Been MIA for a while, but still alive and here! Working a lot. I got sober which helped change life for the good in a lot of ways. I am starting a new job in process managment soon. I hope you all are well and miss you peeps!

Hugs!

Hello wonderful peoples =)

I hope you all are doing well. Things have been on the up and up for me lately, I am very thankful to say. I am starting a new FT job on the 22nd of AUG, and I am very excited. I will be going back into the corp auto industry sorta (dealership software platforms) and doing process and relationship management. My husband and I will be super thankful once I get my first paycheck for sure haha!

I had my surgery back in June 2022, and so far have lost about 25lbs or so. I am sleeping so much better, my acid issues have gone away, and over all Im feeling much more healthy.

I have been working on my sobriety( alcohol) for a while now, a few years. I had a small lapse of about 3 days and then got back on track. The booze does NOT agree with me anymore since my surgery and helps that much more for me to stay away from it.

Since my TMS therapy, my depression has been slim to none. Since I am Bi Polar type 2( bi polar depressive) I can have my small dips, however nothing that cant be managed pretty quick.
If you struggle with depression and meds just don't work, I HIGHLY suggest TMS therapy. I have done 2 rounds in the past 2 years, 2nd time coupled with being 100% sober and it has legit changed my life. I had struggled with chronic depression for over 7 years, and FINALLY, I feel like myself again.

Working on my art, I haven't done anything in a few weeks but I know as a outlet I need to get back into it.

Again I hope you are all doing well, drop a comment if you wouldn't mind and let me know how you are doing =) I would love to hear from yall!

Much loves to you all!

So... Ima exspress my opinion on CS..

Let me start off saying that there are many cute ones out there.. Like freaking adorable. I have a few myself(they were reasonably priced)

However.... why.. the FUCK would someone make one of these CS... and sell them for $500+ as a STARTING BID for an auction.... That is a rent payment when I first moved out of my parents home in 2011. It blows my fucking mind. It's fucking stupid. Sorry not sorry. I mean I have even bought some CS before... but nothing even close to the amt some people charge... FOR FUCKING DOODLE SCRATCH LOOKING characters. (<_<)...IM NOT gonna name any but you know what one's I am speaking of.


Next... WHY is it that some closed species owners act like they are part of a cult. Like brain washed obsessed with these species... and tend to have a "OHHHH you are an outsider.. poor peasant you don't have one! " *evil laughs.* Like, fuck you people and your overpriced and overrated closed species bullshit. The better then you attitude so many( not all) have because they got lucky in a raffle or spent their life savings on a single character... just so they can be part of the select few to own a "such and such design."


Fuck. THAT. SHIT.

Ok.. rant over.

This is a rant (=_=) just a heads up.


I know it comes with any art form.. there are always gonna be people who try to get shit for free. I also know that it's best to just block them after saying no. However it blows mind just how freaking audacious some people can freaking be.

Like ANY time I buy art, I pay ASAP, and in full normally unless the artist only wants the down payment. People work hard for art( as I have found out all the more with me getting into it myself) and they should be paid for it. Their time matters and making art is a wonderful skill worth paying for.

But it NEVER fails... I will have people message me for a for art... some are like ... could you just do this one for free? Lol...No...No I won't

What also pisses me off? When you offer to do free art for someone( just for drawing practice) and they have the balls to give you the most complicated request.

Like I offered a chibi Doodle.... NOT A FULL BODY CUSTOM WITH ACCESSORIES AND OUTFITS..... Like YOU LITTLE sh-... ugh. I just shake my head and say no.. but still they ask.... ggrr...


Now art trades? LOVE those. Always down if anyone wants to normally.

Anyways that's my rant. Hope it was at least entertaining.

My bariatric surgeon visited me this morning and told me their evaluation of what's all going on. They said they don't believe it to be a full bowl obstruction, and that it's just really bad inflimation around where my pouch and bowl join one another. He let me go home with some extra meds and to be back on eating clear liquids for a few days.

Best news is NO 2nd surgery! I'm not in very much pain anymore either so yay!!

Can't wait to be home with my babys!


