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Posted 15 years agoOk so originally I had a plan of going well trying to surprise anyone watching this account with a surprise account while I try to display a style that was hopefully different enough to fool you ^^;;;...However things didn't really working out so kill the account off (character designing and just lack of interest in the concept). Anyways, the name of the account was "MachinaMutt". Just based around a now shutdown project to mechanize Zanza's design for a project I don't feel like going with right now.
Lately have been thinking of this whole revising bit that maybe I should just switch over to one of my other characters that I feel is almost close to me in personality and such as their predecessor.
So anyways what's the new account then that I may move over to?
SairSair-von-Sillykit
With most of my redesigning and emulation work, Sarah and Amy have been my main subject and well Sarah unlike Zanza reminds me more of my younger self with her naivety, curiousness, optimistic nature (when I'm not down nowadays even for a short time I'm pretty high spirited), and I was so not the typical boy in my youth. Kind of considered this even more into go with this from seeing another in a similar situation. Anyways Zanza was originally suppose to remain a teenfur but I got so into this little niche of the furry fandom that I just kind of threw that out and never got back to reworking it. May go back to drawing him older or keep him a cub whichever I may feel suits my stories and such best
So what will become of this gallery? I'll be emptying this gallery except for the photos. I'll be keeping this gallery as my photo gallery now and make the new gallery my drawing and writing (hopefully be able to put a piece out soon).
Also and no I won't be swapping back to the pup. I really have thought quite a bit on this and really this actually has been on my mind for awhile. Just kind of felt awkward going with a female fursona when I'm well a guy ^^;;;...but kind of gotten past that and well she fits me.
<<TL-DR>>
I've decided to go with one of my female cubs as my fursona and this gallery photo only.
Lately have been thinking of this whole revising bit that maybe I should just switch over to one of my other characters that I feel is almost close to me in personality and such as their predecessor.
So anyways what's the new account then that I may move over to?
SairSair-von-SillykitWith most of my redesigning and emulation work, Sarah and Amy have been my main subject and well Sarah unlike Zanza reminds me more of my younger self with her naivety, curiousness, optimistic nature (when I'm not down nowadays even for a short time I'm pretty high spirited), and I was so not the typical boy in my youth. Kind of considered this even more into go with this from seeing another in a similar situation. Anyways Zanza was originally suppose to remain a teenfur but I got so into this little niche of the furry fandom that I just kind of threw that out and never got back to reworking it. May go back to drawing him older or keep him a cub whichever I may feel suits my stories and such best
So what will become of this gallery? I'll be emptying this gallery except for the photos. I'll be keeping this gallery as my photo gallery now and make the new gallery my drawing and writing (hopefully be able to put a piece out soon).
Also and no I won't be swapping back to the pup. I really have thought quite a bit on this and really this actually has been on my mind for awhile. Just kind of felt awkward going with a female fursona when I'm well a guy ^^;;;...but kind of gotten past that and well she fits me.
<<TL-DR>>
I've decided to go with one of my female cubs as my fursona and this gallery photo only.
Hmm...
Posted 15 years agoMaybe I'm being a bit rash with this want to quit drawing...Just been thinking about it. Almost completely accepted the fact because of a journal I saw while in this down state of mine but just saw another that kind of lifted my spirits a bit and I've decided that I won't quit but I'm still not going to be drawing anytime soon. Feel I still need to give it some time to fully return to me. That is the non forced urge to draw and also be happy with it. So I guess like I said for now I'll just work with on some writing and do some photography here and there. Guess that's it for now. Off to writing more plots and concepts to work with and fuck with Oblivion and crazy mods I can find for it.
I give up.
Posted 15 years agoDon't think I'm cut out for drawing anymore. All it does now is bring stress and frustration for me. Don't know where the fun went to it but I guess it's not meant to be found if it's taking me so long to. I'm sorry to all the people who watch me but I just can't do this anymore @_@...This is one of the primary reasons I remain in this depressed state so I guess I'd be better off now without.
Thanks you drawing for having gotten me through so many stressful and boring moments in my childhood. I wish you and my expectations would agree but it just seems it's not possible. So farewell.
Drive to draw:
1992-2010?
Maybe you may come back one day with that joy you gave me whenever I created something new. Until then...
