By the power of reverse psychology.

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When going through recents... theres a lot of crap there. Like, bad crap. I can go through pages and see one well made image. I'm not just talking about my interest in the subject matter.

Kind of sad really.

I've been digging ditches most of the week so I decided to veg today and watch my recently obtained stack of Stephen King movies.

Some are surprisingly good, like the stand and creep show. Even if they are a bit campy. Others that were scary when I was a kid, like the children of the corn and pet cemetery are total crap. Armed teenagers are not scary to me (I'm not afraid to bring the pain to teens with knives. I've convinced a few in my time that pulling a knife or me is a good way to get your arm broken) and not putting up a fence against a busy road when you have a toddler is just plain retarded. There is no suspense for either of those movies for me, because if the characters had more realistic values nothing would have happened. I'm also reminded who Mr. King did not want his name on the lawnmower man. I like the movie, but its really not him.

I'm gonna watch firestasrter and christine before I give in for the day. I remember them being good.

Porn raffle. For fun yo.
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I found myself thinking: what the heck is a marmoset. So I looked them up and well check out the image on the far right small.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Black-tufted_marmoset

Scary. Their faces are like creepy little skull heads. Then you click on the picture and their actually kinda cute.

I'm alive and junk. Working as an electrician, flipping houses (which sounds a lot more extreme than it is).

I keep myself out of trouble nowadays. Which mostly just means playing lots of video games in my spare time. I'd post about that, but thats okay. Oh but Diablo 3 sucks don't buy it. I'm not talking about the being online thing, I just mean in general. It's an action rpg that was beatable in under 4 hours on the first run. I remember when I had a fit that max payne was under 8. Of course that was because I wanted more from max. Diablo 3 is another matter and I wont get into it. I'm going to go back to playing Fallout.

Browsing animefreak.tv just now and received winsecure through an exploit. Fuck you firefox.

Going back to opera.

It's on the damn questionnaire. Last time I donated anyway. However I'm a jaded asshole. I hold onto things forever. Donate bitches. Just justify doing it by being bi. No I'm not a god damn homosexual. I am an omnisexual. Haha! Nice ring to that one. Sounds like some sort of sex crazed robot.

Sexmatron is omnisexual!

Yeah, that seems like a good place to stop myself.

I woke up with killer heartburn, then got up and realized I also have a massive migraine. Then my stomach turned over and I spent a half hour dry heaving into the toilet. Then I had an allergic reaction after I was done or perhaps during I was kind of distracted. The sneezing only exasperating my migraine.

To top it all off I was apparently trying to puke so hard a whole bunch of blood vessels around my eyes broke so I look like a red faced raccoon.

If I had been drinking this would be an expected reaction, but that is not the case. The heartburn is from going to bed right after eating something admittedly spicy, and that combined with the head pain made me sick.

So, now I'm going to double up on my migraine medication and stare blankly at the television. I think its called watching television. Hopefully I'll fall back asleep.

Customer service makes me want to start lying to people to get them the fuck off my back. I really don't care for customers who call all the time for stuff they will be getting back. What? Are you addicted to internet porn or something? Your computer will get fixed in lightning speed once I get to it. You people calling interrupts almost fifty minutes of my day on average. Plus all the doing other departments jobs that gets shoved on me and its a wonder your machine even got fixed at all.

Customers also like to paint me like a lair anyway. Whenever I give them a possibility, that they god damn asked for, I always say modifiers like maybe and probably. THAT DOES NOT MEAN I TOLD YOU FOR CERTAIN. I don't care how good you say your memory is I did not fucking tell you that was the problem you stupid bitch. I'm not some miracle worker who divined the problem with your system just by touching it before I shipped it off to the manufacturer for you. It was an educated guess. You know how god damn nice I'm being for even doing that for you? They generally make your cranky old ass do that yourself.

I also don't care that it's tax time. If you had done your taxes before you brought your machine in, which was still in a usable state, you could have finished them. In fact if you had brought your machine back in right after you noticed the problem you would have had it back already. She waited three months after getting it back from HP (before I even started working there) to bring it back because they fucked up the motherboard replacement. This is my fault how?

I'm done there. I could go on an on. I realize I take things a bit too personally. I just don't like bottling anything up for too long. Might go crazy and tell the oblivious people around me what I really think of them. I guess that makes me a liar deep down anyway. *sigh*

You are wearing your housecoat and have, by the smell of it, been puking till you passed out.

Options;
-Get up go to work
-Call in sick... again
-Fall back unconscious (<- fuck it all option)

Option two and three were tempting, but I went with one. Armed with cold medication, gravol, anti diarrhea caplets and an iron will. I went to work today. Spreading my disease.

