Really, thanks to all the chatty furs. I feel quite a bit better.

I'm going to have to post some failed art in a bit if I dont finish it. I really wanted to do a good job with it, but its totally preventing me from making anything new. So I'm giving myself three days to finish. Thats it.

And again thanks for cheerin me up.

The said business is under a loan agreement involving my current living space. Odds are I'm going to be kicked out of said living space soon. So no more internet for me for a bit. Don't take it personal if I appear to drop off the face of the earth.

I'm going to try and finish up some art and stuff tommorow evening, but from then on things will get a bit unstable.

I am, and most of the non furry people I know. Uh, great. More religious dogma of the empire slotting itself into mainstream thought/psycology.

I only have one response to this: There is a reason were on top of the food chain, and its not entirely due to thumbs or tools. The fact that we are designed to have sex all the time. Guys have to get off(we do it in our sleep if we cant). Its purely a social problem. If the freakshow was willing to be with someone who likes sex as much as they do it would be invisible like it has for the past few thousand years. Sex sells. So its on Tv, the news and is presented like a large social problem that has gone 'unnoticed'. Prudence and ignorance in action.

I really have to go to work now, but spreading stupidity is my biggest peeve.

No, not the movie, but me. I was up all night drinking and stuff, and felt like crashing and I litterally laid in bed for 4 hours not sleeping. So, here I am still up. I'm pretty much useless right now so no art, or games... and I'm out of movies to watch. So don't mind me if I'm commenting on a lot of stuff in a hungover no sleep in the past 48 hours kinda way.

Taken from  Naskatan

001. Name → Tobias Zane
002. Nickname(s) → Toby(someone decided that the super white blond hair, blue eyes kid was funnier as a black man. Racism in action, thanks Hitler Alberta)
003. Status → A long time roommate and fuck buddy, I'm open to joiners.
004. Zodiac sign → Sagittarius(or dragon by the Chinese... at least according to the menu:)
005. Male or female → Male... though sometimes....

006. Elementary → Yes
007. Middle School → Indeed
008. High School → Completed
009. Smart → I'm dumb as a post(giants of IQ dwarf my modest IQ, including my current bf who is still smarter than me after having some major braindamage), I just really wanted out of high school at 16. Remember credit totals and main courses are useful. Everything else is fluff to keep you there longer.
010. Hair color → Depends on the time. I'm growing it out again for my bangs, so its black now, but it will soon be bleach blonde and navy blue in the back once again. Chemicals FTW
011. Long or short → My hair sheds if it gets longer than the chin in the front. So, I guess long for me. If it refers to cock size I'm somewhere in between those two. :P Longest I've... examined personally, I feel kinda small, but I guess that makes me a bit of a size whore so I'll cut that out)
012. Loud or Quiet → Good music loud. Movies loud. Some games loud. Babies shrill... not so much. I prefer that quiet. I hated it so much I never cried when I was a baby my mom used to freak out and think I had sids or something and watch me sleep for hours. I just really hate crying for attention unless I have something to say. I'm punk from birth. I guess anyway.
013. Sweats or Jeans → If the jeans are super comfy baggy pants from the early 2000's jeans(none of that levi/wrangler ball pinching denim(though the actual denim is supercute and sexy), and people wonder why I wear thongs...). Though generally sweats for casual. I prefer not wearing them outside though. Too much creepy old couple in matching windbreakers for me.
014. Phone or Camera → I prefer them as seaperate entities, but camera phones are good for candid shots.
015. Health freak → Schizophrenically yes. I work out everyday, but then again I eat out with greasy/salty foods almost everyday so its up to question.
016. Drink or Smoke? → Drink quite a bit, smoke socially(anyone who says they quit entirely is in denial, I'm strong willed, but I still smoke when I'm drinking for some nicotine buzz... or was the smoke something else?)
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → Yeah, I have lots of crushes though. I'm just a horny dragon. My most recent lustings are after the couple of skylorforscythe and taillone. Man I miss being with a guy and a girl at the same time. Thank god for the impending threats of STI's or I'd be a total slut. Oh, and never had an sti and I plan on keeping it that way.
018. Eating or Drinking → I drink more pop than anyone my age has a right too. I eat once a day... but as I said before something fatty usually.
019. Piercings → No(I'm allergic to metals, sometimes its just plain itchyness, but surgical stainless turns me purple, and gold turns my skin green, I'm told platinum is better, but a little expensive for a piercing...)
020. Tattoos → I'm too fickle to get anyone except those semi fake ones that last about 6month. (I have a pawprint on my ass :P You know when your a furries bitch when... though its pretty faded now)

