Where am I and what have I been doing?

Torturing myself with hard to code ideas on Unreal Engine as well as sculpting on Blender to make more anatomically detailed and accurate anthro anatomy.
bleh...

I forgot that these videos existed back in 2018 and never had it approved on YouTube:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSyRfXQy3fs

In reference to this image:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27818605/

I know I've been inactive for a long period of time and lack of art contribution due to lack of self-confidence in my drawing ability to be anatomically accurate, I may consider posting some WIPs of unfinished sketches if y'all want a sneak-peek or not.

I am satisfied with my very smooth line art, I am also good with colors, and I have good a perspective when it comes to sceneries.
I have hard time drawing the anatomy of the human body and with that shading also contributes to that hardship. I think my lack of confidence and my depression contributed to this lack of care. I sometimes start a drawing, for the first day I am somewhat satisfied, but here's the problem, I always start something but never finish them in the end, and I think it's because I look at the drawing and see so many anatomical mistakes that I drop the sketch in the end.

Any suggestions to help or even tutorials?

It's awful and terrible.

Happy New Years!