Welp, this is certainly something huh? Last time I did this was 3 years ago when we had a big ol' Pandemic that happened...quite something am I right?

Anyway, I am just putting this here because I figured as I barely upload any commissions I get, I will just put a little mental musing to show I am still around.

So, what happened to me over the last 3 years since we had COVID-19 running amok across the entire world? Welp, I am gonna give a short overview of my life from 2020-2023.

2020: Coming off the back of a horrendous end to 2019 (got fired from my job because I got sick and missed 3 weeks of work, couldn't appeal as I was a temp), 2020 started pretty steady, surprisingly couldn't find work for a little bit and COVID numbers were getting hella-scary, then lockdown happened etc. etc.
This is where, rather unexpectedly, I found work in the form of working on behalf of the NHS on the COVID-19 Test & Trace program...which was actually very neat as I was working from home and calling people to stay at home...you get the picture.
I was supposed to be moving to the US in 2020, but that shit backfired for obvious reasons.

2021: Very strange year but probably the most eventful (before 2022 of course), not much was really happening in the early stages of 2021, apart from the fact I moved to Stockton-on-Tees with a roommate in January, in heavy snow...with a car I bought with my brother driving it. XD
Fast forward a little bit, things were looking up, still working from home and doing Test & Trace on behalf of NHS...this is where it got tricky because I was supposed to start driving lessons in the UK and get my ass on the road, but that backfired too as my car failed my MOT big time...so now I have car that had to be forced off the road for the foreseeable future which sucks.
With some help from my roommate, I ended up purchasing a moped, a really sweet little Honda who I dubbed Gem, back in July 2021...I owned her for 5 weeks...then one fateful day, I parked her up at McDonald's to get myself lunch while doing Deliveroo jobs to earn extra cash...she gets stolen right under my fucking nose.
I was beside myself..I lost her along with my gloves and even the key to my off-the-road car;
3 days later, I get sent messages on Facebook from someone I didn't know, they tell me that they've seen my moped and they've seen videos of it being ridden by 3 or 4 youths...which was sent to me and it was ON TIKTOK OF ALL PLACES.
I still have those videos, I ain't deleting them.
Pressing swiftly on, I see the videos and then I see the last one...yep, confirmed, the thieving little scumbags torched her...fucking disgusting.

Once that was done, that set me back a huge amount, so I had to pick myself up and go again...so I did...but I was struggling to find work after leaving the T&T program due to the changes in the work systems causing rifts everywhere, so I backed out of it.
Roll on late 2021. This is the part where I finally got to see my brother get married to his long-term girlfriend of approximately 20 years (They were together in Secondary School) in Italy of all places...it was absolutely amazing and unforgettable.
After many issues with job hunting and that I had no major income, I decided to move back to Essex to live with my Mum at least temporarily until I get my life back on track.
It felt good to end 2021 on a high instead of a low that happened throughout the year...and oh yeah, my car got broken into while I was on holiday too...thankfully nothing was stolen cause there was fuck all in there to begin with lmao.
All-in-all 2021 was pretty crazy and very erratic. Now for 2022.

2022: January...what a crazy month...I told a few friends what I was going through and a very lovely person (who I will not name) stepped forward and donated a big sum of money to me...cause of all the shit I had been through...I didn't know what to say...It helped me pay off a lot of my lingering debts and...I bought my plane ticket to the US...right there and then...December 1st 2022 I was finally doing it, my move to the USA was on...

All throughout 2022 was the buildup to me moving, holy frick I couldn't believe it was happening, neither could my boyfriend Laeos...when I broke news to him, he told me he damn near screamed so loud that his roommates thought he was being murdered o.o

I was working for a go-kart place up until I moved...and wow...I can't believe it...but on December 1st at around 11:50pm EST, I landed at Huntington Tri-State Airport...where I finally saw Lae and his best friend Corey who drove him to us at around 12:20am...I honestly couldn't believe it... 13 years in the making...

