https://www.twitch.tv/qatia_shelby

I know it's not art but fuck it. And butt fuck it.

https://picarto.tv/Ymeisnot

I always feel like shit after I stream because barely anybody shows up on a busy day... Thanks to all 3 of you who popped in for a little while...

So. I haven't even logged into this account in like forever... that's because I'ven't had a computer and too many submissions on a phone is hard. But I'm back and gooder than normal ^w^

I got overwatch finally! add me!

I'm starting school soon so that's cool?

Lots of friends of mine are falling out of touch and the friends I'm making are all... kinda stupid... oh well... I can only hope tomorrows are better.

Came out to my family and doctors and everyone is on board. My dad's a bit of an asshole about it though...

Moved back in with my parents for the time being for convenience sake...

I THINK i got a girlfriend???

Got in touch with my biological family which was cool since I'm adopted. Weird and cool.

Not doing much art but I promise you'll be the first to know when that shit changes.

Bye now,
Q

1. Pick one of your OCs.
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your OC.
3. Tag two people to do this meme! (if you feel like it)
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal (nope~)


OC picked: Yme


1. What is your name?
Yme Isnot but if you say my last name I'll get upset and internalize my problems with you... So Yme will do just fine~<3

2. Do you know why you were named that?
*thinks* nope?

3. Single or taken?
Taken~<3

4. Have any abilities or powers?
I can sleep all day and nobody knows my gender?

5. Stop being a Mary Sue!
Fuck you! please

6. What's your eye color?
Cerulean~<3

7. How about hair color?
Cyan *smiles wide*

8. Have you any family members?
Rage and Twitcch are my closest friends so they're siblings~

9. Oh? How about pets?
maybe some day?

11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
I sing poorly in my shower then dance poorly all the other times... I also sleep a lot... a... loooot~

12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
Yes, but not on purpose... sorry...

13. Ever… killed anyone before?
*laughs nervously*

14. What kind of animal are you?
Cat~<3

15. Name your worst habits.
I have no sensors? My friends say its a problem...

16. Do you look up to anyone at all?
*thinks* Rage is taller than me...

17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
Yes~

18. Do you go to school?
lol no~

19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?
maaaaaaybeeeeeeeeee~?

20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
Me...?

21. What are you most afraid of?
Spiders ;m;

22. What do you usually wear?
A hoodie? Das really it... Maybe some undies and shorts if I'm out of th- yeah, just a hoodie~

23. What's one food that tempts you?
Salty foods are bestest foods~<3

24. Am I annoying you?
Not at all~

25. Well, it's still not over!
Okay~!

26. What class are you (low class, middle class, high class)?
ummm? no~

27. How many friends do you have?
All of them~<3

28. What are your thoughts on pie?
Bestest desert food~

30. Favorite drink?
umm? *looks around* Ginger Ale at the moment...

31. What's your favorite place?
Seattle~<3

32. Are you interested in anyone~?
More than a few >w<

33. That was a stupid question.
Nope <w>

34. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
No~

35. What's your type?
Dark/psychic type~

36. Any fetishes?
Yesssss~!

37. Seme or uke?
Whichever is sub~

38. Camping or indoors?
Indoors. Like no windows and the glow of a computer screen indoors~<3

39. Tag People!
*pokes Rage* tag~! *pokes Twitch* Grate~!

K bye~<3

UPDATE TIME! Wasabi Con was garbage and so is life. But hey, least I got my homies... sometimes... OFF TO NEGLECT RESPONSIBILITY!!! AWAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!

What con is it?
Animeland Wasabi 2015

Where and when is it?
Sheraton Denver Tech Center, February 27-March 1

Where are you staying?
Sheraton Denver Tech Center

Who are you going with?
 casadelarage  rofox19mgs96  anzhelika  bonfirerave Lesbian Mexican, and Toilet Decimator

What will you be wearing?
Probably a purple hoodie

What do you look like in suit?
Same as out of suit but sweatier and wearing a suit...

