Looking for an artist willing to (and decent at) drawing cuntboys for my cuntboy fursona Apollo.

Money isnt really an issue, and i prefer traditional or traditional looking digital art.

If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]

HAVE YOU...

[x] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol
[ ] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[x] bought porn
[x] tried drugs

TOTAL SO FAR: 9

[x] taken painkillers
[x] taken someone else's prescription medicine (with their consent)
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[x] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die
[ ] seen someone die

TOTAL SO FAR: 18

[ ] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist
[x] received a ticket
[ ] been to rehab
[x] dyed your hair
[x] been in an accident
[x] been to a club
[x] been to a bar

TOTAL SO FAR: 26

[x] been to a wild party
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[x] had a spring break in Florida
[x] sniffed anything
[ ] wore black nail polish
[x] wore arm bands
[x] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap
[x] owned a 50 Cent CD

TOTAL SO FAR: 34


[x] dressed gothic
[ ] dressed girly
[x] dressed punk
[ ] dressed grunge
[x] stole something
[x] been too drunk to remember anything
[x] blacked out
[ ] fainted
[x] had a crush on a neighbour

TOTAL SO FAR: 40

[x] had a crush on a friend
[x] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[x] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[x] installed speakers in a car
[ ] broken a mirror
[ ] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL SO FAR: 46

[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[x] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school
[x] had surgery
[x] had an injury
[x] gone to court
[ ] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire
[x] lied about your age

TOTAL SO FAR: 54

[x] owned/rented an apartment/house
[x] broke the law in the police's presence
[x] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[x] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[x] hugged a stranger
[x] kissed a stranger
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed

TOTAL SO FAR: 64

[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence
[x] drank and drove
[x] prank-called someone
[ ] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[x] cheated on a test

TOTAL: 73 ( I should be dead )

Any new stuff will be in my new profile in FA. This is now a Fursuit Profile for my suit.

I have a new fursona and a new name. And to avoid drama, I am only giving it to those who i trust. Message me if you want it :/

Merry Christmas guys <3

http://www.motifake.com/image/demot.....1202427174.jpg

That is all.

going to FF 2010. Anyone need a lift. Split on gas. Room for 3 (only 1 suiter as its a sedan) Reliable. Ride there and back. even split on gas at the pump.

Anyone got space? If not anyone willing to split? Leme know!

http://www.furfright.org

Wasting time before work I have 5min to do this! I stole this from some random person while wandering FA looking at interesting art. It's that stuff you find after wading through to much porn...

Yes/No Meme:


Kissed any one of your Furaffinity friends? — Yea, And a bit more with a few :D

Been arrested? — Lol yeaaa..

Kissed someone you didn't like? — Oh yeah.

Slept in until 5 PM? — Yes

Fallen asleep at work/school? — Yes

Held a snake? — Yea

Ran a red light? — Yes, today.

Been suspended from school? — Yup.

Experienced love at first sight? — I guess lol

Totaled your car in an accident? — Yupper

Been fired from a job? — Yup. Monthly.. Its the same job every time, get rehiried every time lol

Fired somebody? — Yup.

Sung karaoke? — Yes >.> I did okay i suppose.

Pointed a gun at someone? — Yes.

Did something you told yourself you wouldn't? — A lot.

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? — Yes

Caught a snowflake on your tongue? — Mmhm

Kissed in the rain? — No

Had a close brush with death (your own)? - Yup numerious.

Saw someone die? — No, Seen a dead body tho

Played Spin-the-Bottle? — Lol. No.

Smoked a cigar? — yeah i like the tingling :D

Sat on a rooftop? — Yeah

Smuggled something into another country? — No LOL

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? — Yeah.

Broken a bone? — Yeah.

Skipped school? — God yes.

Eaten a bug? — Yeah.

Walked on a moonlit beach? — Yea

Ridden a motorcycle? — yup

Dumped someone? — Yes.

Forgotten your anniversary? — No

Lied to avoid a ticket? — Umm tried *innocent face*

Ridden in a helicopter? — mmhm

Shaved your head? — kinda? Whats shaved?

Blacked out from drinking? — Oh yeah.

Played a prank on someone? — Ofcourse

Hit a home run? — One.

