I've been really slacking on art the past few months. Sorry about that.

I've just been struggling with meds, being tired all the time, health issues, mental health issues. etc.

plus I just started school. And I'm sick. So that's not too fun.

I pretty much only have requests to do right now, and I just have no motivation or energy. I'm sorry.

Hopefully school will get me drawing more. Maybe I'll have something to post. But I'm guessing it'll all be work that won't really be of interest here. We'll see.

I just bought one and it's being delivered tomorrow. I just need friends to play with. :3

I'm getting a lot of general spammers and haters showing up in the group, and I have no idea where they'd be coming from. It's weird, because they're obviously furry, posting furry memes/stickers and stuff.

O.o Any idea how I can stop this?

I just made it invite only/private. So hopefully that stops a lot of the shenanigans.

It was so intense!! But it was really hot.

The hardest part is that now I can't use my dick for at least 4 weeks while it heals up ;A; that's gonna be torture!! Especially since the piercing is so damn sexy.

Hit me up if you wanna see them. *blush* I love showing off.

https://patreon.com/yewcrow

It's where I will post links for videos on witchcraft, lessons, 1-on-1s, healings, tarot card reading, sketches, commissions, and more.

Please feel free to join and spread it to anyone who might be interested in joining <3

Thankies~

Unfortunately, I've been getting a lot of haters/spammers, so it's an invite only group now. Please feel free to send me a message if you want to join.

I made the mistake of spending too much this month :T

So I'm taking commissions at about half my normal price. Anything helps though, so lemme know if you need it to be cheaper.

Just take a look at my gallery to get an idea of what I do. I'm open to any ideas. Preferably no backgrounds, thanks.

https://5calls.org/

You can help, you can make a difference, it may seem small, but every person counts. Make your voice heard, literally.

Man.... that was so scary, stressful, and sad. It was tragic. There's not a whole lot to say, since I don't really want to trauma dump. But yeah... It was hard as fuck. I'm still recovering, and I'm still super sad.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11048918

Check out that journal to enter the free raffle!

Would really appreciate more entries. ♥

I recently hit 50 watchers, so I want to give something back to you all. <3

I'll be doing a free full scene for each of the winners. There will be only 2 winners.

Rules:
- Must be following me. If you follow and then unfollow you'll be blacklisted from future raffles.

- Post which number you are in the replies, along with a reference of what you'd like me to draw. If you absolutely don't have a reference, I can still work with you, I'd just highly prefer one.

-Raffle will be running until Friday the 17th, about 6PM EST. After that, I will use a random number generator to pick 2 winners.

Best of luck to everyone who joins. <3 Thanks for the support and watching!

Feel free to spread the word, if you'd like.

My dog's food is $131 for a 27.5lb bag. He's an older dog, about 12 years old, black lab/GSD, and has kidney problems, so he needs a special diet.

I could use some help paying for it, so if you could check out my YCHs or commissions, I'd really appreciate it.

Thank you so much. ♥

YCHs:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59446552/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59436512/

Commission info:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59414332

So, in short, my dog needs to go to the vet, and my car is giving me issues. The estimate is pretty high and I can't take care of it by myself.

Thanks to  KirinAsh and  TheImperialOwl I'm nearly there with the vet fees, but I've still got a really high car fee.

Any help would be greatly appreciated!

Check out my current YCH: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59391678/
and my basic commish info here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59414332

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59414332
↑ List of prices and examples
↓ Terms of Service
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11027490/

Please send a note if interested.

If confused about pricing, I will go over it with you. :) Just send me your basic ideas and I'll be happy to tell you how much it would cost.

Terms of Service:
- Do not sell art I create
- If reposting, put a link to my page
- Payments through Paypal (unless we discuss an absolute need for other services)
- Characters belong to their owners, but artwork belongs to YewCrow
- No Refunds unless I voluntarily cancel your order
- Do not edit my work, tracing, recoloring or editing out signature/watermarks
- At least half the estimated cost is due before I start working. The rest is due upon completion of the work.
- I reserve the right to take as long as I need for work to be completed. Though I will give estimates on timeframes and give updates as I work.
- I reserve the right to refuse an order, and will refund you if I refuse to do the work.
- I reserve the right to blacklist anyone who refuses to pay, or violates my terms of service.
- Do not resell adopts for more than you bought them for. Reselling adopts in general is discouraged, but not terms for blacklisting.
- A piece that costs more than $100 can have an arranged and agreed upon payment plan.
- Saving the artwork is your own priority, as I may or may not post the artwork in my gallery, and may or may not have it saved to my computer.