What do you look like out of suit?
Ummm, short, brownish blonde hair. Probably doing something stupid.

What will you be doing?
Probably wondering aimlessly, napping, or hanging with maids and butlers... Nothing new

Will you be talking?
Say something stupid and we'll find out.

Can I hug you?
Probably? Only if you told me that I said you could.

Can I take a picture with you?
It's not like you have a choice, I'll always be in your picture, welcomed or otherwise.

Can I hang out with you?
I will not say no... probably...

Can I buy you things?
Yes. always and forever. I am the embodiment of impenetrable carbon armor... (heheheeeee FMA joke)

I pooped.

Who wants to watch a livestream of me playing some video games? If you do, http://www.twitch.tv/niqshelby

http://www.furgather.com/Ymeisnot

It's furry Facebook...

Okay bye...

I'm sick and I only seem to be getting worse ;m;
I've been neglecting a lot of work, and this feels like retribution for that. Sorry for not getting shit done that I promised. I'll probably get done soon! ^w^
owo
omo
.m.
;m;
I really am sorry though. I cannae seem to get the drive to keep me going, though... so... yeah...

I've been tagged by  ilikepies

RULES :
1. Pick one of your OCs.
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your OC.
3. Tag people to do this meme!
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal

OC chosen
Xia

1. What is your name?
Xia ^w^

2. Do you know why you were named that?
It's a pretty name? owo?

3. Single or taken?
Single! ^w^

4. Have any abilities or powers?
I wish I did... That'd be so cool!

5. Stop being a Mary Sue!
okay omo

6. What's your eye color?
Blue

7. How about hair color?
Purple

8. Have you any family members?
None that I like to talk about... >m>

9. Oh? How about pets?
I am a pet! ^w^

10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like.
;m; Bugs. Das it... Oh! And meanies! Fuck you meanies! imsorrythatwasmean. omo

11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
Do sleeping and being petted count? owo I like those all the time.

12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
Not intentionally that I know of. owo?

13. Ever… killed anyone before?
Nope! ^w^

14. What kind of animal are you?
Kitty cat! ^w^

15. Name your worst habits.
Um... I'm probably too nice for my own good... .m.

16. Do you look up to anyone at all?
I'm too short to not look up at most people .w. ... Oh! Um... yeah! I look up to a few people. ^w^

17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
Is "sexually confused" an option? owo?

18. Do you go to school?
Hehe. No~ owo

19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?
Nope. I'm too unloyal most of the time to even have certain friends... .m.

20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
Psh! I wish!

21. What are you most afraid of?
Bugs... um? Being mean, making people mad, dying ;m; ... next question please <m<

22. What do you usually wear?
Nothing ^w^

23. What's one food that tempts you?
Fishies! ALL the fishies! OwO

24. Am I annoying you?
Not at all ^w^

25. Well, it's still not over!
Okay ^w^

26. What class are you (low class, middle class, high class)?
Can it get any lower than low class? Middle... I guess...

27. How many friends do you have?
All of them ^w^ we're friends.

28. What are your thoughts on pie?
Yes please. ^w^

30. Favorite drink?
Water is nice. I like sweat things like soda though ^w^

31. What's your favorite place?
I like heights! So rooftops and such ^w^

32. Are you interested in anyone~?
Nope omo

33. That was a stupid question.
Nah! It's fine ^w^

34. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
I'd rather take a nap. I prefer lakes because it's harder to get lost... .m.

35. What's your type?
Cute, smart, independent, and funny ^w^

36. Any fetishes?
OwO;

37. Seme or uke?
Uke owo;

38. Camping or indoors?
Indoors. ^w^

39. Who are you gonna tag?
If you're reading this and wanna do a thing, do the thing. ^w^

Tomorrow I'm a year older... September 3. I don't act older because I don't feel older, so I'll stay young. Don't expect me to change... like at all...

