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Are homarus really that homoerotic? Or haha, I guess it could be female. Cant really know these things, but that rhymed so it was gone with.

I know its a few years old at this point, but I had initially avoided it due to... less than glowing reviews of my friends. Then I noticed while loudly EA branded it was made by starbreeze. Starbreeze had always surprised me in the past with making fun, while arguably simplistic, games. So I bought it on the cheap.

Syndicate was something I used to be a little obsessed with back in the day. I even wrote fanfiction for it. Haha, no not that kind of fan fiction. :D Though there was some inappropriate machine on man action, but I'd hardly call it porn...

The classic games were frustratingly hard and I admit to loving a bit of gaming masochism. Cyberpunk is something I really miss nowadays. Sure I can go back and play system shock 2, deus ex or ... or yeah that's how like cyberpunk there is out there. I guess there was the console shadowrun games too. Though the point is compared to military shooters there might as well not be any cyberpunk games.

So its another cyberpunk shooter for my starving ID. Which I like just fine. The game has fairly solid combat. It mixes it up with your powers. The enemies are fairly smart, and the game does not tie you down to its cover system. I'm starting to dislike cover systems because most games make you suction cup your ass to the wall all the time. This games not one of them.

The bad:
-There is not enough game. While some may argue this is a good thing, the entire game is infiltrate -> boss. Plus all the bosses get some animated kick your ass with melee time. Which if they put in the ability to fight back in some way I would find it less annoying. Not all of us want to be Jean Claude Van Damme. The plot could be told in a paragraph. The "flavor text" is all written like it was from a boring news teleprompter.

-There's only like eight weapons in the whole game. Three of them might as well be the same gun. Almost four as one weapon requires you to lock on a target before its like the other weapons. One of pistols is pretty good, the other is ass and they make you beat a boss with it. Then you have the sniper, laser and flamer weapons which have limited uses. I went the entire game without throwing a single grenade... I guess there's that missile launcher in the middle of the game, but you only see it once and its much smarter just to haul ass and bypass that entire section.

-One ending. It felt like they were going to give you two... but no. No multiple endings for you.

The good:
-Has co-op missions, but they are the same sort of cookie cutter formula so if you didn't like it in the first place you'll be left lacking.

-Solid combat. Sure some of the boss combinations can get a bit tiresome but this game has good meaty combat. Powers also keep combat interesting.

-RPGish upgrades. They don't do much, but it spices it up a bit.

So all in all I think starbreeze would have been better off not butthurting the cult fans and made up a name for it. It's a passable cyberpunk shooter. Could have been more too it, but I felt it is worth a play.

To ask why why we are too stupid to fuck in captivity is to ask why the leaves fall. It is in our nature.

My god. Even the tweens that play wow are not entering adulthood and are hopefully in the age where king fu panda is stupid. Don't get me wrong if your stuck in kid mode I'm sure the movies are funny because pandas as fighters is stupid. That was supposed to be why it was funny. Even as far as bears go they're the sloths of the genus.

Damn anyway, sort of been on an art roll. keep on being interrupted by stupid things like the need to sleep and work, people calling me and scaring the shit out of me at 2:30am. Sure I'm up but I'm probably masturbating if I'm up at 2:30 on a work night. Be polite. :D

Oh haha, some might get a kick out of this. http://skyrim.nexusmods.com/mods/24709/

That has to be the worst drawn and animated boswer I've ever seen. The mod maker actually modeled and animated that. Total facepalm.

I'm done being grouchy.

Saw Dredd 3d: With my mom. My first 10 minutes I realized I took my mother to a film that had stunning opening dialogue like the word fuck. The word was repeated seven times to be lucky I guess.

After the initial uncomfortable reaction. It was a decent action movie. The effects were good, but not really very dredd. It was one of those hard ass future cop movies, but it felt like there was no adventure there. Like this was just another day on the job. Even with the things that tried to pump the movie up like the psychic and stuff the show just felt like something to watch instead of something to get excited about.

