I am so sick of so called Facebook friends… unfreind me because I am blocked from using the website, unfreind me because I say religion, money, politics and war is a disease to the planet, and unfreind me because the men in black killed my neighbours cat.. Why do i live on a planet with such heartless arsholes ?

Had my MRI scan to check my ears, it gave me electric shocks, and they had to stop the scan as I was screaming. They managed to take one whole full image of inside my head, and it showed 3 implant objects. One of them is right in the center… after the scan I am feeling very dizzy and disorientated and feel half asleep and drowsy and clumsy, with a mild headache.

Earth people are difficult to be friends with, they always impose conditions of acceptance, and not be true to myself. I have been rejected so much I find serenity being alone, but anxiety around and with people… the fear of being used or abused or simply misunderstood , and judged against a list of terms and conditions… If this is called friendship … fuck it.

o I get blocked from facebook with all my accounts because of posting a link to my website , find out that my twitter has been hacked into… what the fuck is this bullshit ? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3k7RZ78yfEA

My art and star people why I do extraterrestrials or relate my fantasy characters to them is.::.The reason why I do this is my way of disclosing artistically that earth people are not alone in the galaxy.

Today I suffered from a severe anxiety attack, from a court threat letter from the council about council tax that is normally managed by the benefits I am on because of my post traumatic stress disorder from gender-intersex issues and events in childhood up to present. They threaten that I have to be in court on 15th August , where they claim they would make me bankrupt(impossible since I always run out of money after paying bills and groceries) would result in to take everything from me such as my paintings against my will or put me in prison. UK has officially going back in time consciously to Victorian times , back to the middle ages.

Due to real life problems of illness with my bones and problems on the internet, with facebook in particular, i still cant communicate with the manager of Erotic Arts Festival to find out about the success of my painting, it it sold or not, it has been a major distraction where I have lost complete concentration in moving forwards, I have been staggering on an artwork for 2 months now, and its no joke. Been on trial for something I have been accused by a cornershop shyster, which is now over, even staggered in my online course with coursera, not completing the last assignments. It was not what I needed and expected to do, that is developing and learning new methods of drawing... it was about the stuff and type of art I am moving away from which is collages/dream art rather than design/create fine arts which is what I am moving towards, hence they did not need much attention and time. On the positive note, I have been busy with an art project at the Baltic in Newcastle working on conceptual art with a team of other artists.

Yeah in short sorry for being sluggish (irony with recent work of slugs and being herm).

The truth is, there is no “alien agenda" there is only an anti-ET agenda, because the truth has no agenda.

Hello, dear people of planet Earth, I have some important information to share and need to share it soon before anything happens to me that you may not see me again in the not to distant future, either I get driven to the point where I end my life from to much pain and rejection people impose on me knowing my weakness is being to sensitive, by fabrications and assumptions, and demonizing the true me, which resulted me getting removed from the website extraterrestrials.ning for no reason, by a particular member who may be part of “Allies Of Humanity” Anti-ET agenda propaganda hate machine. So bang goes my hybrid support group, and more misunderstanding towards hybrids on how to survive on a class 0 planet, where everything is manipulated by money, and religio-political ideology. Thank goodness I have a cat, that keeps me company in the times when people alienate the me the alien.



This has been going on quite extensively for the past three years with bannings, deletions, censorships , bullying and cyber bulling, even though I had it all my life through childhood to present because I appear, and act alien to the rest of society because of gender issues and more, as if they have taken over the bondage chains of my religious extremist parents to conform me to this local fabricated religio-political ideology on this planet. Or they find a way to assassinate me or capture me and keep me locked away experimenting with my DNA which I am going to describe in this information I am sharing. Or my extraterrestrial parents take me off this planet in the nick of time, since my life will end in one of the three endings when all goes to pot, where the elites rape the planet and life to the point they mass murder millions of people and living things in the wake of their blinded suicide from the money disease and the lust of power and control. Before people start criticizing me and this video, no one is perfect, but we are all human, even us hybrids, and you too are hybrids, just that we have a bit more varied genes.



So now down to the video and the information I need to share, I decided not to reflect the fear these elite are transmitting, as it made some people uneasy, when I was exposing the mindset and consciousness of these elite, it grabs you by the balls, and so I got assumed and blamed for the negative being video, instead of understanding that it was a refelection, like a mirror of the reflection of the ideals of the elite religio-political bastards. So I would make this video appear more light hearted, with fascinating imagery and colours but provide the necessary information that you need to know, regardless if you agree or not, but would be essential in the not to near future if things do go pear shaped, and the last card occurs, and that you would know and understand what you dealing with , and why and how to consciously object non violently when violence faces you.