FIRSTS:

023. First piercing → Ears
024. First best friend → Real best friend? I'm not talking imaginary, but more I'd kill for the guy. My first bf after leaving college I guess. I'm still good friends with him, even though he lives in Edmonton. Also Derek, man I love that guy in a platonic way.
025. First award → Spelling B first place in my gradeschool. Though at the same time I was also a greenbelt in Goju(hand and fist martial art... lots of judo with more punching, with a bit of ninjitsu and snake style because my Renshi(sp? seventh dan black belt teacher) loved me... but not like that, but mostly because I hooked him up with so many computer games) Come to think of it though we also took first place in tiger might for the foothills(hockey major little league so I generally overlook it as I was mostly in hockey to play the Canadian kid stereotype for my father, though I still really enjoy skating).
026. First crush → I've had lots... I suppose the first was this Austrian girl exchange student in the third grade. Her teeth were kinda bad, but she had a sexy way of speaking. I often convinced her to speak dirty to me unintentionally as english was her second language.
027. First pet → That was mine? I suppose Mrs. Lasercute Athena(cute rays overwhelm!).
028. First big vacation → Hawaii when I was 2.5 years of age. My first of many fond memories of electrocuting myself plugging in a hotel lamp. I can't wear watches now because of how many times I've had this happen. I need a nice wind up pocket watch. Though my cellphone is good for now.
030. First big birthday → Never had one personally. Fucking Christmas.

049. Eating → pizza...
050. Drinking → I prefer a good scotch(oban. *drools*) but generally I'm a vodka and freska guy. Though now its some morning redbull.
052. I'm about to → Go home and fuck my bf silly.
053. Listening to → indust/darkwave, but currently Timekiller - And One (remix) followed by the logical song - scooter and Iris - Annie would I lie to you. Man this meme takes a long time
054. Plans for today → sleep on this fine Canadian Remembererance day.
YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids? → Negative, I'm not interested in spawning a kid more fucked up than me. I'm a good alternative rolme model/friend, but I'd be a bad parent, and kning me my spawn would be crazier than me.
059. Want to get married? → Nope, marrage is a meaningless constraint to failed/failing relationships. I'll get married if the other party wants it, but being exclusive is easy for a honorable guy like me.
060. Careers – Internet Cafe meatpuppet, not really, thats it so far. Though being a small business owner sucks.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH OPPOSITE SEX?(What if you like both?)

068. Lips or eyes → The eyes. I like pure colors for some reason. Grey especially.
070. Shorter or taller? → I'm usually the shorter one at 5'11" I make up for it by being deceptively strong. No bf expects the leg lock pass out squeeze. They always have to ask how strong martial arts made my legs. :D
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantically spontaneous. Sounds fun.
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → I'm more of a butt guy... I guess: arms? I prefer skinny with well toned muscle, I suppose a bit of fat is okay too. Never really got a 'sexy belly yet, cute, yes, but not sexy... pelvises on ther other hand...)
074. Sensitive or loud → A little of both, but I prefer to be quiet unless... yeah. Living with someone elses rents is a pain.
075. Hook-up or relationship → A relationship, honestly sex might as well be masturbation if there's no deep seeded feelings. Its faster and easier.
077. Troublemaker or hesitant → I'm crazy, so both.
HAVE YOU EVER:

