So I haven't made a journal in a while, think its about time I catch everyone up.

I finally moved into a new apartment at the end of last month. Living with Brisk still and my pet Firasia. We have my kitty here now and Firasia's bird. Everything seems fine with them so far. Money has been tight but we're finding a way to get by.

I've also started thinking about doing a 6k Kiriban contest, where whoever wins gets to be in a commission from an artist of my choosing doing whatever they want with me, with of course some stipulations.

Also I'm starting to get tired of retarded people on the WoW server I play on telling me that my healing gear is too low or sucks too much for the Raids I'm trying to get into, IE Ony10 and Naxx25, so I'm looking to transfer my horde shaman to another server. I would go to Thorium Brotherhood to play with Firasia but her guild is like, SUPER hardcore raiding and from what I've heard from her computer on Vent the leader can be a little bitchy X3

Anywho, any suggestions on the WoW server would be nice and any suggestions of artists who are doing commissions and wouldn't mind doing a Kiriban commission would be nice.

And that's about it that's new in my life. Time for turkey. Peace <3

So for being at my old job for more than 30 days I got a free iPod Shuffle. That being said, I'm looking to sell it!!

Its brand new, never been opened from the original packaging. It is silver, 2nd generation, and has 1gig of space.

I'm willing to ship it anywhere and I'll take payments via PayPal. I'm looking to sell it for between $40 and $50. If you are interested, leave a message on this journal or send me a note.

OH!! And my roommate,  briskfulstorm is looking to sell his too.

Yup, I give up. I'm sick and tired of trying to be nice to everyone and trying to make new friends and whatnot. And yet it ALWAYS gets thrown back in my face. Or someone takes something that I said and twists it so that I am the bad guy.

I'm done. I am perfectly happy with the friends I have now and after the way I was treated by two different people today, I'm about ready to say fuck it all and just remove EVERYONE from my messengers and just only readd the people who I care about the most.

So yeah. Hasn't been the best of days.

So I think I'll start doing my own personal reviews of games that I buy or that I get from friends. Today we'll start with a game that I received from my roommate,  briskfulstorm's girlfriend. That game of course being: Red Faction Guerrilla.


I can't even think of where to start. The game is AMAZING!! It is just an overall great game. Plenty of things to do, lots of really cool weapons ranging anywhere from an Arc Welder that can both stun and kill enemies, to a gun that fires saw blades, the latter being my personal favorite.

And yet I have barely even scratched the SURFACE of this game. I've already liberated 2 different zones and there are still so many more it would appear to do.

Fully destructible buildings, a large variety of vehicles, and challenging missions. Its like a combination of Need for Speed Carbon, Oblivion, and GTA. Except on Mars.

HOWEVER!!!

With every game there are still some drawbacks. The only things I can find wrong with this game are the fact that the driving physics SUCK!! We're talking Halo levels of crappy driving. The cars will either barely turn at all or the steering will be so feather light that a quick tap of the A key sends the car careening to the left. Another issue that I've found is with the destructible buildings themselves. I will admit it is quite nice to plant some charges at the structure points on a building, take a few steps back, blow it up, and watch the whole thing come tumbling down. The problem is, even with the hardware my computer is currently running (ATI Radeon HD 4670, AMD Phenom 9600 Quad Core 2.30 GHz processor and 2GB of RAM), on the lowest settings things STILL slow down when a building falls. Or the physics don't register that the building is sitting on one tiny little metal bar that would never hold up an entire building. On one side.

But its flaws aside, all in all I give Red Faction Guerrilla an 8.9/10. I'd definitely recommend that you pick it up if your computer can handle it.

NEXT GAME: Well, lets do something "scary" shall we? The next game I plan to review will be Dead Space.

(Stolen from many people)


I'm not raciest but its true
You call me:
"redneck"
"Hillbilly"
"Slaker"
"Cracker"
"Honkey"
"Whitey"
"Gringo"
"Sage"
and you think it's OK.