This is going to be controversial information, so please do make yourself comfortable, and relaxed as possible and be open to thinking, I have received more rejections on facebook for sharing this. Two days ago from creating this video, I had a conversation with a starseed friend in real life at the corner of my block on the street where I live. We had an in-depth intellectual discussion about this information, and we both learned from each other. It was about the anti-ET agenda, the increase in hate and demonization towards extraterrestrials, and the “bad alien vs good alien” scene and how it is an illusion and propaganda for the last card. You also know about the PDF file that had been constructed by NASA for population control, this is part of it, but the topic I am going to share with you is related but very much kept secret. Steven Greer perhaps knows about it, or will find out more about this, like the things I have shared before he mentioned them in his lectures. I had been discussing with my friend, and their was an undercover agent spy walking around the block, wearing a different colour coat all the time hoping he would not get noticed, he did, but we dispersed, as we did not wish be studied so something sinister would be done to us. Well the next day from this, that’s when I discovered I had been removed of from extraterrestrials.ning website



As I have been promoting the awareness to stop and prevent the anti-ET agenda from developing into initiating the last card thing which is the war to end wars to implement a world wide dictatorship, with a fake alien invasion. This is not a new thing that all wars are fabricated without anything as bizarre as this agenda the elite have on their last card, it is the same old earth shit, where several instigators are created to give people a reason to believe there is a reason to go to war, when truly there is no reason, and its only people that have been overhyped.



Well as I have mentioned before that reverse engineered extraterrestrial technology such as flying disks also known as flying saucers would be used, the question is who would fly these vehicles ? Well these things would be piloted by cybernetic bioengineered robots created from cloning the dead bodies of elohim/star people to create the fake aliens.



As you know most of the negative genuine abductions, are done using these entities, milabs is not really a new thing, its just their methods of doing it has become more sophisticated as they develop the technology. The technology they have under their asses is at least 60 years ahead on what technology the public knows and uses. As an example is the compact CD, it had been invented in the 1960s, but only came into the public domain in the 1990s. In the past most milabs were done by helicopter than reversed engineered et vehicles. Evidence to support this are the cow abductions, where in the past to demonize extraterrestrials, and had been witnessed with helicopters pretending to be ufos, and together with reverse engineered ET vehicles.



As you know I am all for advanced technology to implement a paradismic society, that is a society without work and money, and normally class 1 to higher class planets where there is no reliance on fossil and nuclear fuels. Also the existence of immortality, genetic energy where technology is symbiosis with nature, without harming but co-existing with nature. All these things that are on paradism.org and rael.org for the benefit of humanity, as my friend Rael would say science without love is dangerous. The technology exists today to implement paradism society and transform this planet into a class 1 planet from a class 0 planet overnight ! , if the elite openly handed down this technology to the people, people with consciousness and capable of using this technology to benefit all people and all life on this planet.



The problem is with the religio-political structure of this planet with the military being first priority to support the agenda of the elites, and that’s where all the advanced science experiments happen with DARPA. One of these experiments which was even covered in the online course of coursera and focused on Obama’s funded bluebrain project, that was to map the neural structure of the human brain, kind of like getting the full circuit diagram on how the brain works, how consciousness is processed, data and memories stored and more. It also gives them the sound ability to transfer consciousness to machine from the brain and then from the machine back into the brain again. So you are wondering, how is this technology related to the man made fake alien zombies ? Well as everyone knows drones are no longer a conspiracy and science fiction, they are used today in distant battles and recently against their own citizens. With the technology development with DARPA Obama has cyborg body guards. DARPA only released their old prototype info to the public a year ago, which is outdated to what is modern and secret, and much of the MIB agents have been upgraded like cybermen into these borgs, originally they were just mind altered zombies created from mind manipulation of electromagnetic radiation and chemicals, which is why they looked so pale. Now they have observable bionic parts sticking out from them.



Only a few people which a few noticed this and identified them as being robots or cyborgs, but the misinformation from the David Ike Reptilian Agenda, made people perceive these cyborgs as “alien bodyguards”. These are earth-human terminator like cyborgs, thus distracting people from the truth and it went viral over the internet, as “Reptillian bodygaurds” the elites laughed at this and feel they have successfully made conspiracy theorists their own tools to bring out the last card , with the Allies Of Humanity, and New Message From God as a stabilizing buffer, to hide the truth deeper than expected, and easier for them to roll out this war to end wars for a world dictatorship.



The truth is what they don’t know is this war ends in chaos where they end up killing themselves with the billions people that inhabit this planet and their mass extermination program where they treat people like pests that need extermination, kills them too. They don’t know this, because they are so naïve and stupid and blinded by the money disease and lust for power and to take over the galaxy They need to know that they will kill themselves off with everyone else, so they can re-think on things and give the technology to the people, step down and end hierarchical structured society and realize that we are all one and are people , living people with feelings, emotions who all have a right to exist.



