So every now and then, I have a bit of Nostalgia for Planescape Torment. Damn good game, never finished it though. I stumbled on this lovely gem a few days ago, got a laugh out of it.

There is a demo of Phantasy Star Portable 2 available on the Playstation network right now. It comes along with free online multiplayer. This is my first PS game and I'm quite enjoying it. If anyone with a PSP wants to group to together with me, lemme know.

I was trolling (as in to circulate/move around, not make an ass of myself) around on the internet a couple of days ago, as I often do, when I stumbled upon this "gem" on Google news. http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/artic.....BAHO1E0CIM.DTL

Apparently, Prop 8 proponents are now shooting for the "Marriage promotes reproduction, and since them thar queerosexuals can't reproduce anyhows, they don't need no marriage" angle. There were so many flaws in their arguments that it was mind boggling. If they can come up with such convoluted logic on an issue such as marriage, imagine what they do in their everyday lives. So, should people that are sterile not be allowed to marry? How about people over the age of 60, should their marriages be voided because they can't have kids anymore? Oh, or how about the people that choose not to have children? No marriage for them, right!? People have been having children outside of wedlock for eons, long before there was even a concept of wedlock (which by the way, the Christians did NOT invent, despite what they'd like everyone to think), and they will continue to do so for Eons into the future, if we as a species last that long. Marriage has NEVER been solely about reproduction unless you're Mormon. Before the church wormed it's way into the practice, marriage was very much a political thing for those ancient people who could actually afford to do it. It was a way to form alliances, and transfer wealth and or power. These things were arranged and often there was little love involved in the whole process. So marriage has changed A LOT over the centuries, as it should, and it will continue to do so regardless of the desires of fundamentalist retards.

Honestly, I had completely forgotten about the whole Prop 8 scandal until I chanced upon this kernel of retardation. I'd already shrugged my shoulders and consigned California to being devoured by either the ocean or the San Andreas Fault, but they keep pulling me back in!

So I was browsing through the news on Google (about Prop 8 specifically) and found a particular article that I read. Well as I was going through the reader comments for this article, I saw that someone who was using an argument quite similar to my own mentality concerning the issue listed a number of countries that recognize same-sex marriage on some level. Lo and behold, as I went through this list, I saw Mexico... and my brain instantly exploded. (check here if you don't believe me. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Civil_.....ions_in_Mexico ) I mean, Mexico? REALLY!?! A third world developing country is more progressive than USA? Mexico had fucking youth riots and lynchings against Emos for a perceived connection to homosexuality less than a year ago, and now they have civil unions in certain areas!? How is this possible... most of Mexico is Catholic! Pretty soon, Americans will be illegally crossing the Rio Grande in search of better opportunities in Mexico.

I am stunned by this... what happened to my country? It used to be known as a shining beacon of progressive ideas and innovation, but now it's like a gramophone in a world of digital media...

Alright, so elections are over, Obama won, huzzah and all that, but that's not why I'm angry. You see, there is this little thing in California called Proposition 8. For those of you who don't know, prop 8 was a proposition created with the intention of overturning the Supreme Court of California's ruling that gay marriage was legal and protected by the state's constitution. While all the numbers aren't in yet, it would seem that Prop 8 has won by a narrow margin.

So California, how does it feel to be perhaps the first state to ever strip away a right that was granted to a minority group? Do you enjoy the sensation of going against the very spirit of the country? Do you enjoy being praised for this travesty by the like of the Westboro Baptist Church? Hell, they might as well permanently move to California, plenty of queerosexuals for them to target, with a majority of like minded imbeciles that won't give a shit. California... enjoy your fail, AIDS, Earthquakes, and very possible wide scale riots in the future.

For the Californians that voted no on 8, thanks for all the hard work, you fought the good fight, but alas fear-mongering and Appeal to Tradition fallacies have won this battle.

Okay, so I decided to try and sell some stuff at the garage sale that my family held yesterday. This one was part of a city wide garage sale, but despite that, we barely got any customers. I was trying to sell fourteen PS1 titles, five bucks for single disk games, and ten for multi-disk games. They were in fairly good condition and most of them still had the original casing and not a single fucking one of them sold! I could have really used the ninety bucks I would have gotten from selling them.

Hell, when you consider all the labor it takes over several days to unpack all the crap out of storage, price it, rebox it, load it into a pick-up, drive it twelve plus miles to my aunt's house, then unload it, unpack it, set it out, and then repeat the process again for another one or two pick-up loads, you kinda expect to make a decent amount of money. Even my mother and aunt were remarking about how horrible this garage sale was compared to their last one, they figured that it was because they didn't put any signs out this time.