Will draw:
anthros, humans, monsters, feral
adults: SFW or NSFW
OCs, Fanart (though I will often not draw NSFW fanart because the source material is either minors or implied minors)
Semi-realistic or semi-toony (refer to my gallery)

Will NOT draw:
rape
babyfurs (I'm just not good at that style)
scat, hard gore, incest, bestiality/zoophilia,
minors in sexual situations (even suggestive),
Hate Art(Nazis, AntiFurs, gun wounds, etc.),
Illegal Activities
vore, gas/farting, inflation, balloonification, popping,
snuff,

Will Attempt:
Sci-fi, Mechs, Robots, Weaponry/Guns, Fetish art (at my own discretion), landscapes and cityscapes

Please go check out  Akanethegoat

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/akanethegoat/

They just made https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59203128/
for me, and it's amazing!!

thank you again!!

I feel like my art is really improving lately. I'm really enjoying my latest pieces, and I feel like my style is coming together.

However, the views just aren't improving. I don't know if it's a lack of skill, or lack of interest, or if there's something else going on.

I'm open to constructive critique. If anyone has any. I've asked around, and I haven't really got any yet. Just compliments, which is really nice to hear too! But I'm dying to get even better.

I just don't know why I'm not getting any views. On twitter I'm getting like 6 views on my pieces, and it totally confuses me. On FB/Instagram (which I kinda hate using, since I have to censor myself, and stuff get cropped), I'm only getting a few views and maybe like 1 or 2 likes from family only, if I'm lucky. I can't tell how many views I'm getting on Bluesky, so that's a little weird. Plus they keep marking all my stuff, like ALL my stuff, as "sexually explicit content," which bewilders me.

Anyway...

Advice? Comments? Critique?

It's my 40th. It's hard to believe. Time flies. Please, everyone, use your time to engage in things you love, and make the most of your time here on Earth. Don't let the small stuff get to you; and remember, it's almost all small stuff.

I love you. Even if we don't talk much, know that I still care about you. I'm just an awkward fuck, and don't know how to initiate conversation most of the time. Plus I've been told that I'm boring, so, that's something I worry about as well. I also know that I'm a massive weirdo, and a lot of what I like is pretty much stuff only I like, and others find annoying, stupid, a waste of time, or otherwise bad. Soooo, I tend to keep to myself a lot of the time, and not share what I'm doing or interested in. A lot of the time I share, I actually get negative feedback, so I pretty much gave up on it.

Anyway... I love all my friends. I hope you're all doing well. Hope you had a good Thanksgiving, and have a good weekend.

Memento Mori. Change is the only constant in life.

Does anyone have any advice on a cheap, or preferably free, DAW?

I've tried just about everything I can think to do in order to get FL studio to work again, but nothing is working. It just pops up the splash icon (the little fruity pepper lookin' thing), then closes immediately before even opening the program proper.

Man, it just bums me out. I liked that program and was learning more and more about it.

but yeah, anyone use anything to make musics?

Thanks.

I've been out of one of my antidepressants for a few days and I'm starting to feel like crap. brain zaps, tired all the time, a little "foggy" feeling, and generally warm and gross.

I'll be okay. I'm just... yeah. I'll probably be a little out of it for a while until I can get them back, and they start kicking in again.

So, I'm not trying to ignore anyone. I'm probably just not going to be talking a whole lot until I can get things sorted out.

It's strange. At the same time, it feels like FA is more popular than ever, but also like everyone has left. A lot of people left for twitter, but a lot of people just stopped posting, no notices, no forwarding address, nothing.

I dunno... I'll be honest, sometimes FA doesn't really make me feel like engaging with the community, or even bothering to upload anything. But I haven't found anything better. I actually feel like twitter is a lot worse, and I don't get why people like it so much. I feel like all the interesting furry sites that have been up in the past 20 years have mostly all disappeared by now. It's frustrating to me that they'd even get rid of the FA forums, too. Discord is not a replacement for actual forums, rofl. To think it'll work, especially with that many people, is just insane. I don't even see the point.

And people get upset about changes to the FA rules, too. I don't even read them at this point. I know that nothing is really going to change, as far as what people upload. It just depends on if someone gets triggered by something and reports it.

I guess I just wish I had all my old furry friends again, lol. I miss a lot of people, and I don't know how to reach them anymore.