As I have mentioned about David Ike, and many others like him, they appear as hero’s , but are often used as instigators to lure protesters and paradigm shifters into the wrong direction with the wrong theory and perception of the truth. That is why the best truth seeking tool you can use, is to observe if the information is shared to humanity for the sake to help humanity be aware on what’s going around , to save it, or to sell the information and earn a living on, defeating the objective of smashing the system and paradigm to implement a better system , of no slavery , money, pain and suffering. This can be observed , and often as well undercover police and agents are deployed in protests to identify people and perform domestic arrests when the protesters are at their homes and not in the street marching. This is one of the reasons why I have stepped out of large public protests, but work with doing activism and hactivism online and in dream state , also known as remote viewing or I would term remote elite mind hacking which is all part of the science of telepathy. One of these secret agents updated the tabloid on encyclopedia dramatica assuming I am a commy or a lefty because of my political ideaology of paradism and geniocracy, very much similar to the star-trek ideology.



Yes I have drifted away from the topic a bit on the fake entities, well to be honest, the conspiracy of clonaid not producing a clone is not true. There were religio-political implications, and the patients involved went into hiding. The first human clone on this planet was done by this group that originated from the Raelian Movement. Somehow this technology had been stolen or pinched from them discretely by the industrial military complex such as DARPA in connection with the Navy Space Agency and NASA and so on. Sound far fetched ? No ? Well look with Snowden exposing how the NSA, the CIA and so on how they can collect the data and private information that is sent over the internet since the release of windows 95 in 1995. And clonaid announced the first human cloned in 2000, and it is not far fetched to say that the technology had been pinched, and often Raelians are trolled by agents and spies who support the misinformation about them. Its so that these agencies have privacy and objective secrecy, while the citizens of planet Earth have no privacy from these bastards. So this technology that had been pinched had been used to clone the entities of the shot down visitors and creators of humanity who are artists and scientists, purely coming to this planet for research, observation and work. The elites have been trying to get the cloning technology to work successfully since the time of Hitler with is eugenics projects, and Clonaid was successful, and that’s why the bastards jumped in and pinched it from them.



So now you know they are capable of cloning extraterrestrial bodies they collected. But they do not wish these clones to be conscious, so they have altered them to be zombies in underground tunnels and bunkers, which you have heard of before and one of these exist in area 51, and that leaked video of a worker that had ended up being psychotic, and screaming extradimsnional beings and so on. He saw these things, but with the technology they used to zombify these ET clone captives they did on him partially, making what he saw respond to it not rationally but in enforced psychotic way with mind control techniques developed by DARPA, and extratdimensional , because the reverse engineered technology down there was mind blowing . This is the truth about the conspiracy of these underground artificial womb centers, where this truth that leaks out gets changed to demonize star people, on what they have observed and interpreted of their shock and fear, without thinking about it with a rational logical mind. Being rational and logical about encountering or observing things you cannot explain at first glance is necessary, to make sense of it and analyse it after meditation rather than on the spot, since the brain is creative, and it can play tricks. Dig in, take memory shots, and get out, and study them later in a calm environment and make sense what had been observed.



It has reached the point with Obama’s funded blue brain project of mapping the human brain, they are capable of fully programming these cloned entities and using them as Avatars, like you see in the Avatar movie, where soldiers spend their time in sleeping capsules, and their consciousnesses transferred to these biological robot bodies and do many milab abductions, to create confusion and to demonize the extraterrestrials, where this information is kept secret, and promote the anti-ET agenda with the final top up with using David Ike and many extraterrestrial oriented social groups, ufologists, focusing on the “good alien vs bad alien” particularly with Allies of Humanity and the New message of God, to re-inforce the religio-political ideaology of this planet to accomodte as a buffer against disclosure and truth.



I share this information not for people to believe , but understand this as a mechanism to think rationally and not jump into the “alien invasion” bandwagon, and understand that the real star people, elohim do not wish to invade and exploit the resources of this planet, because they terrafromed and bioengineered life here, and would like the humanity of this planet to be part of the galactic community. They don’t wish to have a war thrown on them, to lower their consciousnesses to the level of a class 0 planet, if this last card alien false flag fake alien invasion gets implemented. It is our task not to let this last card be implemented and grow our consciousnesses to the high levels of that of the extraterrestrials, and implement a paradise on Earth. The extraterrestrials wish to have first contact and make the connection so that earth people become part of the galactic family, and keep the cycle of life going, where earth people become elohim and star people one day, visiting planets exploring and also terraforming and starting life off on new worlds.



