I can tell you first of all that they are. But our story beings just a few short hours ago.

You see my mom was being all emo because of family problems that she is the cause of so she has no right to be emo about them... but thats another story. So I thought going out to see a kids show with the part of my family that she didn't alienate by leaving my dad would be a good way to cheer her up so she would stop playing the bitch every time I talk to her. That was the intent anyway.

Anyway, that part is one of my sisters and her son. Who is autistic and prone to being a spaz. So we went to see planes and there was of course much inappropriate talking on his part, but honestly I just take it stoically at this point. Whats the point of getting mad at the kid really.

After the film we went to a superstore across the way. I do not enjoy shopping. So when I got the signals that that was what they were going to do I made my retreat to the parking lot to have a smoke. My sister came out early because my nephew was freaking out. He then proceeded being a spaz and eventually tried to run back into the store, past a bunch of cars trying to park almost getting hit in the process. So we crammed the crying kid in the car and took them home. To truly understand the hilarity one must also know the thin that he wanted so bad was super mario 64. Which unless we've got a time machine its not going to happen.

So then he realizes that he didn't have his mario toy. So then he goes on and on about mario being missing crying and trying to hit me and whine me into going back for this stupid toy for like 20 minutes. When he got out of the car he had apparently been sitting on it the whole time. THE WHOLE TWENTY MINUTE SCREAMING TIME <>

Even better yet, at my sisters house I discovered he had two of that particular toy. ><

Though as I've said I take all this stuff stoically. Honestly I would have just forgotten about the whole incident. Though that's not where our story ends. No it gets better. Somebody called the cops. Even took down my plate number. So they show up at my door a few minutes ago. I don't even live in the same city.

The cop goes on to explain what the call was about and bla bla bla... and apparently someone also thought I was drunk. So, I'm a drunk driver too. The cop being just a few feet from me could tell I had not touched a drop, but apparently I had my eyes closed and was swaying around. I apparently look drunk just hanging out in the parking lot. Yeah. That something to think about.

My eyes would have been almost closed due to my forgetting my sunglasses at home. I'm sorry the world is so damn bright... and the swaying... still not sure where that came from. Perhaps it was because I was not reacting to the kid spazzing out. BECAUSE IT WOULD DO NO FUCKING GOOD YOU DUMB BITCHES. A regular spazzing kid you cant to much about and an autistic one is worse. Especially one who wants something that they dont even sell anymore.

So, that's the story. I'm going to assume that they are going to show up at my sisters place. No wonder lethal cop shootings have gone up in Alberta. Everyone's lost their damn minds.

Okay,Mr. Zack Snyder. Stop it. 300 was cool ten years ago, and the watchmen was pretty good. Though I probably just give him extra points with his use of Leonard Cohen. Though really man. I expected some sort of awesome re imagining of superman. Hell Christopher Nolan made batman more of a ninja. Batman + ninja + military hardware = good. The natural progression was to make superman properly ridiculous. Thats sort of the point. I would have fully endorsed not bothering to orgin-ise him again and just go for the gold like with a villain like Apocalypse or Darkside.

I guess what I'm saying is that the superman origin story kind of sucks. I said it. I know. My planet blew up and I save people. The re-imagining of origin works for lesser powers like Spiderman and Batman and crap, but when you are quite literally the ultimate in superhero you need to have a villain that does not get his ass wasted so bad. I mean real time Xod was like a problem for like a few days. Oh noes. Dynamic cool battle of building launching doom and it ends with a headlock and neck snap. Thats like the full nelson of dragon ball Z. Just funny... and sad.

The show is not bad overall, but I'm sick to death of the mire these shows keep drowning themselves in. X-men: You don't need to start again. Do some of the crazy mutant wars stuff big mech's are full of win... or hell do the phoenix saga properly.

I just finished watching the third installment of this retelling and I quite enjoyed it. The makers have done a good job of not making the fact that it was 3d modeled as distracting in this installment. Which is good. It really turned me off of the remake in the first installment. So their technical prowess is a lot better.