... the real sad bit is if we could get everyone in the entire world to stay home for three weeks cold and flu viruses would become extinct. These things that are killing people could cease to exist if the world would all stay inside for a few weeks. How fucked up is that?

Every year I get a flu shot a few months later I get a nasty bug. It happened last time I did it back in 2005 and again now. Times in between getting no flu shot... and no flu. Conspiracy nut jobs unite on this one. Never again. It's like it makes me more susceptible which is unacceptable.

Needless to say I've been taking it easy. Wanna' draw some porn so I'm going to yay!

It's like shows pass off too another studio and then they suddenly become suck. Universe you better get back to impressing me.

Sleep is for the weak! Yeaha!

That is a lie. I'm going to be toast all day. Whewt.

I keep having dirty dreams too. It's like some sort of torture. Sexy torture.

... I kind of feel sorry for anyone who needs my help today. It'll be amusing at the very least.

I've been feeling pretty robotic today. Thus like cold unfeeling flesh. Which I can only assume is related to my bender on the previous evening. So the cure is that I need to get out, ==DD

Luckily I'm being driven into the city. My mom told me I can find my own way home though... whatever that means. :P Now I just need to make sure I can have a place to stay for sure. It's cold out there.

Me? Its been work. :( Though my carlessness is a real dampener. I got a whole sweet basement to myself. As opposed to a basement suite. :D My own hottub, full bathroom, space enough to run around in. Only thing I could ask for is a new pool table. My father apparently took mine when he left. Which pisses me of because it was a present to me from my dead grandpa, but whatever. He's a dick.

Really happy to have internet. Not so happy my scanner bit the biscuit in some move in yonder past. I could use my mothers, but I am trying to avoid accidentally exposing her to the mountains of furry pornography I make. So I'll have to purchase one. Lucky i work at an office supply store and get 15% off.

In other news. Drawing comic involving underage characters. Not so much because underage characters are sexier, but my severe interest in sexual discovery of the age. I mostly just feel it was something i missed out on... or something. It's just magical to me for some reason approaching what i described. Vague man is vague. Wont be able to post it here so I'm not even sure why I'm mentioning it. :P

That's it. Yeah I know. I'm exciting. Yep.

i have internet111111

... but apparently my right shifter does not work.

on that note. i'm exausted1 just ran half way cross town and i need to get some sleep. first the cronic masturbation, then sleep ;d

Even though this is the town I grew up in. I said Hi to the neighbors kid that used to idolize me and he didn't even recognize me. *laughs* He is also much taller than me now sadly. :(

Plus side is he still plays guitar. So we're going to jam a little next week. So yay! Little does he know I'm using his internet to look at furry porn and post this wonderful message to my journal. mwahahahahahah *laughs evilly for about five minutes*

What was I doing again? Ah yes, the pornography.

Like me for instance. I was finally able to pick up some free interenets at my new place by sitting out on the deck. I cleared some snow away and am enjoying some hot chocolate(but no moon wah!).

Thank god electronics can operate down to -35C. It's only about -14 but I digress my need to use the internet is border lining on insanity. Wednesday is the day for real internet so Yay!

Gonna try and download some porn and go inside. :D

brains can be replaced with cock. Whichever you may prefer.

My brains are not working right now due to my three hours sleep before my mom HAD to do the dishes as loudly as possible at 5am. Then laundry... both activities being right outside my room. Just bla. Need to get sleep sometime, think I may have to resort to getting really drunk or something tonight. :E

Why do all the sexy like minded boys I meet all live there? It's like a conspiracy! *shows off his butt*

Haha, but in all seriousness I'd trace it back to my movie addiction and Hollywood and all that.Sometimes I hate when I aim that mental magnifying glass on myself.

I can also do nothing about it. My foreskin is so swollen its like an extra half inch to my cock. It's I really need to get fucked horny too, and I alas don't have any dildo's. I'm in a perdickament. *laughs*

It's damn frustrating. grrr arg

stupid and contagious of course. I get the feeling that my age group has become the money maker as it seems like I enjoy every movie coming out. They also play music on rock stations from my teenage years that they never played during my teenage years. For example the band cake and its awesomeness beyond short skirt long jacket. It flabbergasts me. I feel kind of sorry for the bands that were apparently ahead of their time.

Plus sorry for seeming like a self absorbed jaded jerk in my last entry. It's one of my many facets. I have no self esteem without ego so it all balances itself out to contribute to my own happiness. Everyone has their skills and experience. Wolfebyte could just understand that my mind moves sideways as opposed to forward. I suppress this when talking to people because it confuses them. Sometimes my being jaded presents itself and it makes me seem like a dick. Sorry for sounding elitist.

of my wonderful family. My father is apparently taking his sweet ass time moving out of our broken home. So I am still resorting to stealing interwebs. Sorry to any involved. I'm not going to bitch. I love him reguardless. I have no choice.

