https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55965327/ Front n' center. Giving some more visibility here, only twenty one peeps have poked in on it. So, why not give it a visibility boost as they requested? Give 'em a peek, they've got a pretty beautiful artstyle. Even if ya don't win, potentially someone to commission~

Shouldn't be spamming any more of those for now. Pretty sure I got them all. Aaaa. x////x some of them are huff.

subject says it all. >.>' gunna upload some things I've needed to for a bit.

So, let's get one thing out've the way. I'm shit with titles, so there you go. Though, let's keep a long story short eh?
Simply enough, my old tablet I've been using started going out couple days ago. Screen cracked unexpectedly, figured it was a battery problem.
Also figured it'd last a bit longer in this condition, simply put it didn't. A fun surprise for me at work no less.
Said tablet wound up starting to vibrate, while I was chatting. Mentioned it may wind up exploding on me, and lo and behold.
Said battery problem became an explosion problem! \o/ On the bright side, no damage outside cleaning up glass barehanded.

So, that moves me on to my next point. I'm going to be opening story/writer commissions, to try and replace my tablet.
It's going to be pretty simple, one cent one word. In example: 1000 words equals out to 10usd, equal to roughly 2-2.2 pages.
I'll be doing things in slots of three to start off, because well...not exactly anticipating a lot of people will want me writing.
I'll have an example up likely later tonight, as of right now this is technically my evening so stay tuned if you want to wait for that.
Send me a note if you want a slot, first come first serve. All kinks/ideas accepted, exception here: I won't use your character, or anyone else's.
The reason is simple, even if I know you well I cannot put words in 'your' mouth, or how 'you' might react. I might allow it for bound/gagged characters,
only if they're yours. As the main thing will be squirming/'struggling' and that's pretty universal in that position. :v

That said. Commishes are now closed. Reached my goal, thank you folks who helped out!

Removing paypal info, as I reached my goal! <3

Donators (Much <3 to you all):
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And a couple anonymooses who chose to stay quiet~<3<3

I know I'm gunna sound like a grinch or something like that but, well. Figure this has to be said considering
just how many people are asking me about wishlist stuff.

I will not be making a wishlist of any sort.

I get really fidgety, when people gift me things normally. It's just part of my nature, not something I can easily
help. It's how I was raised--earn everything, and don't take a hand if you can help it. I get it, a lot of people
want me to forsake this attitude. I'm working on it, to a degree with closer folks to me. Yet with those I've just
met, or those I barely know...it really makes me feel awkward. In a 'what did I do to deserve this' kind of way,
and being told 'because you're awesome' doesn't help that. It worsens it, in most cases to be honest here.
Particularly in ways of 'I want to repay' but typically, I can't. Especially right now. x3

I know it seems contrasting, given my personality and the fact I see no harm in giving gifts to other people. It
is, again. How I was raised, and how I've lived. Giving a hand, or expressing gratitude to those I've felt deserve
it. I realize, as well, that it's almost contradicting--if not actually so. Yet be aware, this is with people I've gotten
rather close to so it's a much smaller scale. This isn't an anti-x-mas rant, or anything of the sort. I know some
will think it's 'selfish' of me in some ways but s' how I am. 'till it clicks and my mind changes in some way, shape
or form it's part of who I am. M' sorry for that, but yeah.

On that note, since I highly doubt I'll be making a journal on christmas...

Have a merry christmas, and a happy new year everyone. <3

I know a lot of people are going to tell me that I shouldn't apologize for this, so on and so forth but...whatever.
Long story short, I'm going to be fairly lackluster for a while. I may have small upswings or downswings,
but for the most part I've just been hollow and I've discovered I can't hide it as well as I use to.
There use to be a time I could just sit back, smile and folks would just go about their day regardless of what
was really going on in this mind of mine. I apparently can't do that anymore. So, rather than let myself get
upset repeatedly with people asking me what's wrong or coming across an ass hole by accident I'm going to
cut to the chase here.

Things were going to be pretty awesome coming in september, with a very dear one of mine--a tiger wah by the
name Colvera was going to be here in texas. We were going to be able to hang out, talk and do all sorts of
things like we use to. Someone I've known for a few years was going to be close again, able to snug up and
game with, all that good stuff. He was an amazingly sweet man, on the antisocial side but that always just let
me tease more of him for me.

Between late sunday, the 17th and early monday the 18th while I was at work that very same very dear one of
mine committed suicide. During that time he'd sent me a text at work, to a broken phone where I only barely
managed to get the message to open. He told me goodbye, that he cared for me and hoped his skype
message went through. That it was the end of him, and he couldn't take it anymore. If that were all, I'd have
be able to cope with this a lot better.

Come time I came home, having bottled everything I could and praying to the stars it was just a terrible joke
I turned on my laptop and signed into skype. There was just one message from him, an apology that we'd
never see each other again. He confessed he wholly loves(d) me, and that it was good bye. Hoping that I
wouldn't be mad at him for it all, and that I'd take care of his soul because I'd promised. (We had done a
bit of permanent vore play, that finished but a week prior. Go ask about it, I'm not explaining here.)

I wound up checking the obituaries shortly after, because...I'm an idiot, I guess. I wanted to believe even
then it was a joke, or a sick way of telling me go away. He's listed, but to protect the identity of the deceased
I'm not saying his real name. I apologize everyone, that it's going to take me a bit more time before I get
myself straightened out. If I seem venomous, or it's something important and I don't seem to care just
realize it's not on purpose. I won't be outright callous, I'm just having a hell of a time and I can't always
catch my word choice in time.