Thank you all for your kind vibes, thoughts, messages, and prayers (^_^) they truly mean the world to me and I'm so thankful to know yall!

I started having complications yesterday... I couldn't keep any liquids down and my stomach wasn't draining or digesting food or liquids.

Even a few sips of water would not stay down and soon pain started throbbing under my diaphram.

After a number of test and a CT scan it was found I have a blockage/object obstructing/ keeping my stomach from draining food or liquids.

So they are keeping me over night and my surgeon will meet with me in the morning and go over what will happen next..... I REALLy do not want to have surgery again. Twice in 1 week. However this has to be fixed some how.

Prayers and good vibes are appreciated. I'm in pain. I'm tired... im scared... I wanna be home with my hubby and babies. =(

Sigh... I will keep yall updated

Im home now, on pain meds but still sore as hell. Thank you everyone for your thoughts, prayers, and positive vibes =)

This is gonna be an interesting ride the next 2 months recovering.

Hugs and High fives

-Yuna

They are here on my TH https://toyhou.se/Yuna_Hikkari_ko/c.....folder:3225259

most are under $10 USD or 1200 DA pts.

Please take a look!

Hey everyone, I hope you are all doing well. I am doing alright, have a lot of things going on at the moment and felt like writing a journal about some of it.

My surgery is a week away now, doing the pre opp diet is interesting.. Hard going without sugar and carbs but gotta do what I gotta do lol! I have been waiting on it for months now.. and now that its finally here I have a bit of nerves going on.

Im trying to distract myself from them by doing art and doing some projects around the house. If anyone is up for doing an art trade lemme know, I would love to have some things to work on and occupy my mind.

Finances are tight at the moment, due to the surgery and such and its a bit frustrating. I always try and get the best of the best food and stuff for my furbabys.. but right now I feel like I might need to down grade to other less expensive brands for a little while. Which sucks because I really don't wanna do it... but then I recall the days where some times money was tight growing up and we had to eat pb and butter sandwiches or ramen noodles for a week till pay day. We always at least had something to eat, so I shouldn't feel like a bad pet momma for doing the same right?


I am trying to sell some of my characters on Toyhouse to get some funds to help things out, but its hard as hell to sell characters or art period lol My wonderful artist friends I applaud you greatly for those who do art for a living..

I may have to get a job here in a month or two to help with the finances. Mind you I have worked for 18 years now, and only this year did my husband and I agree its ok to take a year away to work on my mental and physical health. We have been able to do fine so far.. but with watching the days go by I know I am gonna have to be more realistic and go back into the work force. Im anxious about it though, last 2 jobs I had WRECKED me mentally, and I suffered break down after break down. Now I think... Will it be different? Will I be able to handle it this time finally? I guess only time will tell.


Thank you all for those who took the time to read this, I appreciate you so much!

Hugs and High Fives

-Yuna

Hello everyone,

I hope you are all doing well, and if you arent I hope you are doing a little better today. Just a Check in with everyone who follows me. Everyone is at a different point in their lives.. I know that. But if you ever need someone to talk to... someone to listen... just to read what you are saying even and just give a thumbs up. Im here for you love. I have had depression for YEARS... and only recently did I finally come out of it. i am bipolar depressive... Which means some times I will have those LOW LOWs... so deap you don't think you can see the sun. However I have been there before and I can see the sun again, just like you can. Please send me a message and we can talk about whats going on. No one should ever be alone. I may not be a professional but Im a person who knows what depression is and how it hurts... I wanna be there for you sweets. You can do this.

-Loves and Hugs and High Fives

Yuna

I have been MIA for the last year or so, I have been getting my life and shit together... a MUCH needed thing. I have learned a lot the last 2 years.. a lot. I'm still so happy I have my sona Yuna, and I plan on being more active on here again in the future. Comissioning some arts and maybe doing some art myself again. Though I haven't spoken a word in an eternity I hope everyone on here is doing well and hanging in there. Hugs and High fives to everyone!

-Yuna♡

If yall wanna get some amazing art. Check out my friend Pel98's page

She has an auction going right now, her art is amazing! She has done the majority of my recent commissions as of late *points to beautiful portraits of Yuna* (^///^) ♡

Give it a look see!!


https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34882343/

It's my 30th birthday Yall!!! Wooooohooooo! Time to party!

