Alright, I know I do this a lot, and I'm sorry

Work has been super hectic and leaving me with no time to draw or anything, and because of it, I have also been drained of motivation & whatnot to actually do art. Thankfully things have slowed down a bit, and also thankfully, I was able to get myself a new laptop in order to do better work and better streams

So with that, I'm going to try to be a little more consistent with my artwork and try to find a way to make art exciting & fun for me again.

Though I think what would help is knowing what all of you would be excited to see from me. Fanart? OCs? PWYW? Commission sales? NSFW? More storytelling in my work? WIPs?

Any feedback is heavily appreciated and will be considered.

I just want to make you guys happy

Aw geez, I'm horrible at keeping active.

I should probably explain where I've been and why I haven't been posting very much.

In a nutshell, work has been crazy busy, stressful, and demanding, and I haven't been in the best place mentally for a good while. This has lead me to be pretty exhausted when I come home and just try to relax as best as I can.

... And I may have gotten a Steam account >//w//>;;

I've been doing a lot of sketching here & there, but I haven't really been finishing very many things past that. I've also been doing some drawing "classes" on Pixelovely and gestures on Posemaniacs to keep myself on track at least with just drawing too, but nothing really finishable.

I mean, there's a few things I'm trying to get done, but don't tell anyone, it's supposed to be a secret!

But the main purpose of this journal is to ask,

What is it that you want to see from me?

I know I made a poll on this, sort of, but I want to know in a general sense what you would like to see. Sketch dumps? Rough works? Coloured sketches? Inks? Flats? Finished pictures?

Also, what kind of subject matter would you like to see?

How often would you like to see art from me, too? I need to set a schedule of uploading things. It's been far too long. I tried in January to post something at least once a week with my deadline being on Friday. Would this sort of schedule work for you?

Thanks so much, I hope all of this makes sense!

Remember when I wasn't garbage at keeping my profiles updated?

Yeah, me either =//v//=

Sorry, everyone, things have been kinda bad for me in regards to my emotional health, time management, and motivation for the past like month or so, so I've barely been drawing or anything

Thankfully, things are getting a little better for me, so I'm hoping to have new art done soon!

Anyone waiting on a commission, I'm so so sorry about all of this! I will get you your confirmation proofs or invoices as soon as I can!

Literally overnight I got a bunch of new watchers o//A//o;;

H-hello everyone! How are you doing?

Wh-where did you come from?

Deleted a ton of submissions I don't wanna look at anymore

Also gonna stream later if anyone's interested

Hey guys, bad news.

My netbook's hard drive finally conked out. The thing beeps at me, and when I try to boot up the computer, it tells me it can't find the boot device. I'm pretty sure I lost all of my files aside from what was synced to Google Drive and Dropbox prior, which unfortunately, was quite a few drawings.

So I can't make art now, meaning commissions will be closed until further notice. This also means that I don't really have a way of making money at the moment, so I'm kind of freaking out about bills. Hopefully I, at the very least, find part time work somewhere.

I will still be here to check messages. I have a flash drive with Xubuntu on it and have been using that to at least access browsers and use Skype. It unfortunately doesn't have nearly the capacity to allow me to make art, and with Linux having practically no compatibility with the programs I use, there's no chance I'll be able to make anything for a while.

If you guys have any suggestions for anything regarding this situation, please let me know. I'd really appreciate it; I don't know what to do right now.

First & foremost, happy Bunny Day.

I really wanted to make a picture of my three buns being cute together, but I haven't had the time to make it.

Also sorry for not posting much in forever. I've been trying to make more art and be motivated and excited but frankly, because my workstation is painful to work in, I seem to have related digital art to being uncomfortable and having back pains.

I wish my posting schedule could be more frequent, but at this point, I don't know what I can do about that.

I hope you guys understand.

I'm hoping I'll be able to get myself a proper desk & chair soon and get back to making good art much much more frequently.

Hey everyone!

Sorry that I haven't been uploading much for the past few days ;A; I've been playing Monster Hunter Things have been kind of busy. I'm going to try my best to have something to upload for tomorrow!

I should make myself some kind of schedule for commission work, personal work, and studies

See you tomorrow!

So for anyone out of the loop, this has been happening.

And now that it's the end of the month, I have good news and bad news.

The bad news is that I have made a little over a fourth of what I initially needed.

The good news is that the student loans department put me on a repayment assistance program where I don't have to pay them for six months with no interest, cutting my billing down by about $130. I also have some commissions that are awaiting their payments to be processed by Paypal. I also applied at a pet store as a cashier, and my best friend, being a manager, reviewed my application and told me that I have a really good change of getting the job.

I have been able to pay most of my expenses, aside from my phone bill, which is due on March 12, and a bus pass, so this emergency status is going to be continuing until then.

