So.... I woke up with a crazy wicked headache after going to bed, dizzy and drained feeling..... headache got worse through the day, primarily in the back of my head, closer to where the skull and vertabrae connect... and a little above that, pain flickers on and off....
I took two asprin... maybe 2 hours ago now, and half an hour ago, I got a wicked nosebleed out of nowhere....
Don't know if nose bleed and headache are connected, but ... idk, I feel as though I should be worried

Should I be?
What are your guys' thaughts

So, I have a few drawings done, am working on finding the disk for our printer, since my little bro is next in line for a new laptop (then me, then mom)... going to set up whosever computer with the printer/scanner and get scanning and start subitting stuff again!

I am on my phone because my computers broken, and it is not that eaasy going through anything with my pantech cross over (I think that's what it is called... that's what it says on it)

So, don't expect heavy replies, boys and girls

Laptop is still broken... it is getting kind of lonely... I don't really get out much, and I. Don't have a ton of IRL friends that I can hang out with... I used to talk with a handful of people on skype, but my phone can't run skype, and likke I said, my laptop is broken....
Sooooo.....
If anyone wants to talk or anything, note me or something, and we can talk there or I can give you my cell and we can text


Yeah, I sound really needy right now, I know, but I'm not usually this annoying, I promise D:

I wish that FA (or any other site that wants this idea) had like.... a priority artist button thhat you could click for someone you are watching, so that their stuff shows up as first in your inbox(or at the very least is highlightedd)... because, there are some people in particular that I would like to check their jurnals or keep up-to-date on their latest submissions, too many to go one-by-one, and I am watching a ton of people that, don't get me wrong, I enjoy seeing stuff from, but there is just a few I want to get to first, you. Know?





P.s., don't expect much activity from me, all I have to get on here is my phone, which can't handle a lot and crashes frequently. I can barely do anything... I can fave, but replying to things is a super chhallenege >.<... just saying


That is all from me~

4/28/13

So, I had a weird dream last night.... really, just....... strange.....
I don't remember it very well, but what I do remember.... it was a mix of call of duty zombies and my home town (particularly on the other side of the highschool) as well as a little bit of farm sort of similar to what we pass on the hour long drive to/through lancaster, PA..... and, if you played mob of the dead in black ops 2, you know who brutus is.... well, in this weird farm/suberb, I was one of the players, but the brutus-like character was me... it was me, but bigger, running around and breaking things, not just perk machines, but.... things in my life... (there were small orbs scattered throughout the 'map' of times and events in my life, and he would smash the orbs, destroying that part of my life and who I am..)
...idk, there was lots of weird zommbies..... some of which were people that I once knew and called friends or felt close to... each orb he destroyed turned the friends involved into zombies and monsters......
I pack-a-punched the raygun I got out of the treasure chest (mystery box, we just call it the treasure chest... though, rather than glowing red or blue or whatever, it was green, my favorite color), and when I pack-a-punched it, it was blue, and it fired a shot similar to the acidgat, but it doesn't get even close to the same range. The shot drops and hits the grouund within 20-30 feet tops, but the shot that explodes (and has a blast radius similar to the pack-a-punched acidgat) and freezes everything in the radius, but what it freezes sometimes shatters/destroys the zombies, but other ones just break free and keep going... I don't think I had a second gun, or if I did, it was out of ammo.... don't really remembber.... I got cornered at a fence, and got pushed into the fence and broke through it (making the 'map' bigger and giving me a lot more bail room).... so I ran like fuck, broke each fence I came to just to get distance and find somewhere to camp and clear the zombies, trying to find a way to destroy the me that was like brutus, since the chillifier X2 (the pack-a-punch ice ray gun) didn't even affect him... I kept running like hell, tackling through each fence until I reached a fucked up old farm house or something.... I have no idea what it was actually, it was mauled by time, made of wood, and had an upstairs and basement..... I ran in through the gaping wall, checked the upstairs for things, then descided to wait at the top of the steps and kill what zombies I can, and maybe bail the hell ou of there if it gets overrun.... I don't remember what other things happened, but it ended with me getting cornered by the brutus-like me and a massive horde of zombies.... and I woke up before when it says game over and has the player scores.....

I have no freakin clue what that means.. any of it....
Please guys, if you have any ideas what this stufff means or what is wrong with me... let me know...
Thanks for listening/reading

So, basically, my laptop slipped off the arm of the couch because of stupid stuff, and it officially broke. After what, 5 years? Dead pixxels all over the screen, missing keys, broken hinge and many other physical issues, and a sumber of software issues too. This was just the final blow....