080. Lost glasses/contacts → No, never. (I see good, but sunglasses disappear all the time)
081. Ran away from home → I moved out when I was 16(I was mostly living at friends at the time anyway, but thats when I moved most of my junk out of home) So does moving out and never looking back count?
084. Broken someone's heart → I don't think so, but I was kind of crushing to my bestfriends ex that wanted to hook up because I didint really explain to her fully why I have the bros before hoes rule. I have it for good reason.
085. Been arrested → For real? Never. Though my uncle used to 'have fun' by shoving me in the back of his squadcar and I'd pretend like I was a wigger for his entertainment.
087. Cried when someone died → I cried when my aunt was taken from me by a Indian(thats east for those of you still thinking the indigenous tribes of Acadia(no not the last of as the rock played in the scorpian king, but the resident tribes reffered to as a settlement mistaken for the name of the Country are East indians) people rented. I tell ya my mom was on my ass about looking both ways for many years after that. If someone dies of old age, I tend to remember the good parts and rarely cry. I usually take a few days off work to have a 'proper' Irish style wake.


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself → Existentially I am not the 'one' but generally I'm a try-ier
090. Miracles → Perhaps, but I'm a cynic at heart. I'm not going to pretend I know anything at absolute truth till I experience it myself. I'm just trying to be a good person in the mean time.
091. Love at first sight → Lust, most assuredly. Never really love though.
092. Heaven → Same sort of answer as 89
093. Santa Claus → As a classic saint that may or may not have lived thousands of years ago. Other than that he's just the bringer of many: screw you Tobias birthday/christmas presents.
094. Sex on the first date → Depends what you consider a date. If its dinner and a movie, usually not. Though the get togethers to chat and stuff I sometimes break the rules.
095. Kiss on the first date → Only been with a few people that even like kissing at all. Hugs, and perhaps gropes, definably.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → A few... at the same time. oh man I could go for an orgy.
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → No. I mean being an internet cafe meatpuppet is nice n all, but its not really a career. Plus owning your own business where you're basically the only employee is rough on the social life, but I cope(I admit I'm a recovering techhead, but it just used to be so fun taking things apart and finding out how they 'tick').
099. Do you believe in God → I don't presume to know. I'd be a little presumptuous being a lowly mind in the overall scope of what most refer to as god.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag Everyone who reads this! I tag  log  denim and  fxear because I don't talk to you guys anymore, but if you don't want to do it I understand as even at a good pace it took me an hour to do, and it was because I'm at work when were not open having a bit of an afterhours party with friends that seem more interested in playing the 360...

Furry in a lot of ways is my dark little secret. Just like things like I love the thundercats and other various cartoon shows from the 80's/90's. I love all sorts of cheesy shows as long as they're done in a lighthearted non painful way. These are not things I advertize. Furry is more like some dirty habit like someone picking nose and wiping it under the seat. A bad habit to hide.

I'm not saying nobody knows I draw this stuff, All my closest friends do, and its not any serious contention that they have looked through my smutty smut. Though I cant help but feel like a bit of a weirdo. It's like having some sort of wacky perversion and I like it. Must be how those s&m folks feel. It would not be near as much fun if I were advertizing. I like being a bit of a mystery myself.

Though most of the time I might seem like I don't want to really join the furry community. Thats because I don't. I have this wall of "omg the only thing I have in common with these people is that I want to fuck something not human" in the way. Sure there's other common ground I'm sure, but I'm also one to learn from past mistakes, even ones made by others. My former bf had a lot of issues when he tried to join the furry community in his area. By what was said in group chat he believed that it was a sort of sex group. Well, after meeting someone and some things came to light after a lot of mutual touching and some nakedness on his part. (haha, babe I never said any names or locations, so try not to hit me the next time we see each other. Okay you can but just keep it below the chin and above the belt :P) Well, anyway it was pretty much like group ostracization after that.