Thanks you drawing for having gotten me through so many stressful and boring moments in my childhood. I wish you and my expectations would agree but it just seems it's not possible. So farewell.
Drive to draw:
1992-2010?
Maybe you may come back one day with that joy you gave me whenever I created something new. Until then...
Trapped Emotions
Posted 15 years agoBeen feeling the need to vent various feelings for the longest but just can't seem to find any outlet to do so. I feel a mixture of anger, the usual off and on depression, jealousy, irritation, and at times just wanting to harm the next person or thing to annoy me... You already know the issues I have with my drawing, just seem to be locked out of my drive to write, and just kind of screwed lately in trying to get back into any major workouts (bad feet leading to a nice chain reaction to my back and hips). This is part of the reason I haven't been wanting to sign in on IMs. Some of you folks I chat with have some traits that normally don't bug me at all but I feel I probably chew you out in a 1 on 1 chat (I hang around on IRC just because I just feel the need to being in the around people even if I don't say much or anything)...I just want something to rid myself of at least some of this. Violent video games only works for so long (hence why if you are around me in TF2 I seem upbeat).
Calling all Megaman Fans
Posted 15 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/view/4282212
Just trying to help out with getting the word out about this.
has a contest going on for the need of some awesome robot master designs for an upcoming Megaman fangame. Thinking about entering. Might help out with me getting out of this artist's slump.
Just trying to help out with getting the word out about this.
has a contest going on for the need of some awesome robot master designs for an upcoming Megaman fangame. Thinking about entering. Might help out with me getting out of this artist's slump.Vexed (Subject: Creativity)
Posted 15 years ago:Copypasta from forum thread with some alterations:
I've been feel creatively lacking lately. No interesting ideas come to mind when I try to draw (be it with ink, pencil, or charcoal) and when I have produced something it just feels stale and bland...
In a way I feel this has been around for half of the time I have been drawing when I look back. I never really been able to just look at any object(s) and just be able to warp/abstract or just personalize in what ever way I felt was right at the time. Just seems I've always just tried to draw literally what I saw and gave it no real defining factors.
How do your thoughts work when it comes to producing ideas? How do you tend to view the world artwise? Really anything you might have to help me out would be great.
I've been feel creatively lacking lately. No interesting ideas come to mind when I try to draw (be it with ink, pencil, or charcoal) and when I have produced something it just feels stale and bland...
In a way I feel this has been around for half of the time I have been drawing when I look back. I never really been able to just look at any object(s) and just be able to warp/abstract or just personalize in what ever way I felt was right at the time. Just seems I've always just tried to draw literally what I saw and gave it no real defining factors.
How do your thoughts work when it comes to producing ideas? How do you tend to view the world artwise? Really anything you might have to help me out would be great.
Back from Chicago
Posted 15 years agoForgot to announce this a few days ago but was going on a 2 1/2 day vacation to Chicago with my mother, some friends of hers and their daughter. Well anyways I'm back now with the gist of my trip.
Had gone to Chicago before a year or so go but we really didn't get to see everything of interest so decided to try a better view and also see the Taste of Chicago festival. The Taste was originally the main focus of our vacation but not being used to how busy and frantic this city can be compared to Columbus even on its worst day, it just didn't happen heh....
So to start of our arrival into the city after dropping everything off at the hotel, we decided to pop by a pizzeria my mother heard was supposed to be very good from an employee of hers called Giordano's. Well...all we can say is that Chicago style pizza is overrated. Got this stuffed pizza that was supposed to be famous around the states but just didn't see was. Overly cheesy (could have choked on it - My mother almost did) and barely much sauce. At the least the toppings and the crust were decent. Just was not worth the price and hype.
Anyways took a tour of the Museum of Contemporary Art and found it was more fun than I expected it would be. Not usually a fan of the stuff but after viewing some close up and getting the overall stories on the artists and the pieces it kind of changed my views a bit. Bought myself another artist book to add to my collection and a few collectible toys that have kind of given me some ideas to go along with for my art.
Did a bit of sightseeing of the Navy Pier and also hoping to get some popcorn to take home from Garret's Popcorn which has so serious great popcorn. Luck most have not been on our sides because that place was packed from the moment we arrived to the area to the moment we left T_T. We took a 1/2 hour boat where I got a nice amount of photos and a bit of shut eye from all the walking and the lousy sleep I had gotten. To finish the Navy Pier visit we went to Bubba Gump which so made up for the horrible meal the previous day ^_^.