But when I call you:
jungle bunny
spear chucker
coon
wet back
jiggaboo
porch monkey
sand nigger
rag head
towelhead
Camel Jockey
Gook
Spook
NIGGER
KIKE
slant eyes
or Chink
you call me a racist.


--You have the United Negro College Fund.
--You have Martin Luther King Day.
--You have Black History Month.
--You have Cesar Chavez Day.
--You have Yom Hashoah
--You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi
--You have the NAACP.
--You have BET.


--If we had WET(white entertainment television) ...we'd be racist.
--If we had a White Pride Day... you would call us racist.
--If we had white history month... we'd be racist.
--If we had an organization for only whites to "advance" our lives... we'd be racist.
--If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships...you know we'd be racist.
--In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching for your race and rights. If we marched for our race and rights...you would call us racist.
--Did you know that some high school students decided to make a club for only the white students because the other ethnicities had them. they all got sent to court for being racist but the african-american, Latino, and Asia clubs were not even questioned.
--You are proud to be black, brown, yellow and orange, and you're not afraid to announce it. But when we announce our white pride, you call us racists.


I am white and I am proud.
But, you call me a racist.
Why is it that only whites can be racists?
Now watch, I'll be racist for reposting this....

So what? no-one will re-post this for fear of being called racist

If you agree with this then repost this as a journal titled "I'm not a RACIST but it's true."

Yeah, its a Meme. I picked it up from  snowmoonstone after I did hers. Said I'd do it on mine too.

So here you go guys.


Would you...

[] Push me into a wall and kiss me?
[] Come To My House To Do Nothing But Chill?
[] Slap Me?
[] Have Hard Core Sex With Me?
[] Slap Me If I Asked You To?
[] Lick/Suck My Neck?
[] Let Me Lick/Suck Your Neck?
[] Watch A Movie With Me?
[] Take Me Out To Dinner?
[] Take A Shower With Me?
[] Take Me Home For The Night?
[] Let Me Sleep In Your Bed?
[] Let Me Sleep In Your Bed (With You)?
[] Take Me Anywhere With You?
[] Repost This For Me To Answer Your Questions?
[] Lock Me In Your room And Take Advantage Of Me?
[] Let me lock you in your room and Take Advantage of you?
[] Make me breakfast?
[] Tickle Me?
[] Let Me Tickle You?
[] Stick Up For Me If Someone Was Being Mean to Me?
[] Instant Message Me?
[] Greet Me In Public?
[] Hang Out With Me?
[] Hold my waist from behind while we are out?
[] Bring Me Around Your Friends?

Do You...

[] Miss Me?
[] Love Me?
[] Think I'm Hot?
[] Think I'm Cute?
[] Think I'm Ok?
[] Think I'm Ugly?
[] Want To Kiss Me?
[] Want To Cuddle With Me?
[] Want To Date Me?
[] Want To Love Me?

Am I...

[] Sweet?
[] Funny?
[] Cool?
[] lovable?
[] Adorable?
[] Great To Be With?
[] Attractive?
[] Mean?

Have You Ever...

[] Thought About Hooking Up With Me?
[] Found Yourself Wanting To Kiss Me?
[] Wished I Were There?
[] Had A Crush On Me?
[] Wanted My Number?
[] Had A Dream About Me?
[] Been Distracted By Me?
[] Thought About having Sex with Me?

Are You...

[] Happy You Know Me?
[] Thinking About Me?
[] My Friend

Yup. That's right. I'm leaving.









































Leaving Windows XP for Windows 7 that is!!! GOTCHA!!! Or maybe I didn't, I dunno. I'll be back in a few hours. Just finished transferring all my stuff to my new external hard drive.

I don't know...I don't really think I'm cut out for love...I find someone who I have wonderful chemistry with...Someone who I can anticipate what they are going to say or do...Someone who makes me smile and makes me feel happy...But there's always some sort of a catch that prevents things...Be it they're not interested in a relationship, be it all or with me, or they only think of me as a very close friend or "brother", or they're already in a relationship...