I can't thank you all enough for helping advertise and allowing me to make art for you. I'm so grateful ;u;

Later on tonight, I'm going to be doing a pay-what-you-want stream for sketches of all sorts. I'd love if some of you could come even to just hang out c:

Hey guys, quick update and a small question.

So, it's been nearly a week, and I've only gotten one buyer. I'm getting kind of worried; I don't have much of any other way to make money right now.

So to try to get people interested, I want to make a bunch of fanart. Are there any series that you guys would like to see me draw? I'm thinking My Little Pony, Legend of Korra, K-ON, Ruby Gloom, maybe Chobits...

Do you guys have any ideas? Even better: Do you have any ideas that will help me find buyers? I've done advertisement on Tumblr, I've posted on FurAffinity, I've submitted the sheet to around 36 groups successfully, I've talked about it to people on Skype.. I'm not sure what to do. I'm scared.

My sheet for reference:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15777864/

Thanks, I really appreciate the help!

Hey guys!

I hope some of you remember me. I'm back, after months & months of inactivity!

Let me give you some quick info on what's been going on.

I finished college and tried my best to find work, and ended up settling for a call centre. For about three weeks. An opening for a graphic designer at a print shop was posted, however, once I was done my training at the call centre. I brought in my resume and got it! I was so happy.

Things got bad there though. I was constantly yelled at, it was far more stressful than it needed to be, and my anxiety & depression were getting worse by the day. I left every day miserable.

Roll forward into December, where our large format printer broke down. Three weeks prior, a metre stick was sitting inside, leaving it inoperable. I took it out, and it was working fine, so I didn't think anything of it or to tell anyone about it. Because of this, my boss blamed me for the machine breaking down, saying that the situation was like a child hiding something from their parents because they would get in trouble, when I didn't even know that it was a big deal or would lead to the machine breaking down in the first place. That was the last straw for me, and I quit by Christmas.

However, I didn't realize that finding work would be impossible. My friend tried to get me a job at a coffee shop, but it didn't end up working out, and now, still looking for work, I'm desperately struggling to pay bills and eat.

And with that, I'll be opening commissions today! I'll be posting my sheet pretty soon. If you're not able to buy one, I'd really appreciate if you shared it with your friends.

On a lighter note, I have three new pictures I'll be uploading for you guys!

I'll keep you posted on how things are going.

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
Question to discuss:
Debate god's existance|
You: I don't know, humans are too small a species to know whether it may or may not exist
You: Really I don't care
You: If it does it does, if not it doesn't, whatever
Stranger: So
Stranger: If you don't care
Stranger: Does that mean, in theory, you wouldn't mind going to hell
You: Just because a god may exist doesn't mean punishment after life exists
You: It's just a theory that's given to all religion as punishment for being a prick
Stranger: Fair enough, in this context.
You: God in itself is its own thing with no attachment to any sort of hell
Stranger: So, with this question, there is no possible outcome.
You: It really depends on the intelligence of both parties and their stances, this debate could go on for hours between a strong atheist and a devote catholic
Stranger: Say, Evolutionists are correct, with all theories of the age of the earth, and evolution. A god can still exist, but with no active influence
You: Exactly
You: The way I see it
You: If God really does exist, he abandoned us a long time ago, as if we were a sketch in his sketchbook that he just didn't like how it was turning out
You: Perhaps it created a new project that became much better and we'd never know
Stranger: Possibly, or, simple a project of sorts
Stranger: Yes
You: Maybe we were a beta for some sort of greater creation, lol
Stranger: Heh
You: Then when the whole 12/21/2012 happens we just get a note in the mail about it or on the news or something
You: Honestly I'd love that
Stranger: That would be pretty cool.
You: "Lol sorry guys you were all just practice"
You: Then videos are sent in with this amazing world he created
Stranger: Yeah
You: LOL If god centered the world he made around anime and he ended up being the biggest weeaboo that ever existed XD
Stranger: Ahahah
You: >w> At the end there he does the generic peace, a little heart comes out of his face "Oyasumi~! <3"
Stranger: L :{ } L
You: Dude I wanna see this happen XD
You: Best creator ever
Stranger: Jelly of the release version of earth though
You: XD!
You: His little world needs to get their version subbed, takes a few centuries
Stranger: Haha
Stranger: Next ep coming out next millenium
You: XD;; Aw, we'd all miss it!
You: What if the story was enticing?
Stranger: :p
You: Lol, what story, it'd just be one of those ads for taking a vacation somewhere
Stranger: Haha
You: Aw it'd be great if there was one though, but what would it be about
Stranger: Uuuuhm
Stranger: >.>
You: Generic love story go
Stranger: No idea
Stranger: Haha
You: Moe girl loves tsundere boy
Stranger: *Deep, epic japanese accent voice*
You: Moe girl can't be with tsundere boy because tsundere boy lives on earth
Stranger: Aw carp, I gotta go
Stranger: Glad to meet you, stranger :)
Stranger: Later <3
You: Aw, nice meeting you, this was fun
You: Bye~
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