Well.. maybe the one that they're planning for my grandmother's in a few weeks will turn out better, although I'm not getting my hopes up, considering that she lives in the boonies.

After what seemed like a solid week of bad luck (not being able to fully load youtube vids, my internet connection going dead for 6 hours, my comp going haywire, and then being ill just yesterday), it would seem that my luck is starting to turn around. Thanks to the much appreciated help from  tabibito my comp is no longer as fucked as it was before, the sound card (or the drivers) is still messed up, but hopefully Tabby's method will work on that too. So anyways, go to  tabibito 's page, watch him, favorite his artwork, and give him much mouth love!

It seems that this past week has been just about nothing but bad luck for me. To make a long story short, my comp is screwed and there is no way for me to reinstall crappy Windows ME, due to my cd drive also being screwed.

I can still browse the web and chat on messengers, but it's tedious since the mouse isn't working in Normal mode, so I have to navigate pages with the tab and arrow keys.

I just figured I'd let everyone know why I won't be around much for awhile. Now I need to contact my friend to find out how much it's going to cost to build a new comp with windows XP in it.

http://www.spikedhumor.com/articles.....d_Sausage.html

I do believe this video speaks for itself.

Well, I found this video on Ebaums world that is really intresting. I didn't know water buffalo, or other herding prey species for that matter behaved like this.

http://emuse.ebaumsworld.com/video/watch/22131

So the moral of the story? Don't fuck with the Water Buffalo Mafia.

I'm sure that you guys have all seem the vast assortment of lovely pictures that /b/etards enjoy using against the furry fandom, in particular, the "Yiff in Hell Furfags" pictures. Well, it got me to thinking, if all furries are going to go to hell, and thus Yiff there, then does that mean that the /b/etards will be getting copious amounts of furry spooge milk shakes and dicks up the ass when they die? They definitely aren't going to heaven with the way they act in their thoughtless quest for 'lulz', so I guess that for the rest of eternity their 'punishment' will be to get screwed by that which they ridiculed in life, ah... don't you just love karma?

Just a thought.

1. Do you like animals?
---Well of course I like animals, if I didn't, it wouldn't really make sense that I'm a fur, would it?

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
---Um.... I don't believe that I have.

3. Are you athletic?
---Not in the least

4. Are you: thin, fat, athletically built etc:?
---Fat *weep*

5. How much do you weigh?
---I'm not sure without finding a scale to check, most likely close to 300 pounds... I really need to start exercising...

6. What's your height?
---6'4" or 6'5"

7. Shoe size?
---16 male

8. Girls- are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
---I have a cock....

9. Guys- Are you girly, or guyish?
---People often mistake me for a girl at first glance, I think it's the long hair, personally, I don't think I have a very womanly figure.

10. How old are you?
---20

11. When's your birthday?
---November 20th

12. Do you like to receive giftart?
---I wouldn't know, most of the art I've ever gotten would be considered requests, or commissions.

13. Are you sociable?
---Well it all depends, but generally.... no.

14. Do you have many friends?
---I have plenty of friends to satisfy me, but I never get to spend time with them.

15. What's your nationality?
---Oh dear.... English, Native American, um... I have no idea beyond those two.

16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
---Honestly? Not so much, most of my conversations over a phone consists of silence and breathing since I tend to be doing something while on the phone.

17. Are you single or taken?
---Well.... I'd like to think that I'm taken, but my taker isn't so sure *grins*

18. Do you eat meat?
---Oh meat... how I love thee.

19. Are you paranoid?
---Not really

20. Do you read a lot?
---Tons, and if I manage to get a good book, I can tune out the rest of the world while reading it.

21. Do you listen to music, what kind?
---I do listen to music, Celtic, J-pop, Techno, New Age, all kinds of stuff really.


22. Do you play any instruments?
---Well I DO have 7 years experience playing a Baritone, but alas those classes are going to waste since I don't have an instrument of my own.

23. How long have you been drawing?
---Well I've been drawing since childhood, like just about everyone else, but not with the dedication to be good at it.

24.What’s the meaning of life?
---There's a meaning to life?!? Just kidding, um... I guess it would be to have fun and enjoy what little bit of time you have on this earth (I really should take my own advice sometimes...)