In other news I'm feeling pretty off balance at my place of work. I get the feeling that my supervisor may indeed be a moron. Though I have often felt that way about anyone who cannot understand the words that are coming out of my mouth. Too often I feel I may be speaking german when I use large words. Not just with him. I feel it is my duty to expand peoples knowledge of the english language that I had been so harshly trained in my youth (I spelled everything phonetically which is a major crime that gave me three years of home tutoring to keep me out of the retard class). It's not about being a know it all. It's about making sure the english language that I had such trouble learning does not devolve to leet speek.

Sure, leet speak was fun in the beginning(I was there for it shut up), but now everyone is texting the crap and I even often hear grown adults shortening the spoken word for god sake. Like the extra sylables would kill them. Fuck I even listened to a pop station and the singer was litterally singing pop shit from the internet two years ago.

I mean what the flying fuck! She sung "why so serious" and some other stupid shit. I bleached my brain after I heard it so I really can't remember what she said, but it was basically one internet colloquialism after another. Thats your word of the fucking day kiddies. Look it up on dictionary.com. Or use an actual paper dictionary like I do when I'm speaking to someone who says a word that I can't make sense out of its context. Context is always a big hint by the way.

I miss wolfebyte. He's the only human I've met so far I never felt the need to dumb myself down for(plus he could keep up with my sex drive... Who am I kidding he surpased mine). But I could not alleviate his suffering, so hopefully he's happier now... but the grass is always greener... I know the meaning of these words better than most.

Fuck I guess I'm growing bitter. Though really its all good. I'm so full of understanding and wisdom now that I often scare myself. I don't feel the bitter pain of living anymore. I'm comfortable and happy just living. Which is new to me. *shrug* I suppose I finally put myself through enough hell that anything better feels like heaven.

My mother is apparently where I get my manic streak from. I thought it was a mental defect all my own, but apparently I inherited it. Cool. Even cooler that I never noticed it when I was younger.

She wanted me to go out to strath. to get my stuff, and I didn't get a hold of the person who had it. She still had to drag me 15 min into the city, when the drive out to Strath. is 45min from there. If it were half way or something I could understand the mighty need to go half way, but as it was I was having a lot of trouble explaining why it was silly. I love her anyway.

Good news: I am a whole person again. Got my license and all that jazz. Which is apparently a major pain in the ass to replace if you don't have any information. Funny that bureaucracy does indeed run full circle. I also got to see my best friend before his gf moved in with him. Its like me and her have a total love hate thing with her but only hate when my best friend is around. I guess she's jealous of how well we get along or something. *shrug*

Bad news: My former roommate stole my wallet and my birth certificate, mp3 player, data stick, phone, and all sorts of other stuff that I'm not really sure why. He also deleted my gmail accounts for spite so I guess I'll just accept it.

Stuff got rocky (he got a DUI with my uninsured car that he should not have been driving, and was not man enough to help me pay for the sizable ticket when I covered his ass so he didn't get a stolen vehicle criminal charge) so I left, and I guess I should never stay logged into anything.

You live, you learn. You choke, your sucking too hard. :D

I've been drawing quite a bit, though on actual paper sadly so no postage till I get real intagerwebvs. Oekaki has been failing hardcore on me much to my dismay.

I know it might because of the current journal fucking FA is doing but please don't delete journal stuff. I mean I'm willing to leave up totally embarrassing stuff from when I was losing my mind. You all should be able to accept that nobody is perfect. I may tease you, but that only shows my love. :D

In any case, I had a bit of a weird day. I think my supervisor may have been flirting with me a bit. I took it stoically as always (social reflex I'm afraid), but I think I may need some advice on how to carefully pursue it further. He is kind of cute. Things he was truthful about (ie. no hesitation in speech pattern, which is by no means a positive):

-Referred to me as "studmuffin"
-Does not care about sticky keys due to pornography (could be a good sign or simply a social disorder).
-Joked about spanking a naughty laptop.

He had a little hesitation to referring to an old girlfriend when it came up, but has told of moving for another girl without hesitation with another employee. However he has no showing of wearing a band(ie wedding ring lightening) and yes he is from BC so that might not mean shit. He also has a friend that works there who is British, but really gives the gaydar a vibe. Sometimes its hard to tell with them I admit.

My social conscience begs my treading lightly, at least till my 90 days are up and they can't fire me for no reason. *laughs*

I may just be reading too much into it. If nobody has any good advice I'll spring something horrible on him which could be interpreted in the vaguest way imaginable.