I've tried over and over and over again and I'm about ready to just give up...Maybe I was wrong when I used to reassure myself that there is someone out there for everyone...Maybe I was meant to be alone for the rest of my life...

*Sighs heavily and slinks back to his cave*

http://forums.steampowered.com/foru.....d.php?t=972333

Don't believe me? Check it out. People are actually DEFENDING us. Sure this is in regards to a completely FAKE update, but still.

So yeah I was in fact banned from TFP and kicked from the TFP groups. Oh and I'm apparently a Troll AND a Racist. Dunno where the Racist came from. Nor do I care. TFP has become CC2's servers. Time for me to get a lawn chair and watch the servers collapse when people start realizing it and watch the flames :3

So yeah. There's a good chance that I'm going to be banned from the TFP servers on TF2 for "Causing Drama". But before we get into it let's give a little detail here shall we?

For anyone who doesn't know, Ghosting is when someone playing a FPS game, usually CS, CS: Source, TF2, etc, dies and uses the fact that all talk is on to warn other players about locations of enemies, sentries, defenses, spies, etc.

While playing on Server 5 tonight, someone started Ghosting, and I warned him to stop. Now mind you, I'm not an admin, but I do like to play fair and have fun. I contacted a few admin about and the server owner, Witchiebunny, messaged me and told me it wasn't against server rules and that people could do it if they wanted.

So in response I pretty much told her "Okay" and informed her that since it was allowed that I should feel free to do it. Now, if you know me, you know I don't like to cheat or give people help like that. She pretty much told me if I was the one doing it, that it was considered me being a Troll and I would be "punished" about it. Things escalated from there and in the end I had to remove Witchie from my buddy list on Steam because I was just trying to be nice and report someone who I thought was breaking the rules.

Also apparently I'm nothing more than a "detriment" to all the players on the servers, just because someone who was a friend, then became a non friend, and is now my friend again and some of his old friends tried to start Drama with me every time I logged on the servers. Be it saying my name wrong, taunting every time they killed me, telling me I was a shitty player, etc.

And just because they were regulars on the servers, they got off scott free and and I got a warning to "quit my shit" once again. So yeah, if you don't see me around TFP anymore, you know why. That Witchie or one of the other admins finally cracked and decided to get rid of me.

Also, if you think I'm trying to start drama with them, I'm not. I just wanted to give my friends and loved ones an explanation as to why my night is now quite ruined and that I possibly won't have anywhere to play TF2 anymore. Meh. :/

It would appear that I now have money again. So that means I'm going to be looking to commission someone again~! Anyone who is watching me open for commissions or does anyone know of a nice artist who is accepting them? I'm not really looking for anything super expensive, so that may limit to just a line art but that's okay.

I AWAIT YOUR SUGGESTIONS!!!! X3

That's it. Just meh. Whatever. Don't really care about much anymore :/

Happy Hatchday to me.

I just turned 23.

I think I'll go drink tea.

And later I'll pee.

X3


Yup, as of an hour and 55 minutes ago, it has been my Hatchday. So far it's been nice. Been talking with Snow for a few hours while my roomate, Brisk, watches a movie downstairs. Dunno what's gonna happen today other than possibly going to see a movie with my brother. More to come as the day unfolds.

So I frequent a fur chat room on a different website; I won't name which one because I'm sure it wouldn't be a good idea to post about a "competing" website though I'm sure someone will blurt it out in comment, but an artist on FA goes there. Her name is Kattz. A while back she posted a journal on her FA regarding Geeks and relationships.

I'm not 100% if she was the one who came up with it, but regardless I'll share it with you all.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/734840/

Though I'm sure that all that could be said about more than just Geeks, but it kinda hit home for me. Cause that's almost exactly how I deal with relationships. Except for the Jealousy/Possessive part. I can be very possessive at times because I've been hurt in the past after getting cheated on.

Anywho, just something I thought I'd share. Lots of <3 to you all.

Yup, that's right. It's that time of year again. In 8 days I'll be 23. That's right, it's my Hatch-day on July 24th. I EXPECT ART PRESENTS FROM ALL OF YOU!!!








