was going off that it was happening but i guess thats a given.
Since then- emotional trauma, neglect and extreme distress had been setting off petit mal seizures.
Um. When I went to the clinic in person? I was doing fine I thought. Looking forward to things and then.
They cancelled again. While I was there and um. I had spent $20 to get their already for the uber. The prospect of another $20 to get back. For a day of no progress- with no care. no apologies. no. empathy. It kind of. broke me? a bit? maybe.
So, I had enough in me to- ask if they could compensate me somehow because- thats not fair. thats not right. Thats not my fault and - it was consistent and they knew my situation.
While I was waiting in the room um.
I had a seizure.
In public.
I still am- feeling weird thinking about it. Just. My body went limp and. god I dont wanna go into detail I just- I went to the emergency room in an ambulance and they did tests and referrals um, none of which...haha, followed up of course. at all. (i did have a new phone by then so...)
Jeez, keep it together. Fuck. Okay so um. Yeah, literally had a seizure in the clinic from their neglect, and- ha. I called Friday about my adderall prescription and the person was like "Oh you were scheduled to come in Tuesday"
What. You mean the day I passed out on location with dozens of witnesses?
Oh god god its hard to go on like this but- basically yeah just, another month of medication bs something about the adderall was in shortage! wow okay cool, um. and saying they'll call never doing it. I was making complaints and reporting and none of it mattered! And finally i saw a psychiatrist again and they were so mean and snappy on the phone call and after i explained EVERYTHING they were like.
"Oh, i see you have bipolar on your chart. I'm not comfortable giving someone adderall."
Go to hell.
This was someone of the same clinic by the way, that had prescribed me the adderall, that confirmed yeah i dont have bipolar. they didnt bother to put it on the chart, didnt bother to do anything and i just.
Yeah, so thats where we leave off now.
This was hard.
I never wanted it to be this way. I never asked to be abused by my mother, father and stepfather. I never wanted to have to willingly become homeless. I never wanted to move like, 7 times. I never wanted to give my mom another chance. I never asked for my knee to be dislocated by her or- or...
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
I'm not strong- but I'm not weak I'm just...
I'm Beebz.
Thank you for your support. To avoid anyone being sad I want to also say despite my- despondence, I want to say that I am not at risk for suicide. I just- i love too many people, I have too much potential and help to give to want to do that. I want the pain to stop too.
I just want- I just want hope again.
Information Incoming Soon.
Posted 3 years agoA lot of things have been going on since October 2021 in particular. They're kind of starting to taper out now, but I still have a lot to catch up on and explain.
Some of the more astute of you may have noticed my website and therefore commission forms went offline as of 4/04 (sounds comical but thats seriously when they happened to run out based on when I canceled apparently.
Honestly, so much has been going on, both positive and negative, I kind of just want to put them all in different journals nothing gets overshadowed if that makes sense? It's a lot.
I guess the best I can say is I'm not Dead or plan to Consciously abandon this platform anytime soon.
So I guess maybe I'll grace you guys with a quick rundown??
COMMISSIONS RELATED
1. Current commissions queue is being tackled.
2. Commissions (are planned) to be handled via my Discord Server going forward. This SHOULDNT be exclusively the case but if it ends up so I will do my best to make it so that clients DO NOT have to join my server. *sounds wild but man bots are cool huh?*
3. Commissions TOS is going to be rewritten (Mostly to forbid NFT usage and commercialization without licensing agreement)
MY HEALTH
1. I went 6 months without my medication due to medical neglect and incompotence
2. I've been back on meds for almost a month now.
3. My bipolar disorder was a misdiagnosis. (and I'm pretty sure I know what it was that they mistook for bipolar...more later)
LIFE IN GENERAL
1. I moved to within 30 min driving distance of my girlfriend last August.
2. I adopted an ESA named Savvy
3. My girlfriend and my metamor got married in December (yay poly!)
SOCIAL PRESENCE
1. I deleted my Twitters, Instagram, Pillowfort, Gumroad, Furry Network, basically everything that's supposed to showcase art that isnt FurAffinity, Inkbunny, AO3, Fanfiction.net and Deviantart. Patreon and Subscribestar are still up. (Patreon may be deleted by May)
2. I may be abandoning the nyvivianv alias as well as the pretense of separating myself into SFW and NSFW. I'm all or nothing, baybee.
3. I couldnt think of a 3rd thing but I wanted this to fit the pattern.
That's the TL;DR of it all honestly. Kinda surprised I was able to summarize it.
Anyway goodluck out there guys.
Some of the more astute of you may have noticed my website and therefore commission forms went offline as of 4/04 (sounds comical but thats seriously when they happened to run out based on when I canceled apparently.
Honestly, so much has been going on, both positive and negative, I kind of just want to put them all in different journals nothing gets overshadowed if that makes sense? It's a lot.
I guess the best I can say is I'm not Dead or plan to Consciously abandon this platform anytime soon.
So I guess maybe I'll grace you guys with a quick rundown??
COMMISSIONS RELATED
1. Current commissions queue is being tackled.
2. Commissions (are planned) to be handled via my Discord Server going forward. This SHOULDNT be exclusively the case but if it ends up so I will do my best to make it so that clients DO NOT have to join my server. *sounds wild but man bots are cool huh?*
3. Commissions TOS is going to be rewritten (Mostly to forbid NFT usage and commercialization without licensing agreement)
MY HEALTH
1. I went 6 months without my medication due to medical neglect and incompotence
2. I've been back on meds for almost a month now.
3. My bipolar disorder was a misdiagnosis. (and I'm pretty sure I know what it was that they mistook for bipolar...more later)
LIFE IN GENERAL
1. I moved to within 30 min driving distance of my girlfriend last August.
2. I adopted an ESA named Savvy
3. My girlfriend and my metamor got married in December (yay poly!)
SOCIAL PRESENCE
1. I deleted my Twitters, Instagram, Pillowfort, Gumroad, Furry Network, basically everything that's supposed to showcase art that isnt FurAffinity, Inkbunny, AO3, Fanfiction.net and Deviantart. Patreon and Subscribestar are still up. (Patreon may be deleted by May)
2. I may be abandoning the nyvivianv alias as well as the pretense of separating myself into SFW and NSFW. I'm all or nothing, baybee.
3. I couldnt think of a 3rd thing but I wanted this to fit the pattern.
That's the TL;DR of it all honestly. Kinda surprised I was able to summarize it.
Anyway goodluck out there guys.
3d Interest?
Posted 4 years agoI've been dabbling in blender and been getting really good at it and Unity- would anyone be interested in getting their characters made sometime in the future? If so what kind of features would you be looking for.
I've been working on my own custom base mesh and modeling clothes as well.
Also if you're a 3d artist who does commissions any advice on pricing would be great too.
I've been working on my own custom base mesh and modeling clothes as well.
Also if you're a 3d artist who does commissions any advice on pricing would be great too.
I'm 26th!
Posted 4 years agoNovember 1st is my birthday! Forgot to put the Journal until this late EST sorry lmao.
Art Commissions Open!
Posted 4 years agoSee the form below for pricing and information
https://nyvivianv.art/illustration-commissions/
Doing nsfw, sfw kink, fetish. If you're not sure if I'd take a commission please feel free to comment with your idea!
https://nyvivianv.art/illustration-commissions/
Doing nsfw, sfw kink, fetish. If you're not sure if I'd take a commission please feel free to comment with your idea!
I hit Affiliate on Twitch!
Posted 4 years agoThank you so much I am very very happy.