They know about the radiation problem with fukushima and wish to help , and help clean up the planet and make it the Eden it once was and promote technology that would coexist with nature, getting rid of fossil fuels, nuclear power, roads, borders and boundaries, very much like the world of the future Nikola Tesla dreamed of. It is sad that his very invention of the death ray , the device that bumped extraterrestrial space craft out of the sky, and the industrial military complex jumped in like a pack of vultures for this technology to exploit you, me , everyone and nature.



The extraterrestrials only would make a large official appearance and landing when people learn to love and understand the truth about extraterrestrials, and realize this “alien invasion” propaganda is science fiction and not science fact. When the ratio of acceptance and openness and evolution to higher consciousness occurs , they will come down with open arms with love, compassion and understanding, and offer their help and relationship where you are respected as a human being, an individual who is creative, they want to see everyone being happy and bubbling with joy and happiness in the oneness of the Infinite.



Please welcome the extraterrestrials, your distant mothers and fathers in space and rejoin with the family and have fun.



Much Love, Namaste.

This is not a message, but a warning or notice to people of Earth

Hello, I have a few things to say, well first off I do apologize with my slow progression in my artwork of late, this is because of the problems people have thrown on me with not understanding me the artist, and the work which is my art that I create. Four of my facebook accounts have been disabled, leaving me isolated from most of my friends, family and fans. The problem is the NSA/CIA etc shit people have been using me as an experiment for their measures. They succeeded in banning from deviantArt, and now they trying with facebook or whatever.



I can only see and observe this stupid and silly act of this nonsense imposed onto me and see it just the religio-political ideology that gets shoved down my throat and up my ass like some hentai tentacle rape Cthulhu monster feeding off my creative life essence, slowing me down and trying to put me into a box of borders and boundaries of what to draw and what not to draw. I had this shit with my earth parents trying to bring me up… why the fuck do you do this ? Cant you see I do not comply or agree with your religio-political ideology, because it is not the truth, and it has no logic, reason and consciousness ? Hello ? Do you even understand me and respect my values ? How do you expect me to respect yours when you don’t respect mine and shove yours down my throat and punish me if I don’t comply like some testicle brained bully ?



Since 11 years ago from Anananiah giving me the inspiration to work on my art, society had always objected with the battle hammer. As if the task of making me struggle with torment had been passed on from my earth parents to society as a whole particularly so called authority to try and lower my IQ and consciousness with fear and punishment to a level they feel they can manipulate and control. Fortunately my extraterrestrial experiences and my basic knowledge in star cultures has prevented me from falling into their pitiful mind games of following stupid rules, which do not make any sense at all, and are only imposed on society to herd people like cattle. Yes there is disclosure happening in regards to extraterrestrials, and what they do not wish to disclose as mentioned in public hearings is the arts and culture of extraterrestrials and the importance of sensuality, love and empathy, as the elite know about it and wish to only disclose about the fact of life on other planets, to manipulate this fact to the perspective for the last card agenda, or to market and make money around this fact throwing in misinformation to mislead ignorant people away from the truth of the subject. This is what its all about when they mention “The people are not ready for some of this information” within their speeches at the disclosure hearing. This sort of attitude and withholding information from people is not helping, especially if you wish the human beings of planet earth to survive and integrate with the galactic family and community. Why push the last card anti-ET agenda ? What do you gain from confusing people and generating so much hate and xenophobia to the point that Earth would remain quarantined and the people of the Earth who are ignorant from the truth and high consciousness of extraterrestrials get annihilated by your own stupid ideas of fakery and lust of power and control ? Trying to conquer earth and the galaxy next ? laughable and sad. I have empathy for you, but I don’t know why you choosing to be stupid and dumb and behave like lemmings.



I have tried to say something, notify people on this planet that if they continue on what they are doing, they would self terminate themselves including all life on this planet. It seems to be that having a conversation with a brick wall is more successful. The reasons being ignored is

1) I do not have a big name out there, thus it is the excuse of not being creditable despite the fact of being an extraterrestrial hybrid,

2) I am part of the masses, and not seen as an individual, thus making me non important (this does not apply to me only, many people don’t have a voice because of this perception created by the religio-political elite authority). Where this perception had been branded onto me because I was not born in an elite family.



The truth is there is only 28 years left for life to continue on this planet if there is no change. I have mentioned about fukushima, nuclear power , renewable energy, ufo technology, zero-point, self charging electric cars and so on. None of these ideas get to the people with the resources, and I end up smashing my brains against the wall of my flat in frustration and agony when hearing the stupendous decisions made in parliament, around their unintelligent decisions with the energy crisis. Their decisions of austerity and cut backs for funding more wars and planet rape , and their priority of economy and finance given more importance over people’s lives and LIFE on planet Earth as a whole.



Like the famous 5 minute speech by Seven Suzuki when she was 9, had been ignored and was a warning at the time of 1992.