Just kidding X3
Just like last year its probably going to be a quiet birthday. I'll go out to dinner with my parents, open presents that will most likely be clothes, and play video games. Or possibly working. I dunno since I start training for my new job on the 20th.

Lots of love to you all <3 <3 <3

Stolen from  augi

---

Just put the things that are true about you in Bold!!

STUFF ABOUT ME!!!

1. Smoked
2. Drank alcohol
3. Cried when someone died
4. Been drunk
5. Had sex
6. Been to a concert
7. Gotten/given a hand job
8. Gotten/given a blow job
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend
15. Been to prom. what a waste of money...
16. Cried at school
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
18. Went streaking
19. Given or received a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house
23. Kissed a stranger
24. Hugged a stranger
25. Went scuba diving
26. Driven a car
27. Gotten an x-ray
28. Hit by a car
29. Had a party
30. Done serious drugs

31. Played strip poker/darts/basketball
32. Got paid to strip for someone
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi
36. Bought porn
37. Watched porn
38. Made porn
39 Had a crush on someone of the same sex
40. Been in love

41. French kissed
42. Laughed so hard you cried
43. Cried yourself to sleep
44. Laughed yourself to sleep
45. Stabbed yourself accidentally
46. Shot a gun
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.
51. Watched a person die
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex
57. Dressed punk
58. Dressed goth
59. Dressed preppy
60. Been to a motocross race.

61. Avoided somebody
62. Been stalked
63. Stalked someone
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse
67. Cut yourself not on purpose
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.

71. Got caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country. ((If you count Canada XD))
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a family member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for 3 months or more.
85. Sat on your butt all day (...like everyday xD?)
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore.

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected.
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped.


And since I stole it from Augi, I think I'll have to pass it on to my friends!!! The following are tagged!!!

 calheb-db
 briskfulstorm
 necrodrone13
 Yashendwirh
 Haiku/ cardboardcastles

So, after getting laid off on the 31st of last month I have been unable to find another job yet. I am getting unemployment but it just isn't enough to pay my bills, so I'm going to be selling my Xbox 360 in a package with all of my games and controllers.

The package includes the following:


Xbox 360 Console with a 15gig hard drive. Hard drive has been wiped, no games downloaded.


2 Wireless Controllers, one of which includes a charger pack and cable, but the charger pack does not charge. The controller can still be used with the charger cable plugged in to the 360.


Adapter cords and Power cord.



All games included, price can be changed if certain games are unwanted. The games included in the full package price are:

Marvel Ultimate Alliance/Forza 2

Mass Effect

Army of Two

Devil May Cry 4

Call of Duty 4

Lego Star Wars: The Complete Saga

Left 4 Dead

Dead Rising

Eternal Sonata

Tales of Vesperia


I'm hoping to get around $400 or so for the entire thing. If anyone is interested, send me a note and we'll chat :3

Stolen from  lunadarkgoddess She's awesome, go watch her now!!!

1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13) Would you meet up with me?

Stolen from the very wonderful, cute, and awesome  thelapdragon

1) I fall in love very easily.

2) I haven't had a relationship last more than 5 months.

3) I eat hotdogs with Mayo and Katchup with cheese sprinkled on the top.

4) I don't drink much water.

5) I live with 6 other furs in a 3 bedroom condo.

6) I have a room all to myself.

7) I love to sing along with my favorite Rock songs.

8) I was a big supporter of Dragonforce before Guitar Hero 3.

9) I have a secret soft spot for bands like Nickelback.

10) I hate Twilight and everything it stands for.

11) Even though its kinda considered part of my job, I enjoy playing Toontown.

12) I have a HUGE crush on  haiku /  cardboardcastles

13) Twix are my favorite candy bar. Yes this includes the Peanut Butter kind.

14) I've been called a hacker on The Furry Pound servers as a Heavy.

15) I've been banned from 3 different non-furry TF2 servers while sniping.

16) I have an adultery fetish. Though its more of a "story" fetish then something I'd actually do.