Felt like killing someone? — Yes.

Cross-dressed? — Only once D:

Been falling-down drunk? — Stumbling.. Ask my master if i fell down the night camping. I dont remeber lol

Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? — Many times. Im good like that

Eaten snake? — Nupe

Marched/Protested? — Yup.

Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? — People have them as pets?

Puked on an amusement ride? — Nope

Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? — Um no

Knitted? — Yes

Been on TV? — Yes the news. (LOL Yeah.. not as bad as it sounds was a thing at my school I was a a part of and got interviewed)

Shot a gun? — Oh yeah.

Skinny-dipped? — Mmhm

Given someone stitches? — no.

Eaten a whole habenero pepper? — Lol. I cant even pretend to suck on one like a penis let alone eat the fuckin thing.

Ridden a surfboard? — for.. like 5mins on my belly count? lol

Drunk straight from a liquor bottle? — Tonight. lol

Had surgery? — Yes

Streaked? — GOD NO! NO ONE WANTS TO SEE THAT!

Been taken by ambulance to a hospital? — Y es

Tripped on mushrooms? — Yes

Peed on a bush? — Duh yes.

Donated Blood? — Cant. Im gay. lol

Grabbed electric fence? — LOL yeah. With a grounding fencing pole (solid steel pole)

Eaten alligator meat? — Uh no

Eaten cheesecake? — Yeah eww.

Killed an animal when not hunting? — Yes, *looks out window at squirells*

Peed your pants in public? — O.o;; LOL WAT

Snuck into a movie without paying? — Snuck in no, I just walked in

Written graffiti? — One time.. I drew a penis on a crosswalk guy sign

Still love someone you shouldn't? — Unfortunately. Yes.

Think about the future? — To much

Been in handcuffs? — Lol yeah.. And not only in the kinky way

Believe in love? — Yes

Kicked some guy in his jewels? – Yup.

Okay so.. after so much interest in my staying in the fandom.. and the fact its not really possable to leave something thats been a significant part of my life for the past.. 4-5 years.. I am not leaving. >.>

I also worked out the thing with the friend I think.. Though i still feel bad..

Cant get rid of me that easy furry fandom of fags!! RAWR!

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of FA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

Thought I would try my paw at writing a poem. Its depressing.. Fair warning. And I have no idea on proper line work and shit..

Constant pain, no end in sight.
Darkness I walk, Never doing whats right.
The Alley shadows, I see a fight.
Into the darkness I melt, my support may be needed tonight.
The victor stands, a heart scarred.

I can't go on without your love, Friend, Master, Mate.
All of the above, anything but hate.

To him I go, tail tucked, head low.
I open my lungs, words of comfort, love, and trust.
I opened my arms, held you tightly.
Comforted you, almost nightly.
Told him I was here, My crush.
I will always, be here. No rush.

I can't go on without your love, Friend, Master, Mate.
All of the above, anything but hate.

I lay down, worries on my mind and dreams.
I wake up, to this, it seems.
The support I offered to you, No need.
My creed.

I can't go on without your love, Friend, Master, Mate.
All of the above, anything but hate.

I am here for you, always.
No matter what ever happens, always.


Seems to have come out more in song form. I was listening to music when i wrote it. Big surprise there. Also this is deticated to a long time friend who shall remain nameless. Longtime for longertime to come.

AGE MEME YO

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee.
[ ] You keep track of dates using a calendar.
[x] You own a credit card.
[x] You know how to change the oil in a car.
[x] You've done your own laundry.
[x] You can vote in an election.
[x] You can cook for yourself.
[ ] You think politics are interesting

TOTAL SO FAR: 6

[ ] You show up for school late a lot.
[ ] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket.
[ ] You've never gotten a detention.
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday.
[x] You like to take walks by yourself.
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up.
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week. (at least once a day... XD )

TOTAL SO FAR: 9

[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[x] You can count to 10 in another language. (German..)
[ ] When you say you're going to do something you USUALLY do it.
[x] You can mow the lawn. (its my job haha)
[ ] You study even when you don't have to.
[x] You have hand washed a car before.

TOTAL SO FAR: 13

[ ] You can spell experience, without looking it up. (Nope.. and i play RPGs lol..)
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name.
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out.
[ ] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] You can type pretty quick.