Like here is the side quest adventures of judge dredd. Woo.

wee?

This movie could be brilliant, or it could be the most loose ended film of all time.

Both of which are accomplishments.

This movie has action galore and all the time. I had no idea what was going on for the first 20 minutes. This continued.

I suppose I'm totally flabbergasted by the whole film. If that was the point WS Anderson is my new god, but if not he's a pile of crap.

It had a lot of cool ideas but they were all turned into sequel bait.

That sums up my feelings about this movie. All or nothing. A coin flip. If RE6 ties it's bows up I'll give Paul my soul, if he flapjacks I'll make flapjacks.

Ja that's about it.

Ya miss me?

Why are remakes made by people that don't remember the original material? The most general thing being they want to change it and make it their own, but this is an ultimate form of half assing it. If you want to make something your own, oh I don't know, think of your own intellectual property. Other than that you should take the best parts and make them better, or at the least take the not so good and make it better while maintaining the good. Don't cut the good. Thats just stupid.

The show i'd like to focus on as an example is hunter x hunter which was a show I watched when I was a teen. This show had a lot of everything. It also had a few slow bits which I'd not care to watch if my lids were sealed open and fed Mozart though loudspeaker. For whatever reason they chose to drop interesting things and focus on things that were totally boring the first time round. The pacing is quicker so its less painful, but still did the new writers have blinders on when watching this show? Did I seriously see things as a teenager that they could not? I went and rewatched the original and yes all that stuff is there. They just colossally fucked it all up.

Even better is they screwed up the nen descriptions to make them more naruto like and then went and pasted them on the front of the show for like ten episodes. My respect for Mad house is constantly shaken by certain internal studios being on crack. The whole nen thing was different than naruto... and even came before it so why are they trying to emulate it?

Perhaps they were influenced by the later chapters that nobody should ever watch because they're stupid. As far as I'm concerned the show ended at ep 62 and Gon never finds his father.

This can be applied to shows not so nerdy as well. The new total recall for instance. Okay, everything is all smooth and all the bad robot/things look like their from portal. However, where is the question? The question I refer too is they weather Houser is real or not and does arny wake up in the recall chair having just experienced his total recall experience. I expected the remake to play on that doubt and make it even more confusing. It was handled a little poorly in the first and I expected the remake to turn me on my head and spin me like a top. It's like they did not realize why the first obtained cult status and made a remake.

I fully expect them to make a evil dead remake in the next five years. It will suck. I will be sad.

An old girlfriend of mine was shot and killed last night. It's kind of depressing, but not really as shocking for me as it should be. I think that bothers me a little more than anything.

I'm thinking its that I've experienced worse. I had run into her last year. Never heard back from her after that.

I don't need to mourn her, as she was a stranger too me. I guess I should feel lucky I feel anything at all.

Stop spamming my journal box. Okay that was mean, but really lets keep it clean her folks. It's cool that your going to be giving away free art and you want to generate interest, however I've been noticing behavior:

1. Altruistic: This person just rolls random numbers on actual dice. Random number generators are interesting, but programs can not give you a truly random number as most are deterministic and not truly random. If you've ever done any programming you would know this. If not well, I'm telling you now. Only seen one person do this.

2. Favoritist: This person has friends sign up and mysteriously they all get in on it. This is not mysterious. Why even have the raffle? Just draw your friends and don't be a prick.

3. Mixture: Just what it says, so you don't seem like a total favoritist. Some may re-roll to alleviate them of picking guilt... which means dick all.

Nit picking? Yes I am. Just sort of a generally out there that people do pay attention so that if you are going to spam me at least be a number one in all that you do. Thats all I ask.

Some may know about zero punctuation. I mean this sarcastically. If not I'm a douche and he's someone from Australia that talks really fast and makes fun of games with little amusing pictures. A long long time ago... like three years which is not in a galaxy far far away. I felt like he was the last bastion of gaming reviewers that had good sensibilities. Not just dolling out 90 metascores for the sake that the company was giving him moneyhats.