However, I think I don't feel the same concept of horror from it. I mean it shows better Guts rage at the crowning of Griffith's deamonhood. It somehow fell short of the first retelling. I think this is mostly due to the director giving it more from Griffith's perspective. Dull blues, purples and grey of the views of a tortured soul sort of deal. Which is okay, but it lacks the stark red taint of guts and evil that the original conveyed much better. The first was visceral upheaval of genuine shock, and this was more of a whimper sacrifice for Griffiths rubes.

With the inclusion of, well death personified. It does better explain how Guts was still alive... but I had always guessed that was because his soul being tortured was somehow linked to Griffiths new power. After all the bailets were evil. Though that was just whimsical speculation on my part.

I've never read the comics so I'm not really sure on the basis for a lot of stuff. Though I enjoyed this show.

Yeah they happen. I tuck mine up with my underwear elastic. Only works if you wear baggy shirts. yeah. *coucgh*

No, not the guy that cut of his own ear to impress his girl (There was a lot of lead in everyone's diet at the time...). It's espresso vodka. Which as far as things famous dead people could be pushing in our commercialist day and age is less weird than former presidents pushing bathroom cleaners...

Anyway, the stuff is really good. I was planning on just putting it with milk style drinks, but honestly the coffee flavor is overpowering, so I'm enjoying it in cola. It's like carbonated simulated coffee. Which may sound gross to coffee afectionato's but I'm really enjoying it.

Been trying new stuff. Like absinthe, bacardi 151 and all sorts of the other expensive drinks. I always like expensive scotch like oban, but there is all sorts of crazy stuff out there. So I think I'm going to keep going to specialty shops and trying stuff.

I think I'm a fancy drunk now.

Yes this journal is basically about nothing important. :D

I haven't been sleeping very well lately. be it insomnia, constant waking up, even sleepsweating(my new room has terrible ventilation and when I forget to leave the door open it turns into an oven). Even last week I was caught sleepwalking again. Which is unfortunate. I haven't slept walked since I was in highschool. Which made me pretty sure it was all my bottled up teenage angst. Which means I'm bottling up my angst again. Or perhaps its something else entirely. Anyway, the point is that I ended up sleeping ten hours today. Like during the day. It's my day off so thats okay.

The issue is my dreams generally focused on regrets of mine. They are many. I have to admit. Lost loves and bad choices. I was on as sort of dream quest to fix these things. Which, while noble in pursuit, the nature of most regret is that you can only deal with it yourself. Large choices in your life cannot often be unmade. Which may be my subconscious's point. Anything repaired can only be done by forgiving yourself. I admit lately I've been avoiding making any choices that would upset my life in any way, but that's wrong. I don't flourish in such an environment. I'm more of a challenge through adversity kind of guy. So what am I doing settling into a life?

I don't know. I guess some things have to change.

I was out at my local wallyworld and noticed a trend. People with broken limbs. I'm serious. I saw nine people with casts on their bodies. From wrists to legs casts were apparent. Those on crutches and in wheelchairs. Of course with the fancy colors they give you now. They were all fresh and untainted by the inevitable drawings that mark them in time. Like memories. Time, past and present.

Is it the season to break yourself? Has the folly of the human condition being drawn out around here? Though it was not limited to humans as I spied two different dogs with casts on their legs drive home.

Coincidence in consistency happy mothers day and all that jazz.

Oh shit they just blew it. I just watched the first trailer and I know exactly what kind of movie they made it into. My god.

Okay, well its not really that bad, but yeah do we really need another... okay breathe. I can't subject others to my madness. Needless to say its not going to be following the book. Loosely based on sort of deal. Plot lines will be fairly standard fare.

How do I know what I know? Well, I know how hollywood works. Add a dash of what they refer to as streamlining for new media. I suppose they're counting on people not remembering the book that well or something. Which could very well be. I read the damn thing when I was ten. Too bad its one of my favorites. So I remember it well.