As I was reading through my e-mail, I saw a new Iron Realms news letter, so I checked that out and skimmed it briefly. That's when I noticed a little part advertising a new graphical mud currently in the works called Earth Eternal, so I checked that out and it looks very interesting. Basically, it's a high fantasy world set on Earth, complete with the real counties, monuments, and the like. The difference? Man kind has killed itself off, the world is run by Anthropomorphic races of animals, and the gods (what few are left) seem to be very direct with their desires. I don't know what the graphical requirements will be, but I do know that I will at least look into this game when it is released. I suggest that you guys check it out, you might be interested. http://www.eartheternal.com/

So I've recently been playing Furcadia, so if anyone wants to talk to me, just give me a shout, it shouldn't be TOO hard to find me, my name should be obvious after all.

Fair warning, this is very long, so if you have a short attention span or just don't want to read this, turn back now.

Just some things that are fucking with my Chi at the moment. Alright, so I play this MUD called Imperian, and I play a Lycaean character (big surprise). Well any ways, theres this whole crazy event going on with invading ogres and orcs that are summoning demons and raising the dead and all that stuff. These bastards are really nasty, especially for someone like me who has like NO healing system and no coding knowledge to make such a system. Now this wouldn't be so bad if there weren't so god damned many of them with more coming constantly, most of the time I can't even move my character out of his home council because the forests are filled with demons, and goblins in very large amounts, and to top it off there is a certain type of demon-esque creatures called a Pitwyrm Queens or something of the sort. What's so bad about them? They start fires, which quickly spread of other rooms and don't stop until doused with a bucket full of water, the area is flooded, or a bonder with Ice-wyrm puts the fires out, and when you kill one of them they release a random, but usually very large amount of wyrm larvae.

But this isn't really what's making me angry concerning Imperian, despite how many times my character has been raped by these damned things. No, what pisses me off are these elitist bastards on the forums starting threads like "Should Celidon be DESTROYED?" Celidon is my character's home council, and just about everyone seems to hate it, why you ask? Is it an overbearing, militant group? No, if anything, we try to avoid conflict like a homophobe in San Francisco avoids the Castro. That is the main reason we're hated, because most of us are not competent fights and thus avoid conflict and pvp, which to these prinks is the core of the game, and maybe the conflict is, but personally, I don't like being involved in it. I just want to be left alone to explore the world, role play, and just do my own thing.

But NOOO! I have to worry about anti-magick, religious zealots from the desert (my, how that sounds familiar) trying to exterminate the 'taint', aka magick, Cannibalistic barbarians from the black pines of the north who don't like magick either, and now most likely the City of Kinsarmar, and the council of Khandava, who hate demonic guilds, which my guild is sadly one of because 'we don't reject demons, so therefore we must be for them'. Isn't that lovely logic right there?

That is what the head God (admin) Avasyu used to justify the Wytchen being shafted into the Demonic circle. That's the kind of logic that a Christian uses for people that attend gay pride parades, the type of logic that states "If you're at a pride parade then you MUST be gay!" Naturally, I was quite upset about this, as were others, and we even expressed it to our Patron God, who is really nice for a God of death, though I don't think any of my encounters with him have been IC. It didn't change anything though and we pretty much had to take it, and you want to know something that just poured salt into an open wound?

The Hunters and Arboreals being offered a choice! They got a nice little referendum asking what they wanted their guild's stance to be. The majority of the hunters voted anti-magick, since the majority of the guild with the ability to vote in referendums consisted of anti-magick people, so they got their own little class called the Outriders that got all the skills of the hunters, minus the new magickal ones. That pissed me off for quite awhile? What made them so special? Why didn't the Wytchen get a choice?

Later on Thanatos (current wytchen patron god) told us that we would be going demonic because the majority of our members were in Stavenn. So being the kind of guy I am, I checked that myself, and while the single city with the most wytchen members was indeed Stavenn. Celidon (a magickal council) wasn't far behind, and combined with Kinsarmar and Khandava had more members belonging to anti-demon groups. That's not even counting the 300+ members who didn't even HAVE a citizenship since they don't want to deal with the pain of being in a city or council. So we got shafted again.

Then they later came out with professions, which allows you to learn the skills of any and all classes in your guild's circle. Oh lucky me, on top of the spiritual arts of wytchcraft I can learn the art of Summoning Demons, defiling corpses, being a super stealth assassin, or an overbearing dark knight with an angry dog, just what I wanted, undoubtedly evil powers that would screw my rp and don't mesh well with my personality. So I can't use the profession system unless they release a guild in the demonic circle with skills that don't involve the summoning of demons, manipulation of bodies and the devouring of certain organs to gain some fucked up power ups.