17) I tend to have very fucked up dreams.

18) I can become very vengeful when someone messes with my friends/loved ones.

19) I once almost lifted my 400+ pound father over my head when I was younger while we were fighting, in an adrenaline fueled rage.

20) I love Avatar: The Last Airbender.

21) My favorite superhero, which has been the same ever since I was a kid, is Iron Man.

22) I've had sex in the back of a car.

23) I have a Pet in real life. Her name is Smoke. I love my woragon.

24) Renamon porn was the first "furry" porn I ever saw.

25) My current job has lasted longer than any I've had in the past.

There. Now you know more about me. And knowing is half the battle :D

I MUST HAVE THEM!!!! Yes yes, if you can't tell by my MSN display name those who have me on their MSN, I just got Left 4 Dead for my 360 a few days ago, and the game is AWESOME on sooooooooooo many levels. If you happen to have it, let me know!! My gamertag is my name, Zariss. We should definately get together and blow away some zombies :3

That's right, while FA was down, I turned 22 on the 24th of July. My dad got me a new 8gig Black Nano, my grandparents got me a funny shirt and $10, my brother burned me all 3 seasons of Doctor Who, starting with the end of Eccleston through Tennant *swoons at how cute Tennant is*, and I still haven't received anything from my mother yet because she's in a bit of financial bind, as am I.

So here's the general update with me: I've got until October to either get a second job or find a roomate in the Portland/Beaverton area of Oregon, otherwise I'm going to be thrown out onto the street. So anyone who lives in that area and is also looking for a roommate, PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!! Other than that, things have been just blah. Lots of drama between ex friends and on CS:S, constant bitching about saving money, hanging out with my brother, etc.

So yeah, that's what was missed pretty much with me :3

This just in!!! Disturbed's new album, Indestructible, is finally out. So head on over to your local record store, iTunes, or whatever else you use to get your music and get it NOW!!! I downloaded the entire album off iTunes yesterday and it fracking ROCKS!!! IMHO Best songs: Indestructible, Inside The Fire, Perfect Insanity, Enough, Torn, Criminal, and Facade. Eh, screw it, I love every song on the album. So yeah, go forth and enjoy the ROCK!!!

m/ -.- m/

So yeah, haven't been around lately because a lot of things have just gone wrong within the past week or so...On Friday of last week, not yesterday the 16th but the 9th, my cell phone battery went out and I plugged it in to charge it, only to find that the charging port on the phone had been pulled loose so I had to call my phone insurance company and get a new one sent, but they were out of my specific model of phone so they sent one that is somewhat like it. Its much more thin, has a tiny QWERTY keyboard compared to my previous one, and I feel like I could break it if I close it too hard x.x

Then on Monday I was in the middle of chatting with some friends on Second Life when I get a BSOD on my computer that says "KERNEL_STACK_INTERNAL_ERROR". After that my computer wouldn't get past the Windows loading screen, as it would flash up a BSOD then restart itself. So I took it to the nearest Best Buy to have them look at it. I called them today and it turns out my Hard Drive is kaput. That means I've got to find my WoW install disks, reinstall WoW, iTunes, Second Life, Steam, all my Steam Games, AND that I've lost about oh...5gigs of music...So yeah, gonna cost me probably another 150 to 200 dollars to replace my hard drive and another 300+ to buy a new Windows XP OS since I don't know what happened to the one I got when I first put my computer together x.x

So basically I'm bored senseless with nothing to do except my 360 which I can't do for more than a few hours a time before I get bored with the game I'm playing or get frustraited at the fact that I can shoot someone in the head 10 times on CoD4 and they live while I get shot once and die x.x Anywho, don't expect to see too much of me around unless you have me on MSN, AIM, or Yahoo, since I can get on those on my phone.

Do you own an Xbox 360? Do you currently have a subscription to Xbox Live? Do you own Halo 3, Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare, or Army of Two? If so, ADD ME!!!

Gamertag: Zariss

I JUST got Army of Two today, and finished up my last day of work at my, now, old job. So yes, today is awesome so far :B