Long story short: I was avoiding games he was taking a piss on.

Then I stopped reading his "reviews" and found a lot of games he minced over as complete crap had a lot to offer. Which made me consider he was being paid moneyhats to dump on games.

Perhaps he's just bitter and pissed off that all the fanboys come out all the time, but I'm pretty sure he gets off on that.

No I think his problem is that he hates any game that's not silent hill 2. Which is funny considering the apartment levels that encompass a good 1/6 of your total playtime (7.42 hours first time through, which I remember because I had rented the PS2 and had to beat the games in under two days) are literally all grey walled corridors where you find keys for different apartments. He complains about this problem in games constantly. It's like this part of the game has just whisked though his memory. Go play it again if your going to sing its praises in every other review. Silent hill 1 was better overall, even with its shitty dialog. It was PS1, its the same era that gave us the Jill Sandwich. I can accept that it was all translated poorly. In fact I've played the jap version and the voice acting is decent... not great, but decent. I guess that's not really it either.

So, yeah. he reviews a lot of games badly seemingly for the sake of making fun of them. Which is cool, but your missing out on a lot of fun if you listen to the hatted bastard.

PS steal the indie movie The Revenant (2009) if you haven't seen it. I think its my new favorite zombie movie, just because I can see myself being as silly/oblivious as one of the main characters. Which is why I enjoyed shaun of the dead so much.

It's something I've always found interesting. Yes, this is the "new age" side of my personality.

My palms are course with many lines. Some people say the eyes are the windows of the soul, but I personally believe its in the hands. You can tell a lot about a person from what they use to interact with their world. I mean we're touching everything all the time. Everything breaks down very logically. Eye's are always reacting and can mask truths.

With anything it just becomes micromanaging. Which is the current buzzword for the old adage of paying attention to details. As human beings we're so overwhelmed with information that anyone can start paying attention can be seen as a psychic. Or a sensitive or whatever pompous thing they want to label themselves with.

The subject at hand is palm reading. So you can tell a few immediate things about a person just from touching them. If its cool and they are clammy they are anxious about something. Even if they had been exerting themselves its still anxiousness. When your reading their palm generally they want to know something. Or find out something. So this will be the state they are in. These people will be receptive.

If the palm is very dry and their mannerism is nonchalant they don't really care for the reading and you should stick to generalities that people like to hear.This is the fortune cookie type of reading with little substance. It's about showmanship and just give them what they want to hear if their skin is not excited. Always give the person what they want. If they don't believe just let them go on doing that. Don't bother trying to convince a cynic.

After the initial cast, you feel your way into the palm and mark how they react. There will be a bit of body language here. There will be some static feelings. This is the hardest bit, as you have to be aware of sociatial norms. Age difference, sex, race, and charisma. All these things need to be carefully weighed when coming into contact with another person. As in if the reader is an ugly person the initial reactions to touch will be different from someone beautiful. These are subtle reactions that most people are not aware of, but they must be measured carefully. "psychic" readings are in truth the ultimate in superficiality.

Then we move onto the lines, which are more honestly just strikes of your past. Any good reader will already feeling out your personality only by being touched. The lines are like the details. Which are still generalities so that's why it feels so on the mark, but I digress. The first thing you must do is determine which and is the favored hand. There is a few ways to do this. My favorite way is looking for scars or burns. Little discolorations give away the favored hand. Its funny how people always send their favorite hand into the danger because they trust it more. If they are about even this person is ambidextrous in mind. Any balanced, or attempting to be balanced. This person will always want to hear about their desire to be balanced. You can really focus your reading on this. These are the easiest to read, as they practically scream what they want to hear. It takes a lot of focus to not just be lazy and rely on one side or the other.

Southpaws will be imaginative and righties will be analytical. It's one of those great deinals we all have, but under it all that's how it is. After this determination you can branch out if they have many solid deep lines you can say they have. Ones past tells a lot about one's supposed future. As we are all creatures of habit.