His naïve mistake is not the problem. The problem is the groups response. Full grown adults acting like teenagers with hot gossip. Honestly if you went to dinner and a movie(and take you back to their place to show you their PORN collection...) with someone and they seemed really friendly, and couldn't seem to keep their hands off of you what would you think? I mean a good portion of gay guys I know personally don't do kissing. Hell I've even been with a woman that hates kissing. So what exactly is the I want to fuck hint? Of course you could just come out right with saying it, but you should not do that(unless you have the charisma to pull it off). It sounds too much like begging to me most of the time, and pity sex is not fun. For me anyway... A tip is to present it in a 'fun something to do' kind of light if you even have to say it out loud.

Social anxiety for my dirty habit. That sums it up. Any experience would be cheepened if I can talk with you so freely about my perversion without forming some sort of relationship out of it. Furry is mostly about sex for me. I don't even touch my best friend on a regular basis(and I've done quite a lot of very illigal crap for that guy), if your going to 'scritch' me a lot expect something to come of it if I like you. Heck even if your just kinda hot :D Thats just how I am.

Which makes me very aware that I would not belong in a regular furry community. This awareness is why it'll take a lot to get me into any regular community event.

However visiting someone who I know that if we hit it off there's going to be a little fucking is good. :D Just had to put that out there to someone. hint hint. ^.^

ninjaedit: I realize this post makes me sound totally slutty. I've only had sex with eleven people in my entire 23 years on this planet(haha but it was a lot of sex with said 11 people most of the time with more than one at a time). Five of them being virgins and I count oral and mutual masturbation as sex. So, nyaaa! Most of the guys I know my age have been with more than 30 people at the very least. Sex is something special* for me. I'm not saying I need a relationship out of it, but its very important its special*. I might as well be masturbating if its just going through the motions. Have I mentioned that I really enjoy masturbation? :P

*special is purposefully vauge because it does not mean moonlit bed of roses, or anything classically seen as romantic crap. Special can be just a great moment doing anything :) in these instances it just happens to lead to a romp.

It's entertaining when my friends are stoned where I work, even if I need to put on the Tobias not amused face.

So I'm up all night again from partying. I wanted to do everyone a publuic service announcement while I cool off:

People with journals... do me a favor and not include a header and footer to every post. Especially if they are full of random people's images and or non standard colour text. It makes me not want to read your journal and is just plain bad for presentation. Header: fine. Footer: Fine. Though never the tween should meet on a document shorter than 5 pages. I want to read your journal but most of the time It rapes my brain.

Rapes my brain. I mean this in the most unsexy way possible. Its like bad rape "I came too early" sex. Yeah, premature ejaculation all round.


If you must post all that stuff here's a hint for those who don't know anything about presentation: Spacing is key. You can have all you junk in every post as long as in the body your journal appears clearly defined.


See spacing can help excentuate your body of text.

I hope to be able to read some of your journals soon.

Do you often feel the desire to eat soft, delicious, fluffy, salty brains? Well, here's your chance to atleast pretend like you do.


I will be there. If you don't see me its because its a freekin mob and I'm going to be smattered with blood and gore.

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It's a members night tonight, so I'll be there all night. I suppose its better than doing nothing, but I'd much rather be doing other things. But I take a nice little weekend of sunday, and monday after though so its not all bad.

I totally could have gone to FC this year. If I was only paying attention to when it is. I'm going to try for AC I guess. I know a few folks going there.I wan't to at least try to go to one con, but theres an annoyingly large circle of far away-ness from me for cons. So I'll have to actually plan ahead some.

My weekend I vow to draw. That will be my own singular purpose. That and buying a few new thongs. :D

Today didin't work out for me. I got nothing done. Except if you count beating guitar hero on hard with a friend.

Haha, what a collosial waste of time that game is.

Expect more art in a few days. I'm too cramped to draw well.

As pennance for not doing a single peice of work even though I took 6 days off over the holidays I'm going to be posting something full and finished every night till next Wednesday.