TOTAL SO FAR: 14

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment.
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party.
[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[x] You have more bills than you can pay.
[x] You have been to the beach.
[x] You use the internet every day.
[ ] You have been outside of your home country 3 or more times.
[ ] You make your bed in the morning.

TOTAL SO FAR: 17

[ ] You have filed a tax return
[ ] You have used a pay phone
[ ] You have been served alcohol without being ID'd (and im only 19 ;D )
[ ] You have purchased stamps at the grocery store (for my mom when i was like... 9. lol)
[ ] You have purchased a lottery ticket
[ ] You still have and use a VCR

TOTAL SCORE: 17

0.o Well.. Most people think i act younger :D

Male Side:

[ ] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[ ] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture
[ ] Sad movies suck
[ ] You own an PS3.
[ ] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV.
[ ] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own, like, a trillion hats.
[ ] You like going to football games.
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[ ] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[ ] Sports are fun.
[ ] Talk with food in your mouth.
[x] Wear boxers.
[x] You enjoy hunting, hiking and camping. (hiking is fun.)

-- Male Points Total = 7

Female Side:

[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[x] You love to shop.
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] You wear the color pink.
[x] Go to your mom for advice.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[x] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[x] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[x] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[x] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance. (dance for 2 months..)
[ ] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[ ] You wear girl underwear.
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[x] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[x] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

-- Female Points Total = 16

Androgyny / Gender Neutral Side:

[ ] You shop in both men and women departments for the best clothes.
[x] You do what you like regardless of what people say.
[ ] You believe associating personality traits with gender is absurd.
[ ] You are aware that colors don't have gender.
[ ] Androgyny and neutrality kick ass.
[ ] Macho men and girly girls make you want to puke.
[x] You appreciate diverse music, technology and media.
[x] You can shop and repair things with the best of them.
[ ] Played with dolls AND hotwheels as a child.
[x] At some point you idolized an androgynous singer.
[ ] You are aware that gender does not equal biological sex.
[ ] You become angered at intolerance and bigotry.
[ ] You can watch both horror and romantic comedy without being phased.
[x] Hats, ties and accessories can make the outfit.
[ ] You wouldn’t care much if you were the opposite sex.
[ ] You've been mistaken for the opposite sex.
[ ] You can cook and play sports.
[ ] You've had friends of all genders growing up.
[x] You think everyone should be free to express themselves.
[ ] People, and not what is in their pants, is most important.
[x] You make up your own manners as you go along.
[x] Variety is good.
[x] You regularly question outdated social customs and rules.
[x] You use things made for the opposite sex if you feel like it without issue.
[x] You think these gender surveys are silly.

Null Points Total = 11

Im a girl??

My grandmother has cancer too now. Thats 3 family members. All with cancer. I will also be alone for valentines day. Lovely. Im used to it.. Last year i cried myself to sleep.. This year ill prolly visit family.. Better than nothing




Happy Valentines day guys <3~! Love you all.

Why is it when someone gets close to me.. They run off. Is it their closemindedness? There are a select few who stand by me after getting close. My master Eidolun, His mate, Otto. Both as an example love me dispite my offsets. I know what they are. I cant change them and yet some people insist they can change me. My ex pet as of 2 nights ago, I fell hard for, Pathetically actually. Darkfox. He kept telling me he loved me, that he would never leave me no matter what etc etc etc. Yet.. He gets mated, his mate dont WANT to get to know me and decides that he does not like the idea of him having a master, so whats he do? He leaves me. I rage, push him away and ruin the chance of a continuing friendship. But I dont want anything less than what we had. So its no loss to me.

Anyway back to the situation I am getting at!

I can not for the life of me find a mate. The downfalls are there and I know them. Theres no fixing them. I am an Extrovert. I go where the social situations are. I am very playful and flamboiant. People fall in love with me on sight irl and online. Then when the know of my SEVERE downfalls, the fact I can be an asshole, a drinker (Non violent but.. annoying lol) possessive, argumentative, and a HUGE hypocrite. Ive tried, and am unable to change those things. Ive changed a lot. But those are not things I can change.