What changes have been made when she addressed the UN ? I myself have observed no change whatsoever. There seems to be excuses to hide and cover up the damages made by pollution, that is effecting life on this planet, the decline in biodiversity, the climate change and more.



You Elite feel you have won and wish for an Armageddon the war of wars, the last card fake alien invasion using the Anti-ET agenda to implement a 1984 new world order ? The truth is, there is no future at all even if you have the plans to implement your old world order. You elite need to wake up to this fact and stop being the selfish cunts you are, and realize that Earth is not to be subdivided in cunttrees and owned, that it is the home of all people, not only the people with money in their pockets.



You go on at me trying to destroy, hide and censor my art as if you have one a battle or game with me, which I never played or participated in, the truth is you have lost already, and you have killed up to 7.2 billion people including yourselves in the not to distant future because of your stupidity and arrogance. Why go on about making my life a misery and pain when you would be dead within the next 29 years ? I do not understand this stupidity, and I do not see any logical sense in your senselessness.



There is only a future if this stupidity and mess stops right now, this is a notice, a warning, not a message. I do hope you take this seriously, and please think on your actions , your decisions, and stop running on automatic, thank you.



What is the point of trying to say something when it is going to be ignored, me and my art continued to be bashed, and the planet rape continued… what is the fucking point ? You have lost your stupid game, so quite pushing me to play it.

The Cosmic Orgasm http://www.zanaelf.comxa.com/painti.....micOrgasm.html

No one would have known the connection between this crop circle http://www.cropcircleconnector.com/.....ite%20Horse/gr... (notice lines on crop circle and the displacement of the character’s hands on the work ) and this work maybe long time in the future, when the penny drops with some people. , and its time of importance that it had been accepted in Edinburgh’s Erotic Art’s Festival gallery exhibit. -> more info about it http://www.erotic-arts.co.uk/category/news/ It tells you where the gallery is, if only I knew its location a bit earlier I could have helped meet busy Itsy working so hard to make it happen.

to view the online virtual gallery…http://www.erotic-arts.co.uk/virtual-gallery

sensuality, eroticism , etc is not a taboo subject for extraterrestrials

I just recieved an email today on short notice (missed out perhaps with the IRL drama/stress/anxiety) that my art had been eaccepted into the art exhibit with my name "Danielle Lamb" featured on the offcial poster. Fortunately due to the fact I am skint/have no finances for the week, I got some help to attend and drop the work in person on the 10th from Sunderland. The exhibit is from the 10th to the 16th.I would only be in Edinburgh on the 10th , unless something special happens.

http://s59.photobucket.com/user/Dee.....EDULE.png.html



The artwork that has been accepted in the exhibit is "Cosmic Orgasm" http://www.zanaelf.comxa.com/painti.....micOrgasm.html



In future, I would be updating events and progress of my work in the blog, but preferbly on my tumblr http://zwitterelf.tumblr.com/ including reasons of delays and percs of my progression of my work, instead on Lush Artist chatroom, since I do not wish my reasons of delays to be seen as "whining"... things events that slow me down in my work IRL and online, that make me loose concentration and time that should and would have normally been focused in completing my work. Sometimes i get lucky and do work faster than estimated when I have full concentration and in complete creative mode in a trance like state. I would also be posting on my fur affinity blog as well about delays and percs and progression and events of my work.

Thanks, Namaste

The term, I never understand it, it never made any sense even when encountering it. Its supposed to be all in aid of security and integrity

So what do I see it from my perceptive from my experiences and what does it feel for me ? Well, for me its nothing but the same thing what I experienced in school days. In other words, its because you different, and did not follow or do what we tell you to do, you are no longer part of us because your to weird , alien and freaky, and you did things “wrong” actually differently.

There is nothing wrong being different and doing things differently and going about your life differently. But often is because the way you are is not cool for the club, is a result in rejection or ban.

Basically the word ban derived from the word curse. Every time you get rejected or banned, people put a curse on you. That is a negative perception that you are a bad and ugly person and psychologically a disease or skirmish, which can also be referred to a excommunication, where I was excommunicated from one church, and banned from another for being intersexed, hence from this experience it added more points to the fact religion is an illusion and God is a lie. Banning is also referred to Censure from the word Censorship.

In fact ALL my banning experiences are based from the fact that I am not normal.. including deviant-art and Hentai Foundry… it felt like the same of being banned from the corner-shop or my parent’s churches, well not quite , more like the corner-shop, where you get lured into a trap of a legitimate minor offense by a hypocrite to cover-up their pure hate, jealousy and fascism… just because your too alien for their norms.

Its about time good things start happening in my life. And even epic its IRL . Myself and a few other artists have been invited to do some work to be displayed in the Baltic. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Baltic.....ntemporary_Art yay , I would be starting to work there in the next few weeks.