I'm gonna stop writing now as I think I''m getting too much into something. The initial reaction to touch is most important. Everything else can be filled in with sociatial norms.

Best action flick of the summer. Why? Because any breaks in the action were short. Sure there were some weird time jumps, but all in all I never found myself getting bored with what was going on. Unfortunately all the other awesome movies this summer had those.

Don't get me wrong, batman, the avengers and men in black were pretty epic. Just not pure action flicks where I can turn my brain off and enjoy the gunfire, explosions, one liners and gore. Eh, I guess I still have a little hero worship in there. I mean it has almost everyone who was a big action star when I was growing up.

I'd say more, but it'd all be spolierage. So go see it if you like old action actors mixing it up and making fun of each other.

Would you do it?
Put your mind into it.
Put everyone though it

Can you feel it
Can you feel it

I am your doctor
I live within
I cleanse the skin
I am you're doctor
I live within
I Clense the skin.

I've been trying to post stuff and send notes to no avail. This journal might not even go though. So is it like back to school week and everyone is trying to get their porn surfing in or something?

I woke up this morning and wrote about the dream I had. Sometimes I get confused in the middle and forget when things took place, but this one turned out quite well. It's a metaphor about my life. My subconscious is a sly devil. So I'd like to share it. Forgive the format. I did just wake up. :D

I had a dream about a race
A race that I could not win
The challenges became difficult
Increasingly frustrating,
but I constantly found myself starting over just as I had thought I reached the end.
My second time though,
I had reached the end
just to have it taken away again
I lashed out, hurting others in a misdirected rage
Guilt surged and I tried to find another way
It was then realized I could not escape the prison.
The race was still there
I found myself again caught up in it.
The challenges were even tougher and I found myself climbing the walls with so many others.
Clambering on chain and pipe and beam.
Trying to reach ladders and stairs that would disappear and change right before they were reached.
The climb was hard.
People would clammer and grab onto my waist and feet,
but I had no strength for one much less two.
I fought them off.
Punching, kicking and screaming at them to give up and stop trying to bring me down with them.
When I looked harder I realized they had the faces of chrildren.
Then harder the faces of demons.
The demons became large and hunted me
trying to stop my progress
even when I realized the climb was in vain.
There was always a window just beyond my reach.
I fought my sense of vertigo and jumped for it again and again,
just to find when I escaped that I had not.
I was pulled back into my hell.
I let myself go
Let myself fall
consumed by where I was held and tried to find peace in it.
One of my demons came to confront me.
It taunted me,
swore at me,
fell with me.
It was furious,
I had understood its game.
I reached out and grabbed it.
I held it close.
It bit into me.
Crawling, scratching and falling into the abyss.
It tore the flesh from my cheek and shoulder.
Then slowly in its pain it became a child.
Still ferocious.
I kept up my ministrations.
Trying to sooth it.
It shrunk into a little spring figurine. Filled with the love I had given it. I awoke.

these are questions. I wrote my understanding in italics under them but they are more questions for others. So please answer them to fulfill my curiosity.

Do people actually like being called slut and bitch during sex?
Can't say I would but hey I'm wondering about it. There's so many comics about domination... perhaps it's just the creators lack of imagination? I'd show domination by orgasm denial or ass to mouth. Though that's just me.

Does saying fuck yeah over and over again relate to a good auditory during sex?
I have on one occasion just started laughing at my partner for him saying: fuck yeah over and over again. Needless to say he was distraught and the relationship went south from there. I've just seen so much porn, especially ecially gay porn, Where they seem to be on an oh yeah, fuck yeah loop. Saying it once is okay, but more than that I start to giggle.

Yeah that's it. Two questions. Easy right?

I made this meme because I'm bored and cant sleep. The meme is everything in italics.

Whats the first thing you do in the morning?
mastur...
No! after that.
go to the bathr...
No, even after that.
Eat something, preferably meat based. If not meat itself something that comes from meat. :D

What do you do just before work?
Do some pushups, situps and leg raises. Gets the blood flowing.