Most of you reading this are aware of my downfalls and accept me as a friend for them. None of you are willing to attempt to take this Friendship to another level. Note me if you 'Would If I could' or somfin. But otherwise, I am pretty sure I know why.

I am destined, untill i mature a bit, to be single. I have a loving and deticated active master and friends. And I thank you all for that. As for the emo journals of not finding someone and stuff. You wont see those anymore. i accept what I have for me and am happy FOR IT! I love you all. <3~

The Rules: This is fun to do. Just read the 'offense' and if you've done it, you owe that fine.

You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine.

NOTE: fines to be added once, not for how ever many times you have done it. And be honest.

Smoked weed -- $10 - YES
Did acid or pills -- $5 - YES
Ever had sex at church -- $25 - NO
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- $40 - NO
Had sex with someone on MySpace/Facebook/Bebo/FA? etc -- $25 - YES
Had sex for money -- $100 - NO
Vandalized something -- $20 - YES
Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10 - YES
Beat up someone -- $20 - YES
Been jumped -- $10 - Jumped? AS in a fight? YES
Cross dressed -- $10 - NO
Given money to stripper -- $25 - LOL YES.
Been in love with a stripper -- $20 - Hell No.
Kissed someone who's name you didn't know -- $0.10 - Yes.
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15 - YES
Ever drive and drank -- $20 - D: Yes..
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50- YES to the second one.

Used toys while having sex -- $30 - YES
Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20 - YES
Went skinny dipping -- $5 - No.
Had sex in a pool -- $20 No. Want to though XD
Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10 - Duh.
Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20 - Duh.
Cheated on your significant other -- $10 - No.
Masturbated -- $10 Hell yeah. doin it right now!
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend -- $20 - No.
Done oral -- $5 - Hell yes.
Got oral -- $5 - Yeah.. Dident cum though.
Done / got oral in a vehicle while it was moving -- $25 - No..
Stole something -- $10 - Yes.
Had sex with someone in jail -- $25 - No.
Made a nasty home video or took pictures -- $15 - Yup.
Had a threesome -- $50 - yup.
Had sex in public -- $20 - Yeah. With my master xD
Been in the same room while someone was having sex --$25 - Yes.
Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars-- $20 - No.
Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20 - Sucked someone off.. that count? Ima say no.
Had sex with someone under the age accepted by rule of thumb (half your age plus 7) -- $25 -Nupe
Been in love with two people or more at the same time--
$50 - Kinda am right now.. -.-
Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- $25 Never
Went streaking -- $5 - nupe
Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15 Nupe
Been arrested -- $5 Yup last week haha
Spent time in jail -- $15 - Yes
Pissed in the pool -- $0.50 *Flattens ears* yes..
Played spin the bottle -- $5 no
Done something you regret -- $20 - Yup yup
Had sex with your best friend -- $20 - Yup.
Had sex with someone you work with at work -- $25 nupe
Had anal sex -- $80 Yes sir.
Lied to your mate -- $5 Yes.
Lied to your mate about the sex being good -- $25 yup

Add it up and put it on your status as: "My Fine Is..." (nothing else) then repost.

<_< Just a little time passer.

I am getting tired of rainbow Yipper. New fursona is as follows.


Demon Fox. Black with intracate blue tattoos. The demon is known for having control over cold forms of air. Odd for a demon but none the less original. He his a larger fox than Old Yipper, nearly 6 feet in hight. Slim but well built. When he pads into a room the room drops by 5 degrees. His presence isent intimidating but at the same time its not welcoming. His eyes are deep black pools of darkness with tinges of red beyond the confines, looking into them is like looking into some sort of unknown world. His personality is no less eluding. He can be sweet and loving, harsh and an asshole all at once. He tries to put time aside for friends but sometimes gets distracted by other things around him. Hes emotional, very open about himself and a great friend to some, a hated enemy to others.

If you havent noticed, this sona fits MY PERSONAL personality more than Yipper did. The name is still Yipper Mighty! Just a new look. Enjoy rping with him. Hes not the sub yipper was.