Vlog Update, Issues with art and online art communities etc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VOg7YD0Tt1A

About people bringing up the past of issues and profiling of me that is two years old, without understanding the reason about it , what happened in real life offline , how it was effecting my online status, with discovering my intersexed issues... that people gave me perception as a bad person because of how i was reacting to the trauma at that time. Them banning me from hentai foundary for something thats two years old, only opened old scars for the moment.
Then about ufos, the craft I recorded on my visit to south africa https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dU9-0rLp8Nc.

Then why do artists who splash about on the canvas, like chimps and elephants or even my cat, who don't do art skillfully end up with their work being valued and sold over 9000 to millions of pounds ? eg a red square on a white canvas, dripped paint on canvas, etc

It has puzzled me, that people dont like slugs, insects and other small animals ... I found them cute, and I used to play with them when I was younger in the garden, then my brother would come along and rip them apart making me cry.

Thinking on what to do next .... perhaps an orgy , i mean by drawing it... I wish I could be part of a real one :p

It has come to mind to share a few thoughts, there is a saying by Eleanor Roosevelt, that is; “Great minds discuss ideas, Average minds discuss events and Small minds discuss people.”

This is the problem that I have to deal with everyday life, from walking in the street to walking in a shop or a pub, to getting on a bus or getting on a train, and when going online I get into such situations. Some people simply do not wish to forget the past and realize that conflicts do happen, but to move from them, and try not to make the same mistakes again, even when it is hard at times, when discovering something serious and dramatic in your life, that has been hidden from you for over 29 years, but always suspected and had a conspiracy about. You find someone who you think may understand, but you discover yourself to be wrong about them, and snaps back at you where they think you something or someone else than what you see yourself to be, when being loud and proud and being open about it and work on making terms with it to accept yourself and even love yourself, because you loved the work of this someone who you thought would understand because they seemed to be open minded about your predicament. The thing is from this incident, I have stopped being bothered about people, and have drawn in closer to keep myself to myself, but not being completely socially withdrawn based on the fear of causing upset and distress from my traumatic experiences I had in my life, which do in some way or another rub onto others. I have been focusing on my artwork more than being bothered about people. Yes they talk about me all the time and dwell in their assumptions from past petty dilemmas of self-exploration and growing up, and including the development of skills and techniques. Where then your technique was epic, and now you see it to be flawed, but you still progress on developing. No point in just giving up on what I enjoy doing and keeps me going in this mundane society on this hellhole of a planet, escaping the harsh reality in my imaginary universe of relief, which I have discovered is an essential tool of consciousness to find ideas , truth and more. Creativity is a contributing factor of growing up, most of all the people who live by mundane lives, have not grown up intellectually, they do not see the paper chains of money that is enslaving every single being on this planet, who prostitute their lives, their skills and their ideas to this paper God, and that it is raping the very essence life of this planet, that is intermingled in the bureaucratic law system, the religions that exist on this planet to even the belief of a God, all to keep people from thinking , running on automatic and accept the way life is and that it’s the only way to exist, with the elite herding people around like livestock or machines for the economic system.

I have moved on from this and have come terms with myself, and focus on my work, not bothered much about socializing with people, because I have been hurt many many many times, in most cases misunderstood because of being different, and respond to me with fear, hate or jealousy, as what they would call me a special snowflake, not in a positive sense, but in the sense of being alien, strange, freaky and so on. But I am so astounded to the fact that some people would still go about at me for something that is two years old, and go on reflecting the pack behaviour of chimpanzees to impose a second blast of rejection and termination, to hell to even look at the work I did and shared, and to hell with the request I made before even starting on giving one of them a free art commission, that is not my cup of tea or style. I had chose to do it to lay down the past with them, and focus on the future, to turn a new page and a new leaf… because I love them regardless how trolly they get… I just wished to be seen in a different light, the real me, not the me that was in anguish two years ago. A lot of it has to do with the fact I think they have never experienced handling a disclosure about their lives, something personal, that has stolen much of their lives away, where they could have been happier people. But this seems to mirroring something on a larger scale. Much has been hidden from the people of the Earth, conspiracies about not being alone in the universe exist, and now the evidence is out. How are people going to react, well very much the same way I did two years ago about my gender issues. How they would express this would depend on the consciousness values of people. Any suppression of this expression or realizing that people by now could have had their own UFO , would lead to drama… So when people need to express something always give them the opportunity and support, and the more relief you give them the quicker the tears and anguish dry up , and get on with their lives and each other, where what happened in the past stays in the past and bygones be bygones, live and let live … you are human beings not chimpanzees.

