>you can ignore the first paragraph, its not the intended focol point<
well.... fist block we did nothing but talk about 9/11...... in homeroom, we made a bunch of jokes about war and what we would do if we were like dictator of america XDDDD
what i would do if i had like full controll.... i would hard core improve education, fuck the no child left behind policey. if they arnt smart enough to pass, let them get held back as long as it takes. BUT, REGARDING WARFARE, I would pull our troops the hell out of where they are and make clear my 3 strikes policey. I will give each country 3 chances. lest say there were 3 terrorist attacks from..... lets just say france (i know its not even really possible, bust this is only for explination purposes). well, france will get around the clock carpet bombings for 14 hours (if they surrender), or longer.
its every country that could be involved (so if one person pays off another to do it, both countries will get bombed). so you cant bitch that we attacked you for no reason, or because we hate your religion or race or whatever. we were attacked, it was either your people or suspected to be your people.... your fucked. that would probobly deter terrorists.

uhm..... anyway.....
in gym class, we played billy ball (basically free-for-all dodge ball).... i was the first one out in the first round, and it was a fuckin nut shot!!! >O< I GOT PEGGED IN THE NUTS.... THE RIGHT ONE POPPED ;~;

biology..... 3rd block.... our teacher still acts like were mentally retarded........

then was lunch, where our lunch table is so racist! XDDD
it was really funny actually.... me, jeramy, and yasmine are in the same class (bio) together. me and yasmine were working on our homework, and she kept asking what things were. jeramy answered most of them, but when i answer, she yells "shut up you freakin ginger". me and asaad were like crying laughing. she was joking, but.... lol, she was the last person in the world that i would ever expect to hear that from XDDDDD
then, at the end of lunch, erin had colin by the ear and was pulling him towards the grounded trying to get him to say he was her bitch, and i said she was such a butch, and she punched me in the face for that >.<
its okay though... not going to lie, it felt pretty good (it wasnt the first time shes done it either, so its not much of a surprise)
4th was retard reading.... yeahhhhhhh...... nothing really to tell XDDD


yup... thats my day @3@
yup.... yup......
I WANNA GREEN SQUEEKY BONE DAMN IT >3< (like a doggy chew toy.... a bone shaped thing thats green... and i want it to squeek when i chew on it!!!!! )
thats all ^3^

okay... mentally and emotionally, im not really in a good place........ i am trying to figure out what is wrong exactly........ like.... emotions and thaughts, maybe predict which wrong turn that will be made next......

anyway...... yeah.....
see, music is something that is really close to my heart..... theres always music that just matches how i feel..... not always the words or the meaning, but sometimes it is just the sound..... sometimes it is words though....
anyway..... i want your thaughts..... the songs that I am feeling more than others are:
-carry me down, by demon hunter
-snuff, by slipknot
-ex lovers lover, by voltaire
-when your evil, by voltaire
-dead memories, by slipknot
-sweet insanity, by dog fashion disco
-darkest days, by dog fashion disco

..... i think that may be it for now.......
they arnt in any real order..... but.... what do you guys think these songs have in common with my mental/emotional state?
....im trying to figure out the meaning in here..... what does it mean.......

anyway... thank you for your time guys.... i know im not in the best condition mentally or emotionally...... and... i really appreciate all the people that are trying to help me threw it
thank you all, so much, really

......... well...... im losing my mind........ really bad.........
im destabilizing.......... my emotional flips are becoming more frequent and worse again.......
.......... the things that fly in and out of head when depression or pain flip on...... they........ theyre starting to really get to me...............
"haha, your worthless and you know it! no one wants you, your entire life has proven that a thousand times over!"
"worthless... worthless... worthless..... nothing.... i.... am nothing...... inside and out.... past, present, and future........."
...... "life is a prison you cant escape, and you know the way out. take it. take it. die now. its the only way out"


