well lately I've been watching alot of people and I've gained at least 20 new watches this month, I'm nearly at 100. :)
anyway I want you guys to know I'm totally open to making new friends, after that event of loosing an online buddy I've moved on, but now I don't really have an artistic friend anymore. :/
it makes me a little disappointed that I don't have a friend to collaborate or trade with,
so anyway feel free about talking to me, I won't bite nVn I have an msn, twitter (preferred), or steam. :) And thanks again to you guys for watching. nVn

wanted to move away that last journal, this is no biggy
been busy lately and pretty happy, in fact I've been really happy. :) I just don't have anything to make me feel depressed anymore,
anyway, just wanted to clear this up, some people are thinking I totally discarded my lizard fursona, thats not true I simply just have 2, its weird combining 2 species so I kept them separate, makes it hard to choose which one to identify myself with but simply its both of them or what ever one you like best.

anyway thankyou to my newer watches and more art planned soon.

I'll start on those commissions on the train trip tomorrow, sorry for the hold up guys. :)

I'm moving on after what happened I didn't take as well as she did... keep talking to me makes me feel better. :) anyway I moved some pics back out of scraps and into my main gallery. its pretty empty without those "pics", but hey! more room for new art if you had your heart set on those other pictures there still there just in my scraps because thats how I see them now. Anyway I hope good things will happen.. hopefully I could find a new offline furry friend, maybe be a little more then that if its a she.. heh.. I'm sorry for being all upset I haven't been myself for a while.. hopefully these meds will keep me happy, they feel like there working and I feel a lot better then I was yesterday..

anyway I might give you guys on a heads up on what is coming up from me art wise,
I'll be painting up a concept for a new character linking to a bigger project,
a few commissions..
a few more of those free sketches which are still open for those few new watches who missed out. (I want more birds :>)
a few collabs I need to finish,
and a few more other ideas in future~

A few weeks a go ive been a real pest for someone who was a friend here.. This was birdskull i was a fucking idiot because i asked her whats wrong been wrong? Why have you been kinda off when you talk to me? She replied that she cant keep up and she doesn't have to really, im just shortening it out... But still something was wrong and i fucking made another note.. I said that you have been kinda mean to me lately is there anything wrong? Anything you want to talk about? Be honest and tell me whats wrong? She replied and lashed out on me.. She didn't want to stay friends anymore because im to clingy and obsessive.. Ill admit thats true i never really gave her peace and I hate my self for this because I get clingy to alot of people I've lost a friend before for the exact same reason.. This put me in a huge depression and so is this.. I.. I.. Couldn't be more sorry to her I was really upset and still am.. To be honest I haven't felt happy in a long long time.. She made me happy and I got a bit clingy because she made me happy I gained a crush on her which made shit worse I ended that in a convo with her and I won't say more.. I still wanted to stay friends but like always I was still obsessive.. I gave her alot of art and time I'm a bit upset because those remind me of her.. I even bought her a game on steam... Im very depressed now about this and I don't know what to do anymore.. I'm considering on seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow to help me with this depression..

She has unwatched, unfollowed, Un-whatever and blocked me on many sites were she is watching me and refuses to talk to me...

I can't find anyway other better way to apologies...

I simply treat friends as if they were family I don't care how far they are I just care..

some of that convo I typed may be off I don't know I just don't care anymore.... I plan to move on after when I see this psychiatrist and try and change my clingyness to people thanks for reading....


also on a side note.. I paused a 2 char commission from  misscritter and she's waiting on an update on it. it was originally going to be a gift for birdskull but luckily she hasn't gotten around to doing it.. I would not have been able to look at the picture after that if it had birdskulls char on it... so I'm looking for someone who I preferred who has a bird char that is a girl but I could change it to a guy or a different speceis.. the picture will be clean and simply cute. so just let me know if you want in.. I already have an idea to a few people who were nice enough to talk to me after this.. I just hope to many people wont want in..

A few weeks a go ive been a real pest for someone who was a friend here.. This was  birdskull i was a fucking idiot because i asked her whats wrong been wrong? Why have you been kinda off when you talk to me? She replied that she cant keep up and she doesn't have to really, im just shortening it out... But still something was wrong and i fucking made another note.. I said that you have been kinda mean to me lately is there anything wrong? Anything you want to talk about? Be honest and tell me whats wrong? She replied and lashed out on me.. She didn't want to stay friends anymore because im to clingy and obsessive.. Ill admit thats true i never really gave her peace and I hate my self for this because I get clingy to alot of people I've lost a friend before for the exact same reason.. This put me in a huge depression and so is this.. I.. I.. Couldn't be more sorry to her I was really upset and still am.. To be honest I haven't felt happy in a long long time.. She made me happy and I got a bit clingy because she made me happy I gained a crush on her which made shit worse I ended that in a convo with her and I won't say more.. I still wanted to stay friends but like always I was still obsessive.. I gave her alot of art and time I'm a bit upset because those remind me of her.. I even bought her a game on steam... Im very depressed now about this and I don't know what to do anymore.. I'm considering on seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow to help me with this depression..

She has unwatched, unfollowed, Un-whatever and blocked me on many sites were she is watching me and refuses to talk to me...

I can't find anyway other better way to apologies...

I simply treat friends as if they were family I don't care how far they are I just care..

some of that convo I typed may be off I don't know I just don't care anymore.... I plan to move on after when I see this psychiatrist and try and change my clingyness to people thanks for reading....

its hard to explain.. I'll finish those commissions and keep contact via note.. and those people who I have contact to on twitter and I.M etc... I'll only access the note section. so you can still contact me.. nothing against you guys just one painful thing about this site.. :< I don't know when I'll be back I'll let you know..
I'll be moving all my art to scraps and change my icon.. I'm usually strong about these thing's but this was to far for me this time.

I encourage you to keep watching.. I should be back maybe in a few months..

title says it all  drummingbird enjoy my pictures. :P

I made this account a while ago  drummingbird because I wanted to reserve the username, its kind useless to me atm and I got ALOT of photos to upload should I continue with this? :) I'll also add music when I get my drum set fixed and tuned up (because it sounds tragic atm XD) so any feedback about this? :)
not forcing you to watch it, But can watch if you want to see my crazy photos. :>