What do you do?
I install electrical crap in residential housing... but honestly keeping my job is mostly entertaining my boss and my fellow co-workers. So, in essence, I exist for their amusement.

Do you do lunch?
Yeah, but not at work. I don't eat lunch usually. I'm more of a supper and midnight snacker myself.

Do you smoke?
Yes, and in my personal opinion smokers taste better. :D I'm one of those rare individuals that can stop anytime I want... unfortunately I'm more addicted to sex/masturbation than smoking.

Whats the thing waiting for you when you get home?
Sweet, sweet air conditioning. Ha! Nothing currently. Death is so far the worst kind of breakup... but I think I'm mostly over it now.

What do you do in that home of yours?
I make furry pornography and play video games. Currently I'm playing old snes games for nostalgia's sake. Mega man X and Link to the past.

What would you be doing if you won the lottery?
Not working. I can tell you that. I'd slap a few mil in GIC's and give the rest away to people I care about. If I'm covered I never had much use for money.

If a real life, whole and actual, furry showed up at your door of your sexual preference and wanted to make sweet love to you what would your reaction be?
I'd turn him down. Yeah really. Not really my style. If he wanted to come in for some coffee and conservation yeah sure. If a few showed up and wanted to gangbang me I might have a differing opinon. Thugh I know such things are better left to my imagination.

What do you do before you go to bed?
go to the bathr...
No! after that!
masturbate :D It's nice to have a day that ends the way it begins.

I was actually looking for a techno song called cyberton, not something from the band cybertron, nor the other band cybotron... But cybotron has some really kicking chill music. Anyway, I clicked on a link that had Jim Carey then I found a little video on the "alternate history of man".

I'm going to go though some stuff before the link... it's only fair. Okay, so the video begins explaining that
this is only for your consideration... which is the new wave PC way of saying I'm not trying to push my beliefs on you so you can drop that skepticism. I am immune to any such tactic of cheap reverse psychology. He goes on to say this a few times in the introduction. Good job Dave Hill.

Then he goes on to say scientists still don't know how they built the pyramids. I can think of about ten off the top of my head. The mayans would have had a more difficult time of it due to not having the advantage of shifting desert sands. Which can shift up to 300m in height. It's really easy to put a block on top of something that is completely covered in sand(the tallest pyramid is 142m, and had to be dug out of the desert...) . Then there's the fact that people have been doing amazing crap that some believe should not be possible throughout history. Just look at the high rises made in the 30's. With no safety regulations crazy shit can get done even if some find it unfathomable. Okay, yeah I'm going to keep going.

Then he goes onto saying that the United States was going into a state of spiritual regression/progression in the 1900's. Which was interrupted by world war one. Excuse me? Just because it happened 110 years ago does not mean there are no people who know about it still around. My grandmother who will be 98 this year said that is crap. Everyone was devout Christian in some form or another and nobody, and I quote, "nobody believed in any of this new age crap"(wonderful language out of my grandmother... but she gets that way when people say stupid things about religion or politics). Do they think because they say it people will believe them? If anything america was closer to the 'spiritual enlightenment' he's talking about in the late 50's and early 60's, ya know before it was quashed by by the drug explosion.

He keeps going, hoping if he bombards you with his 'facts' he will lull you into believing him. Oh, not to mention is continuous referencing to Thoth as if he were some noted expert on human history and not a member of the Egyptian pantheon. Which causes my brain great pain... just because I know there are people who will believe it. It makes me not want to be part of the human race. Really. Almost all the 'facts' in this film... and even the true stuff has been heavily twisted for the authors own ends.