......... so... as you can see....... im not quite doing too well off.........
and, really.... nothing helps anymore...... i lack desire to do much of anything anymore........ i wish i could just curl up and die..........
you know what? no.... i wish to know i am dying when i am...... if i had a wish, i wish i would get hit by a car and bleed out in the street.
..... walking along, mind plagued with an endless bombardment of pain.... just walking along..... cross the street, barely paying enough mind to look.... the driver sees you and locks up their brakes doing their best not to hit me... they didnt have enough time and I get hit just hard enough to be fatally wounded, but not hard enough to kill me on the spot...... So now, I lay there, bleeding, in extraneous pain, knowing i am going to die...... i can just la there, feel the blood flow from my body.... think about my life, what has gone wrong, what i should have done.... what i should have held closer and what i should have pushed away....... i just get to lay there and think.... if my lungs arnt collapsed and my vocal cords still work, i want to thank the driver that hit me as they get out to see my now mangled and bloody body.... i want to thank them.... tears running down my face..... blood dripping from my lips (from internal bleeding)....... i want to lay their dying........ im not sure what my last words i want...... "thank you" or the classic "good bye cruel world".... maybe "fuck my life" would be a good one...... or just simple "good bye"........
that is how i want to die.... that is how....... i want to know i am dying and just reflect on life..........

im going out of my mind..... i know it all too well........ i know...... regardless...... i cant shake these thaughts and feelings..... i cant just brush them off and everything be better...... just..... not possible.... you know?
these things are..... they dont go away....... even when my happy mode flips on.... these thaughts are still in the back of my mind...... not even that far back.......


there was only one thing that made me actually stable...... i was this way prior to it..... worse even....... ive been reverting back............. my body isnt as used to it as it used to be...... hence the crying and unexpected emotional flips and such......... laughing when i shouldnt, crying when i should probably laugh...... etc.......
still..... the one thing that actually made me stable is better off this way..... even if im not... that is what is important.... so things will stay this way for a bit probobly....... as long as it stays better off and happy.... all is good..... as far as im concerned, that is what matters..... i dont care that im worthelss, i knew that.... i dont care im suicidal.... dont care i am emotionally and mentally unstable..... i dont care..... so long as he is happy.......



...............i just needed to vent out these emotions....... if you read this, then you didnt see the title..........
....that is all..............

go to superfresh..... everything is like low fat, reduced fat, lean, 2% fat, 85 or 90% lean....
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU GOD DAMN FUCKING HEALTH NUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I DONT CARE HOW MUCH FUCKING FAT IS IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT FULL FUCKING FAT BURGER MEAT AND BUTTER MILK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TOO FUCKING MUCH TO ASK?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!



i dont care how much you care about whatever it is as long as your not cramming it up my ass

its not fucking fair that EVERYTHING is reduced fat, no fat, or any of that fucking bullshit!!!!!!!! NOT FUCKING FAIR, NOT FUCKING COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i put fucking mayo on pizza.... do you honestly think i give a flying fuck about how unhealthy fat can be for you?
theres a rather simple solution. GET OFF YOUR FUCKING ASS FOR FUCKING ONCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if your going to bitch about low fat, dont make everyone eat low fat by giving no other choice, just get off your fat fucking ass for more than walking to the crapper or the car!!!!!!!! ITS NOT FUCKING ROCKET SCIENCE



people. piss. me. the. FUCK. OFF.

anyway.... yeah..... thats about it.......
sorry for the rant, im just pissed off that nothing is full fat, everything is lean fucking crap......

DUE TO FLOODING LIKE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
XDDDDDDDDDDD

no school today X3
maybe or maybe not tomorrow... well see





on another note.... I am still really looking for people to write with!!!
NOTE ME IF INTERESTED

yeah.... today was....... interesting.... i guess.......

first block (american studies) teachers a douche bag of geriatric proportions.....
second block i have fitness and weight training with a neet dude
third block bio i have an old dude that treats us like were like 6 XDDD
then lunch where i have no friends (just like everywhere else...... *sigh*)
then fourth block i have retard reading which i may be getting out of (the reason im in there is because i didnt give a flying fuck and failed english (also the teacher we had gave insane ammounts of work)... the reason i may be getting out of it is because when the dude asked if we had any books we were reading outside of school, i mentioned that i was reading the divine comedy. lol, he was amazed someone in the retard classes was reading that, we started talking about it..... in 9th grade i had retard reading and we had to take a testto see what reading level we are and stuff.... the average for the grade was about a thousand, the class average was normally 800, i got over 1600. so i am not some dip shit, i just dont work XDDD so, he said hed talk to my counselor about getting it changed )


uhm... yeah..... thats kinda my day....

aposed to up up and away....

