I realise now that I have many friends who care. Maybe no mate, sure. But friends are equal or even surpass mates in caring and love. I love you all. Thank you.

No matter how hard i try. No matter WHO I TALK TO. I am and have been depressed for the past 4 months. I am getting worse by the day. I can not fucking deal with it anymore! *teareyes* I just.. I want a fucking mate. Desprately. I want someone to love me to hold me and to give a flying fuck about me! I had that in Kaze. I dont thank I will ever find one to .. I just cant! I hear the same thing time and again:

Yipper your just too ....
Yipper you are just this
Yipper you are just that

PERSON: aww
PERSON: Yipps.. your just too..
PERSON: I dont even know what to say

I hear people who just wanna be friends, people who just do not feel that way about me. But love to hang out with me. I simply can not fucking deal with it anymore! Even the sight of a mated couple makes me die a little more inside. Jealosy running RAMPANT. My bloodpressure SKYROCKETS. Local furs, Long distance.. I just.. FUCK IT YOU KNOW! I CANT! NOONE FUCKING CARES, IF THEY DO THEY STILL WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH BEING MY MATE AND JUST WANNA REMAIN FRIENDS! ALL OF YOU! *breaks down and cries.*

ITS A TEST. I AM NOT EMO AND DO NOT THINK I SHOULD BE DEAD. NOT WHAT YOU THOUGHT!! BUT!! WHILE YOUR HERE LOOK AT It ANYWAY.. !!!

If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
****If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]*****
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]

HAVE YOU...

[X] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol
[ ] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[X] kissed someone of the same sex
[X] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[X] bought porn
[X] tried drugs

TOTAL SO FAR: 10.. Already not looking too good lol..

[x] taken painkillers
[X] taken someone else's prescription medicine (with their consent)
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[X] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[X] wished someone to die
[ ] seen someone die

TOTAL SO FAR: 19.. Thunder1 was 10.. Gee..

[x] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist
[x lol] received a ticket
[ ] been to rehab
[x] dyed your hair
[x] been in an accident
[x] been to a club
[x] been to a bar

TOTAL SO FAR: 28

[x] been to a wild party
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x LOL every night?] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[ ] had a spring break in Florida
[x] sniffed anything
[ ] wore black nail polish
[x] wore arm bands
[x] wore t-shirts with band names
[x - SADLY] listened to rap
[x - Stole it from Walmart] owned a 50 Cent CD

TOTAL SO FAR: 35


[x] dressed gothic
[ ] dressed girly
[x] dressed punk
[x] dressed grunge
[x LOL from walmart.] stole something
[x Recently..] been too drunk to remember anything
[x Recently when too drunk to remeber anything..] blacked out
[ ] fainted
[x Still do..] had a crush on a neighbour

TOTAL SO FAR: 42

[x] had a crush on a friend
[x - like 100? lol] been to a concert
[x AND x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[x Daily] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[x] installed speakers in a car
[x] broken a mirror
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[x By accident D:] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL SO FAR: 51

[ LOL Rap sucks.] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[x] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school
[x] had surgery
[x] had an injury
[x] gone to court
[ ] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire
[x] lied about your age

TOTAL SO FAR: 59

[x] owned/rented an apartment/house
[x] broke the law in the police's presence
[x - Open and not open relationships..] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[x] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[x] hugged a stranger
[x - At the bar a week ago lol] kissed a stranger
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed

TOTAL SO FAR: 69 WOO

[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence
[x ONCE.. Story behind that... D:] drank and drove
[X] prank-called someone
[ ] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[X] cheated on a test

TOTAL: 78

AND 3 AWAY FROM I GOT A TICKET TO HELL!

TAKEN FROM Thunder1's Profile who took it from Endra's profile.

I am not going to furfright, This may change if I find a room and come into the money, and find a ride. My license is suspended starting the 20th, and i dont get it back for two fucking months. Gotta love Maine. Fucking hate this state. *cries*

My uncle Craig just fought cancer and won. It took its toll on him and he will never be the same. He is a shadow of his former athletic self. He survived only to have my closer uncle, Bob, be diegnosed with terminal cancer. He has 3weeks to 6 months depending on how his body takes the kemo. Linked is a video deticated to our familys love and support of him. Please watch it. And know, that if cancer has not effected your family yet, It can at any time. Even when you think you triumph over the nastyness of it, someone else in your family could get it right after. It really is horrable.