When one person says they're ganna...

So first things first. It's been a bit longer than I'd've hoped, but I'm here now...

Second thoughts have been running through my mind about events of late, and I'd just like to clarify my thoughts so people know where I'm coming from.

So first off, I have how I've been feeling. Oh my god can I not make up my mind... I swear I've gone manic-depressive or something because for the past few weeks, I have done nothing but cry and laugh and lose my god damned mind over everything I've been a part of. I just start to think about my life and I just slip away. Because of this, I've taken my reclusiveness and multiplied it by like 100. I also think this has caused or is caused by my inability to sleep regularly. I'm only getting like 4 hours every night, and it makes me worry because I'ms o used to sleeping for 8-10 hours or more... But going back to this depression at random times, I'd just like to add that, although, I'll probably never do it, I've had flashes of how I'd kill myself. I even wrote a poem about jumping. But you need not worry about me because I doubt I could actually bring myself to die because I really wanna be a robot and shit hasn't happened yet.

I play on a Minecraft server. It's the SoFurry Minecraft server, and I love it. It's fun and everyone who plays it is super awesome (except for a few that make me want to shoot my foot off, but even they can't seem to ruin my day). But lately, some of the people I like on there have been fighting, and it creates unneeded conflict in an environment I go to RELAX. I'm also kinda sad because I really wanna be on the staff so I can help people out, but I haven't heard a single thing from anyone about it, so I kinda just sit here cringing, trying not to think of the worst case (again). But it's whatever really because... It's not whatever, but whatever because I dunno... MOVING ON

Linkin Park's new album, The Hunting Party isn't as garbage as I claimed. I knew it'd happen eventually, but I'm FINALLY starting to appreciate the new album. It came out a while ago, and I wrote a review on my initial reaction, but I have to say, I'm starting to like it for what it is. It's definitely just another rock album as much as I hate to say it, but it's still good. It kinda has the feeling behind some of Rise Against and what little I like from Foo Fighters, and mixes it together with the Linkin Park I love. It sounds good after like the fifth time you listen to it, and there are definitely songs that helped me transition into it (mainly Wastelands because that shit is hype). So. The Hunting Party ranks a 4 out of 5 on the level of enjoyment, and I'd say it's about as good as Living Things (though not comparatively. They're two different sounds, but the level of enjoyment is about the same).

Other things in my life include...
Not going to conventions.
Not liking my family.
Being moneyless.
Fluctuating weight withing a 10lbs range.
Hating myself for being bad at dieting.
Lot's of- ... Actually, Imma leave this one out because I forgot that personal life is personal.
XBOX 360 is stiiiiilllllll broken.
Suspicious of my parents becau- Damn it. Forgot about personal life thing...
Being jealous of most of my friends.
Hating stupid people which there is an abundance of in this school.
Thinking about drawing stuff, but then realizing I have not the motivation to do so.
Hating myself in general for no raisins at all.
Hating my ability to remember things... Or really a lack there of...

So, yeah. I'm kinda torn between myself, and it hurts because as much as I love, I have even more pent up loathing crawling under my skin like a zit about to burst. So if I seem a bit distant, it's because I'm not in the best condition, and it's PROBABLY not your fault. I just don't have that good of an ability to care about you. I still appreciate it when people share shit with me... Which seems to be never... Imma stop writing now because I just realized that I'm not very tight in my circle of friends, but more an honorary member of sorts that everyone acknowledges as a cool person, but is kinda also the person they can easily keep secrets from so they do. I don't mind because I'm not as stupid as people think and I probably do know what's going on (Insert friend name here), but I'm not ganna say anything about (insert event) because, as I said, I honestly don't care. Congrats by the way (friend) I knew it'd happen eventually.

