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New characters coming up
Posted 2 years agoSo, I'm gonna get back into drawing, and try to post more stuff in the future... I got some characters lined up. But the one i'm most excited for is:
Allison: Black Cat Busty Boy video game streamer.
I admitably have some A.I. Art of him that is going somewhat what I want, but I plan on trying to get something done, either by my self or through a commission of him. :3
Allison: Black Cat Busty Boy video game streamer.
I admitably have some A.I. Art of him that is going somewhat what I want, but I plan on trying to get something done, either by my self or through a commission of him. :3
Time to get back into practice
Posted 2 years agoENOUGH SITTING AROUND! It's time to start drawing again...
Beastars and Depression
Posted 6 years agoWell, like everything the internet does, following the rabbit hole led me down to the Manga/Anime, Beastars.
I don't wanna get out of this one, because it's just pulled me into the world so much... But more so, it finally helped me realize how depressed I am... I've finally hit that mark where I can come to terms with a depressions that's hit me down for years.. Ever since graduating college...I've been depressed...
College was the life goal I had set for my self in order to make my family proud. And I enjoyed only part of college... I made friends I could hang out with and play something as stupid as Yugioh while skipping classes, hang out and play games with friends, and got to enjoy things like drawing.. But once college ended...I graduated.....I had nothing left....friends vanished...my direction went no where only to go to the next pay-check.... I became a lonely person, with no one to hang with, and call my own. I bounced the thoughts from certain things of course, thinking it could be just the worry about family, or maybe stress about money... But the fact is, i'm just lonely. I have no more friends outside a small group I talk with online, I have no love life. And despite all this, after reading beastars... I feel...happy?
Weird isn't it? But finally being able to just...pull my self out of something so life consuming as depression can be, and finally realize how unhappy I was...I got some happiness back from that? I had the desire to finally draw again after five long years of only just thinking I wanted to. I'd think I want to draw something, but no desire to do so. I have had comics on my back log that helped me sink in time and be creative, but with no desires to go forward, it just dropped too. But now as I wait for the next beastars episode, or next chapter of the manga... I now have a bit more ambition now, wanting to go out there, try and make a meaningful friend, maybe find someone I can love.. Weird what entertainment does to us, huh?
I don't wanna get out of this one, because it's just pulled me into the world so much... But more so, it finally helped me realize how depressed I am... I've finally hit that mark where I can come to terms with a depressions that's hit me down for years.. Ever since graduating college...I've been depressed...
College was the life goal I had set for my self in order to make my family proud. And I enjoyed only part of college... I made friends I could hang out with and play something as stupid as Yugioh while skipping classes, hang out and play games with friends, and got to enjoy things like drawing.. But once college ended...I graduated.....I had nothing left....friends vanished...my direction went no where only to go to the next pay-check.... I became a lonely person, with no one to hang with, and call my own. I bounced the thoughts from certain things of course, thinking it could be just the worry about family, or maybe stress about money... But the fact is, i'm just lonely. I have no more friends outside a small group I talk with online, I have no love life. And despite all this, after reading beastars... I feel...happy?
Weird isn't it? But finally being able to just...pull my self out of something so life consuming as depression can be, and finally realize how unhappy I was...I got some happiness back from that? I had the desire to finally draw again after five long years of only just thinking I wanted to. I'd think I want to draw something, but no desire to do so. I have had comics on my back log that helped me sink in time and be creative, but with no desires to go forward, it just dropped too. But now as I wait for the next beastars episode, or next chapter of the manga... I now have a bit more ambition now, wanting to go out there, try and make a meaningful friend, maybe find someone I can love.. Weird what entertainment does to us, huh?