Well, no computer sucks pretty damn bad. I am typing this out from my phone... which can't handle a whole lot, so my activity will pretty much be near none.
May hop on, reply to notes or comments, but I can't do too much else really... sorry guys

okay, so here is what I am thinking.....

I want to make a website (I can do that part, I am not begging for help on that) where people can freely post their writings and have others (respectfully) crique it for the sake of improvement, because writing is an under cherished art form

what I need though is a few people to help run it, help go through and make sure people arn't being too mean with their critiquing or are beiing ass wads, you know?
I think I will recruit 3 people initially, and if this thing grows, I will look for more. But, I will not start this until I have 3 main moderators, maybe have sub category mods if more people are eager to help run this



THE WEBSITE ITSELF... will be solely for written works and about improving writing ability, making friends with same interests, getting peoples work seen and promoting lesser heard or known writers through various contests or various other means that me and my council of mods will brainstorm out.



comment if you support the idea
comment if you want to be a mod (a serious mod or part time, doesnt matter, and i will PM you my email and we can work thing out there)
share if you want to spread the word and gather more support for this idea to benefit the writing community



I hope I can turn this simple idea into a reality that will benefit all people who write for fun, want to improve, and want to get seen
all the help that can be offered would be appreciated




p.s. if there are any people out there that are tech savvy enough to build a site from scratch.... I am less technology profecient, but I want this site to be really good and have as few issues as possible... so.... the more professional assistance, the better ^^;;;;
thanks~

so, in my last jurnal, I was saying I opened commissions because money got tight and have to pay for food and what and the not....
well, dad talked to skulli, one of his hockey friends from highschool, and he helped us with taxes and we got a bit over 2 grand back! Haha, so we are good on money for a little while, at least for a little while~

I am still going to be working on commissions for those that did commission me.... thought he only one that did was/is https://inkbunny.net/RollerCoasterViper59
^^; i'll work on it as soon as my hands start cooperating... they havent wanted to draw or anything for a little while now, and it is starting to really bug me >.<



anyway!
yeah, money is a bit less tight for the next few weeks, unless dad does something dumb with it.. sooo.... yeah ^^

Okay.. so.. money has gotten super tight... Mom is paying the bills, dad is looking for a job but is not going too well.... My savings have been paying for groceries and food, but my savings have been shrinking and shrinking.... we need money... I need money to keep paying for groceries for me, my dad, picky mom, and super picky little brother....
so.. commissions are open!!!
name your price!!!

I know I am not the best artist, but I will do my very best, that I can promise you!!!

thanks guys!

happy zombie jesus day everyone!
I am going to my grandparents and stuff... what are you guys doing? ^^

read for how to get free art
okay, so I have a project to do for english where I need ti compare another culture with ours, which is why i need someone outside the US

i will only have a small handful of questions!

comment here if you are willing to help

this friday is when it has to be in, so i need a response by wednesday (the 27th) at the latest


top 3 most helpful people will get free art, the person i use the most for this will get 3 free pcitures
sound good?


thank you soooo super much, guys and gals!

first, i have to say that i am not trying to start drama...

has anyone else had an issue where they are faving stuff, just going through your inbox, and it says you cant fave something by someone that has blocked you
first off, i avoid drama the best i can and i absolutely hate it when people are mad at me, so i always do my best to make sure i dont get on anyones bad side...... so, seeing that someone has blocked me..... it kinda hurts.... why did they block me?

what is super weird though is that some of the people, such as  marbles (only mentioning them because they were the last one that it happened with and i could find them, i cant find the others at this moment) , that blocked me... i dont think i have ever even had half a conversation with, i cant imagine what i would have said or done that would have made them block me..... they arnt even the only ones, there are like 3 or 4 others that i really dont think ive talked to enough to make them block me...
anyone else have this issue?


AGAIN, I WOULD LIKE TO ADD THAT I AM NOT TRYING TO START DRAMA
to be honist, i am not entirely sure why i am making this jurnal...... just.... need to express this a little...