And here I am today, working for Sheetz as an American citizen...but born a Brit. ^^

Hey all! Just letting you know that I have a Twitch account that I stream on almost everyday! Feel free to stop by and give us a follow!

www.twitch.tv/rk9motorsportzarr <==========

So, big news coming out of the Sergal's bank of information!

I am on the move and I am leaving the UK in the Summer, ETA July at the latest to live with my mate and before you ask, yes, I have a way of living out there without the worry of applying for a Visa as I am of US decent on my mom's side, so it'll make it a million times easier for me to live out there.

That's all there is to it, this begins a new chapter in my life and I really hope it goes better than what it's been for me recently, I am going to miss my family of course and I am going to miss all my friends here but I need a new start and this will do me the world of good.

Zarr out~

Hey friends and followers!

Wanted to post a quick journal and say Merry Christmas to you all, hope you all have a good one!

And a Happy New Year to you all too!

So this happened...


I managed to move in with my mom back in my hometown and within less than a week of doing so, I managed to achieve a couple of things.

1. I scored an interview with the supermarket chain Tesco, considered multinational but an internationally recognized brand.
2. The interview went well, they offered me a work trial to see if I can adapt quickly to the role they listed.
3. I attend the work trial, I get incredibly positive feedback from the team I worked with and the manager was impressed by my attitude and how I conducted myself, he quickly offered me employment at his store which has me ABSOLUTELY ECSTATIC!
4. I attended the induction today, which means I am now a fully fledged employee at Tesco!

This was the quickest turnaround for a job I have had ever and I couldn't be more happier, here's to a brighter future!

Zarrcanine out~

So, after 9 months of living on the South Devon coast in the UK, I have to move back to Essex or the foreseeable future due to lack of work in the area as well as family concerns.

It's been great here and I am gonna miss this place, but obviously family is more important and I have to take it upon myself to get this rectified, perhaps I will end up finding work back in my hometown again, but here's hoping.

I got a lot of stuff to take with me, so here goes nothing! My move date is around next week depending on trains and prices.

So, I moved from Essex to Devon a few months back.

That is all!

P.S I needed to get rid of the cruddy journal at the top of my page.

>.>

It feels almost surreal...but it's happened again, our other pet dog Bobby-Lou has sadly been put down today due to severe arthritis in his lower spine, causing the bones in his lower spine to fuse together, causing him some incredibly severe pain, so we had no choice...thank you Bobby for all of your love you utterly handsome dog...you will always be in our hearts forever...now with your two best friends up in heaven now...Richard and Bailey, please keep him safe...he's got his wings and his halo...forever an Angel, forever ours...I love you and miss you...sweet Bobby bear...

Yep, I turned 24 today! :D

Good evening everyone,

This may seem like an odd subject to make a journal on, but it's actually a very special date, today marks the 7 year anniversary of my loving soulmate  kyuubieclipse1

You have always been the one for me, since day one, you are truly amazing and I would be nothing without you in my life, it's only a matter of time before I finally move to the States, you're my everything and I will always have you in my life, the reason I chose this date for us to be in a relationship is because I didn't want to forget as it also falls on the same date as my mother's birthday.

This is just a small journal to say basically, I love you Laeos...forever my fox... <3

Last Journal was a downer, so here's a brighter one!

I love everyone.

That is all.

Even me, there is a certain person who I shall not name that has started something that should not have started, but they still did, now I am not known to be the type to get revenge, but this.. "person" pushed all the right buttons, you know who you are, and be warned, I have a sword for a tongue that no-one has encountered yet.

You have been blacklisted...watch your back...because you'll never see it coming, bitch.. ^^

I have started a new Youtube channel dedicated to classic/retro games from the PS2 era and games from pre 2010, it's furry orientated too, so if this interests you, here's the link to it!