Hey, don't get me wrong. I love being wrong. I adore movies that show me how wrong I am. Sadly few accomplish this feat. Man I want to rant till I'm blue in the face.

So, I have a new doctor and I have to do a bunch of blood tests in like seven hours or so. I can't sleep due to insomnia. Also I can't eat, nor can I even drink any water. So I'm trying to keep myself busy. I was reading Neuromancer by William Gibson again and really wonder why its never made the jump to movie form. It's more like the makings of a good movie than any other great science fiction book I've read. So I looked it up and apparently they've tried a few times, but never more than anything but smoke and dust.

Then again "cyberpunk", for all its games and movies and comics inspiration, never really made a big enough jump into mainstream. I mean there were a few movies approaching cyberpunk made in the 80's and early 90's(nemesis), but there was little cyber and more just punks in the future. I know there are a few items that crossed into that territory, like max headroom or Johnny Mnemonic, but really there's never been a true street samurai movie. Which is honestly begging to be made. Heck just an honest adaptation of Neuromancer is too. Though I suppose those earlier lukewarm attempts blew out the flame. I still enjoyed them anyway. *shrug*

Apparently their making an Enders Game movie. Which could be good, but my knowing Hollywood it will lose its coming of age undertones. I also sincerely doubt they will go into Andrew's desire to make the rest of the boys on the station drink his recycled blood and piss in the water system. I think that might be one of a hundred too hardcore things they will cut out of this film. I hope it gets no sequels as Card's inspiration of the series was instantly lost as soon as he finished the first book.

I also enjoy things by Asimov. Even things co-written are a bit woody to chew down for most, but there are quite a few that would make good on the silver screen. Like The End of Eternity or some other one I forget the name of. It's been bothering me all night. It's about these settlers that go to a new planet and they find out all the deadly bacteria are alive and they can talk to this one girl on the colony. *rubbs his chin* its been like 10 years since I read it and I don't remember the tittle. Anyway it has great anime plot all over it. They do love their powerful young women. Anyway, the foundation series might be good too, but that would be a big series of movie commitment which would be fairly daunting.

I know, there was I robot, bi-centennial man, A.I. and a wealth of other onscreen adaptations, but there were all short stories in their infancy and it shows. Ever notice a lot of these films are either changed greatly or well, quite honestly meander a lot. A.I. was the worst for this problem, but its quite common in sci-fi movies I mean look at Blade Runner. The book reads like an engaging detective novel, but the movie has us looking at scenery a lot. I'd time it, but I know it just feels too long and if it actually is only my perception. Not that their necessarily unwelcome, but I'd like a lot more voice over from Ford if I were in charge of that production.

I think I've blabbered on enough about my inner geeks interests. I'm gonna go try and play a game or something.

Just got back from it. It was sci-fi and thus an automatic sucker punch for me. Though honestly I'd have to say it was more of a love story. There were a few actiony bits, but really it was pretty long and quite honestly drawn out. The plot for me unfolded from the point where they attempted to mention "mandatory memory erasure" in casual narration. Quite basically the puzzle box opened and revealed the lazy writing barfing pretty cgi rainbows over my face for the next two hours. Not that it was all entirely unpleasant, but it was just not the kind of show I was hoping for with a running time of 136 minutes.

It was a bit touching and the actiony bits were well done. It was just all so predictable and I could not get sucked into the excitement. Hopefully Star trek in better.

To those not in the know. I've had a boyfriend for the last six months or so. He had been getting over his former relationship where he found out his boyfriend had been cheating on him for quite some time. It was the some time bit that had strung the relationship to the breaking point, from my outside point of view anyways. They had engaged in a bit of what some may call limited swinger behavior. So, long story short they mended their relationship. Once again I suppose I'm left in the cold. A third wheel. This is not really the first time something like this happened to me, so I guess I'm less than terribly pissed off at the event.