*Crawls back in bed with my plushies and cats.*

\(÷__÷)/ IM SO hard core crazy...(T3T)

I have been bullied on this site before. It sick but people do it. Talking bad about others indiscreetly or some other sort of foolery. The truth is such actions will only act as a cancer to your own life and others. I'm not going to go on and on like a river with this topic..but I will say that I have no desire to be around or associate with TOXIC PEOPLE.

TOXIC PEOPLE.. is anyone who undermines your heart.. puts out your internal fire of life...throws out your selfworth only to belittle you to inflate their own. These actions among many more can be found within any social site.....BUT THAT DOES NOT MAKE IT OK!

Stand up for yourself. Block them. Tell the FA admins.. that is what they are for. When you are unable to stop the toxic flow .... THIS IS WHY PEOPLE ARE PAID TO ADMIN THIS SITE!

Please dont subject yourself to bullying and abuse to "keep face," here. A cyber bully is as bad as a playground one.. only they hide behind a screen...not a human face.

Stand up for yourself. Even if it hurts. Never let someone else push you into anything. You are worth so much more then that.♡♡♡♡

So many hugs and loves to you all♡♡♡♡♡

Do any other furries...scalies..or other enjoy that competition?? (♡3♡)

BECAUSE I DOOOOO! Not even in a sensual way I just enjoy legitimate heavy lifting, not powerlifting persay... but heavy lifting. Most of the guys that compete for this competition arent super lean and buff like Thor(from the movie) or something they look like IRL lumberjacks.♡♡♡♡

Big, huskey, buff, handsome and just big. Chubs included.

I have watched the competitions since I was a young girl and adore catching the championships when I can.

I was currious if anyone else watched them.

I'm feeling my age today, and I really dont likes it (=3=)...

I just hand vacuumed my whole bottom floor of my house and used a tiny hand vacuum to do my modular couch. Holy SHIT BALLS my lower back is screaming.(T_____T) It really sucks because I use to remember 3 or 4 years ago I could go on a cleaning spree and do the whole house and I felt fine.

NOT ANYMOREEEEE(>3<).. MHNFFFFF...

I'm turning 30 this month.. .. gah.

The Joy's of GETTING OLDER...WHOOP.(÷_÷)..


That is all♡

I have commissioned a ton of art recently, and I have yet to put it up due to lack of time..(T______T) Mah bad everyone...will post soons♡♡♡♡♡

Yes \(T--T)/ .. sadly insomnia it is bad it would seem for this lynx. So much so it is 3:27am CST here and I'm bright eyed as can be after already taking my sleeping meds. Hubs and roomies are all asleep..even the puppers. So it is just me and my cats chillin..

*Looks over to seeing group of 3 massive maine coon cats fast asleep.*

(>=3=<)(=-3-=)(>÷3÷<)...<

---

Mah three cats

*Throws up arms in a "OH COME ON," fashion.*

.....\(T--T)/....

proceeds to listen to look for funny forever alone memes from back in the day

(v--v)......(=_=)...*le sigh*......(÷3÷) *click..click..click*

(^3^) "Hehe.. I remember that one."

Nowwwwww here I is here.

Hope you all enjoyed my silly little journal of nothing important.
I still cant sleep.. (T3T)... gah

-♡Y.H

I absolutely loath saying this.. it almost burns coming off my lips. *sigh*

.........\(> _>)/ ________---> ●_______|(<3<|;;;;;;;;;WHF Gurl!?!?!?
Dr. Hard truth. Me ^^

"You going on medical leave for 3 months."


......Im not going to fight them. Im not getting into why.


Just know I might be making adopts and art to help with bills.

- love you all♡

Link to my current adopts

http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....pen-Adoptables

Hey everyone,

I went on a bit too much of a art splurge lately. (^_^);....(T3T); yeah... I was a moron. I'm ok, just admit I went overboard. With that being said, Anthro Con is coming up in July, I'm seeing my friends and such there..and it will be my first time going to a furry con EVER. \(^//^)/

IM SOOOO EXCITED. I wanna be able to enjoy myself and actually not have to eat ramen noodles the whole time. Though I love dem ramen noodles (>_>);

Long story short Im selling some of my characters I have made or picked up to have muns for the con.♡

If you wouldnt mind taking a look that would be cools♡

Hey everyone!