WE SUPPORT YOU BOB AND LOVE YOU.
The video is a bit humorious and is of Bob fishing in his latest purchase, a small lund aluminum boat. Shows the humor of both his life and of my family ^_^
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ZLLfXDVVQk

I went to watch The Final Destination 3D tonight. Was pretty good. They mixed humor in real nicely. One moment your laughin the next a black guy gets hit by an ambulance. I heard good and bad things. Ill tell you what, the movie made me flinch on numerios occasions. And the guy who went with me is an AVID FD fan. He seemed to like it. Its a good see if you like grusome almost impossable death scenes that are in all the movies. :D

So. now that I live alone and like walking distance to anything I want, Gay bars, Gay strip joints and night clubs, stores, tattoo and peircing parlors etc. I decided to go with a friend to get a tattoo. (He got a tattoo. I couldent afford another one right now) so. I got a peircing. My lip. Yeah. My lip. Please insert sucking dick comments here. Anyway, so. Now i am a clingy fox in more ways than one haha.

Got my apartment. Got internet, Got cable, Got furnishings. I am finally living alone!! WOO!!

Going to sign my lease for the apartment tomarrow. Moving in on friday. The continuation of my storys will have to be put on hold untill I get settled. Wish me luck ^_^

Okay. So http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2624231/ is done. LOTS of typos. Kinda rushed. I need an editor. Anyone interested? Please read if you like good stories. Gime your feedback ^_^

I am moving in on the 14th. PARTY :o

Okies, I am going to try and make this brief.

Life: Got a yes on my apartment in Portland Maine. Will be moving out soon. Money will be tight. But I can do it. Wish me luck. So my independent life begins.

Concert: Went to Mayhem Festival. Over 10,000 People there. Got to see A few of my favorite bands. http://www.mayhemfest.com/bands.php

Stories: The beginning story is going well. Should be done in a week or two.

<3

I am working on a realistic story of anthros. The story will start as a research into how to give humans animalistic features. Progressing from there, the story will start getting into a struggle. Rogue activitys, Legal issues, and more. As of this moment the first story in the series to come is being worked on. Its a Journal format of one of the head researches on the 'project.' the journal will leave off only to have another story pick up and go from the research to the implamentation of the research, creating, modifying, and living as one of the mutated anthros.

The story will have Love, Drama, Action and suspence. The main charicters will be introduced in the first story. I am very excited to finally have an explosion of creativity. It has been too long. Almost 3 years sence I felt so good about a storyline. This is not one of the yiff storys. There will be gay lovers, but nothing so detailed you can fap to it. Sorry guys. This needs to give a good light on the fandom, I am Looking for charicters. Want to be in this story? Details below:


A few things I want of you if you wish to be in this story:
I need your charicter name, age, orientation, general information (How he interacts with others, is he a loner? Shy? Badass? Team player? DETAILS PEOPLE!) if you have a charicter backround do NOT expect me to follow it to the bill. The story is not about you. It just has you in it. Now that that is cleared up answer the following questions please be as DETAILED as possable! Note me back or comment here. Note is prefered!

Name:

Age:

Orientation:

Sex:

Social quirks:

General Info (Looks etc):

What are the DO NOTS? (Death, sex, anything you do not want your charicter doing):

Join my twitter watches to keep up to date and everything! http://twitter.com/YipperMighty

So.. a clutch exploding and filling the car with burnt and nasty smoke.. Sounds like a nightmare straight out of the movie the Hitcher. Well.. Happened. Got towed. Dropped car off at dealers. Threw the keys at the guy and walked out. My parents wanna fix it.. I wanna junk it. So who wins the arguement? Who do you think? So.. car has 2000 dollars worth of repairs to pass inspection in october. including but not limited to.. The Knocksensor, o2 Sensor, Exaust. And not to mention shit that needs to be fixed before it will roll without being pushed: Clutch, Clutch Plate, Possably the seals and the housing aswell.. Car is worth maybe 2000 trade. Worth fixing? APPARENTLY SO! My parents are arguing about it as we speak. I get to drive my dads 2006 GMC 2500HD with a 5.8L engine in it till they decide what to do.. That means NO dates, NO anything but back and forth to work.. Thats all he will let me use it for.. So i am basically grounded. Meanwhile, they will take upwards of a month, I am sure, to decide what to do about my problem. I have the apartment by the end of the week *Crosses fingers* and no transportation. HAHA. Excellent. Life Grand? Well.. At least I have a roof over my head and am ALIVE. But those are the only positives I see other than the fact that I have friends like yourselves and parents willing to actually help me when I need it most.. So.. Emo? No! Just a bit upset that when something goes right.. Something almost instantly goes wrong. I am pretty resigned to it at this point. Haha. Had better weeks. But could be worse!!! :DDD