Okay, that's a lie. I'm mad and regretful and all that negative crap that I hope I don't feel for too long. At first you tell yourself that their stupid for going back. Or some other such self serving bullshit. I mean really the non-selfish bastard part of me wishes them happiness. That is the most simple way for me to put it.

In any case, to the tmi part of it, I think I'm a bit of a sex addict. I mean seriously. All day I just cant get the thought of getting boned out of my head. The thought of some willing male plunging his throbbing cock into my backside for hours on end has had me having embarrassing boners all day. The only solace I find that it is general and not specified. I'm also lucky I'm not at work, but getting off and toys are not sufficient. I mean nothing compares to the real thing.

I just hope I don't resort so some slutty behavior before the compulsion ends. That's why I'm writing this journal. TMI and all.

I missed the chance to see this film in its very limited release in my area. As in one night at the art house theater (which I could not go to being I promised a girl I'd go to her birthday before I knew it was playing). The Art house is one of those places you don't want to see a movie for the first time though as audience participation is encouraged. In any case I missed my chance and then promptly forgot about this film till yesterday.

In any case, first a disclaimer two fold. One: this movie is not for everyone. A quick peruse of the imdb message boards proves that there are some people who have a violent aversion to this film. It involves drugs and crazy crap which I like because I can relate to it on some level... or have been on the cusp of what could have become these situations. In a stranger world perhaps.

The other thing is that I'm going to talk about this film. If you enjoy strange and clever films and some asshole not telling you that Snape killed Dumbledore you should not read anything more and go see the film. As, I am a spoiler machine. Still reading? Okay.

The other thing I noticed on the imdb message boards that someone needed clarification at the strange wonderfulness this movie provides. So a rundown. Despite the title, its just a tag line. John will die at the end, but not in this movie. I mean everybody dies. It can be distilled down to two really average 20 something guys are unlucky enough to be chosen to defend the world from colliding dimensional forces. As in a bunch of stuff from the multi-verse attempt to destroy earth.

It's a crazy 90's style sci-fi plot at its core. The thing that really makes it work is that it keeps doing clever things to keep you on your toes throughout the film. The characters also help keep the film grounded. They're just like people you know, adapting to the shit hitting the fan all around them. The pacing is nice too, and even if it starts getting a little corny by the end of it at that point your just along for the ride and totally accept it. At least I do.

I hope I didn't spoil too much. You and your dog should watch this film.

I think I need game developers to think about how well this concept has worked out in the last 15 years. WOW did great and... uh, yeah. Hmm.

That's the answer you should get, but apparently TES 6 or whatever it is is going to me an mmo. A game franchise that seemingly went out of its way to make multiplayer an impossibility with their engines for years decided to do this... and someone somewhere decided this was a good idea.

Its true that I'm not a fan of mmo's. Mostly because I play games to get the nihilistic joy that a great destiny hinges on me... not the 60 random assholes in my raid party... oh and all the stuff respawns in two hours anyway so your killing it for the experience, not the experience of saving a world from terrible destruction.

Meh, just dissapointed that they made this instead of another sp game which I would have enjoyed.

I would worst like to say that you are a good actor... but your type cast would happen to be the lovable doof. Now, that's not something to be completely ashamed of, but I would see your desire to get out of such a type cast. The trick would be... hmm, how should I say this nicely, to stop being Ryan Reynolds in every part you have. Some actors can get away with this, but you are picking the wrong roles.

So what sparks this thinking? Well, your playing Conner McCloud in a highlander remake. A remake of lets face it an awesome horrible movie from the 80's that has a crazy following. I honestly get the feeling that Mr. Reynolds has a similar taste in movies as me because of the roles he takes. However the thought of him tying to do a Scottish accent fills me with nothing but the giggles. Ha, they should get Christopher Lambert to play Ramirez. That would save this movie from the hilarity. Though then I picture Chris trying to be a spanyard and the hilarity returns. Not as far fetched as Connery but times have changed and you can get away with a lot less than you could in the 80's.

I suppose I'm still butthurt from him being deadpool. Though really if he actually tried not to be himself so bad, he would be okay as the highlander but I won't hold my breath.