My last journal was pretty melancholy(such is life if happens) however I am doing much better now. I was encouraged by my therapist and just based on passed experience to be effective for me... to remove negative or 'leeching influences,' from my life. Pretty basic right? Heheh...

One might think at the age of... wow...(@_@);..turning..t-th-thirty...this year...*trembles* I might already know that lesson by heart!(^_^); ...Alas... I don't... nor do I have it all down perfect... and I still don't know the secret to the power of the thing we called Gak!( as a child in the USA(<_<).... YET...


I am ok with all that. I am ok with being a furrie...scalie...thick and curvy avant garde woman and damn proud of it. MREEROOOWWWWLLLSSSSS♡

Hey all,

Sorry for those who have been sending me messages, shouts, smoke signals, messenger pigeons( ok the last two were a joke but still) and not getting replies back.. in a timely manner or at all. A ton of not fun shit has caused me to for me to go MIA.


(TLDR: Im stressed as hell, Ferret ish broken, trying to stay positive, Im sorry for not replying quickly I will try and respond to everyone! Just letting yall know why.. and that Im trying not to dive head first into ice cold depression. Then curl up into a ball (@_@)

I just got back from Japan, Ferret (hub)has a broken knee cap can drive or do much of anything and is in a cast. Im the only one that can drive around the next 6 weeks, and will be handling most of the things around the house( the house thing is normal but still.) Room mate this isnt working out but I hate conflict and not sure how to kick them out.. and they pay 500 usd a month. Mhm.. just hard to do. Have a ton of people pouring their shit on me.. friends wanting and saying they need or want this... gotta do that. People doing this and that. Caring for my 5 fur babys.. hubs... house.. everything.. work..


Im stressed as fuck..

So im sorry I havent gotten back to yall.

When you havent been dysphoric in a long long while... and mix mood is slipping into it very quickly. Its a harsh reminder that the battle for balance is a life long one... that still doesn't mean it doesn't feel like ice water hitting your face in the dark when it does. That cold.. dripping.. dark depressed feeling..and coupled with every nerve on edge... irritation.. over stimulation at the most random sounds or moments. Making you feel like someone is putting mosquitoes around your head on purpose. Mind running so quickly you can hardly keep up..twisting and turning with every thought you have down a deeper darker rabbit hole... thats the 'hell' that is a Dysphoric episode. It sucks. Im safe.. I'm at home with people who love and care for me, my hubby and our roommate. I just...Damn it.. I hate this feeling. So badly...

The joys of being Bipolar type 2.. 💔

Hey everyone,

Yuna here... *flickers scaled jazz hands* guess what!?!? Im Bipolar type 2, have General Anxiety Disorder.. yeah..! Whats that mean? Not a lot to most of ya who don't interact with me on a daily bases heheh..(>.÷.>).. but in all seriousness. Being BP is really rough some times.. the low swings suck ass.. and the high well.. you can imagine they are fun.. but they are always followed by a crash. What goes up must come down.. *sighs* Anways, pretty much I use art and writing as my outlet of expression and escape. Most of the things you will see in my gallery are things I have done as part of not only a hobby I love.. but also as somthing to help me balance myself out. I take medications.. go to therapy weekly.. and actively live with BP every day after having been diagnosed with it in 2017. Having G.A.D or general anxiety distorder isnt fun at all.. it comes up in situations.. and some times can be triggered badly due to past trauma. *Shrugs* My husband and RP mate and friends help a lot, however every day is a new experience with it.


So.. I'm a believer in that people are very complex beings... Im a scalie/furry.. and Bi polar type 2.. have G.A.D.. and an artist.. and many other things..

But most of all I'm Me <3 ...

Thats what I figure is most important to focus on..

Have an awesome weekend Lovelys!

*Huggles and Snuggles*

-Yuna H.