*sigh* ttyl, guys..

looking for people interested in doing the easter eggs in black ops 2
we dont have the money for a new mic yet and our current one is broken... so... i can send you the instructions, but..... i cant really communicate well.... we will fill you in on what we are doing if you are up for it though

whos up for it???

i have been pretty depressed lately... just.. idk... I feel like... like I dont really belong anywhere...feel alienated.... feel isolated.... feel alone..... and... idk... i dont know who i am anymore, i dnot know whaat is real, what i want, what my purpose is.... i just dont know....
nothing feels right, nothing feels real, but at the same time everything feels too real.....
i dont know what to do, what to say, what to think..... i just dont..... i have lost sight of all that was and is..... i dont feel like myself anymore.................
idk...
sorry, everyone, i just.... had to get thiss out.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NgYzIehZxSo


that video.... Watch it all the way through, and I can promise you, you will feel something deep inside you...

well, guys and girls... I have been feeling kind of down and a bit out of it.... haven't really felt myself....
IDK.. I will be floating around, replying to somethings, being active on and off, but not really being super active.....
look, I love you guys, and I dont know what i would do without this site.... but.... IDK....
Valentines day has got me in a bit of a funk... should go away eventually................
...I have actuallly been pretty depressed lately... Valentines day absolutely did not help that....
...eh... whatever.... Sort of on hiatus but kind of not.... yeah...

so, I watched lion king the other day, and watching mulon now.... and... I am just thinking to myself... Disney used to make the greatest, most touching movies that you would feel deep in your heart.... their movies would make you smile, laugh, and cry all in the same movie!
they dont do that anymore.... they make movies in annoying styles that dont really make me feel... I sit through, facepalm at a few parts and consider just turning it off at others...... the classic Disney style is the greatest... i mean... part of the appeal is the style... I hate the Pixar style deeply... it is just... blah.... you know?

anyway, that is just my little semi-rant

yup, yup, yup
commissions are open
and only a buck a piece (will give a discount if i am not satisfied with my work, will charge more if my marker dies as I color your picture)

paypal: yiharbin[at]yahoo.com

okay, so.... I am currently a bit upset.....
see..... is it weird that.... wel.... when it comes to long term relationships........ marriage and children is an absolute non-negotiable requirement.......
my current mate isnt into either idea...... which is a problem because I love him......
what should i do..?

so, here is the deal, folks:
Find old, crappy things in my gallery to re-do in my current style
Each person that sends me a link to an old picture to re-do gets a ticket for 1 FREE commission
Every ticket is worth 1 (ONE) FREE COMMISSION

1 link to one picture = 1 ticket
1 ticket = one free commission

spread the word!
*gets my drawing gear ready*

I am heading to bed..
I am wishing you all a good night, wonderful dreams and a lovely tomorrow ^^~

I am drawing for practically free DX
it costs 1$, and you get discounts if I dont like how it came out (which is often the case)
and I will draw pretty much anything (more than one car costs more, and i cant draw more than 4)

c'mon peoples!

Okay.... now this is a problem....
My battle ax of a mother got me signed up for a class that I am not ready to take......
I did not do well enough in German 101 to really pass (I got a D).. but, I can still aparently do German 102...
I initially did want to do it, but there are too many other things going on to deal with....
I want to finish high school first, I want to focus on that.... It is my last year, senior year and I need to finish well.... Not to mention we are strapped for cash, I don't think I am ready for German 2 just yet..... and a fist full of other issues...
but no. She had to bitch at my dad, get into a huge argument that lasted about an hour... and my dad just gave up and took me to get enrolled...... My parents couldn't completely afford the class (IT IS COMMUNITY COLLEGE, CLASSES SHOULDN'T COST OVER 450 FUCKING DOLLARS)...... so, to afford it.. they had to drain my account completely to afford the class........ I am down to less than 5 dollars worth of pocket change in a plastic peanut jar......


Commissions are now actually kind of important (I buy my own food, clothes and supplies for things, so having no money makes things a tad difficult....)
I will draw ANYTHING.
ANY
THING
clean, cute, porn.... anything
I am working on getting better at drawing, the more commissions I do, the better I get...
Right now, commission prices are in the 1$ range..... I give discounts if I am not thrilled with the work.... may up the price if my marker or something dies while working on your picture (just so I can afford more supplies)


interested in commissions, please PM me....
thanks guys

I need your help, boys and girls, to improve my drawing skills... I know I will never make a living out of it, but It is a (small) source of income, of joy, of pride even.
I love to draw, and I want to get better.

Could you guys find me tutorials?
tutorials for anything... anthros, humans, ferals, muzzles, lips, eyes, shoulders, hands, feet, legs, arms, ribs, boobs.... everything and anything

the main ones I need are:
-faces
-muzzles
-angles
-eyes
-hands
-feet

a little critique would not hurt either ^^


I would super appreciate the help guys!
thanks<3