In other news JJ Abrahams is doing something with starwars that Mr.Lucas always told was not cannon. As he sold the rights, cannon will come to be. I fear for something I hold beloved.

Reflections are full of misconceived tidings. I often think I am the worst person in the history of man due to these conceptions. I mean whats killing 6 million Jews to the thought of leading to the death of someone you truly love. Yes, i do value him that much, even after this time. After all regardless of their faith, they and their emaciated and touched bodies mean nothing to me. That is a coping mechanism of humanity after all. The horrible things of the past mean nothing to you because you did not know the people. Holocaust be dammed.

The thought in question is something I used to often cite: "After all, you could be dead tomorrow." As some sort of common anecdote more fitting than: seize the day. Yes it is true that I've found love in others, but its not the same. I often feel like its some compromise. Perhaps I'm just feeling the "jitters" because I'm enjoying a new relationship after all this time, but I'm not sure how good I should feel about it. After all the other party seems in the same boat much of the time, still feeling attachments to his former love... but lucky, and perhaps both unlucky, for him is still kicking and breathing.

He seems much more nervous than I. So I suppose I can consider it being were emo fags and all, but I cant help often thinking of the past. Not in a comparison fashion, but just to the thoughts and feelings I've experienced. I suppose I have to just work though them. As I did with my loves before... I often feel like a strange human being, because in truth I've never stopped loving anyone, no matter how they've hurt me, so I suppose I'm fucked in the feeling department. The logical centers of my brain taking over and protecting me from harm are my friends I guess.

So Rel, Jess, Sarah, Mike, Greg, and especially Gary I still love you all despite your faults. I suppose that's okay.

http://youtu.be/FcArnepkhv0

I heard you like British comedy.
its like tiny gears of short memory
it grinds the gears into repetition
the dry wit into deposition
sweet sensation into remedy
to this interesting sensibility.


You ever realize your living though a truly horrifying moment.
Something that chills your bones to the core.
Just remember perfection is only found in the deflection of reality and in all your faults.
Your okay
Your okay
Whimsy floats you though any bad day.

I only bring this up because a few of them have been posted recently, but quite frankly I can't do magic eye pictures. Try as I might the 3D effect does not appear. I only see the pattern and of course, Pareidolia. Which I have a real problem with due to an overactive imagination. :D So I see all sorts of little images out of the patterns, but alas not the intended magic eye effect. When I was a little kid I tried for like a half hour and only became frustrated. My brain was too busy making its own fun to see what it was supposed to. A similar effect happens with repeating patterns sometimes: like they move in a direction like I am on mushrooms or something. Fun to do when I'm bored, but not really productive.

Come to think of it I'm dyslexic and had a speech impediment when i was a child. So perhaps I just perceive reality different than everyone else. Interesting if true. I just need to figure out how to trick my brain into getting these magic eye things too work. :D

I got back from seeing the hobbit an hour or so ago.

First impressions, are well, not that good. It was long and boring. I felt like I was watching the lord of the rings with all the droning on and on about past battles left in it. While in a book a can speed read though those parts this movie crawls through them.

Honestly this movie is for folks who are really in love with the lord of the rings. I can't think of anyone who would vote this the movie of 2012 with box office heavyweights like the avengers from just a few scant months ago. Though I must remember the attention span of the media is sickening.

Yeah thats right. A guy who complains about attention span has a problem with the drawn out hobbit movie. I suppose that's not really the worst of it. I know I'm going to get my head bit off by somebody about this, but characters and dialogue were changed. Which I have a lot of trouble with because it's like they were trying to do a faithful movie incarnation(down to the agonizing syllable) and just change a bunch of stuff.

Sure, its nit picky, but i feel a bit betrayed. They've taken a book I loved when i was a little kid and made it boring.

Damn man. Thats depressing.

To see a much more entertaining Peter Jackson film find yourself a copy of meet the feebles. Damn thats a funny and disturbing show.