5 cops came to my apartment. there were called after i was reported intoxicated walking into the building. The main cop. Yelled "Hes got a gun!" and pulled out a tazer. I slammed the door in his face (glass door) and got on my knees. Hands on my head. He broght the tazer to bare and almost shot me with it. Then 4 cops stormed in the door and fucking forced me into cuffs then took me to the hospital. Also took my gun from my apartment. BUT I DIDENT HAVE IT! Fucking... Im fine. Im back. And I AM:

A: Never smoking weed again.
B: Never drinking that much again.
C: Loling at how cops thought i had a gun.

so this isn't utter spam (EDIT)

Beginning of 2009:
Where were you?
Plowing snow in Cape Elizabeth.

Who were you with?:
Me myself and I

Did you kiss anyone on new years?
On new years day I went to the bar and kissed like 4 people lol.

All About You 2009:
Did you change at all this year?
Yeah. I became more of an asshole.

Did you dye your hair in 09?
Bleached it once. Looked like a Hitlers Youth.

Did you get your hair cut?
Yes.. Duh..

Did you change your style?
Growing it out now.

Were you in school?
I wish.

Did you have a job?
Yes. Same job Ive had off and on for 7 FUCKING YEARS.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
2 People.

Did you move at all?
Yeah. FINALLY.

Did you go on any vacations?
Regullarly went to mass and NH

Did you leave the country at all?
No ._.

Friends and Enemies 2009:
Did you meet any new friends this year?
Yes.

Did any of your friendships end?
Most of them haha.

Did you dislike anyone?
Hell yes.

Did you make any new enemies?
Like 30.

Did you resolve any fights?
Umm.. Lol Sure.

Did you grow apart from anyone?
Yes.. It feels horrable..

Did you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
a lot ._.

---

In 2009 I..
[x] broke a promise
[X] fallen out of love
[x] lied
[x] went behind your parent's back
[xxxx] cried over a broken heart
[xx] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[x] kissed in the rain
[x] slept under the stars
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[x] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed your life
[x] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[ ] pretended to be sick
[ ] left the country
[x] almost died
[x] given up something important to you
[x] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[x] met great people
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[x] was never home on weekends
[ ] got into a car accident
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[x] had someone close to you die
[ x had a high cell phone bill
[x] spent most of your money on food
[x] had a fist fight
[x] went to the beach
[x] saw a celebrity
[x] gotten sick
[x] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[x] made out in/on a car
[x] kissed in the snow
[x] celebrated Halloween
[x] had your heart broken
[x] had a stalker
[ ] mooned someone
[x] went over the minutes on your cell phone
[xxx] someone questioned your sexual orientation
[ ] came out of the closet
[xx] gotten pregnant (EIDY MADE ME HAVE A PANFOX!)
[x] done something you've regretted
[x] painted a picture
[x] wrote a poem
[x] ran a mile
[ ] shopped at Hollister or Bench
[ ] posted a blog on MySpace
[x] listened to music you couldn't stand
[x] went to a sleepover
[x] laughed till you cried
[x] laughed till you almost peed in your pants
[ ] visited a foreign country
[x] cut in a line of waiting people
[x] told someone you were busy when you weren't
[x] partied to celebrate the new year

---

1.Had your bday yet?
yus :D

2. Kissed two or more people in the same night?
Yup

3. Pulled an all nighter?
oh hell yeah XD summer = one long all-nighter for me. ;D

4. Drank Starbucks?
unfortunately.

5. Bought something?
NO. I bought absolutely /nothing/ all year. ._. *sarcastic face*

6. Met someone special who changed your life?
Yes. My Ex Kaze. Even if it wasn't ment to be in his eyes. It showed me what true love felt like.

What are you thinking about?
Working.. and getting laid.

Does your ex hate you?
Oh hell yes most do.

How did you feel when you woke up today?
Like I didn't want to wake up.

Your ex shows up at your door what do you do??
uhh which one? LOL. |D Prolly fuck the shit out of most of them.. Others.. Shoot 8x with my .22 and watch them bleed to death.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
No. Not at fucking all.

If you could change your eye color would you?
No.

Who did you last get into a big argument with?
My moooom. .-.

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?
Yush ;n; Do not want

Do you like to have long hair or short hair?
Long sir.

Would you be able to tell someone you love them, even if you didn't feel it?
I have in the past, but I won't ever again. x.x Bad things happened.

How do you currently make your money?
I sell myself on the streets.