I dont know , got banned from hentai foundry for something that is 2 years old, really I am tiered of this never ending crap happening in my life….
http://forums.hentai-foundry.com/vi.....4b1b64cf6bfffa
also had to deal with nasty emails from my parents, and hearing about my cat in South Africa dying…first one about my gender issues, second one about extraterrestrials and forcing me to believe in God….

ARE THERE ANY WEBSITES LIKE HENTAI FOUNDARY WHERE THE PEOPLE ARE MORE OPEN MINDED ?

Yes, besides painting , drawing, sculpturing and 3D manipulation (still suck with modeling) I compose music, testing the beast out here..
www.youtube.com/watch?v=4kOpEz3WaQw
and played through Magix Music Creator here...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SEMtCZdYnYA

Well away on holiday in South Africa, since my Earth mum and dad got me a plane ticket there and back to South Africa. I am sorry I did not take any pictures of the Journey or videos…. Well I did not feel like it since I was just excited and nervous at the same time. Well the journey started off well funny at the same time, since I had taken the wrong train to London, I took the train earlier than the one I paid for. It was North Eastern railways, perhaps the first and the last to travel them on economy class… since the seats are very poorly arranged and cramped(however better than virgin railway)… Well I almost got into trouble, with that, but I had paid for a ticket, the conductor did not have too much of a hissy fit, but which was the reason why I assumed someone to be sitting in my booked seat which was at the table with power cable, so I could draw on the computer while traveling on the train. I arrived in London at Kings Cross, and decided to check in for my hotel booking before I went to the dinner my Raelian friends invited me to, which was part of the 13th dec celebration. When I checked in I had been told that the online amount was a deposit and not the full paid price of the room, I never understand this and found it stupid. If I wish to book and pay for a hotel room it must be all done online, and all I need to do is check in and get the keys and sleep there for the night, not this “ You should have read the small print shit”…. And left and told them that people who follow this nature make me sick… because it takes an advantage of people who can’t handle and work with money to save my life, just as much as those people who can’t even draw to save their lives… So I thought, looks like I be spending the night in Heathrow airport. Well then went straight to the dinner, it was a bit of a challenge to find my way their, due to the arrangement and architecture of the buildings in this Posh side of London, one of the buildings had a pulsating beam which looked like some extraterrestrials landed on it, but it was a wonderful night, full of hugs and love and intellectual conversation. Then spent the rest of the night and most of the next day at Heathrow airport. It was boring as hell, waiting for the time to pass, could not find a place to sit down and draw. But ended up meeting people and chatting and discussing things, I can’t believe that I attracted so much attention while I sat at the charging station for laptops and mobiles just speaking my mind about things, even the police gathered to listen, as if it was not me speaking , was rather strange. Then the time came for my flight, checked in fine and popped onto a small plane that would take me into Paris CDG airport, where I would catch this mother of a plane the Airbus 386 or something, which is much fatter and bigger than the Jumbo. Well on the plane I was seated next to one of the British army officials, who was in the Industrial Military Complex, which I only found out after we started chatting, since he asked me what I do, and I said I am an artist, and he told me what he did. Then the topic went onto extraterrestrials and reverse engineered technology, and I enquired about Britain’s ufos, he said he could not say more on the subject on what I already know, and this confirms what I had shared with people. Then I landed in Paris Well since I had 4 hours to wait in Paris, I thought of checking in and waiting for the next flight, and do some art while waiting for the next flight. But when passing through customs, the whole relaxed journey changed. I had a full search done to me, and I got nervous and started to have panic and anxiety attacks and almost fainted and passed out, even when the bag and body search had been completed, and came out clean. I just packed my things while shaking and forgot to zip my bag properly and walked away from the customs section as fast as I could to find the place where I can sit and wait for my next flight. Now because the airport is laterally inverted or chirally arranged , I went the opposite way to where I supposed to have gone, and the little grey bag where my Wacom bamboo pen tablet was in fell out of my bag including some of my jewellery. In the bag with the Wacom tablet was my two flash memory disks, a Christmas card that my cousin Linda have to my mum and dad, my water colour sketchbook, and some NHS and Job centre letters such as my sick benefit letter (I hope if someone finds it, uses my postal address to post my things back to me, and not use it for identity theft). When I found this was missing, I began to cry and have a panic attack and then started searching, to see where I could have dropped it. I tried to ask for help but found it difficult because I could not talk French , trying to explain an art pen tablet, when they thought you were talking about an iPad or tablet PC. My computer could have fallen out of the bag too if I did not stop and notice that my bag was open and things were hanging out. I then went to the police side of the airport so they could trace my steps back from the customs to see where I could have lost my things, but there was a problem,… and I ended up in another anxiety attack and started crying. The women were trying to help and calm me down because I was stuttering and shaking from shock. When the men police started laughing, it triggered me into a self harm anxiety attack, where I found the nearest pillar of the airport and started smashing my head on it, but thanks to the women who began to stroke my back and hair, it calmed me down again, and I began to speak, and also asked if I could learn some basic French at the same time since I never spoke it before. I then was given a number which I could call when I reached my destination, which lead me to the south African based website of French airways, where I contacted and also downloaded a form where I could state what went missing, which I would post on Tuesday, as Monday is a public holiday here in South Africa. I just arrived for my flight on time, and would have been quite calm waiting for the flight and would have started some drawing, since the waiting seats at the Paris airport are comfortable and well arranged. I then got onto the plane, could not be bothered about spotting flying saucers from the window.. so went to sleep, then later arrived in Johannesburg , then took a flight to Durban where my mum and dad was waiting. So far no gender crap from them.. so everything seems to be going o.k… Well my cat is very old, and has lost a lot of muscle weight and strength and it was sad to see him blind. But my cat was overjoyed when hearing me and smells, actually the cat had telepathy abilities… before even coming out of the car for my smells and sounds could be recieved, my cat knew I was their and was walking well not walking more hobbling towards the car to meet me… so I have been emotional about my cat too. I should do some photos and stuff … but cant do any digital drawing and painting,since I have lost my wacom bamboo but be doing some 3D manipulation and pencil drawings..