yeah, no sleep last night.... todays the first day back at school.... i have very mixed feelings about it....
i got my coffee, my ipod, and my piece-o-crap cell phone (for the love of god, please text me. i need someone to keep me remotely sane)


first quarter of the year i have weight training. im looking forward to getting in shape ^3^ *flexes my squishy muscles*
psych later in the year... uhm.... yeah..... i kind of need to pass this year (im now a junior in highschool.... i need to pass or im fucked...... if not by the school, then by my parents....... theyve been really riding my ass about good grades....)


anyway! wish me luck fuzzy butts! im going to skewl!!!!
*starts playing funeral music*

you know that feeling? the one where you feel... painfully lonely.... but you dont really feel like dealing with anyone?
so you just play mindless video games and listen to music....
you feel empty and hollow and..........


*sigh*

playing chess and listening to:
https://youtu.be/xpre7-iNDV4 https://youtu.be/2tTaHAPFGwo
https://youtu.be/R8-t7dGXApg https://youtu.be/fuLPJg2gwjQ



like a boss X3

https://youtu.be/mH5sacgeY5Q
showed me this..... this is only part one...

its kind of cute and weird.... but.... its like secretly depressing
isnt that weird?

"hello class and welcome back to school" the teacher said flatly. She wasn't a young teacher, not to mention her outfit was less than flatering. she wore skin-tight jeans that highlighted her rather gelatin-like rear that and also showed her wrinkley, vainy ankles. her teeth were a bit yellow, her eyes were dull, her face had some wrinkles as well. her hair was short and grey.
"now, I will pick someone at random to share what they did this summer... how about you, sir. the one wearing the army jacket" she said, pointing directly at me, showing her painfully pink nails off. "me?" I reply, sitting up a little, barely half awake. "yes you" she said smart-assedly. "one, ma'am, its a canvas air force jacket that was bestowed upon me by my father" I said, stressing the 'air force' part. "and second.... my summer..." I paused to think.
"well" I said inhaling deeply. "I butt fucked a dinosaur, got into a fist fight with Jesus and developed short term memory loss, stole some gold from fort nox and ground it into a fine powder, snorting it, I hunted down moby dick and ate him, I was part of a scientific research team that unearthed a monster while we dug up at the bottom of the north pacific ocean between Johnston atoll and the midway islands that took out several of our ships and a submarine. I want inside its stomach and planted a bomb in there, then climbed out its throat before detonating it." I stopped to take a breath, then I continued. "I resurected an entire grave yard by accident, off in the western of Sweden, then went on a zombie killing spree and became a local hero, then I went to china, assassinated chairmen Mao and took his place, ushering in a new chapter in china. I went mad with power soon after, let 3 genocides and started a new world war. I faked my own death and got out of there. I came back to America and joined the army and faught against china and we won. I fell in love on a trip to Germany, started a family and had 3 kids. though, some people from China that I didnt treat too well recognized me and went after me, killing my first born son, leaving me with my other son and daughter and my wife. we left Germany soon after, moving to Russia. Once there, I quickly made some local friends and hired some trustworthy fellows as body guards, which helped a lot. The Chinese found me in Russia, but my body guard apprehended them for me and killed them. A few years after that, I was called back to the battle for the Americans, this time doing a tour in the middle east. I lost the left side of my body to a road side bomb and got shipped back to my family to spend my dying hours with them by my side. A few old buddies heard I died, recovered my body, and braught me back to life and regenerated my lost limbs using the machine I helped make blue prints on before we did that scientific journey near midway. We laughed, had some drinks. eh, was nice. we talked science for a little, caught up... I went to see my family not long after, but everyone already moved on and seems to forgot I existed. As you could imagine, that hurt. My son is now married, my daughter is devorced with a kid, my wife remarried, though developed ovarian cancer and needed her ovaries removed so they didnt have any kids."
"I went to live with my buddies who braught me back to life for a little, did some more adventuring. Faught some monsters, slayed a cracken, a griffen, a minitaur, a spinx, and more. now Im back to where I grew up just to relax and enjoy life a little... thats about everything I did this summer"

The entire class staired at me in amazement. "but your sixteen" the teacher said after several moments of silence. "and?" I replied. "doesn't mean that it isnt true"

im bored, tired and fuckin crazy!!!
so enjoy my mad ideas and science!!!