Okay one more example before I link to the show... he talks about the changing of magnetic poles and how it used to be in Hawaii and how man was somehow more psychically gifted when we lived there... The polar shift theory(its still just a theory. They are just pretty sure about it. Which means nothing from a pure scientific perspective as it has not been recorded yet. Which is sciences problem with quantum mechanics but I wont talk about that now) is not that the poles will move, just that they switch. The magnetic poles are what keep us from dying horribly from radiation from the sun. Ever heard of the van allen belts? I have. In fact if the earth's bald spot(the arctic) was on the equatorial line radiation would have killed everything there. That kind of pokes a big hole in your island of super people theory with it's own 'evidence'... Guess they should have looked up the science on what the hell they were talking about eh? Not to mention only the Chinese did anything with lodestones but geomancy till the 11 century. Nobody even knew what magnetics were in any other part of the world.

Now I don't have all the answers. Never claimed that(honestly I just know a lot of questions for the most part). I just want you, yes you cutie :D, to look up stuff if you don't know about it. It'll give me piece of mind. We live in this wonderful era where information is literally at our fingertips. While it may not all be completely factual its not too much of a leap to get a picture of whats going on.

Sure some of the stuff in this film could be credible... but they wrapped it in bullshit. Which makes them not credible. Why can't people figure this out?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uAm-.....eature=related

Oh man, I was making a back round for an image when I realized I was doing it on one of my sketch layers... so I go to try and open the old image I had saved with the work and just copy paste it. Painter says: You can't do that bitch. So then I try out the revert command. Guess what? You cant undo it. *head explodes* Every time I turn around I do something stupid that makes me lose all of my work in painter 12.

Yeah its my fault. Really. I just wish it had a better save system. You know one that's not more retarded than me.

Dammit I'm bored and up in the middle of the night again. The witching hour is 2 am for me baby.

I just could never sleep during normal times like you normal folks. As it is when I'm working I'm some sort of half dead zombie that works and reacts at some sort of sub standard intelligence. So hey, I fit right in. Though everybody seems to be all tired when work is over but thats just time for my second wind. I'm ready to go out and do some damage.

Today I was not drinking or doing anything. Which makes me wish I were. I mean if I were hammered I'd probably be able to pass out at the very least. I feel the soft fluffy sting of you diurnal people every morning pleasant good mornings and upbeat attitudes. No I'm not grumpy because I haven't had my coffee... its because of your sickly sweet morning tone that I give you that look like I want to pluck your eyeballs out. Honestly if I could sleep from 4am to 11 am everyday I would be pleased... That's a measly 6 hours, but shit don't work like that son. Farmers from 100 years ago are still oppressing me and my nocturnal bioclock. :P I guess its better than being burned as a witch but hey, it's the new mellenium baby.

I'm sick and I've seen everything I'm back to youtube surfing. Which is low attention span friendly. Today I was sporting a fever of 37°C (thats 100°F) so thats my excuse. Today I found the weakest link. I loved this show when I was a teenager. Who wants to be a millionaire was had too much inflated suspense for me... and everyone was so dumb.

After watching a few episodes I started watching the BBC version. After watching a few episodes of the BBC version I'm convinced it was some foul plot to make Americans look stupid. The questions were way harder on a whole and the rounds were shorter. I guess it should show Americans are smarter then the British. If your into that positive light sort of thing.

Anyway this is all the Dragoneer's fault. Linking to a reading of 50 shades of grey.

Okay I'm going go drool at something now. I'll not post gain unless something interesting happens. :D

I was bored and was watching UTube stuff. So then after watching some funny stuff I got onto Utube video's of UFO's. Some of the imagery is compelling... but then at the end of each video they go all crack pot at the end. Saying stuff like bad cover up tapes and slogans like: will Obama tell us the truth? First of all confessions are easily faked. People are crazy... and secondly if there was a UFO cover up why the hell would they tell a man that may only be in office a maximum eight years? They should be wondering if GEN Raymond T. Odierno will tell them the truth or perhaps a farther fetched judiciary claim. Nope its Obama.

The reason people have trouble believing is because of these crack pots. They shoot their own cause in the foot. Then there is the people who think this foot shooting is intentional from some shadow government to discredit real sources. Then they go on to say/show something equally as ignorant. I'm going to think up a name for these kind of people, because they appear in 9/11 conspiracy circles too. Something... latin: umbra imperium coniuratio. Imperiumumbra? Hehe, sounds like a bad dance move. I'll think of something else. :D Mumbra. Mumblers. Hmm, that might be right.