So anyways I back at home, feeling a lot less depressed and relax than usual, and enjoying access to the web or a computer in general again. Heh kind of makes me regret getting this Desktop instead of a powerful laptop.
Had gone to Chicago before a year or so go but we really didn't get to see everything of interest so decided to try a better view and also see the Taste of Chicago festival. The Taste was originally the main focus of our vacation but not being used to how busy and frantic this city can be compared to Columbus even on its worst day, it just didn't happen heh....
So to start of our arrival into the city after dropping everything off at the hotel, we decided to pop by a pizzeria my mother heard was supposed to be very good from an employee of hers called Giordano's. Well...all we can say is that Chicago style pizza is overrated. Got this stuffed pizza that was supposed to be famous around the states but just didn't see was. Overly cheesy (could have choked on it - My mother almost did) and barely much sauce. At the least the toppings and the crust were decent. Just was not worth the price and hype.
Anyways took a tour of the Museum of Contemporary Art and found it was more fun than I expected it would be. Not usually a fan of the stuff but after viewing some close up and getting the overall stories on the artists and the pieces it kind of changed my views a bit. Bought myself another artist book to add to my collection and a few collectible toys that have kind of given me some ideas to go along with for my art.
Did a bit of sightseeing of the Navy Pier and also hoping to get some popcorn to take home from Garret's Popcorn which has so serious great popcorn. Luck most have not been on our sides because that place was packed from the moment we arrived to the area to the moment we left T_T. We took a 1/2 hour boat where I got a nice amount of photos and a bit of shut eye from all the walking and the lousy sleep I had gotten. To finish the Navy Pier visit we went to Bubba Gump which so made up for the horrible meal the previous day ^_^.
So anyways I back at home, feeling a lot less depressed and relax than usual, and enjoying access to the web or a computer in general again. Heh kind of makes me regret getting this Desktop instead of a powerful laptop.
Ask?
Posted 15 years agoGuess I'll jump (typo corrected - never post in the early morning ^^;) onto this bandwagon so go ahead and ask me any questions.
InkBunny (Updated)
Posted 15 years agoJust a small update.
http://inkbunny.net/SoulTechMana
Also the drama over this site is just hilarious and so typical of this fandom XD.
http://inkbunny.net/SoulTechMana
Also the drama over this site is just hilarious and so typical of this fandom XD.
PKM: Soul Silver - Friend Code and Stuff
Posted 15 years agoMy Code: 4469 4136 2033
Anyways been playing the remake lately and enjoying a lot of the stuff they've changed or added to my fave of the Pokemon series (love the National Park theme, so peaceful).
Well anyways if you are interested you can add me. Also if someone doesn't mind assisting in this matter need someone to trade with. Want to evolve my Haunter into a Gengar (always have hated these trade induced evolution.)
Lastly, not much of interest has gone on in my life. Not depressed for once though kind of on the line (not sad yet not happy). Mainly just feeling lonely and lacking in motivation to do much of anything lately. Mainly happiest when I game yet even that is starting to lost its effect bit by bit. Don't hate my art anymore but problem is that the drive and whatever magic that was there that I got when working seems to be absent. I'm trying to find it by drawing whatever be it fanart or otherwise hopefully to get it back.
Anyways just was posting to show I'm still here somewhat.
Anyways been playing the remake lately and enjoying a lot of the stuff they've changed or added to my fave of the Pokemon series (love the National Park theme, so peaceful).
Well anyways if you are interested you can add me. Also if someone doesn't mind assisting in this matter need someone to trade with. Want to evolve my Haunter into a Gengar (always have hated these trade induced evolution.)
Lastly, not much of interest has gone on in my life. Not depressed for once though kind of on the line (not sad yet not happy). Mainly just feeling lonely and lacking in motivation to do much of anything lately. Mainly happiest when I game yet even that is starting to lost its effect bit by bit. Don't hate my art anymore but problem is that the drive and whatever magic that was there that I got when working seems to be absent. I'm trying to find it by drawing whatever be it fanart or otherwise hopefully to get it back.
Anyways just was posting to show I'm still here somewhat.