And that there was a place where it was easier to actually talk about things, make friends, connect and discuss, etc.

Sorry, I might be in a little bit of a bad mood for a little bit. Just kinda feeling crappy about this, and some other stuff that's been going on lately.

It's okay though.

I'm still kind of in shock about it. It's true that it wasn't really for me... but I still can't believe I got kicked out of it.

I'm kinda just like... "what now?" :/ *sigh*
What do I do now?

gdi, I just want SSI to come through. please... please... ;A; for the love of Satan, just let it get approved for me. I need this. I need SOMETHING to go right for me.

Everything just feels broken for me. Art feels broken... studying keeps hitting walls... even gaming feels like I can't concentrate or get into it.

I feel alone, and small, and just like nothing will ever work for me.

Not gonna lie; this is so triggering for me. :T

I've been frustrated by this game engine several times already, so why am I giving it one more shot?

Well... because I have game ideas in my head, and I'm in love with them. They've been brewing in my head for years, now. Different concepts, stories, characters, mechanics, etc., have been added to the cauldron. I've got a few cauldrons going at this point. They just need potion bottles, or some kind of container to put it more plainly.

Even though I've been burnt by Unity in the past, it's what I have the most experience with. Other people have got it to work. Other people have even produced and published major hit games with it.

I'm not looking to make a major hit. Not yet, anyway... I just want a way to get my ideas into the world, and to be able to share them in a way that's interactive and hopefully as rewarding for players as it is for me to create it.

;A; I just hope I'm not setting myself up for failure again. But we'll see... I probably just need to be more stubborn and push through when I get errors, and not give up. I'm not very confident... but I still have hope. I don't want these dreams to die. They haven't even been given much of a chance yet.

Plus, I want to prove myself. Prove that I'm not a waste of time, space, etc. Prove that my efforts WILL go somewhere, dammit! Proving it to myself, and to people from my past that have been less than supportive and encouraging. >:c I'm not going to let them win. Especially when they've followed their dreams, had support, money, love and friendship, admiration, people who like their company, even though they can be a major jerk too. I won't lose to him... I can't. Maybe, once I finish a project or two, I can finally stop comparing myself, and stop letting what they've said to me in the past haunt me. I still think of all the hurtful things they've done, said, pretty much daily. I'm my own person, and I'm not content to let someone else's opinions of me hold me back anymore!!!!! RAWR! (Yes, I have some anger around this)

*sigh* I just hope SSI gets back to me soon, so I can dedicate even more time towards Unity/Programming as well as art and music.

Not gonna lie, I wish I knew some buddies who also used Unity so we could support each other. That would be really cool. :D

I also wish I knew people who'd be willing to help me out with projects, and who I could help out with their projects in return. I could really use help with learning and creating music. My musical skill is very limited... but I'm hopeful that I can eventually make awesome stuff. I just need a little bit of coaching, I think. And I'd love to contribute art and music to other peoples' projects, too. I'd like that a lot.

Welp, I'd better get back to learning. :P So far so good, at least.

But yeah, if anyone wants to collab on any projects, just let me know. I'm always happy to contribute if I can.

I'm so ****ing tired of spending hours following tutorials, only for the projects to fail and break, even though I'm typing things verbatim. I go on stackoverflow, and people are just like, "idk man. try this." and then it ends up giving me even more errors.

I'm just at the point where I feel like I'm wasting my life on this bullshit, and I'll never get it, and never do anything with it.

I'm tired of holding out hope that I'll make money some day. I'm tired of hoping that I can make things that bring people happiness, or that they'll get use out of. I'm tired of wishing that I could change the world for the better in some small way.

I'm frustrated. And things don't seem to change, regardless how much time and effort I put in.

So... I quit.

I'll just keep being crappy at art. At least it's something that won't break. Sure, I'll probably never get to a point where I'm actually able to support myself with it.... -_- but, I guess I can at least try to get better. :/ I still wish I could make an impact on the world... I wish I could make someone happy. I wish I could make myself happy.

I'm not special. I have no skills or talents. I can't even tolerate basic jobs without failing, freaking out, panicking, crying, and fucking everything up. I can't tolerate being yelled at, sexually harassed, or any other environment that drives me to self-medicate on a daily basis just to get through it. I'd rather be jobless than that. And yet my psychiatrist says I don't need anxiety medication. rofl lololol.. It's not like I'm asking for xanax. I don't want xanax, I don't even like it. I just want something that will make me okay. that's it. I just want to be okay. :/

Sorry.