Also, Imma post this to dA too, so don't worry.

thanks for reading my ridiculously long post, just had to vent or something because FUCK ME SIDEWAYS I hate and love everything I do. Now go dedicate into a puddle of orphan semen you over appreciated troglodyte

Um? Yeah, thanks...
Ymeisnot

P.S. My sister got me this cool silver police box necklace that I actually really like, and it made me question my entire opinion of her until I remembered that she didn't know what a Grape Fruit was and she thought that werewolves were real things. So, as much as I love this necklace, you're still a stupid cunt Mikala. Butatleastyoudidn'tgetmesomethingfuckingdumbsothanksforthat. lol wut? I think I've lost sight of what I was doing... oh well...

P.S. (Part 2) There's a link in there somewhere if you missed it. It's hidden by as a hyper link, so seriously, read that shit. I recommend clicking on the insult thing... ANYWHORE, Imma go now...

Convention:
Rocky Mountain Fur Con

Transportation:
The power of "Hey can I get a ride?"

Hotel:
Marriott Denver Tech. Center... I guess...

Date:
August 8-10

Rooming With:

 anzhelika -The Pocket

 bonfirerave -The Big-Small

 casadelarage -The Giant

 spinningpeanut -The Random

 rofox19mgs96 -The Hipster

 ymeisnot -Himself

Height:
I'm Not-So-Wee, the other guy's an impostor.

Out Of Suit Description:
Hair.

Fursuit:
Invisible

Relationship Status:
Go fuck yourself.

Who Will You Be Spending A Lot Of Time With:
Myself if not the people listed above...

Are You Cliquey:
Fuck you randoms... Except  spinningpeanut because they seem alright...

Main Purpose For Attending:
I need something to stress over...

Parties:
Not that I plan, but that doesn't mean it won't happen.

Daily Activities:
Eat, sleep, computer, make fun of people, repeat.

Nightly Activities:
Eat, sleep, computer, make fun of people, repeat.

What Time Do You Go To Bed And Get Up:
Rise around 9PM and go to sleep around 1AM

Do You Talk Out Of Suit:
Yes I can talk.

Do You Talk In Suit:
Probably, but I wouldn't know.

Can I Talk To You:
You CAN, but try to do it when I'm not busy. You'll know if I'm not busy because I'll be talking to you.

Can I Hang Out With You:
If you're not Cameron, you have a shot.

Hugs?:
Why not?

Snuggles?:
I don't see why not.

Can I Dance With You:
You'll know when to dance with me. It's contagious.

Pictures?:
Yes. Make me famous.

Can I Buy You A Drink?:
You can buy me whatever you want.

Can I Buy You Things?:
I'll take anything you give me. And also anything you offer  casadelarage and/or  rofox19mgs96 because unlike them, I have no problem taking from people.

Best Method of Communication:
I check FB, FA, DA, Skype, and my texts on a regular basis. Ymeisnot.

Hey friends. I need a credit card to barrow so I can buy the tickets. I have the money, and I'll pay you when you buy them. Okay that's all...

kthanksbye,
Niq

Hush child. No tears now, only dreams.

I would like to start this review off by telling everyone who didn't already know, I'm a massive Linkin Park fan, and always will be.

Recently, Linkin Park release their sixth studio album, The Hunting Party. Most Linkin Park fans are in an uproar of excitement claiming that the "Old Linkin Park" is back. I, however, disagree.

The first Linkin Park song that made me acknowledge Linkin Park as legitimately good was Bleed It Out from their third album. I fell in love with it instantly, but slowly forgot about them until I heard a couple of their other songs here and there, all of which were instant favorites. This new album does have a couple songs like that, but for the most part, The Hunting Party doesn't give me the same feeling. What makes Linkin Park my favorite band, is their ability to put emotion behind their music without going out of their way or seeming "fake" about the experience. Their oldest works told personal stories that most people could relate to, and was the perfect blend of rap and rock. Then, after their third album Minutes To Midnight, they started to include less and less rap, and also began experimenting with other genres like techno.