1, abortion is natural. how is that? marsupials!
see, after the meteor that killed the dinosaurs hit the earth, the mammals were no longer the lesser lifeforms. dinosaurs were ontop because evolution made them bigger and stronger and more ferocious. they developed specialty features to dominated their ecosystem. once the dinos cleared out, the mammals were free to roam. they began to grow and develop specialties to dominate their ecosystems. there were 2 kinds of mammals. i forget one one branch was called, but its the kind of mammal where the baby gestates and develops within the womb. the other kind are called marsupials. marsupials (like kangaroos), give birth FAR earlier, and the baby latches on instinctively to the mothers nipple inside her pouch where it grows and develops.
the reason for this adaptation is that mammals that carry a baby or several in its stomach, when the mother cant find enough food or water, not only do the babies die, but the mother as well. marsupials, when they cant get enough food or whatever, it can simply open its pouch and toss the fetus so it can live to have another another day. thats abortion.

so when someone says that abortion is unnatural or against god, tell them to google how kangaroos are born and that they can go suck a dick! XDD

2, making aliens??? well.... I think we could do that. take microbials that are naturally found on earth all over, take them to a lab and let them multiply, changing their living conditions little by little so they will adapt and evolve. change the conditions to that of another planet. send them off to that planet, and if they survive or thrive, then we can hope they evolve it by bit until they become a whole nother life form.
i just kinda recently had that idea (watching threw the wonder hole with morgan freeman)

3, enter the game!
imagine playing a game like black ops, but with a virtual reality helmate and things. have a helmate with a screen dead infront of your eyes. censers attaches to your chest, hands, feet, and thighs (initially, maybe going even more in depth than that, going down to finger movements). imagine that. you decide how low you crouch, how you melee. you can even smack them with your gun or go tea bagging XDDD
that would be intense! the kinect and wii can both take one in the butt! you can run anyway you want and everything!
insanely awesome idea, right?

4, ZOMBIES!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was thinking.... that earthquake.... what if it was a secret lab where the tested biological and chemical weapons, but there was an explosion causing some experiments to get out, causing a zombie invasion. id have so much fun!!!!
I already have plans in mind and everything! XDD raid rite aid and superfresh for food and medicine and smokes and stuff, raid true value for things that can be used as weapons. go over to the high school and block the doors and organize the rations and everything.... organize and supply an army of people i take in from the streets that arnt infected. i have like super crazy plans and stuff XDDD

thats it for now.... getting too tired and the hurricanes making my interwebs derpy

not really feeling too well.... kinda depressed and dying on the inside.... kinda why im seeking knowledge and thinking science.
schools coming up in about a week....

later yall

I am still looking for people to work with and write with!!!

If you are interested, if you like to write, want to write professionally, into the occult, etc
I WANT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

haha, if you like dark romance, crazy ass sci-fi and/or fantasy, if you are absolutely bat-shit crazy
I WANT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!


please comment or note me folks!!!!
anyone! any walk of life!
PLEASE GUYS AND GALS!!!!!!!

(to be honest, my future depends on it. I want to be a writer, as a profession. And, the sooner I get something published, the better. ontop of that, no one in my house is currently working, so we need a source of income to keep the house and keep ourselves fed. we've already sold a bunch of xbox games and other things for money. so, it actually is somewhat important to find people to work with on this. but, seriously, no pressure, okay? ^^)




thanks for your time!!!!!!

Im not feeling all to well....
I mean.... I have little to no drive to do anything.... you know?
I feel.... not like I want to die... more like I just want to sit in the stratosphere and watch the world, slowly rotting away....
I still have things I want to do.... I just dont feel like doing.... anything... you know?

I just... feel empty.... I mean.... even fapping feels kind of like a chore....
I have things I want to do, and I am hoping that the school year will get me back on track with my writing and drawing and everything.....