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR.....bDiIAJAGe3dccA

It's going great! I am starting to feel like all this exercise is starting to pay off, I am feeling good about myself and I am looking forward to the next time me and my mate go out again to exercise, also, a quick note, me and him will be in our own 6-a-side soccer team this coming fortnight, so yes, we'll most likely be dead the first time out, but hey, it'll get us fitter than ever! Woooo! :D

As the subject says, I am going to attempt at getting fitter along side my other half, finished round two of this fitness regime, as I had started this yesterday, hopefully, I can lose this beer gut I seem to have! Lol.

Grim title but it's the truth, however, people have been helping me out and I am extremely thankful to everyone who has helped me in my time of need, including  kyuubieclipse1  floogle_mutt

There has been other people who have been helping me outside of FA, but this has been really helpful and thankfully, my unemployment money is also helping too, but I still need all the help I can get.

I will be around, but not nearly as often.

As the subject suggests, I'm done, not with being a furry, but with furry artists who don't do commissions after I have waited and been a very patient guy for the best part of 7 or so months, he has had his commission status available this whole time, hell, I have noted him several times, nothing, he completely blanks me and does commissions for everyone fucking else...so I have had it with him, I told it to him straight on Skype how I felt about this, he has lost a friend on there and a watcher on here.

As the title says..my black Labrador cross Bailey, has passed away today, he was 16 and a half years old roughly and has been in our family 15 of those lovely years..he has seen me through virtually all of my childhood and teenage years...now you're in a better place, they reckon he had a form of cancer but we're not sure..all we know is that he is now in doggy heaven and with my Step-father, re-acquainted once again.. We love you and miss you tons.. xxxx

Well hello to all you furry fluffies! I thought you should all know that I am back online, my laptop has been reformatted and I have an external monitor so I can see what I am doing now! Yay! Did you miss me? X3

Anyway, I thought you all should know that I will be on here a lot more often, perhaps more so when I get a a newer laptop that I can actually put on my lap xD

Well I bet you're all wondering why I haven't been around recently, it's because my laptop screen is cracked so I cannot see the lower half of the screen.. in addition to this, my laptop has decided to put a password on it so I cannot accsess the laptop at all... and due to this, I cannot see anything when I try a reformat... so that's that gone.

I will be on seldomly until my laptop is alive once more.

Extremely depressed and on the verge of suicide, my benefits have all been stopped and there's not a damn thing I can do about it for a month, if my appeal does not get overturned, I will have to suffer 3 months of no money...and I am guessing the majority of that will be spent homeless because my mom cannot afford to keep me and my boyfriend  dalmationboi under her roof, we have tried EVERYTHING under the sun to get help in this matter and no-one will help us...I'm disgusted and utterly depressed...

Well, this is the grim reality of this folks, as much as I loathe being a charity, I will be having to accept donations for the sheer fact that I am pretty much completely out of money, even the benefits I receive is not cutting the surface of how much debts I have to pay out virtually every month..and it seems every time I pay off a major debt collector, another one suddenly appears, ripping me back down to Earth..I hate it so much knowing that even with the little money I get, it goes straight on the upkeep of debts...and the fact that one of my two debit cards is in a huge overdrawn amount, they won't stop putting on charges...and I have told them to freeze that card until I provide them with a sheet that shows my incomings and outgoings...

At the moment, my debt standings are currently at an approximate reading of £420 ($625), yes it doesn't seem like a lot of money to most of you, but it is to me..my upbringing has been of a poor background so you can understand if you have been in the same situation as me, you can gather that this is a lot of cash...

But, if you feel like I deserve donations, my paypal is Mcolbourn92[at]gmail.com

So, yes, I have returned! This time, I plan on staying for good, because I have grown to realize that the person I refuse to name is in the dirt and thank fuck he is! Hehe, now, I will make this my main account for good and I shall live by Zarr the Werewolf.

Well, this account is now accessible, but you all know where to find me...