This new album takes all the left overs of those albums, takes away the experimentation of genre, and almost exclusively turns it into just another modern rock album. And I hate that. I guess everyone has that one album from their favorite band that makes them just say "No", and with a band as inconsistent as LP, it was bound to happen. I always hated the people who commented on the new stuff, bitching about how they needed to go back to their old stuff. I hate even more that Linkin Park finally gave in. What make Linkin Park so great is their ability to interact with fans, but they always seemed to make progress in their music. Now it's like they decided to turn it all around.

Most of the songs on the album such as, but not limited to, Keys To the Kingdom, War, and Rebellion all felt like try hard screaming mixed with a heavy beat, overly distorted guitars, a distinct lack of Mike Shinoda rapping, and an over all feel like, as I said before, "Just another rock album". Not all of it was bad though. Wastelands is by far my favorite song on the album, and makes me feel happy whenever I hear it, and Guilty All the Same and Final Masquerade are both executed with what I've come to expect from Linkin Park.

Over all, the album wasn't bad, it was just disappointing, and definitely not for me. The shitty hipster fans that can't move out of 2004 finally got their album, and have the right to love it, but I'll be waiting for the next album, which in my predictions will fall into another direction away from all they've done thus far.

My final verdict is a 65%, 3 stars, an American D, a British B, one thumb up and one down, just above average. I expect better from Linkin Park in the future, and hopefully we'll hear more rapping from Mike, a little calmer singing from Chester, and maybe Joe will show up for the next album. Seriously, where the fuck is that DJ in the entire album?!

Maybe the LPU14 demo tracks won't be so bad.
Sorry for the long rant, but it's over now.

Thanks for reading if you did,
Niq (Ymeisnot) Shelby

If you hadn't noticed, I changed my icon to a cropped, scaled down version of http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13723756/ because I'm so proud of it. I also needed to get rid of the last journal on my page.


kthanksbye,
Niq

In whom? I don't know... I'm really sad that NONE of my friends come to the livestream... SIX hours of NONSTOP work, after school hours, and nobody said hi... I only got one response from a friend, and they said they couldn't make it... So... I guess this'll be my last time streaming art for quite a while because it looks like nobody actually cares to watch 'em... I'll just stick to posting the art I guess... So... Thanks for not showing up, and thanks to me for picking a stupid time to do this apparently...

SERIOUSLY! I've been streaming for HOURS, and the only person to join was some random guy who, although he had a great taste in books, wasn't much of a conversationalist... NOT THE MENTION HE DIDN'T EVEN SAY GOOD BYE... So I'm just sitting here, kinda sad, really bored, and nobody is fucking here... Please just drop bye and say hi... because I don't want to be here all night WAITING for somebody...

Today is a good day to day the day of the day. And There's nothing wrong with it.

I finally started my first real project here on FA! I'll be posting update pics on here and on dA, so if you're picky about one or the other, just switch... But here's the basic info...

I owe  bonfirerave most of the credit for this one. We were doodling a bit before and after the livestream, and this was something  bonfirerave sketched up. She then decided to scribble it out, and ALMOST threw it away. Luckily, I was able to trace the basic image, and tweak it a bit to come up with this image. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12306124/

This is going to be a work in progress, but seeing as how I don't have any real pieces up yet, I think now would be a good time to start a project, and what better way to do that than have a friend unknowingly start it for you?!

After resketching it, and changing some things, I scanned it and worked on the line art. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12306148/ And I'd also like to thank  casadelarage for the frequent feedback while I was working on the early parts of this.

Thanks for reading this...
Niq (Ymeisnot) Shelby

Just wanted to tell you all that I plan on being as active as I can on this site, and I also plan to treat FA like any other site I visit.

As a side story, I've had this account for quite some time, and I can't remember what I created it for, but I plan on using it this time.

Thanks for reading this.
~Niq (Ymeisnot) Shelby