I feel.... sooo.... Drained? That doesnt completely describe it... but it is the closest I can think of to describe this feeling.....



soooo... yeahhh.....
just be whining and complaining and bitching as usual




oh, also... I stopped having night mares and flash backs about a.... -ahem- incident that occurred a bit ago......

though, lately... I have had a handful of extreamly odd and off dreams.....

one was.... I forget what movie it was like, I wanna say deep blue....
whats that movie that was about the scientists that genetically engeneered sharks to be smarter and stuff so they could find a cure for altimerz or some bs like that, but theres a storm and the sharks get loose... theres the black guy that was suposed to be the chef with the parrot that survives in the end along with that diver guy...?
idk.... ANYWAY!!! that dream. we were in an under water part of a building, and we were scuba diving for scientific research.... I was undressing and putting away my scuba gear after a dive, and me and this girl were talking (she caught me naked and cracked a joke or two about my junk, and I quickly covered up)... we flirted back and fourth a little bit, then the other divers that we have to work with walked in (i was in boxars already)... they picked on me (because I was new to the team and I wasnt off to a good start).... I made some good points and relly pissed on dude in particular off. He swore he'd see me dead if its the last thing he did. (the girl I was flirting with was 1, beautiful, 2, the guys ex that I really pissed off/was making fun of me.... she had read hair, soft pale skin, deep green eyes... a bit scrawney.... about a b cup if I had to guess... painted he nails dark blue.... not an unholy shade of white on her teeth like in toothpaste comercials (meaning she had regular human teeth, aposed to TOO perfect, you know), and she didnt have any make-up, facial hair (other than eye brows), no lipstick... god... she was perfect)
lol, I woke up after that A-hole said hed'd kill me

ANOTHER DREAM I HAD
I dont remember much of it, but I was taking care of myself as a baby.... it was creepy.... It wasnt just a baby boy that looked like I did, it was actually me.... I dont remember much other than bathing it, changing it (or at least trying to, but it peed all over the f*cking couch....)..... thats about all there really was that I remember....


another one was alians attacking my school... there was a machine that made the ground cave in... or... actually, the water turned into water or something.... swirling pools of water.... the aliens ships looked interesting too.... I cant remember what them or the ships look like...... I remember they were cool looking, but I dont remember how they look....

I dont know if theres hidden meanings in there or what.... just kinda just saying.....

went to goschenhoppen in schwanksvill PA
it got my mind off things and was kinda fun

its a folk festival off near collagevill (a lot farmland over there)

the horses were HUGE!!!!!!!!
and it was cool how they made things and stuff
mom wouldnt let me make/buy a cigar >.>
but we got pie (never had it before, and it was GOOD!!!!!)
also, had german dougnuts (fasnochts they were called), they were good
i also have (didnt eat yet) candy thats in the shape of a knife, lol
and also this stuff called potato candy. its a really sugary ball of idk what XDD
oh, and there were this cute little kids chasing some chickens and stuff (live chicken, lol)

oh, and we ran into my cousin zack whos and EMT who showed us around the ambulance and even attached my little bro to a heart monitor to show us how it works and stuff XDDD
it was neet

oh, and before we went to the fair, we went to get me a physical for a learners permit (for driving)
oh, and i accidently got myself in the nuts by dropping a water bottle ;~;

well... thats today....
im actually able to eat today, aposed to yesterday where i couldnt even hold down water.... every sip i just puked back up......
me and connor are at least still brothers, though were not mates, which cheered me up a fair bit, you know?
if i lost him all together.... that would just... kill me...... you know? i still love him, but.. if friends is all we can be.... ill just make the most out of it
and maybe one day we can be together again. i mean........ you know? we can grow up, and once i can see him irl, be with him irl, all will be good. itll be a few years, and im sure well still be friends ^^
and if he doesnt want to get back together then... im sure it wont be a big deal ^^




anyway... brief update on life (mainly today) and my mental state




thanks for dealing with me guys and girls

because i dont feel like retyping it, or even copy-pasting, heres the link to my DA jurnal about whats wrong....
http://yiharbin.deviantart.com/journal/43152772/


im going to go cry.... might not be on often...... seeing that my reason for doing anything is gone........



anyway...... see you all.... sometime.... i guess.....

i want to die....
end my life right now....,,,


dont ask questions, dont read this... dont even comment.....

thats all i have to say.........