Speaking of those six days it was pretty dramariffic. It's made me resolve to stop passing up anything that could be a good thing because of others feelings. My happiness first. I'll still do what needs doing but aside from that I'm going to take every bit of good that comes along reguardless of consequence.

I'm also going to take every opportunity to take time off work I get.

Hope you all had a good new year.

Merry christmas, those of scale and fur. I wish I got a chance to get online and wish it in person but to be honest I got totally smashed with my parents and got a ride home with a friend. Then we did some other things. <(-^-)> Anyhou, I'll try to come on later tonight after some fun. The night is still young.

Hope you had a good day.

I have not been on much as of late. For this I apologize to all my newfound online friends. I've been spending the majority of my time hanging out with my real life friends and family as my birthday is coming up and I just can't seem to find time for all of them and hang out online(and work. The 12 hour day, six days a week thing is wearing me thin. ungh).

I hope you all are well. May the next new moon bring you an enchanting evening.

I usualy try and post something every week, but today I got so pent up with the doing nothing constructive I just didin't think I should ruin it by doing anything. I did draw a stupid sketch though. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/896143/

Aside fomr that I've been drunk for the past 12 hours. So goodnight.

I'm finally back up and running.

Haha, spent the last few days a bit sick and getting my car ready for winter. Exciting eh? Oh I guess hosted a halo3 tournament. It was loud, and not very exciting for me.

Funny how nobody wants to go out and do anything when I have some extra time off and without really anything to do at home. Fucking hilarious.

Hehe, I live. However due to an unfortunate act of my computer's hard drive committing suicide I am sans computer at home. I apologize for the lack of posting and not being online for a bit due to this fact. I am poor (and also horrendiously busy) so it will take time to secure a replacement.

Also, it looks like my 2000 pageviews is coming up. If someone gets a cap of that I may have to draw them something of their desires. Just something to keep in mind.

I am the proud new owner of a Buick LeSaber. Or perhaps not so proud as kind of erked. Sometimes you have to let the 70's die. Buick believes the 70's were still running strong in the mid 90's. They were incorrect.

I now an the proud owner of a 'new' uesed car. Not that I've even seen it yet. I just own it. Its the same type of car, so it'll be mostly the same.

I'm just glad I can get a little independence back. At least percieved independence. Hell, if I wanted too I could empty the accounts and go on the road if I wanted too. Illusion of freedom here I come!

Haha, I should get the addresses of those I'd like to go meet to make the temptation all the more sweeter, but tha'd be bad. :D

Can someone sweep me off my feet to the other hemisphere for a month? I'm not promising anything but if our personalities click I'll at least suck your... *cough*

Inother news, I'm goign to have a fun day reclaiming my car that runs, but its electrical is screwed up so it has a habit of flooding. Might just be a sensor, might be the whole computer. I dunno. I'll have to see.

Good news is I'm getting a new car... which is pretty much the old car with a different body, but its the best deal to come along so far.

In the spirit of  denim 's communism I will draw porn of me and anyone who repsonds to this post.

I was in Wendy's today and the kids toys had normal Mario and a pic of Wario dressed in pink vest and baby blue trousers with goggles on his head. I thought to myself. 'When did wario become a flaming raver?'

But it leads to question: Are raving fags the opposite of Mario?

Well, its like what? 3 weeks later, and I finally have a licenced professional working on my vehicle. I'm still yet to know if it will live, but to be honest it was kind of nice not having a car. No being taxi. No fighting for a parking spot in front of the house. However it does not really help that I am totally stranded in this town...

I was out at my rents place for fathers day... on 4 hours sleep. Was great fun. Like chewing glass: You grin and bear it.

We pulled an all nighter members night on Saturday. I'm not really looking forward to when we do it again. Went well though.

Hey boys and girls. My car, the only possesion of note I have, was floating down the a river in the middle of the street. Thankyou flash flood.

I went and pushed it out into a high and relatively dry parking lot, and now I have to go have someone give me a ride back in to see if I can get it going. Plus I can look forward to mold in the interior, bearings fucking up and a wealth of other problems that could happen down the road.