Kay, anyone who asked whats up or whats wrong:

Lost my job, Owe 3,000 to the bank. The clutch of my car is going.. Will be gone by end of 09. theres 1200 dollars. The fucking oh-2 sensor on my exaust is gone, the knock sensor is gone, the exaust itself is shot.. Another 1000 dollars. I have 200 to my name and owe over 5,000 in back. I have no possable chance of getting a job. The apartment is paid for by my Social Security. But food is not.. So No food! Dont fucking come to me with your problems cause i got enough of my own! SL I will be leaving till this is sorted out at the end of the month I will be leaving sl and all other costly activitys virtually.

Okay..So.. I guess.. The paperwork was filled out. Meaning.. I got a call yesturday with a woman saying "Your application for Cumberland Park Place has been approved. Call us to set up a move in date." So.. My apartment is happening :o Now for the kicker. 5 hours later: My brother calls me and fires me for some stupid shit. So.. I got my apartment but lost my job. Lol.. Life sucks.


PS: Will still be moving out. I still have my social Security. But.. I have like.. NO SPENDING money at all.. Looking for jobs in my new apartment area as soon as I move in.

Apartment fell thru. Long story short. Paperwork never got finished.

BUT I have good news! My mother is looking at a new car and is willing to sell me her 2006 Toyota Camry SE with 40kish miles. V6 engine, Powereverything (Seats.. you name it) new tires, every optional feature from the factory for 10,000. The deal is that she will trade my 1996 Subaru Legacy L for her new car and take off the trade in value on the 10,000. Cant ever say my parents dont do anything for me as this car is worth at least 15,000. Will be nice to drive to Furfright in a car that I'm not worries wont make it all the way HEHE

This year is going to be bigger than ever. I will be there. At the parade. Followed by the Festival in Portland Maine. The parade will be huge. With a NINE HUNDRED foot long and TWENTY FIVE foot wide pride flag. (Rainbow Flag) held by over 300 individuals. The Leather Pride flag (Black and blue) is anywhere from 100-250 feet long and 25 Feet wide, although I am unsure if that flag will be here this year. It was last year. The parade starts at monument square and ends at the festival grounds at Deering Oaks Park. The festival is 1-5pm then at 8pm theres a dance on the portland peir with full bar for those 21+ (MEEE!!) and 2 live dance djs till 1am. Last year this parade brought over 3000+ people to portland from around Maine and NH. But with Maines new Gay Marriage laws (Thank you Governor John Baldacci for passing the gay marriage bill!!) they expect twice that! Come out of the wood work guys and join me and 10+ (Known) other furs at this great Parade, Festival and Dance June 20th starting at Monument square in Portland!

Links of interest:

Black Stones Portland Gay Bar: http://www.blackstones.com/

Styxx Portland Gay Bar: http://www.styxxportland.com/home.htm

Southern Maine Pride: http://www.southernmainepride.org/

DJ Dan C Myspace (Peir Dance DJ): http://www.myspace.com/djdan_c

DJ Rich LaDue Myspace (Peir Dance DJ): http://www.myspace.com/richladue


Below is a link to some information reguarding same sex marriage. The list of states is small people! But also notice the list of states that Recognize same-sex marriages from other states! That means if you come to maine and get married. Only these THREE.. THREE! states will consider you a legally married couple other than the states that have legalised same sex unions! This needs to change! Support us!

NCSL on Same Sex Marriage, Civil Unions and Domestic Partnerships: http://www.ncsl.org/IssuesResearch/.....0/Default.aspx

I would like to thank the people who NOT only said one statement or text face, or contacted me for the first time in months when I am finally in need of them, But any other time never even bother trying to communicate with me. The following I want to thank with all my heart and soul for supporting me in the past 3-4 days.

My Real Life master  Eidy and his mate  OttoLupo for allowing me 24 hours in their company when I am so down, and bringing me right out of it.
My closest and dearest friends  Stevo  Zeeky  Wonderduck  C_File  Recca_sen_li
My online Son  GenjiDodonpa
My online Sister  RoseWolfThorne

Those of you I missed was not on purpious. Those of you who helped me know who you are and I love you all very much.

