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Tell me if it doesn't work

I'm just sitting here, eating my cereal thinking what would happen if I didn't give her that really sad bad note....and thinking about more self harm. It'll be hard considering that I'm going to Chicago today...I could have gotten a kiss if me and her were still together..It would have been the best time of my life. But I wasted it. I ruined it all. Fucking christ I ruined it all. I even held her hand that day but I still gave it to her. I don't think I really don't. I need to learn how. I felt so bad, when she cried I cried. I wanted to apologize quickly as possible, but I couldn't. She ignored me for almost a week until I messaged her and we talked there. Things were bad sounding cause we were gonna become friends only. As long as I still have her even as a friend, I'm happy. But you know whatever. I want to self harm so bad