I.
want.
to.
die.

playing headquarters in hanoi on black ops...
dude, hopping out one of the windows, there was this dude on his knees, arms tied behind his back with a white-ish(and bloody) rag over his eyes like a blind fold, and dripping blood!
i was like "holly crap, what was that", and when i turned around to mele it, it was gone
IT FREAKIN SCARED THE CRAP OUT OF ME



im not sure if its the sleep deprovision or what..... but.... jesus christ, that was freakin weird!!!!





also, side note....
connors seems to be doing a lot better today... im still really worried though....
anyway.... sorry for the drama and crap..... i was just panicking and not sure what to do....
sorry... and he made me delete it, so, if you were in the middle of making a comment or something.... sorry......

good night everyone
sweet dreams <33

im an aweful person..... talking big, wanting to be friendly......... i... i just try to be happy all the time and always friendly...... i... ive forced my brain and way of living to change so i seem happier..... i have worked so hard..... taken so much time.... and i did this just to keep everyone happy....... but.... i cant......
i cant be shitting rainbows and glitter all the time........
i...... i......
the only reason i can keep it up is my boyfriend..... hes my strength....... hes what keeps me happy and........
i cant do anything without him....... he...... he just acts happy... for me and others........
i....... hes my strength.........

i.... i just want to go back to surrounding myself with darkness..... cry, curled up in the cold and dark.......
thats what i want to do right now............ so... desperately bad...... i miss the darkness...... i........

"want to to help, but you dont know how. so you cant.".........
i........ i.......

i miss being numb and cold and dead...... things didnt hurt me or bother me.... and if they did, id just have a cig or take out my razorblades.......
now i have to cry..... things stick in deep.... too deep to just pull out..........
things lodge themselves deep into me.... sinking into flesh, muscle, blood... even deep enough to stick into the bones..... they lodge themselves in there and go bad..... go rotten.................


.....i dont know what to do..... feeling blank and miserable....... have an.... i dont even know how to describe feeling.....
the mask ive made myself wear is sticking to me, becoming me..........
i am stuck.... i am torn.............. i dont know what to do, where to go........
i miss the "kill, burn, destroy" attitude.... the "i can take anything. you fight back, i will break you" spirit.... the "go in and fuck shit up. not just conquer, but destroy and assume absolute control" type of mentality......
but..... how i work now.... the "shit happens, move on" attitude and mentality while getting hurt repeatedly.......




i..... i feel...... like an insignificant..... useless..... worthless.... abomination.........
i.... i am an awful person...... and awful friend...... and...... and awful boyfriend.......
...i am nothing..... less than.........
there was a time where i could just accept all that and move on..... but now.... it hurts to hear..... to think...... to know................

i dont know what to do............



im sorry...... i just needed to get that all out....... im sorry guys...... im sorry you have to put up with me... im sorry i and you have waisted your time on this.............
i think im just going to lie face down on the floor for a little while..... might get back on later.........
auf wiedersehen......

sincerely,
-Ian

COMIC!!!!!!
heres that deal guys!!!!!

every week, you guys comment or vote on what characters get used (including you guys from time to time! maybe even frequently ^^ )

comic one starts....
NOW!!!!!!!

what should happen?
what characters should be in it? who should get mention!!!
some on guys, give me some feed back!!!!





also
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2571333/
need a spot of helps with that




SPREAD THE WORD!!!! EVERY WHERE GUYS!!!!!!!!

theres 3 things I need your help with becoming a better artist, looking for literary partners, getting in shape

1
I need your help to get better at arting, SO! I re-opening requests. but you must critique what i do for you, okay?
requests:
trades:

colabs:
commissions:

anything you guys want, i am up for trying ^^
for the sake of pleasing my fuzzy friends and becoming a better artist!

(that includes any kinks, gore, fetishes, and more)

PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD!!!!!!!!!

2
I am looking for literary partners. Its my dream to write books for a living.
I am looking for people to write with for a start. more for fun and more motivation to write than anything else.
short stories, writing something you want published, whatever you guys want! ^^

3
I am working on getting in better shape. I need help though, creating a healthy diet and workout plan. my goal is to lose more fat and tone my muscles (apposed to building them up, making them big). so if you guys know anything about diet and stuff.... if you are like a personal trainer or dietitian or something, or know one, your input would bee more than helpful!

3.5
also, if you know anything about curing insomnia, that would be great!
I need help to get rid of my insomnia... its starting to really impact my memory and my body....

thanks guys <33
please guys, spread the word!!!!

okay guys, re-opening requests. but you must critique what i do for you, okay?

requests:


trades:


colabs:

commissions:




anything you guys want, i am up for trying ^^
for the sake of pleasing my fuzzy friends and becoming a better artist!

(that includes any kinks, gore, fetishes, and more)

PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD!!!!!!!!!

beddy bye time for me X3
nighty night fellow fuzzies X3

I HAVE MY LAPTOP BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1