I will not leave the fandom while like this. I WILL however be taking a week long break to look at this from a different perspective. I thank you all for dealing with my fucked up emotions right now. I need to gather them and put them into perspective. So for a week I will be on and off SL and FA. But activity with be minimal. I will NOT be leaving the fandom. Again. Sorry for the stir. I just need to collect myself and put my emotions into a consolidated lot. I have lost friends yes. But I have MANY others willing to support me. Fuck those I have lost. I dont need them and they dont need me. ^_^ Wow.. JUMBLE of emotions in me right now.. All of you who are supporting me at this moment I thank you ALL

Over the past week I have shown that I am friend to no fur. The fandom has shown me kindness and I say this with tears in my eyes:

I am leaving the fandom under the name Yipper Mighty. I may start again. Under a new name. After all I have tried in the past to love certain individuals. I have failed on countless mateships, failed my friends both close and distant.
Lol.. im crying now, Some of you I may give my new name IF I EVEN Decide to stay in the fandom. I will still be going to Furfright 09. Even if I decide I am not going to stay in the fandom.
I will always be by your sides. The beauty of the art is amazing. I know that changing my name is not going to change much. Which is why I am even contemplating leaving completly and am leaning toward that.
Maybe this is just a rough patch; Time will tell. Maybe I just need a break. Reguardless. I will be gone for a while. I have lost countless friends in the past 7 days, I know this is probly because of my own behavior. Which is the reason why I say I have failed. I am sorry to you all. *bows head and takes his leave with tears in his eyes*

Going to Mass at the Comcast Center to the Mayhem Festival. 2nd annual. I was there last year and I will be there this year! Interested in the bands? Check it out! http://www.mayhemfest.com/

I have finally found an apartment. Its nothing luxurious. But its mine. And mine ALONE. No roomates, No nagging parents. It will be hard financially. But I can and will do it! Right now the only thing I know I need is a couch and a microwave. I am also looking for art to adorn my walls. If any artist friends of mine wish to donate to this. Feel free. I will pay for shipping of prints/arts, but cant afford much aside from the commish i just got from SpiritCreations. Meanwhile, as most of you are aware, Specially locals and rl friends of mine, With my own place comes the possability for longer visits and possable weeklong stays from you at your latest convenience. I will not share the apartment with you PERMANANTLY.
That will actually get me kicked out, as rent is based on the number of people occupying it and on the lease. However, again, I can have a visitor for up-to 2 weeks at a time. If your interested in visiting, Let me know. I am now more than up for it. I will have the appartment in 2 weeks. I will also keep you updated :D <3 you all and CHEERS.

[X] You have yelled at an inanimate object for 'hurting' you.

[X] You have run into a glass/screen door.

[X] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle. (It was going like 2mph.. And I do it almost daily when shoveling driveways and stuff. Depending if I'm shoveling or plowing lol)

[X] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks.

[X] You have run into a tree/bush. (LOL!!.. Almost weekly LOL)

[X] You have been called a blonde. (Because I am?)

[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow. (FFFFuck.. LIAR!)

[X] You just tried to lick your elbow. (AND I dident see that comming..)

[X] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same tune.

[X] You sang them to make sure.

[X] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen.

[X] You have choked on your own spit. (Oh wow.. That question makes me seem REAL stupid LOL)

[X] You have seen the Matrix/Star Wars and still don't get it. (Shush.. Was eye candy though)

[X] You type with three fingers or less. (And am quite fast!)

[X] You have accidentally caught something on fire.

[X] You have caught yourself drooling.

[X] You have fallen asleep in class.

[X] Sometimes you just stop thinking.

[X] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you were talking about.

[X] People often shake their heads and walk away from you. (Coworkers do D:)

[X] You are often told to use your "inside voice". (ALOT! Fuck..)

[X] You use your fingers to do simple math.

[X] You have eaten a bug by accident.

[X] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important. (Shower LOL..)

[X] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.

[X] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket.

[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't.

[X] You break/lose a lot of things.

[X] You tilt your head when you're confused. (Its cute :<)

[X] You have fallen out of your chair before. (And have fallen over backwards lol)

[X] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.

[X] The word "um" is used many times a day.

[X] You don't know what "um" means. (IT MEANS IM THINKING!)

[X] You say "what" and "huh" a lot. (I have bad hearing D:)

Not only does this prove I am retarded.. It also proves something else. The fact that I'm Blonde. (Which i am LOL)