So when we cut out all that Mumbler stuff we still have some compelling video evidence from multiple angles. All of which could be done on someone's computer at home. Mostly black backgrounds with simple lights. Perhaps a spectral trail. Camera movements are easily replicated as well. Multiple eye witness accounts add more credibility to them. So I don't think there is much point debunking that they saw something. What it was can only be speculated on anyway.

Lets delve a little deeper into that. UFO sightings and abductions were strictly a United States phenomenon till the late 80's. Some say that's because of cultural differences(UFO's being gods in the skies or the like). However there is also the more practical answers:

One: conspiracy of prototype aircraft. Which is a good theory, but somewhat discredits itself being most advanced aircraft in the world at the time were developed by a Canadian engineering company(General Dynamics bought Canadair in 1946 and sold it in 1974) and the USSR. Canadian sightings were almost nill at this time. Though I guess were' easy to buy out eh? :D Russians are in the same boat though.

Two: Mass hysteria(and its cousin my personal friend the common sleep disorder). Mass Hysteria is a mental condition that is not really understood. Just like most of psychiatry. For example sighting and abduction stories all were quite similar in nature(saucers, being unable to move, weird surgery, probing and grey's). Some say Mass hysteria some strange type of conformity, some think its because were all connected on some sort of subconscious level. Both are sadly equally valid. A large scale example of this is in the well known Pokémon Panic of 1997... and at other times during Japanese history. Some speculate that is because the culture has a much greater emphasis on conformity. That's a viewpoint most shared by people that did not grow up there. Societies want you to conform... that's just how they work. If you want a local example look at any suburb or high school. Then there's the other camp: population density. If we are connected on some sort of subconscious level the more population in an area leading to a greater outbreak makes a strange kind of sense.

Going back to UFO's in general most early sightings were around Roswell and area 51 in the 50's and 60's. No thick populations sightings around there... but New Mexico was where they tested types of atomic weaponry. People must have been weirded out enough by that going on. So the aliens could have been checking out atomic blasts. However that hypothesis is a little thin because the majority of US nuclear testing was done on the Marshall Islands Pacific proving grounds. Which there were no UFO sightings by the local populous.

Abductions are commonly thought of as sleep disorders by the skeptics. The brain does not produce norepinephrine, serotonin and histamine during REM sleep(REM atonia) and these neurotransmitters are necessary for the brain stems motor neurons to operate. There's an alphabet soup of disorders that are related to this(I sadly have suffered from most of the list at one time or another in my life)... and its commonly believed that everyone will experience sleep paralysis once in their lifetime. These can last hours in worse cases. These are generally accompanied by anxiety, hallucinations, and a sense that you are in danger. Sound familiar? If your in a society that wildly believes you've been abducted just what do you think your subconscious mind is going to show you? Classically these occurrences were associated with incubi. Aliens have become the boogymen of the 20th century. Nobody seems to believe in the devil anymore.

The less practical ideas are simply that everything is actually happening. There's no conclusive proof of it though. Nobody's come back from an abduction full of cybernetic or bio implants, or with "Alienz was here" stamped on their genitalia or any other part of their body so I can only say a resounding: Maybe.

No.. this may not be what you were expecting. I don't do commisions. Never believed in charging anyone for furry porn. I mean its furry porn for god sake. I guess I don't value it like other people. I'm not a "professorial".

It just seems to me like one of those cases were people pay for something I personally believe should be free. I know many furries lack self esteem, but really stand up for yourselves. We have someone advertising 67$ commissions from someone who has no right to be changing 10$. Anatomy is not his/her forte. Names will not be named. Though people pay. It fills me with loathing.

Am I jealous? No. I just have a sense of entitlement. Which is worse because it compels me to be a total douchebag. I can do lots of things. I don't because they're not worth it. Sometimes I feel like I want to make some awesome furry porn... but really there are lots of artists that do a great job and I feel there is no point. Which is actually disillusionment toward the fandom I know... but its where I've been for years now. I try to keep myself interested, but just fail.