Do you want to get married & have children one day?
Not really.

Which of your friends do you argue with the most?
Cross Exonar. Daily.

Have you kissed anyone in the last 4 hours?
Nope.

How many texts are in your inbox?
umm.. like 1000. I send and receve about 8000 texts a month. mostly using mobile aim.

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
Yesh, scared me.

Who was your last text message from?
Local dragon named Avent :P

Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
Lupine Silvertail

When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
3 weeks agoish

Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
Cry over the truth. Please. (DO NOT LIE TO ME MOTHERFUCKERS!)

What’s on your bedroom floor right now?
clothes.

Do you trust people too easily?
No.

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
There are things I want to change and stuff. But for the most part I am better off now then i was this time last year.

Have you ever liked someone a lot older than you?
mmhm.

If you had a baby with the last person you texted, what would the baby' s last name be?
-.- well id be the bitch for the most part prolly.. soo.. idk his last name.. And i wanna have sexums with someone else before him anyway. Not to say i dont wanna have sex with him too though -.-

Last thing you ate?
Pasta and beef with garlic bread

How many people are you texting?
right now? 4

Will you be in bed within twenty minutes?
prolly.

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Milk..

Who last said they missed you?
My mom actually lol

Straight to bed. i dont know what I want.. Will figure it out after I pass out.. Think i can..

That was a lie. Nothing new. Feelings of lonelyness getting unbearble. Torrented games can only hold me for so long. Going back to SL was a mistake. Most drama in a single day, rl or sl ive ever had. God I am pathetic. I look in the mirror, I love the way I look, I respect myself, I just.. for the life of me *snickers* cant find someone whos willing to deal with my massive clingyness. The clingyness gets worse day in day out. Hankering for a touch. Even if its a handshake at the bar. I need medical help. My parents say its normal, that moving out on your own can feel overwhealming, but they just dont understand where I am right now. I am on the boarderline, I respect myself so not quite emo.. Not capeable of hurting myself. But in tears every night because I am alone.

I dont know what to do. I need help. I need serious medical help. This is not normal and quite frankly i am teetering every night closer to that self harm point. A bad thing for someone with my history which none of you know at all. So yeah. I was there once. Medication helped. that was 5+ years ago. My body has adapted, the meds are working less and less. Every night I take them.. And wonder to myself why? when I know they dont help anymore.. This is sad. I am so pathetic. i was preteen when I felt this low. At that time. My parents did the right thing and hospitalised me for depression. Maybe I should do it. Maybe I should drive to Maine Med and walk thru the doors. Do what they did and get the help I truely need. Hah. No sleep tonight I am sure. need to work at 7. after work.. If this persists I wont be online for a couple weeks to a month or so, if thats the case I am in the hospital. And I love you all. Mike (Yipper) signing out.

NOTE: Sober. Not drunken depressive ramble. I havent slept in 3 nights, Cried and cried. sobed into my pillow

I got rehired guys!!

*hesitates*

For a day. Tomarrow. He wants me to work. But.. Can't rehire me haha. <3 love family. Got me 80+ dollars anyway lol

Well.. Ive been posting updates on my life. So why not continue?


Lost my job working for my brother landscaping. And like all the other times we have split ways, he claims he won't take me back. YAY for working with family. Right anyway. So I am poor again ^.^ *shrug* ANYWAY! I got my eye on a mate. Someone Ive liked for a while has finally asked me to be his mate. I am gunna wait on it for a week or two until I am sure he really wants to be with me. One of my shortcomings is that I am VERY possessive and easily jelious. I wanna make sure he understands that, he seems to. ^.^

Add me on steam YipperM to chat with me more often guys. I am on there quite a lot now ^.^

So. How ya'll doin'?

I'm doin good ^_^ my bday was last week. I am 22 ^.^ In the market for a pet after a fallout with my pet Zeek. Apparently a caring master is a bad master. Secondlife seems to be no good for me. Even my rl master agrees that I need to step away from it..

Still in the market for a mate. Just wish that what people keep telling me: "Dont look for a mate. A mate will find you" was true lol.

Fetish-off! It really works! Must see funny fuckin video. Furries somewhat hinted on lol.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tr5NOUMNptM