After THAT they released an affinity system, which is supposed to discourage rogues who want to cross over into a different circle without quitting their class. How does this affect my character, a guilded Wytchen? He lives in Celidon, an anti-demon council, so he gets a permanent penalty for incompatible citizenship as long as he's Celidonian, then he gets a penalty for being in a magick area, then there is the organization members currently online penalty which goes into effect if there aren't enough wytchen online. Then there is the penalty for using magickal Armour, which quite frankly is better then demonic bone Armour that doesn't do anything that can help him. My character can't even be in his house, in a village that he is a governor of, without these damned penalties. I'm being punished for being outside of the mold, so to speak.

Some of you may be thinking, why don't you just have your character join a guild in a different circle? The answer is because I won't fit in anywhere else (my personality is my character's personality for the most part). The wytchen are the only family he really has, and he has far too much pride to go to an opposing faction, specifically the anti-magick side, where they would kill him several times in painful, humiliating ways to 'cleanse' him of the 'taint'.

Example? Antioch is infamous for casting converts from the 'tainted' side into the Demon's Gate, an over glorified bon fire, and letting them burn to death in 'the holy flames of Baar, God of Suns' to purify them. Oh, and I forgot to mention that the Anti-magick faction contains some of the worst, most inconsiderate pricks I've ever known.

These changes have made me feel alienated and depressed, and I just can't play like I used to when I first got into it and didn't feel trapped in a role that's being forced on me.

Something else that really bugs me about Imperian are some of the gods, who's stances, in my opinion at least, make them hypocritical considering the things they're supposted to symbolize. Shallah, the Lady of Peace and Love is Anti-magick, the very embodiment of peace itself is against magick, and thus a part of an endless war, this makes no sense to me at all. Vahin, the Protector, god of justice, is anti-magick. His stance violates the very definition of Justice, the fair, moral, and impartial treatment of all persons, especially in law. This is an especially bitter blow to my character, as justice is very importent to both him and myself. And Vahin's Followers? Oh don't me started on them.

The second thing that upsets me? I was in a rare playful mood a few minutes ago, but I'm so tired now that it's a major waste. I think I've said just about all that I want to expend the energy saying, so I'm just going to go to bed now.

Back again, Yoji's back, tell a friend!

But seriously, I just now got internet hooked up at the new house. You guys have been busy it seems, because I have alot of stuff in my inbox, it took me quite awhile just to clear out the journals, going though 555 submissions is gonna take awhile, especially since I'll be looking at almost all of them!

Well, I'm 20 now, and I had a nice christmas, got some clothes, Okami (which is really intresting), Guitar Hero 2, and the Devil May Cry 5th Anniversary Collection. Not as big a christmas as I've had in the past, but I'm happy with it.

I usually don't do these things, but I figured, why not?

(Stolen from Inflamed-Iron)

1. Why did you add me to your watch?

2. What about my art do you like?

3. What about my art DON'T you like?

4. Do you consider us friends? How close are we? Would you LIKE to be friends/closer friends?

5. What is it that you like about me?

6. What is it that you DON'T like about me?

7. Pick an animal, a food, a drink, a place, a period in time and a word to decribe me.

8. Anything else you wanna ask me?

9. Have you ever at one point, hated or disliked me/something about me?

10. How would you rate my level of maturity?

*fixed who I snagged this from*

Alright, forewarning, this will be a journal with the primary purpose of ranting/bitching about my family and how they can majorly piss me off in the course of a single day, so for those of you who don't like to read this kind of crap, I suggest you go elsewhere. Since it would be very lengthy if I recounted the entire day, I'll just stick with two things that piss me off most.

The first? My older brother Jamie. We were at his house today, filling up water jugs since the well is screwed up out at our current residence. Everything was nice and dandy for a while, until my brother started picking at me. What he was doing exactly was repeatedly poking my sides and pretty much ignoring me when I was telling him over and over to stop it. I'm a tad ticklish and really wasn't enjoying him doing that to me, so eventually I got enough of it and exit his house into the pouring rain, him following after calling me things like "Hair Goddess" and saying stuff like "Why do you let things get to you so easily?" and "Your such a girl".

I go out to the pickup and lock myself inside and sit there for awhile until my parents come out. So as we're driving away, they start with the whole thing about "why can't I take a joke" and "why can't you get along with your brother?". They think that it's just precious when he 'teases me' as they call it, I disagree, and say that I don't like him picking on me. In my opinion, jokes are SUPPOSED to be funny, and being make uncomfortable isn't funny at all. Of course, my father decided to be a tool and say "that I can't always swell up like a toad and go hide." What else am I supposed to do dumb ass? I told him to stop, several times.