I don't like my little pony. I gave it a chance. It's full of tired power puff girls jokes. Which is not surprising being a quick search revealed two of the minds behind power puff girls were incremental in its re-creation. I was not shocked. If you want to enjoy it great. I'm just hoping the fad will end and artists that are good stop wasting their time on making my little pony porn. Mostly from a nihilist viewpoint in my case. You can draw anything you want... and I can think things are lame if I want. I'd like to say everybody wins, but I'm the loser in this case, because I concede though non-opposition. It doesn't matter though. Fads come and go. Or everybody would still be drawing a large volume of sonic porn. Some do I know, but the fad is a dead horse.

After all this is said I feel compelled to say any reflection you get form this is not my feelings. I'm pretty laid back and neural about all these subjects. If you feel I've offended you that just makes me feel like I've got my point across. So please, tell me how I'm wrong. You may just convince me.

So I was watching super mario brothers with John Leguizamo as luigi and... oh, no wait. I was watching the amazing spiderman.

I mean would it have killed them to make him look like a crocodile? For starters goomba's are not scary... and more importantly they're not sexy. :( Yes, thats where my disappointment centers from. Hehe.

So I just bought myself a copy. It was through an OEM program for a company my buddy works for. Which is good because I don't like spending $700 on an image program. And no I will not give up who he is because he's not supposed to be doing it. Though I suppose its better than stealing. I got burnt trying out CS1 as it was a totally handicapped copy so I prefer to be able to get updates.

I'm giving it a chance. Painter sort of lost me with painter 12 as some of "autosave features" make it really easy to F up all your work... this happened to me three times. Admittedly the last one of those times I was drunk. :D I'm going to have to hunt down my painter 7 disk. I know I can turn it off... but its save system in general pisses me off. Saving a simple jpeg for the web is a four process event. I felt better off taking a screen cap and posting it in MS paint.

So, some interesting new stuff. Like The ability to use 16 bits per channel(and 32 with greatly reduced features) is nice... but not really needed for someone like me. I still use photoshop 6.0 for a lot of things. And 8bit was all we had back in the day there boys and girls. I even had to go online and look up why the heck I'd even use 16 bits per channel. The answer is its for digital photography... as in stuff your going to print out. No issue for me there. Moving on.

As I've come up from 6.0... and this is *counts on fingers* like version 15 or something I'd expect more... everything. There are a few new tools... but they just do what you could do with old tools just in less steps... so I guess thats good. One thing I'm curious about is how in a newer version of the program they could f up gradients. They band like crazy now. You can fix it... but it takes more steps... so I'm not so sure how that happened. Perhaps they [badly] rewrote their colour matrix program. I noticed a lot of the original staff's names aren't listed when the program starts up.

There's a few new filters... like surface blur and the much toted lens blur. I do like the lens blur. Though I really only see it being used for three reasons. Animation, those fake 3d things you have to cross your eyes at and for me to make incredibly lazy backgrounds. Yay! :D

Okay so there are new materials... I generally make my own so thats a bit of a wash for me. Though they can be applied to animated stuff... and now you can do animation stuff in program... so I think I'll give that a try. I hate flash's cell system so this might work out for me.

Though there will be no warbly bouncing hips like I've seen lately. I know some of you may like them... but I don't. That and unnecessary zooms (No it does not cover up the fact that they animated very little) and camera shaking. Though considering every action director and their dog is going it now so I guess I'm just out of the loop... but I prefer to think of myself as counter culture.

I'm bored and I have to be up in seven hours. Not to mention I'm an insomnia emperor. I'd draw, but painter 7 is screwed up (My CD has gone missing too so nix to the reinstall) and painter 12 needs more than 4GB of ram for whatever reason so its lanky. Guess I'll do some oekaki.

I just hate doing art when I'm bored. Never turns out to be furry pornography.