Sometimes I leave my mask at home

Sometimes I feel as if thats its place

Maybe theres a point thats just not getting through

Cant see the way through my scar tissue

Maybe the mask is really me

Just a truth encased in a hard shell of plastic happiness

Cant even believe it.

I'MNA GET SO SHWASTED

Its around four. My day got better. Made me happy.

At the end of the day, its good to have people there for you.

7/14

So yesterday was boringish. Didnt do much. Went out to try and get to a hookah bar. Heres that story:

So Faith and I go out to meet up with Svetlana and this kid Hosie. We hang out for a minute before the Hosie suggests a hookah bar.

So he says he can get us in for free but Faith doesnt want to go so she just hung around untill 2:30(am).

What we did until 2:30 was hang out in the park, and then get kicked out by the police. The cop almost gave us a ticket, but then didnt because he was being nice. :D

So later we got pretty much ditched by Hosie. Lame.



7/15

Woke up and wrote my new song "Days Pass" from around 1:30 to like 5:00. Was a fun one to write.

Faith, Michelle, Luis, and Svetlana came by and hung out from around 6:20-7:00. We had a fun time.

After they left, me, my mom, and my brother all sat down for a family dinner. My brother is a bomb cook. :D

My poor sister is sick. Hope she feels better soon. :(

7/13:

So we got to Despicable me a little late, but it was still so gawt deeum delightful. :D

After the film we had to rush back to drop off Kaycee, then rush back to Faith's because her dad had to use the car.

After that, Faith was making stir fry and her brother told her to cut off her mohawk, which he never learns is never a good thing for him.

So after she was done lifting him by his neck and telling him to never ever EVER say it again, she finished up the food and we munched. It was yummerz. :3

We then had cigarettes on the way to my house, as Michelle was waiting out back. Yay Michelle!

So we get there and Michelle's boyfriend Luis was there. We waited for Danielle to get there so we could go upstairs and participate in activities (I plead the fifth).

Later on Hellen came with a friend I havent seen in a million years named Yael. Didnt really get to chill with Yaell, had to do a mountain of dishes. :(

After that the pizza Luis and Michelle ordered came, and we ate it with silent joy.

After we ate, we joined Hellen in my room and [SCENE MISSING].

So after that, I was hungry again and my sister came over and saved the day with munchies and her presence.

Shes here to stay for a bit (excitement!) while she sorts some things out. Personal family things. You understand.

So I ate a little more, then hung out in my room to play with my latest piece of tech my uncle is currently loaning to me before Faith got kicked out and I went to sleep.

http://www.soundonsound.com/sos/feb.....d18vs880.l.jpg

Its amazing.



7/14:

My sister woke me up because she wanted to know what type of cigarillos my mom smokes and get her a pack. Those things are narsty! XP

So I layed in bed for a lil before I decided to get up and play around with the v880 a little more. Got agitated because I cant set the punch in function right. Eh. I'll figure it out.

I took my adult gummy vitamin and had coffee, my sister came to smoke a cigarette with me while I dicked around on guitar.

I was playing around with it until I decided to come do this.

PLANS FOR TODAY:

-Clean cat's shit box

-Sweep floor in my room

-Go jam with Carolyn's brother James

Wish me luck!

So lets see...where did we leave off...

Wow. A LONG time ago.

Well, lets start with the end of 2009 to now.

So about the end of 2009. I got into acid. Then on new years, I though about all of the negative health affects and decided the pretty moving colors were just not worth it.

Broke up with my boyfriend a while ago now. He was nice, but I guess its just whatever.

This year is being slow. I turn 21 in 72 days. I CANT WAIT.

My grandfather caught pneumonia and had a stroke, but he seems like hes doing better.

Ummm...as for everything else, its okay.

Gonna go see dispicable me in a lil bit with Faith and KAYCEE.

I'll try to keep yall' updated on shit as of right now.

So lets talk about today.

I got up at like, 7:49 AM because I kept hitting snooze, then became tired of the alarm so I turned it off.

Not the best idea when you're running off of only five hours and you're used to five.

So I ran out, had nothing to eat, no coffee, just adrenaline and adult gummy vitamins (which are the greatest thing ever btw).

I got to work (I work at the movies in case you didnt know and wanted to) at about 8:55 and was scheduled for 9:15, so I just bummed around for a bit. I had some soda, which was good because I NEED CAFFEINE.

I was supposed to learn the "art" of selling tickets, but they fucking put me on the greeter stand. The greeter stand is where you take/tear tickets. It is the single easiest yet hardest job there. You see, I need stimulation. And guess what? The sound of the repeating game noises and advertisements on the flat screens in the lobby make my brain buzz.

So there are shitloads of rugrats in for the "one dollar kids movie" deal. You have no idea how hard it is to rip stacks of tickets at least two centimeters wide.

So its now after the mind-numbing dullness (that I had to stay in for an extra eternity), and I am eating soup and waiting to see the movie like I said. I'll tell ya how it was! :D

Wussup?

We haven't spoken in a while.

You should leave me a comment on this journal or a PM so we can reconnect.

Woo! It was a giant party, and I had a great time.

Cmon guys.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3988437

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3977154

Check out my new song "Stare".

So I completely redid it. Enjoy.

I feel like I'm going insane. I'm on the back of a train plummeting down into a dark recess, and this time nobody is there to hit the brakes.

Well, come now. You must have a song. PM me if you are interested.

Just saw it again and understood it this time around because I'm older. Its fucking amazing!!!

Got a few. The rest kinda stayed.

OMG! I'm gonna perform live. SOOOOON.

WTF!?!??!!

Situations!

Why?

Give me a verb and an adjective. Just comment this journal with one verb, and one adjective. PLZ. :D

I could if you want. The old one is boring? Never fear. I'll make you a song a few seconds long that you can hear when you shut down or start up your computer. OR...I could do other windows sounds. :D

CONTACT MEH.

And it makes me smile. :D

And if you are reading this baby I <3 you!

:D x2

Fuck that kid.

lol...

After all this time he sends me a fucking facebook friend request.

I dont even know where to start if we get into a conversation...he nearly destroyed me and I just have so fucking much to say to him...