No nothing witty about writing, mostly because I've realized most don't really give a fuck about poetry. No, I'm going to rant about the use of ellipses. This may be construed as grammar nazi-ism, but for the love of god, they are not to be used in succession. Nor are they two, six or four dots.

The first case is often miss-used by one of the newer incarnations of one of the old favorites. Persona. This game was great back in the ps1 era. Well, mostly because rpg's had taken a hit from all trying to be the next ff7. They failed more often than not surprisingly, and every bad game mechanic that they thought people liked as touted... crap its the same damn thing with world of warcraft. RPG's must have a big following of sheeple. I guess it makes me feel better that I dig for the gems in the rough. Anyway, back to my point persona 4 uses ellipses like they have some sort of interesting fetish for them. One ellipsis makes you sound, at best, like a captain Kirk aside speech. The others are just plain stupid. Almost every section of dialog is ended with them, then they are often pounded over your head in succession, as if they are trying to make the game longer just though adding them. Which it does. After awhile I was thinking of how much time they managed to waste making me read them. So, the one original ps1 rpg still around has succumbed to the banal with bland writing. One crocodile tear for that one.

The second instance has been something I've noticed more and more in advertising. One wonders how such misuse can make it past some editor that thinks: man more dots is sexy. This is a Toyota add on a billboard so I don't have a picture. Plus we have fun new laws where I live where they are almost to the point of banning smoking and driving. That's just asking for pissed off motorists trying to rush to work because their nic-fitting.

Art is well, not in the timetable. I got myself a new man and well I work 9 hour days ten on and four off and yeah, most of the rest of my time is with him or zoning out watching movies and sleeping. So life is simple and boring I guess.

Is no longer something you have to settle for. Yes we have multiple tv's together, but the real kicker is that it's in a luxury suv.

Why? Okay I get it trips can be boring and you need to entertain your little add children, but you already bought them iphones or laptops so they can fill their Ritalin rattled minds without the need for multiple tv's in something that should never have a tv in it anyway.

I guess I'm more thinking of when I was a kid and family trips were an exercise in suffering, you know as a family. My chain smoking parents in the front and three kids stuffed in the back of a small sedan. Yeah, I can say it kind of suckled, but it was one of those things designed to stopgap the breakdown of your western families. The forced togetherness I feel was more important than the destination.

So, now you might not as well be leaving your living room. Drooling at the liquid crystal delusions. Go team america.

Oh, and I'm alive and junk. Just been really stressed out at work. When I get home its all sleeping and eating and thats it. Which kind of makes me want to die, but I think I'm just being over dramatic. Hopefully we get a cold snap and a few feet of snow so my boss is less interested in making us do overtime. I know I can refuse by law, but this job is so sweet most of the time I feel it would be a waste to get myself fired.

So did anyone else get irritated back in like 2005 when dog the bounty hunter was on and he kept calling everyone bro?

The judge would have been like: Why did you nelson dog till his arm tore from his spine? and I would have to answer because he kept calling me bro.

I only bring this up because I've been educating myself on today's cartoons. Admittedly mostly for rule 34 ideas, but I noticed a really annoying trend. The use of bro. Sure, its kinda funny, but lets think about this one, the first bro-ing I can think of is super mario bros. which came out in like 1985. That was the year of the first back to the future movie and that was a fucking long time ago.

So, its been established the saying is retro at best. So, why the hell is every cartoon using it. I mean its annoying as crap. In the first episode of the remake of biker mice from mars the phrase was uttered 17 times in a 21:11 minute time frame. Thats almost a bro a minute. I mean in a few other cartoons it's used sparingly, but yeah. Just stop. Whoever wrote that scrip needs to be drawn and quartered.

No, not tonight, but other nights when I'm in that state where I really want to be asleep, but am not. I have a folder full of lots of them so I'm going to post them weather the make sense or not. Some are rants others are weird parts of stories. Beginning middle or end I'll post them unedited here. Number 8, Debt:

Can a person be worth less than a person? Yes its like religion. The bible says original sin got us in this mess and your a sinner from birth and birth does cost you. Doctors, nurses, machines and drugs are all the first debt you've incurred in life. Sure you might not be able to see the entire color spectrum yet but your already in debt.