Now as to why I can't get along with him? Well... I suppose it's because I hate and envy him. He can be a total ass hole and yet people still flock to him and adulate him. He's constantly in a relationship with SOMEONE, and makes plenty of money it seems. I've had to live in his damned colossal shadow all my life, always referred to as "Jamie's little brother", always being asked if I would join the fucking football team and follow in his damned footsteps, so I guess I developed an inferiority complex regarding him or something.

Now onto the second thing that pisses me off. When one of my parents asks "Would it crack your face to smile once in awhile?" They popped that question as we were having diner at Romano's, my reply was "I will smile when I have a reason to smile" My mother asked "like what?", which I didn't get a chance to answer before my father started listing off reasons why I SHOULD be smiling. To him I said "The vast majority of my family are druggies, my favorite brother is a druggy."

My parents then went rattling off nonsense on how that doesn't effect me and that I will have to go out and learn how to deal with people sooner or later. I didn't even give them a full reason as to why I don't smile, I can't! There are some things on that list I fear them knowing. I don't smile because I have to keep a secret from my family that could possibly get me rejected if it was found out and near constantly live in fear of them finding out (being gay), the person I am romantically interested in lives 1000+ miles away, I live in the middle of the fucking bible belt, I hate a large portion of my family, and last but not least, I just look plain goofy when I smile.

So I've noticed a new banner for FA and it made me wonder, Why the hell is he in a bathing suit? It's damned near fracking fall for Pete sakes. But I will admit that he looks damned good in that swim suit :p

As I was browsing through nullenigma's gallery, I found a peice spoofing Lowtax, that fuckwad behind SomethingAweful. Feeling curious, I decided to do a google search on him to look for an entry on wikipedia, what I found was an entry on Encyclopedia Dramatica. Reading through the very brief post, I found an article on furries at the following link http://www.encyclopediadramatica.co.....ex.php/Furries

Reading through it, I found it to be increadibly bias and insulting. Even if I wasn't a fur I'd still have felt the same. Their overuseage of the word 'fag' is atrocious. I bet it was created by the tards at Something Aweful

I just got back from my first convention ever, and let me tell you, it was a blast! 4 days of being in in an executive suite with good friends that I've known for years, as well as some of their friends that I hadn't met until then. Our days pretty much consisted of wandering around the main convention hall looking at all the art and people walking around cos-playing, with my friends cos-playing as the Mario Brothers, a moogle, and a generic monk. While I didn't take many pictures, my friends took hundreds, many of which I want copies of, including the pictures we took when we set up plushie lovin' scenes with a bowser plushie, a generic white teddy bear, and multiple empty Bawls and Ramune bottles out of sheer boredom. I went to the con with 120+ dollers, and spent every last cent. I got a bamboo hat for 10 bucks that I later let a friend borrow, who lost it, a print of Vincent Valentine for 5 bucks, as well a a print of Cloud Strife for a friend, one large 'battle fan' which was a very belated birthday gift for my friend Nikki, it was 45 bucks, and a commission of my fursona for 5 bucks on the last day of the con by Prowl. His website is at http://furnation.com/ProwlsOnline/ . In return for the fan, I was able to get another commission from Aradia on the second day of the con. Getting it inked cost me 20 bucks, while it was very good, I didn't quite like it as well as the commission I got later. The rest of the money was spent on food I believe. I plan to scan both commissions and load them up onto my gallery when I actually get home.

Just a few minutes ago I checked 2 the Ranting Gryphon's webpage, wondering if he had a new dear 2 letter soundfile out. Well I was right, so I downloaded it and began listening to it. Well about 6 minutes and 20 seconds into the file he begins reading my letter, MY LETTER! I think my jaw dropped after the first few words, at which point I realized that it was mine. I never thought that he'd get around to reading it. The letter was about Natal-Circumcision (which I was a victim of). I'm still a little surprized that he read it, and I'm also surprized that he pronounced my name right, even though he did pause for a second before he said it *shrug* Oh well, this has made my day, that's for sure.

I got my old artwork back, and I'd like to give a special thanks to Pinkuh for that.

I just found out that Fur Affinity was back online (I've been out of the loop for quite awhile, hehe). I'm also pleasently surpized that upon my first submittion to the new FA has netted me 2 favorites, yay! I've requested an import key so I can regain my lost digital art and all that jazz, now I just have to wait for it to pop up in my e-mail, which is hopefully later today, after I wake up.....

Hopefully people will still like my art, I'm not a very good pencil and paper artist, but I can do some pretty intresting things with Adobe Photoshop.