I am down suicide ally...
from rejection. blocking, banning discrimination shit again
some people harm others when they are harmed.
Others harm themselves when they are harmed

When will the nightmare ever end , why do people find it fun to add their part to the nightmare and cauldron of hate ?

Well i first typed this as a draft note in facebook, and it got lost because facebook when my art gets removed they block me, notes was a way to give a message accross during a block, but they have blocked that as well. So I retype it here.

Today I got a new camera, but it is very fussy on what type of AAA batteries to use , it needs 1.6 v ones and I could only get 1.2v rechargeables. First of all I don't support disposable batteries as they are a money racket and bad for the environment. But i had no option to get disposables to test to see if the new camera worked, since I had returned it and swapped thinking I had bought a dud, and need to photograph my latest artwork neatly in 10 megapixels. Well from walking back from the shops(currys/pc world) I spotted a large mother-ship hovering over the city of Sunderland , and I had never seen spaceships for a long time... and missed them. On walking down looking at the ship in the sky I bumped into a chap, which I later found was an astronomy geek. I pointed the ship in the sky at him, and he tried to dismiss them as either Jupiter or Venus, and I checked on my smart phone(one of the reasons of getting a smart phone... to debunk this scenario), and it was neither a star or a planet. I then asked him what he thought about life on other planets and extraterrestrials. I showed him the extraterrestrial photo I have on my mobile , at first glance he asked if it was me , and I said sort of... but the photo is not me but one of my star friends. He responded with the Drake equation and the ideology of Steven Hawkins of not trying to make contact with extraterrestrials as they are considered a possible threat, very much the grounding points the anti-ET agenda like to use to back themselves up because Stevin Hawkings is a creditable scientist. But he is no expert when it comes to extraterrestrial life, and the logic of the need of high consciousness with advanced technology, as today you can see humanity reaping the costs of low consciousness with its evolving technology. Its on the verge of self destruction or ascension depending on the outcome of the paradox. The mother-ship was glowing blue and had a small orbiting light around it. I told him that Steven Hawkins is wrong about this subject... but him being a male he went on over riding what I was saying... so I silently pointed back at the mother-ship that was parked over the city in the sky , and it shot up and disappeared rendering him speechless , then repeating "wtf was that " a few times. I found it interesting observing his nature of coping that what he experienced to exist, since his mind seemed to fail to understand what he had seen with his own eyes. What i cant understand myself was that a large mother-ship parked over the city was watching our insignificant discussion, out of the whole entire city of Sunderland, that they knew when I pointed a second time to vanish... was this an observation, a test ? But later they reappeared and I managed to take photos, and test my new camera. My first photos were of my star friends.... I missed them so much.

Happy Intersex Day !!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rEm0VzS-D6M

been through hell and back over 9000 times... i used to be reasonably large on deviant Tart... yes I am working on new work..., stalled by IRL drama, and trauma.... intersex issues... and ignorant people ... the same old stupid story... it does not end... btw I managed to get back on starseeds.net, back on deviant Tart ? only when there is first contact with extraterrestrials perhaps.... btw I have I have support group for ET hybrid people living on earth .... the evidence is gathering.... disclosure spilling... not as thought, governments sit on reverse engineered star people technology and just milk people, drain their lives with the economy monetary system.... i have so much to tell.... but my mouth has been gagged by agents... and retarded spies... you know you cannot hide the murders of the pilots your scavenged reverse engineered bucket of bolts any longer ..... you will never silence the truth,,... it would only find a new place to leak. oh btw happy Hobbitses Day!