This is a debt that your mother and father collect. That sounds strange. Your in it before your even alive. Responsibility exists even when one is not old enough to recognize it.

This is what we leave to our children. A new religion in money. They say on average you owe your parents a half a million dollars if you grew up in the united states. All the clothes, food, vaccinations, my god think of the children. Haha, yeah I used that one.

Money is the root of all evil. However its difficult to carry around 200$ worth of trade everywhere you go. Or whatever such bit of wealth you need as a transaction for others goods and services. Though I think I'd like to take a minute and change how you think about money.

Yes, something that's so ingrained to be changed. It seems like a fallacy of epic proportions, but everyone has different views on money, but they seem to fit into three different groups. Please don't take offence to my names of them, but they get the point across much faster than the explanations that follow.

Spoiled: These people get lots of money from the start. So, this creates a bit of an inverse effect later in life. I mean they need to be making more to afford more. Believe it or not this is usually the case. It seems kinda wrong fundamentally, but the truth is the systems are designed for this to be the case. No matter the ideology.

Hippies: The inverse of the spectrum, if there is a spectrum per say. These are people who had to scrape by, and are generally of the easy come, easy go variety. They want enough to live comfortable(which is what the spoiled people want, but living comfortably involves less wants and more needs overall).

Diluted: These people think they need more money because society tells them so. It will look good in front of your friends and loved ones. Though if they're your friends and loved ones the will not give a crap deep down about what you make in a year. People that actually care just want you around for your company, not for your bank account. Yes I admit I'm a hippie, but if your blind to this fact you should take a serious look at your life.

Yes, love for you, not yours. You are not what you own. You are not how much you have in stocks, or whatever ludicrous thing your buying into.

So that is what I want to change your mind about money. You are not your job. You are not how much you make in a year. You think your eulogy is going to be: Billy was a great man, he made over 250k a year and everyone loved him for it. No, its going to be some sappy half true crap, but nobody will remember you for it, and you cant take it with you when you die.

So, you can make a lot and help people out with it. Cool, I salute that. It's a lifestyle though. Nobody makes a bunch of money and lives in a modest house in a quiet suburb. Even the most humble will prey victim to the idea of them working hard so they deserve it. I'll tell you, anyone who works really hard does not get what they deserve to be paid. You think that kid that carries your groceries and makes polite small talk with you at the grocery store is even making even 5k a month. No, and he'll lift heavy crap and give you services with a smile even if your a rotten asshole. That is working hard. Hell, even the trades are screwed over. Sure they get paid a little better, but getting $30 when you have to work for months in the middle of nowhere work camps sucks.

So we go back to the beginning.

I went to bed after writing that last sentence, not really sure at the point I had thought out when I started writing it. Thus I consider it crazy old man talk(I'm not even 30 yet though so whatever), but there are some shiny bits in there. So, I'll post some fiction next time.

So I guess I should start this off with, who believes the worlds gonna end on december 23rd, 2012 as accordance with the aztec calendar? Don't be afraid. Tell me.

After you answer lets just delve into this a bit. Sometimes its also referred mistakenly to the mayan calender with is a different can of eggs. Eggs none the less but the mayan calender ends in 20 K'inchiltun which is 63081429 solar years. Which according to current solar theory is a lot closer to the 4-5 billion years it may need. Not that close, but hey we really need to consider that these dates were made by people that were still mutilating their genitals as a part of gods will. Whoops, people of the Jewish faith are still doing that. Thats a pretty big nail in the whole god being unfallible thing. Another time though.

So, lets look at the aztec calender. Which some may know is a wheel like shape. There are around twenty full moons in a year.

Thats all I can really tell you for certain, because there is a whole bunch of misleading and simply contradictory information out there. I've seen specials on the discovery channel that state due to improper maths the calender should end in 2014. I've heard reports that that is not an ending at all and just a great change in mans will. The end of the world to incite the last sentence, which usually lets into the crazy stuff nutjobs like to spout.

The only conclusion is that I believe man seems to need to believe its dying. Like our almost subconscious fear of death is showing its ugly head. I mean they were so dissapointed when the world didn't end in y2k nuclear disaster, a new date of death had to be seeded. Mans obsession with death manifest has been going on a long time. Revalations in the bible was not the first and thats some old stuff there.

So the end of the world? If it is I'd better have all the unprotected sex my id wants. Though like most things its all based on fear. I'm a pretty fearful person by nature, but I concentrate on tangable things like heights and std's.

To be honest I had never really sat down and hammered through a gta game since vice city. I've been around since its inception and I had a lot of trouble even warming up to the 3d versions of the game. I mean, for me they were the last of the top down driving games. I really enjoyed them too.

Anyway, after warming up to the new ones after my play through of vice city I felt I had exhausted the fun out of the series. I fiddled around with four a bit on the company x-box, but I had not really played them. At least not with my usual fervor to crush the game into the ground.

I got myself a discount bin copy of gta4 and I was having a bit of fun driving around, but it didn't take long for me to figure out the sandbox was gone. Now you could get your butt into crazy places and guess what would always be waiting for me? Nothing. There is a butt load of nothing in this game. Even the mission system was turning me off.

So, it made me wonder what happened with San Andreas. So I acquired it legally of course. Of course. Annnyway after playing it a bit I can see where things went.

The music in the game is f-in awesome though. All sorts of stuff from my youth. Like rap when it didn't suck. I used to like rap. Then it seemed to be in competition with itself to be more 'gangsta' and yeah just turned to shit. Snoop dog is still my hero. He's even hosted some hardcore pornography.

So the issues. It was still nice and sandboxy. So that was nice. I even liked the rpg sorta stuff. However I found myself out of money quickly. So I was stuck doing a mission. I guess I was supposed to do some b&e but I could never find the proper truck. I ended up finding an ambulance, and 12 levels of picking up bleeding people later I had more money than I ever needed.

This filled me full of meh. Rockstar lost it's ability to scale. SA was were it happened. The game has lots of good points, but I really feel it's where the developers got bored. Stuff like picking clothing and crap never really mattered to me. Though I did have to spring for a Mr.T mohawk and beard. Never found myself a denim vest though. Which made me sad.

I just remember the thrill of eluding the police and driving like a maniac in crowded city streets. I guess for me the thrill really is gone.

Random title. Just got back from a bar. Also saw looper.

It was.. well a different take on causality. Action-y and inserting for a movie's sake, but about as logical as taping buttered toast to cats to create antigravity.

Spoilerage:

Just let that word sink in if you haven't seen it. I mean its worth seeing, but I'm going to rant a bit and it will ruin it for you.

I can assume you've seen the trailer at the least... so anyway it turns out to save the future buddy has to kill himself. Which is fine, but if he kills himself his future self will never come back from the suture and it will just reset to the default timeline. Which will cause the causality loop and cause all time to repeat forever, which honestly I'm sure would end the universe.

They sort of hint that's what they were going for... but its all just smoke and mirrors. I'd be tempted to guess at it, but this is one time travel movie where I just don't care too. I mean there's plenty of times where buddy changes his future self's actions which would require him living. The loop is not perfect... and yeah I know I just thought about it. Proving I care and it bothers me. They could have avoided this logic fail completely, but nooo. They even flaunted it with a scene of some guy losing all his limbs as they take apart his past self... while interesting, not really anything I would consider well thought out.

Yeah I'm a time travel geek. Sue me. I'll forgive quite a bit till one of them handles the change in our distance from galactic central point in time travel(hell even our distance around the sun). So any time travel device would also have to be a teleporter.

Okay I'm really drunk so I'm going to put on the lord of the rings and pass out.